I wrote this somewhere else...in Word...I was giving myself the option of not having to
post it here. I didn't really want to post it here. It's the tiniest bit discomforting.
I couldn't put a title to it. It was hard enough to type it down...so otherworldly.
But, here it is. Warts and all...as it happened...hopefully reported somewhat
objectively...well, as objectively as possible. I'm gonna go click save really quick
cause part of me really wants to not post. Editorial work/corrections to follow.

Well, this is all very interesting. Either I have finally lost the plot
completely, and drifted permanently into La La Land…OR, big stuff…
huge,major…stuff is zapping around today. If it turns out to be
option one…well, I might get carted off to the looney bin. If it’s
option 2, I’m liable to get flown outta 3D forever. My first choice
would be option 2, but I don’t think it’s actually gonna matter
too much. The final destination would be the same. Resistance
is futile. This is it…no turning back…too late to rethink. All
windows of opting out have permanently closed…that place is abandoned.
Nobody there anymore. No more tickets to anywhere else. All
sold out. This is the only game left in town. Nowhere else to
go from here. Resign yourself to the inevitable. You’re on a ship
waaaay out there in the sea…or space maybe…you CANNOT open
a side door and make your escape. This is it. We are THERE.

Been walking down that long wide corridor all these years, and now,
finally, all the side doors have been opened, explored, experienced
as required…and resolved.

* note to self:
HA…I knew there was something important about that hallway/ corridor
place…been seeing it for decades, maybe forever. I’m always part way down
the hall, opening doors, looking in…going into some, just looking in and bypassing
others. I guess I never even consciously noticed that I was getting to the end of
that hallway…now I seem to be here. Geeze, I hope this is the Akashic Hall of
Records or something…how cool would THAT be?*

I’m writing this at it unfolds…this amazing revelation…light induction…
expansion of consciousness…or whatever it is. For the first time
I find I might not wanna share this experience. I mean I’ve made it
my goal TO share everything that happens…made a commitment to
myself…and to LW I guess, to document everything I experienced
during this ascension. I DID NOT want to be one of those ones who
simply drifted away into the higher dimensions and forget to ‘phone
home’. Yet it’s all so strange…so not how I expected…I’m not sure
I want to tell. It doesn’t actually feel too personal…I mean if we are
all One…well…that’s fairly personal right there. It’s more about it’s
so grand, so amazing…so absolutely stop you dead in your tracks and
be still my beating heart…sorta amazing…I simply don’t think anyone
will believe me. I’m having a hard enough time believing it myself.
Doing hundreds of little battles with ‘spot fire’ doubts. If I don’t
get over there and snuff those babies out right away, well, they will be come
a raging inferno and I will be too distracted with putting out fires
to pay attention to my own…well, ascension I guess. It’s kinda embarrassing
to actually write that word in connection with myself…
ascension is for Jesus, Buddha, folks like that, not ordinary citizens.
Yet here I am…and it’s happening. Well, assuming of course that we
are running with option 2.

I wish I could explain how this feels…it’s like…well, hell, maybe it
isn’t like anything at all…it’s something entirely new and unknown.
I’m not even sure I can find words to describe how it feels. It’s
like you are so full of yourself you just gotta stretch out to make
room for it all. The body itself feels…ummm…expansive. Geeze I
sure hope that isn’t gonna be the way it is…I would NOT like to
physically expand…Geeze…I like being slim…I thought slim was part
of the upgrade…I’m keeping slim. No compromise on that one.

OK here’s the movies of what’s happened so far. First was this amazing
manifestation experience. Martiangirl posted a DL Zeta article about
manifesting this morning…I read it, and zoom…I was off in instant
manifestation land. Followed DL’s instructions…and TAAA DAAAA…
everything I had manifested…all that stuff that was being held in the…
ummm…pick-up department maybe…arrived. The movie saw the stuff,
the actual items I had consciously created move from that storage
place to right here inside my physical body. It sorta arrived in the
area of the heart chakra…I think there mighta been one of those
opt out windows right there, cause doubt came rushing in…but I snuffed
that out and did this gigantic surrender/accept/embrace energy thing,
Then it moved through my 3D physical body and now stands there
behind me…or in me…part of the equipment. Available to be drawn upon.

I had to go through this sorta opening up and allowing business a whole
bunch before the ‘stuff’ would move over to my current 3D now. Standing
there, like a mad woman, in front of the of the big vault where my manifestations
have been stored in waiting, beating back doubt, feelings of not being worthy, and
I spose, a bit of fear of the unknown….armed with conscious intention. HA! I wanted
to say armed with my broom but that put this whole other picture in front of me…a
side track I don’t wanna go down right now.

So the other major blockbuster playing in my head was the awareness
that I have…maybe…possibly…how can I possibly know I’m a first
timer?... be having my personal spiritual ascension into 5D or higher.
Not sure where exactly.

To be honest I can’t remember now what it was that I feared…maybe
it was just pure fear…one last and final send off from the old energy
of the old world? A kiss goodbye from our oldest teacher…fear? I
dunno. I thought something amazing would happen…bursts of lights
even fireworks. Or that I would have this really profound, Earthshaking
meditation experience and the Great Mysteries would be revealed to
me. I expected ceremony, ritual…something moderately miraculous to
mark the event.

Nope…I was sitting here, at my computer. Hubby was changing clothes,
getting ready to go to golf. And then it just happened. The big self
and the little self…my 3D body/personality self and my Universal Self
merged into one. Just like that. Hubby didn’t even notice. Nothing
happened in the 3D illusion at all…totally, completely and disappointingly
unremarkable. All of what I am is All That I AM. All the way through.
On the inside. I am new. I am reborn. I am ascended. Geeze it’s
hard to write that word about myself. I’ve always said that I believed
when it happened we’d know it…that it would be too big a thing to NOT
be aware of. I was right about that. Can I describe how it feels…no,
not entirely…it’s unexplainable in 3D language. I can tell you how I got
there…how the movies went…but there truly is no way to describe how
it feels once it happens. And every single one of us will have a completely
unique experience of it anyway. All I’m gonna say about this is that this
is MY personal experience. Yours may be totally different. You may
think I’ve gone right round the bend…too far out ‘there’. You would be
absolutely, positively 100% correct.

Come on in…it’s great in here…I can’t look around and describe what it looks
like...guess I have to give my body a chance to adapt to the new frequencies
before I start to get new movies from here. Until my 3D body senses get connected
up to the newer, faster…soul/body net?

Take what words I give here any way you like. I am not trying to wave
my own flag here. I’m not trying to be a forerunner…this is just what’s
happening in my world. I promised I’d keep sharing…even when I really
don’t feel like it. THIS is one of those times.

Oh yeah, one other thing. Maybe my little ‘ascension process’ was
a little bit more remarkable that I realized. When hubby left for
golf he said something to me that was sorta odd. He said don’t get too far
away into that…I think he called it ‘head stuff’. Hmmm…maybe
he actually felt what happened. Gotta remember to ask him
about that when he gets back later.

yarra