WHOA!! How's THIS for an energy Zap? Geeze, my head is spinning. I can't turn
my thoughts off. Normally I'm a 'Zap junkie'. I live for it...love it...can't
get enough. This time I'm thinking I might just get off this ride...go hop
on the carousel...listen to pretty music... and ride around in circles for awhile.
Maybe eat some cotton candy. Take a break.

3AM wake up calls every day. Waking up in the morning...middle of the night kinda
morning...feeling more tired than when I went to bed. Can't even think about taking
a nap...sleep is a rare commodity. I feel like a termite, like I could eat my way
through just about anything. Then...when there's a meal in front of me I don't want it.
Give the woman chocolate. My body must be hanging out for endorphines or something,
nothing else appeals.

I'm thinking when we make the rules for New Earth we oughtta make this a whole lot easier
next time around. I mean if we are the creators...let's plan on a much more relaxed next
ascension. Maybe we could do it while on a nice cruise somewhere in tropical seas...visit
interesting places and be totally looked after. Heck, we might be able to cruise some tropical
Universe.

I dunno about you guys, but I reckon somebody oughtta do an adjustment on the Zap-o-meter,
before we short ourselves out. I'm thinking that this is the last 'linear time' night in the Sixth
Day...tomorrow we move into Sixth Night...and that's what's behind all these incredible
energies zooming around the place. I sure hope this is some sorta transitional energy, and it
isn't going to be how it is from now on...I'm not sure I can handle this on a full time basis.

It feels like I've reached some special place in my path that calls for some sorta action
on my part...but I cannot figure out what the heck that action is supposed to be. It's like I'm
ready to take this big and important step...but I gotta do it in blind faith. Take one of those
famous leaps of faith folks are always talking about. Just close my eyes and jump and know that
I cannot fail.

See...I MUST know this...I just wrote it down. I cannot fail. So what's holding me back? I've
come across quite a few references lately to effortlessness. Yeah...I will have some of that...a
double helping please...with some patience sprinkled on top.

I don't feel like I'm trying to push the river...exactly...it's more like I'm swimming upstream,
against the current, instead of relaxing and going with the flow. I'm not going anywhere...just
staying in the same place. I don't seem to know how to not do that. Knowing that I'm doing it doesn't
seem to help. Even in meditation it feels like there is this huge 'thing' I need to do...or see...
or understand, but I don't know what it is.

So here I am...wandering around, dazed and confused...feeling a bit over-Zapped...and a bit fragile.
Maybe I need to make myself one of those pointy tin foil hats...interferrence...block the Zap for
a bit. Or maybe I could just turn into Rip Van Yarraman for a couple of days...go to sleep. Give
it a miss...resurface when the Zap is toned down a bit. Well, guess I oughtta head off to bed.
3AM comes really early.

yarra