VioletBlueBear's blog
Living In Between: Limbo? Anyone else feeling this?
I'm not griping or kvetching here, merely puzzled at the state of limbo I'm in. I don't feel anything: good, bad, ugly, joyous, whatever--I'm just floating through days trying to respond appropriately to people who need appropriate responses. Humor has not left, that never goes--but the whole 'happy versus 'sad' is not there.
Don't post much anymore but got a case of fear I am trying to work through
I found a relationship that fits so perfectly it's like we created it (ahem....)! And it's been going so well for two months, I'm living somewhere else entirely now--dimension or whatever. So the last week fear from past experiences is so totally KNOCKING ME AROUND. How many times do I have to experience this sense that someone I love will leave me????
Blah blah blah
Work = "Blah blah blah blah"...."he said you would"...."blah blah *&^%"..."blah blah blah"... "she said it wasn't her fault that"...."@#$!^".... "she didn't do____"... "he was supposed to______"..."blah blah blah".....WHINE.....Booooo-effing-Hoooooooo.......
Home = { }............Ahhhh.........silence....ah....
Snivel, drool, twitch, cringe....... spiritually evolve, EVENTUALLY!!!!
Message from a Praying Mantis
I ran across 3 different Praying Mantis in 2 days, and having not seen one in a few years it seemed significant. So I did a journey to see if Praying Mantis Spirit had a message for me. It was very simple and beautiful: "Stop holding time in your body."
My cat is utterly mad tonight!
She has been running for hours around the house, climbing curtains, doing things she NEVER did before. I've chased her till I can't chase her anymore (in fun). She was outside for 5 hours, doing her thing. Not sure what's happening but I suppose I'll just shut the bedroom door tonight! And of course she's fixed, could be residual hormones and she's in a heat cycle?
As more people begin to change (I hate using phrases like 'the masses' for obvious reasons)
A lovely woman who is a salesperson for a company I order food from, came in today and told me a story. She's a strong Christian, of the Evangelical sort, but as we all know by now that makes no difference in one's spirit and ability to love. She's also obviously very psychic, very empathic and intuitive.
My cat got sick suddenly
My cat suddenly got sick, I took her to the vet, she's running a 106 degree fever, she was fine this morning, they are keeping her overnight. It's the first time I've been separated from her--I'm a single woman, no children, live alone and she means so much to me. I'm completely freaking out and have no access to any sort of rationality at the moment!
David Foster Wallace hung himself
To some of us, who loved his books and what he represents, this hits hard. I might be the only one on this site who feels this way, but it's thrown me off tonight. I understand death and choice and process, I'm just mourning the books he might have written---however twisted that may seem. Send his spirit love, that's what I'll be doing tonight.
Sylvia
The Black Canyon, Colorado
Hey, any of ya'll ever been out this way? I've started enjoying the amazing energies that are available around Montrose and the Black Canyon has energy that sends me spinning.
(I finally realized I'm just NEVER going to get used to being around this many straight white people and I'd best get out by myself, far far from the maddening small town vibes and YES that includes Telluride.)
8th finger cut off nail
sorry about the typing, sliced off most of my fingernail while chopping herbs at work-- and counting from the right, it's my 8th finger
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I threw out the herbs however....
sometimes the macabre humor just takes over, forgive me......got finger wrapped up and still managed to finish cooking and serve lunch, high pain tolerance for flesh wounds come in handy.
