Another interesting experience around here last night...one of those AH HA moments sorta snuck
up on me when I was least expecting it. Really good one as it turns out...I realized my own
worthiness.

Probably sounds strange...but it seems that the block I was setting up between myself and...well,
almost everything I guess, was a feeling of being unworthy. This probably all came up because
I've been thinking alot about manifesting into the physical. I mean we are supposed to be gifted
will all these super powers and mine don't seem to work...well, at least the way I thought they would.
I have this really clear mental picture of all the stuff I've been manifesting over the years, but
never collected in the physical. I can see it there, huge stack of money and a buncha other things.
I just never knew how to get it from where I could see it to the material world. Good thing I guess
on one hand, I don't have anywhere big enough to put all that money anyway. I had just come to the
decision that it was outta my hands...turned over...forget it, let it take care of itself. If it
arrived good, if not, well, it probably wasn't for my highest and best anyway. I mean I have done
some absolutely brilliant manifesting in my time that DID work...I mean look at where I am and how
I got here. Be thankful for the powers I used sucessfully, don't sweat the rest.

So it was meditation time, and I set my intention...quite...ummm...forcefully actually. I intended
to explore the concept of experiencing the consciousness of our solar system. Yeah, I know, I get
a bit out there now and then, but hey, doesn't hurt to ask...err...intend. After doing some very
serious intending I went into meditation and found myself in some whole other frame of...well, not
mind...spirit I guess. Manifesting was the very last thing I had on my mind...well, conscious mind
anyway, but that's what was up there on the screen for viewing. I tried a few times to change the
subject...but, well, you know how it is, when the higher self, or authentic self, has something to
say, you listen.

So I'm seeing this place where all my unclaimed manifestations are stored and I'm thinking on all
sorta layers at once...you know...being the observer, and the observed and the observation itself.
So I had to reel all my self(s) in and try to reach single point consciousness. I CAN do this, most
of the time, but I'm not real good at it yet, it requires real focus and effort, takes awhile. I
finally did though, switch my complete perspective to that of the observer and I used the Elohim's
suggestion to say I don't know anything about this (elohiminfo.com) and ask for assistance. That
really worked well...you guys oughtta check it out. Check out the video section here on LW most
of her videos are posted.

So, anyway, I'm having this conversation with...well, with myself, I suppose. I'm looking at all
the loot and I realize I simply don't care anymore if it arrives or not. Now, I didn't realize this
at the time. Actually I only realized it right now, as I'm typing this, but I guess what happened
was that I released an attachment I didn't even realize I had.

WELL! Didn't THAT open up a floodgate of stuff. All of a sudden I'm doing this self examination.
WHOA...attachment...I didn't know I had an attachment...how do I feel now that I don't have it?
It was like some sorta door or maybe more like a window, opened up and I could see this whole
bigger picture. It was like I was handed a copy of my sacred contract or something. Instructed
to read it, understand it...or at least the fine print regarding manifesting and abundance part
of it.

So I suddenly remembered what the contract says. When I expand my consciousness enough...when I
reach a certain level of awareness I will remember who I really am. When I do that...really do
that...feel it, live it every moment, KNOW it, I will remember that abundance was part of the deal.
Abundance, prosperity, good health, happiness, love...all good things were 'written in'. All I
had to do was remember that particular clause and make my claim.

That's where worthiness comes in. I mean I knew this already in my head...even in my heart I guess.
Universe was NOT created for limit and lack...that's something we wrote into the Earth Game rules
ourselves. However, being of Earth and caught up in the game for who knows how many incarnations
in various dimensions...I went for the okey doke. Bought into it. Played by the established rules
and believed in lack and limitation. Believed that we, mere 3D Earth Humans were not worthy of all
the riches of 'heaven'. Now don't get me wrong...I thought I knew better...but on some level I musta
been harbouring this feeling I was not quite 'up to scratch' and didn't actually deserve for
my manifestations to materialize themselves.

So I'm in meditation and I get this message...birthright. Birthright. OK, like an inheritence.
When I reach a certain...ummm...not age, consciousness level perhaps?...I will receive my birthright
which is abundance. I immediately started falling back into feelings of who me? I'm not worthy,
I don't deserve it, I haven't earned it. Very clearly I was 'told' that if I was here, in this place,
at this time, seeing what I was seeing then I had earned it and was most definitely worthy. Until I
WAS worthy, I couldn't be there or have this experience.

I was kinda hoping this experience would last longer, you know, give me some clues about what comes
next, but it didn't it just stopped there...my attention started wandering and I lost my meditative
state. Don'tcha wish that didn't happen? I mean wouldn't you secretly like to get just a peek ahead?
Yeah, I know, it's not politically correct to wanna peek at the future, be in the now and all that.

But geeze, I'm excited...I feel like there was this corridor that opened up, creating a passage way
from all the stuff I've manifested over the years to start coming in. Have to be real careful here not
to attach to the outcome.

All in good time. All in accordance with Divine plan...my new mantra.

yarra