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14 May 2012 - 8:19pm
Dolores Cannon does hypnotic past life regression. She has discovered a special group of people who don't have past lives on Earth. They have past lives in other dimensions and other planets. They have volunteered here on Earth to help raise the frequency.
One of her subjects had leukemia and she was regressed in front of a group and experienced healing through the experience. She went back to a time in which she described to her she was as “the air is like living crystals that have been developed into little pieces. They're everywhere in the air.of the ground. They're in the air, I'm breathing them "
"Oh, they are tiny, minute particles. It's a very beautiful place, like another dimension. I am so high up you can see things in manifest them, and project them to Earth. It's easy. It's my job. I am linked everything, but to manifest this, I can't talk to people. You know what I mean? Some things have to be learned. It's an intrusion really. Well, there really aren't any people here where I am. In place of people… Energy. You couldn't leave this."
So there are no other people around you? There on Earth. I don't think I'm a person. I'm the shimmer actually now that you mention it, there are many beings I'm thinking of people? These are people. They are my colleagues there made of little proton things I have to go down. I have decided to go down and be one of those humans because we manifest. We all do… The shimmers. There are many of them then they come down because you created, you deliver it, you anchor it. We anchor it on to Earth. Why did you decide to come down if you're so happy here?
The word duty comes to me. Because we all play our roles. We know our role. We all do. I'm coming down. Is that okay? It's not forced. It isn't like that. We meet, we know, we decide. It just is or will come down.
Tell me what happens when you decide to come down.
Well, Earth is very,okay very different. Where is the love? Upset I don't get it. It's also dense. We can't breathe the crystals.
No there are no crystals there, are there?
All of it is tucked away. It's harsh… And people are… I'll tell you something. You want to hear this? Down where I am here they do not believe in the shimmering if you speak about the shimmering your body gets ripped like this… Pulled from one end to another. Do not speak of the shimmering should do you know what they do to people here. (She started crying.) And they pull them apart. They do not realize what went into creating a physical body. They just destroy it and they have no link to the shimmering. I must find a place where they link.
She goes on to describe the torture that a person experiences coming to earth and what it's like to have your body pulled apart by being here. When you come down you are in a physical body because you have to be. And then they do things to the body she says. The body is dense, heavy like lead. It's not comfortable, but you chose to enter the body so you could do a job. Is that correct?
Yes, I forgot for a minute. It's the poor people on earth that have been cut off from this. It's so dense here with beer. Our job is to dissipate the fear and really connect them to the shimmering where they came from. And the possibilities vary because the shimmering can be lowered to be manifest. But it is not as easy as I thought. Because I've had no limitations, no, I didn't. They whisper it in the wind. It is whispered off, but she don't know, do you? So the question arises, how do we do it? How do I finish what I've come to do? How? I'm searching for an answer. Sometimes I feel what's the point? There's no good. Others have come from the shimmering they work its those those who forgot where they have come from. Their link, and their power, and their beauty. It's so heavy that you forget.
Is there a way to help them remember?
This is what I'm here for. I'm searching – I think I failed – to call down more shimmerings. Called out where shimmering so the energy is building. It is happening now… More like. And more recording that means more were called in.
What about the ones who were already here on Earth? Are they able to do these things? (She means light workers) they are shimmering here as people.is I carry
Do you mean they've all forgot?
I think it's more me. I think I've forgotten. I would've hoped not, but yes, it's definitely me, because there are many others I can see now; many others doing their work. Many have forgotten. Many have not. I'm one of them and I feel I haven't come up to scratch. I haven't succeeded. In the woman goes on to say how she feels like she's failed and she has sorrow for not doing her job. She had forgotten, and this was causing pain in her body. I talk to it about returning the body to complete balance and harmony so she could do her job. Dolores worked with her to heal her leukemia and to get underneath the emotional reasons. The shimmering was not shimmering. Do you get what I mean? Yes she is actually here. And when she remembers the shimmerings. I think she will want to be here the physical problems have come from not wanting to be here anymore. This work is so important. And to have the intent of the shimmering to bring heaven to earth. And how beautiful to know that when you get into bed at night with your work, you brought some of the shimmering… Heaven to earth. We ask you double quotes what better job satisfaction could there be?
For every person you heal the earth lightens. We thank you for your work. We send the shimmers to you. We thank you. We honor you.
