There’s a calling…a sorta longing…that rises up inside of me sometimes.
When this happens I know something big is about to happen…or at
least something that’s important. How to describe this feeling…it’s
a little bit like missing someone or something…like feeling an empty
hole inside somewhere, as if something was gone and it left an
empty space behind it.

Most times this calling beckons me to sleep…to just lie down, get
comfy and get ready for whatever ‘movie’ is about to be shown.
The past couple of days it doesn’t seem to be working that way.
The calling is there, but I don’t sleep. Even when I arrange everything
around me so that I have the quiet and privacy to just take off to
somewhere else in Universe…I don’t sleep like I used to. The movies
are starting to be shown on the physical screen. 3D consciousness
gets to go for the ride.

Well, it doesn’t seem to work quite that easily. It’s like I have
a ticket to ride, and I’m all ready to ride, but the ride isn’t stopped
at the stop place so I can get on easily. No, it’s like the ride is
zooming around out there and I have to get myself to it, 3D consciousness
and all. Then comes the little tuning fork in my ears…setting the frequency.
It’s like hearing this steady hum of a vibrational frequency and you gotta
line your whole self up in harmony and resonance with that particular frequency.
When I can get into full resonance with that frequency, feel my
whole physical body vibrating at that frequency, that’s when the
Big Self becomes available. The other day I moved through planetary
consciousness…saw myself merge with and become one with the spirit/
being that IS Mother Earth, the Goddess. I actually got it to the point
where I could ‘feel’ what it felt like to be in her ‘body’. That was pretty
cool, but it seemed like a re-run. I mean it was the first time my
conscious mind/brain saw the movie, but it felt like the rest of me had
already been there done that, these are just the photos…after the fact.

So I decided to take a flight of fancy out into cosmos and see if I could
feel the spirit/being of our Solar System. Eventually I did…and again
I saw a female gendered being with wings, big like Mother Earth, glowing
like her, but the Solar System was all white and silver light, where Mother
Earth was golden. So I’m getting all excited here, yipeeee…I
can connect with the energies of the Planet and the Solar System, let’s
go for galactic consciousness. Nope. Blank wall there. I mean I could
get myself into the Solar System’s perspective, see through her eyes,
but even then it was too big to even begin to comprehend…so far.

Now it seems to me that the plan…the overall plan here…is for humanity
to reach Universal Consciousness in time for mass ascension, either Oct.
28, 2011 or Dec. 21, 2012. I’m just barely remembering planetary
consciousness…am I gonna be ready in time? What if I’m not?

Suppose there’s gonna be this huge, major shift…everyone will move
along to somewhere…depending on their level of conscious awareness
and individual will. Maybe there isn’t gonna be just one New Earth.
Maybe New Earth is gonna come in layers. Well, she already sorta
does…I mean some folks believe there is an Inner Earth…and most of
us agree that the Ascended Masters, Angels and ETs are out there
on some other dimension we can’t see from here. Why not just add
a bunch more layers, everyone gets to choose their layer…and everyone
is happy.

The folks who like the current game can just continue on with it. Those
who have planetary consciousness will move along to one layer of New
Earth and be the stewards…the caretakers of the material world.
Do all the right things to supply humanity’s needs without having to
rape and pillage her physical being. Then perhaps the next layer can
be for the shamans and healers and magic workers. They can be the
ones who serve as interface between 3D and the higher dimensions.
Perhaps being the Ascended Ones to them. Then there’s a layer where
all the ET activity takes place…and one for folks that want to spend their
time dancing the higher dimensions. Step right up. Book your seat.

Now I’m not sure our 3D personality selves get to make the travel plans
here. I think that would be waaaaay limiting our possibilities. Gotta
know when to park 3D and allow yourself to BE in the higher Ds. We
just make more informed decisions from there. Me, I’d choose the
airy faerie option…do some serious dimension dancing…explore the
Universe…stick my nose into EVERY thing. I have a feeling it doesn’t
work that way though. I think our sacred contracts are probably
pretty clear on what comes next…what we planned for ourselves.
I guess that’s why the 3D personality self isn’t a good choice to drive,
it has NO clue where we are going next…bound to get sidetracked…
lose focus…and eventually get pissed off. Well, perhaps impatient is
a nicer word for it. Actually we may not even get to voice a preference,
we may just wake up the morning after the mass ascension and find ourselves
wherever we are meant to be. Surprise! Here we are! There might just be some
sorta special contract clause that created a loop hole…just in case ego got antsy
and wanted to start talking about free will. A one time only waiver?

Ya know, I’m always looking for Zaps and AH HAs but I’m thinking I
might need to turn down the light/info volume for awhile…I don’t seem
to be able to turn it off. Well, I don’t want to turn it off, but it would
be nice if it just came in softly and sweetly and suddenly I’d realize
it’s there…but OH NO…I gotta analyse, pick everything apart…how
does THIS work?

I do miss the sleeping. Just astralling on outta here. I always wished
my conscious mind could go with…you know, remember it all when I got
back…maybe…with a giant stretch of luck…even understand it. Careful
what you wish for. 3D mind is heavy…I mean really heavy…it’s hard to
get off the ground when you’re taking it with you. That's 3D...really
dense and heavy and always draging the bloody chain.

Maybe that’s why I saw wings on Mother Earth and Solar System. To
remind me that I have wings…and can use them? Great…now all I gotta
do is remember where I left the instruction booklet.

yarra