today the goddess has spoken to me. greatly if i must say.

i would like to know myself more. As such, i have decided to really keep a blog and make sure that i really focus on myself this year.

i think i have been extending my existence too much recently, i can no longer keep in touch with myself.

today, i have realized what i needed...

the past few weeks was confusing. with work being such an ass... my family for "sucking really bad" and well my general life to not be a happy thing...

however, the goddess was a patient mentor to me... i must admit... during those weeks, i grew close to her... even learned to call on her to help me with problems and stuff.

today in my country, we are celebrating christmas.

i must admit that i never got the "Christmas Cheer" nor did i get the "Christmas Spirit". however, the goddess has been speaking to me weeks before... the call became stronger and stronger as time passed by.

yesterday, i have realize how much of a whiner i am and how much of a drama queen i have really been.... there's so much drama in my family life that it has already affected my life perception and moreover, the way that i am performing at work!

last night,i cried myself to sleep... i was so unhappy about my life...

i could not quit work because i cannot find a new one that is almost just like it... i really love my job but i want to quit because of all the ego that goes into it... i don't know...

dear family,

i am no longer happy with my job. and although i know that a lot of other people may tell me that i should do this and that... i just want to open my heart...

i am completely and 100% unhappy with my job. i no longer want to be here. i want to be happy and i know that my happiness should start elsewhere.

hi guys! sorry i haven't posted as much.

life has been great to me. it has been a whirlwind of blessings with regards to my business.

1. we made a deal with a magazine.

2. we are about to have a fashion show on november 14 and on february 2010

3. we have two successful fashion shoots.

4. we have 18 high quality dresses produced to be sold.

i have decided to use my lightworker name... (i know to some it's cheesy but hey, indulge me okay? lol)

my lightworker name has always been Illus Ma Ra. ^^

i actually love this... it started when i was drawing in my book of light. Illustrations by Mama Rai i would always write...