This is the end of the account from The Three Waves of Volunteers and to Earth New Earth.
This passage near the beginning of the book has really touched me space deeply. I think so many Star seeds of light workers can relate to remember a that they come from somewhere else. In fact, this and many other accounts from Dolores Cannon, illustrate that we come from someplace that is not Earth. For me, sometimes I hear things read things or am in the company of somebody who activates me. Being activated is like feeling a vibration inside that says quotes truth. I felt it emotionally and strongly when this person spoke of the shimmering of the oneness from whence she came and felt the same longing for that oneness. It made the idea of oneness merging feeling compared to Earth 3D separated feeling so clear, and also it simplified spirituality. It took me beyond the need for spiritual masters or levels. There is the oneness and there is where we are and we want to go back to the garden, to bring the garden here to Earth- very simple!
Another person describes this feeling as "that is the same feeling of being encompassed like it's all around me. Yet I'm free. I can get up and go anytime. I can be part of anything I don't feel rejected. It's excepting me, supporting or cradling me. I'm just part of it it sounds like you can just choose any form you want to be at experience it. (Yes) that's interesting. Do you feel you learn anything when you become these different objects? I feel just part of one, and that's a comfort to me that I am just accepted and loved and part of it. No digression between the two. No separation. Not a separateness, but it's distinctive difference in the feeling of being encompassed. When I am part of something, I learned to feel one with it in stead of separate."
These accounts strongly brought me back to that feeling of oneness love, of merging, of being in a collective and being totally loved and supported and in the company of your other selves that the stark contrast that I feel on Earth was apparent in the moment. I got something if you feel this you will understand that you may have come from a higher dimension a place where there is simply oneness that is.like Earth. Earth is a harsh place first Star seeds and light workers. Got our work cut out for us. The irony is, that we are here to bring through the feeling of the oneness, the unconditional love, the place from where we came from. We to that, even though we may not want to be here. We may find life on earth really difficult and you could see why if you tap into this feeling of what is possible and that is why we are here. We are here to bring the shimmering the higher frequency the oneness love the merging as a collective the union to this place. We are here to end struggle within and without. We are here to help every person on earth feel love and worthy. Somehow this makes it worthwhile. I in with the words that were in the book and I'm saying them to you in gratitude for your presence.
For every person you heal the earth lightens. We thank you for your work. We send the shimmers to you. We thank you. We honor you.
-Shannon Luminance River
Akashic Intuitive Readings for volunteers for the new earth
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9 May 2012 - 1:00am
Raise The Planet
Journey’s With Rebecca – May 8th, 2012
by Shawn Clark
(Archive of Interview)
We enjoyed a fantastic three hour interview with Rebecca Jernigan and we're looking forward to the follow up this Friday.
Here is the link for the archive page at Wolf Spirit Radio:
http://www.wolfspiritradio.com/archive/download.php?id=Journeys_With_Rebecca
And here is the link to the mp3 itself that can be downloaded from the archive page linked above:
http://www.wolfspiritradio.com/archive/Journeys_With_Rebecca/2012-05-08_JWR_ALLFAARAA_SHAWN_CLARK.mp3
Thanks to all who listen.
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2 May 2012 - 11:11pm
www.lisabellini.net/indigo-children---crystalline-children.html
She also makes reiki charged oils that heal a lot. :) ;)
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1 May 2012 - 12:03am
Remember who you are to this world and universe my brothers and sisters, we all came willing to become help and guides to the ones that have forgotten there true divine objective within there souls and hearts. In this time of change it is easy to fear what we cant understand but the beauty of life is change! It's very easy to go off track of your mission on this plane of existence that have we created for ourselves but you
need to understand that this is a time oof becoming of ones inner trueself and awareness that is waiting to be released in all of you on uthis planet of love and true beauty. Before comin into this flesh bound being you were so fascinated and captured in the beauty of this Earth and thats why you came down here was to preserve and create new beauty upon this earth. We are coming to the point in this time of awakening and the prophecies that were foretold at the beginning of the creation of this Universe and the other multiverses that exist in this infinite realms of dimensions. Once we believe and realize that we are something more than these flesh bound bodies that only carries and allows the soul to experience here on this earth and dimensions, is when we're your granted the gift of being so much more on this planet because you have accepted this duty willingly in your heart and soul! We are the beautiful beams of light that other ascended souls will come into and speak or feel what they need be done through our spirit and body, the reason some us are willing to let Source flow through our spirit is because we don't fear and understand the message because it is of love and we are love. Just because these others are willing to let that spirit communicate through them does not mean that they are better or " Chosen" too receive these messages. A lot of us are forming our Tribes and Councils on this Earth to start figuring out solutions And different ways of preventing from the repeat of the past societies and culture between each other from happening again. We have the chance to start opening and awakening chakras that lie within us and around us on Mother, she is very slowly releasing these energy through certain vocal points that are spread out across this planet to stabilize and manage the energies and vibrations that surround us right now. Are Brothers and Sisters of the Ancient souls who ascended this
Last Shift of counsiousness of the 3rd Generation of this earth are dancing and putting so much love into Mother right now because of all the negative vibrations of the ones who let there heart reside in Fear and push that fear upon others. I am you and you are me, we are love!
