First of all I would like to thank Mike Merch because of him I would not write this blog.
Thank you Mike again for believing in myself :-D.

Here is my story…
I was born in Slovakia. My parents were poor, my mother had to work really hard and my father was just enjoying life. He did not loved me. I was first born. When my sister was born all the attention went to her not to me. I had eczema very badly, I had bad grades and I was always outside, playing with friends and enjoying the nature. I was definitely not the perfect child. I was playful and a dreamer.
When I got older my mother had to leave to Germany for work as in Slovakia there was nothing.
My father stayed at home, doing nothing much. He beaten me up , as he did not liked me.
I was afraid, but still enjoying my childhood. My eczema became so bad that I had to stay for 3 months in the hospital to recover. I looked like a mummy. Although it was so bad, again I enjoyed this period.

At the age of 13 my mother told me she was going to divorce. I was so happy that I can still easily recall this memory. We were moving to Holland to my new father. My only thought was why? I was happy in Slovakia despite of my father.
When we said goodbye to each other, I knew he did not loved me. I too did not.
In Holland everything looked like an fairytale. Expect there were no mountains and beautiful forests such as in Slovakia.
New life, new me. I lost my freedom, I lost my friends, I lost the nature.
The new life was full of boundaries, rules and facts about how we should be and think.
As I was dreamer, I was always dreaming about doing this and that. Most of time I wanted to do something creative or with the nature. I was told that something like that, you have to do from childhood, talent is requested and intelligence. In difference words nothing for me.

At the age of 14 I was suddenly interested in mans, I was rebellion against my parents and started to act old. At school I was not the smartest because I had to learn a whole new language.
I did not care that much. I was running away from home. I wanted to commit suicide because of all the rules and expectations of me.
Finally I began to study recreation. I did not had to do that much for school. Just one week or two days before the exam I started to learn, although I always fell in sleep behind my study books as usual :-D. With school, part-time job came, new habits such as alcohol and smoking cigarettes arises.

In Cyprus my awakening slowly began. I was 22 years old.
I was always wondering that there must be more in life, then only work. Those were the 6 months of crying but also enjoying the freedom. When I came back to Holland I was arguing with my parents because I wanted to live on my own and study further. After a lot of fights I had my own place.
I started to study hotel management in English. A higher level of education then the previous school. I had to study, because the world asked of me to be something, otherwise I would be seen as a pretty, funny but stupid girl. During my education I was dreaming as usually about different things as being free, true love, happiness, no boundaries, no rules, no power. I always believed in fairytales. All my life, till now.
Every 6 weeks we had to learn thousand pages, learn 4 languages, write essays, be present at school, work for our money (as my small room costs 400 euro), be with parents, friends, boyfriend, cook, etc. No time for my own development.
My only thought was, is this how life should be? Stress, stress, stress, must, must, must, only expectations of us?
I often became sick, I was unhappy.
My own family did not believed that I was smart enough for this level. At the end of the first school year I had all my grades, with pain and tears received as I was having stomach problems. (I had a 15cm cyst in my womb, I did not know)
I made it..that is what I though. But we had an assessment to go. They told me that I could not explain clearly how and what I have learned during school. I truly could not explain properly how I learned every subject. I was not a talker with strangers in suits...
So goodbye school. I became depressed because my health worsen, as I had to be operated.
I started to use soft narcotics, I did not wanted to meet people or my parents because I could never talk with them about my dreams and things that I wanted to do. They said there is no money in it, it is nothing for you, you have no talent…I even wrote a poetry for them how I felt. They said I copied it from Internet.
My own parents did not believed in what I could do or be. I was never going to travel, I was never smart enough, I just was not as the other sisters….

New education, nightmares, sleeping with light on. My first contact with a ghost or an angel.
I decided that this is not the way I want to live. I want to develop myself, just be the real me.
Make my dreams come true. I went to a hypnotherapyst.
I quit study and moved to my boyfriend which truly understand and loves me. My dream of love came true. But still I was lost, so unhappy till 6 months ago.
I started to read the books “conversations with God’’. Then reconnection. Strange things started to happen with my body.
Once the energy hit me very badly. My head was burning of new energy which went down to my feet’s, I was shaking and freezing at the same time. I thought I was going to die as I was afraid of the pain of the death. I just had too much pain in my life, but still I always have believed in fairy tales and better world. I have always believed in love and peace, I always wanted to help the world and heal it.

I started to wake up during the night, three times the number 333 reveled to me.
I started to read more. Step for step I started to understand why I was unhappy.
I was searching for the truth of life. I was searching for home, my father of all, love, acceptance, forgiveness, happiness, understatement.

I am just 7 weeks a member of lightworkers but it seems like this all information is so familiar and logical, like I have always knew the truth.
I can receive the energy in my hands and work with it already a little.
I can also see the energy and different light in the air. The most surprising of all is that I discovered that there are truly angels that are helping us. They have visited me in my sleep and spoke to me (microphone sound) and now I can see them in light form, vibrating and flickering with their lights.
When I am talking to them, they get closer to let me know that they are here to listen,forgive, to help, to heal and to love. I can also feel them and touch them.

I now understand that being forgiven is so powerful as I did it to many people who hurt my human me. Wow it is such a powerful feeling of release, joy and love for the other person.
I too have hurt therefore I hope they will forgive me too.

I now understand, how to understand and feel with others as I have done everything what mankind has forbidden (has seen bad).
But I had also the opportunity to grow up in the nature, with love, never stop dreaming and believing. There was always a part of me who said there is more.
(Do not get me wrong about my family. I love them, they just think differently)

I now understand that once you have found the true purpose of life, you do not need to smoke, use alcohol, narcotics, need for a lot of money, medicine and other things. I quit with everything. I have never felt better in my life. I just do not need it anymore.

I now understand that I just have to be. I now understand that I had to go through this journey to understand the human kind. Their fears, their hate, their worries, their addictions, their war, their feelings for power, their greed, their pain, their weight problems, their impatience, their stress, their sicknesses, their dreams, their hope, their faith, their love, their beauty, their tolerance, their whole being. I now understand because I was everything.

I know that I know that I am a childlike souls, playful, loving, curious, easily believing. For me there is no evil anymore, only in our minds.

I am here to listen, understand, make you smile, love, help and just be the silly me which I have always been. Just dare to dream.
I believe in happy endings.

I have no regrets, I have no shame. I am everything and everything is me.
There is only light within us, it just has to be woken up.

Love and light to you all,

Lucia