I am the man of many colors who will bring together the people of many colors!
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26 Apr 2012 - 9:53pm
Hello everyone,
I saw a question from the younger age group of a starseed. I am from an older generation of lightworkers and I am in the first group that has been sent here. The older group of lightworkers similar to me are teachers to the younger ones so I decided to kind of give a crash course in spirituality because I see that some people are kind of confused at times what it really means. Here is what I answered the starseed's question about if we ever feel like we get stuck moving around or where we are originally from.
Dear Starseed,
I have experienced what you are talking about when I would get around a person who was radiating negative energy. A Lightworker is spiritually awakened and then advances or experiences ascension (knowledge of positive energy) over time. When I was in a situation of having to endure negative energy on a regular basis, I had to shut down my spirituality or positive energy flow in my body to be able to survive that situation. The result of shutting down my heart chakra made me feel like I couldn't move. I felt paralyzed. The first time I had to be around extreme negative energy, I could barely get off the couch for a year. ( After your heart chakra opens again it is called post traumatic stress syndrome). A broken heart is called the Octopus trap by scientists in Japan but we call it broken heart syndrome.
When we shut down the flow of positive or love energy in our bodies then the negative energy can get in and it will make us mentally, spiritually and emotionally sick. I would suggest to you that it would be better if you stay away from energies with a negative message or intent. This will show up in forms of hate or the 7 deadly negative energies in others. The positive and negative energies out in the world are real. Our words, thoughts and actions carry lots of power. We send out that energy into the world and it reflects back to us because we have free will. No one can interfere with our free will not even our guardian angel we are assigned to at birth. So trying to be positive and a loving person is better for us and for the Earth, Heavens, and everything living on the Earth.
When a person is awakened spiritually that means their third eye has been opened and that is our intuition. We are now using our right and left brains to see truth in things. We are able to make better decisions. We are able to see the positive and negative energy behind what people do and what they are as a person. You can see the people who are only able to use their right or left brain in politics. There is the right wing or right brain using people and there is the left wing or left brained people. The reason why they are always fighting over issues is because they cannot use both sides of their brain and think in the oneness of what is best for the whole. The Native American people call using either the left brain or the right brain mental illness. The people in the middle are the ones who can see both sides of the issues and make choices. So politics are an illusion to distract people because no matter what the outcome, there are a small number of very wealthy and powerful people who are spiritually awakened but haven't shared it with others and they use it for negative energy.
After I was spiritually awakened I saw that we humans were created in clay jars and our DNA was a combination of the creatures who were natural inhabitants of the Earth like Homus Erectus and from the DNA of creatures who were from one of the 7 races originally in the beginning. we were created as a slave race to the few kings in charge with all the wealth of gold and from killing and conquering kingdoms to acquire more wealth and virgins because they had wives and concubines and the children of these relationships would fight and kill for their place to be the ruler of the Earth. They even dropped nuclear weapons on us if we got too spiritually enlightened. Adam and Eve were thrown out of the Garden of Eden, the Tower of Babel was disassembled and we were spread out over the world and learned different languages that we had to create ourselves as babies being raised from foster parents who were told not to speak to us and let us name things ourselves, Sodom and Gomorah were some of the 5 cities that were nuked. Lot's wife was unsympathetic to the king and she was left behind. The word for salt is actually vapor so she was vaporized. Today we see the Dead Sea is highly radioactive and we lost our long lives that way. The bombs melted the ice caps and then we had the flood. The gold miners being exposed to mercury had birth defects which resulted in cancers of the brain and the tumors resulted in dwarfism or gigantism. That is another reason why the gods wanted to wipe out so many people because of the environmental health issues we incurred from being slaves in the underworld of the mines which eventually became the myth of Hell. I don't like the bad parts of our history but if we know it then I hope we can learn from it because the Earth does have holes in the atmosphere again and we do have global warming and it is because of negative energy flowing around. The lightworkers and the starseeds are here to try to increase the positive energy of the planet. We cannot be upset about the past because the people who were negative became aware of what they did and they are in spirit form now. It is kind of complicated for me to explain everything from the beginning to now. I am just a messenger or Angel.
Over time our DNA pool has grown from these origins but most of the original creatures created were wiped out in the flood. The myths of the Greek mythology and ancient history are true accounts of the creatures that lived but had to be passed down orally in the form of a fable so that children would understand it better. The original gods or kings had advanced technologies of healing, genetic sciences, nuclear weapons, cosmetics, extracting gold from the Earth using mercury, space travel, solar energy, and crystal energy. But the gods were from other planets and the difference between us and them was that since we were made from the Earth and Water and fire as the clay jars were made from, these elements were part of our DNA in the clay test tubes and then when we were implanted into the surrogate female volunteers, we exchanged our DNA with the mother and acquired the ability of speech in that way. The earlier experiments of the Homus Erectus female being artificially inseminated with the zygote resulted in the babies not having any capacity of speech. So they were many genetic experiments done to achieve the perfect human slave. Some humanoids were half human and half animal like the minOtaur. The name minotaur has an O in the middle as you can see and stands for the O of the clay jar and the womb. The symbol of the woman who was the geneticist in charge was O for Omega. When you see circles in ancient history then that is representing our creation.
So we are all really related to the Earth and the aliens or kings were not. I do not believe there are any aliens alive today or people from other planets alive today. There are some people on the Earth who are channeling ghosts or spirits from the other side and they may think they are still back in their time, but they are not alive. Our DNA contains slime mold or animal DNA but I feel that we are all related in some way with similar DNA. I think I am from the blue ray group and that is Sirius. The structures built all around the world in 10,500 BC are facing the star system from were the population came from and they communicated to their stars system from these locations using crystals. Crystals are in our cell phone and computers today. The alignment in the night sky of 10,00 BC which we can see since computers now allow us to go back to that time in history was directly pointing at the constellation of Leo, for example. The signs in the zodiac are represented by planets. Kyron or Chiron was a half human half horse creature who taught humans the skills of hunting. They were mentors but the also had the gift of immortality from the gods who also lived thousands of years. Early humans only lived hundreds of years. Noah had his first child at the age of 500. They achieved this through manipulating DNA and the Earth was not glowing with chemicals and radioactivity back in the beginning we had a cleaner Earth.
I do not think that New Age spirituality is taught in schools because it is still thought of as a religious belief instead of a science but it is highly advanced science. Scientists are discovering that spirituality is based on science and sacred geometry. We cannot see the positive energy with our eyes but we can absorb positive energy from the Earth out in nature from sitting on the ground and we absorb positive energy from above in the sun and air. That is why we should have clean, air, and land because it is not good to absorb toxins into our bodies. Drinking alcohol or taking certain drugs can prevent us from keeping the positive energy flow in our bodies. Even the food we eat can affect our spirituality. I just call spirituality unconditional love energy. When we fill ourselves up with unconditional love energy then we can radiate it out into the world. We will no longer feel like we cannot move around. We can feel energized. I am so sensitive to negative energy from others now that I try to stay away from it because I know my health will fail. I used to try to help the people who were spiritually blind but they suck all of my positive energy from me and I get paralyzed. I just start crying now and it is physical pain but that has been part of my ascension. I am healing all the time after an encounter with a negative energy person. Some of them come on this site and attack people and it hurts me. I am trying to stay here to teach others about spirituality who are seeking and who are loving people who are struggling in the world of the non-spiritual.
I hope I could teach a class or write a book to show people spirituality but there have been so many people who were spiritual and trying to teach. They were using the left and right sides of their brain. Jesus, Leonardo Di Vinci, John F Kennedy, Martin Luther King, John Lennon, Tupac, Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Walt Disney, Lewis Carrol, Frank L. Baum, and many of the science fiction writers, Dr. Seuss. Once you become spiritually awakened, you will see the truth in the spiritual messages of all the spiritual people. It is the oneness that we share. If the message is about love then that is spirituality. If the message is one of the 7 deadly negative energies: vanity, lust, greed, gluttony, pride, or laziness then it is not spirituality. If the message is one of the 7 virtues: chastity, temperance, diligence, patience, kindness or humility then that is spirituality. These are the clues for you to see the truth behind the message. It is either lies or truths. Truth is love and love is truth. Lies are hate and hate are lies. I wish I had someone to explain this to me when I was younger but I am the first generation of lightworkers and we are the teachers. We had no one to show us but only through their work. Now we have increased in numbers and we understand these things because of computers. We can teach the starseeds how to change the world with love energy. I didn't mean for this to be such a long explanation but I hope that will help you understand a few things. We cannot judge others. We can only make good decisions based on truth. If we are lied to then we will not be able to make a good choice. So some innocent people have had to make choices based on lies. For example, a person may have gone to work for a bad company that pretended to be doing good things and that the person could come and help them and be paid and make some money to live. However, the negative energy of the company eventually lead to its destruction and then good people were affected having been lied to from the beginning. If the bad people of the company would have to the person the truth and said we are a company who is negative and does negative things to others and the Earth for our own interests would you like to become part of this company? Then the person has a better choice and decision to work for a bad company. I think you can understand this even in romantic relationships there may be one person who does not love the other but pretends in the name of self interest to get what they want. If it is not based on true love from both sides then it will end up in hurt and heartache and affect very many people in a negative way. True love energy is very positive and that is called the twin flame or soul mate kind of love. All other romantic relationships are lies based on lust. Lust is a hate crime against men and women in society. Looking at another person with lust is like drooling over a cow and wanting steak. The generations have been programmed to think lust in the form of sexual exploitation images of people to sell products. I just don't know how to begin to deprogram people to understand the true meaning of love and romance. I suppose some people think that it is impossible to sell a product or promote an idea with love and positive energy. Well I disagree and I would gladly buy a product from them. The animosity that was driven between a man and woman or Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden was to stop true love. They covered up with a fig leaf, Eve was portrayed as stupid for listening to an evil snake (or having her third eye opened and seeing truth like the gods) and Adam was ridiculed for listening to a stupid female and having his third eye opened to the true reality of his creation and slavery of the gods/kings that the angry god threw them out of the Garden of Eden. Well I think that Adam and Eve would have been better off without the mean alien gods would created us and we could have loved each other as men and women instead of being like the gods who only knew lust. The slaves were pacified in the Trojan wars which went on for years and they were fed a good steak, drank beer and had women so that they would keep fighting and working for the gods even though they complained and wanted to go home to their families who missed them. But you see, things have not changed all that much. Wine, women and song has changed to sex, drugs, rock and roll and this is our program of distraction so that we may not have true love energy. I wish the children of today would not get lost in the work because they are our most precious gift for the future. I unconditionally love them, the starseeds and their children.
I know the teachers today say that children are not supposed to go on the internet to learn because that is what they have told my daughters and they are starseeds because I was spiritually awakened and passed that on to them. They refuse to listen to me. But I just only show them unconditional love. I think the advice of not going on the internet is good advice but I found out so much and I have to have multiple proofs of something before I can believe in it and I found lots of proofs so I don't want to advise someone unless I have studied it and found it to be truth. Anyway,I learn from others every day and I keep an open mind and an open heart but I still watch out for negative energy in the form of hateful words, thoughts and actions. It is really simple when you think about it. Spiritual people have an advantage to see truth in things because there is a lot of deception and hurt that some people are all about but the biggest secret lies within our own selves to understand our selves and if we can find out our hopes and fears. We can heal from our fears or bad Karma (actions) forgive ourselves, love ourselves unconditionally and then we can discover our gifts and share them with the world in a positive way. I am not a religious person but some parts of religion I have found to have truths of love and some leaders are lightworkers in their messages of love and not hate or fear. I don't like the parts of the bible that talk about the mean hateful wrathful gods who were human kings and not the real God of the unconditional love energy that is flowing through nature and the heavens around us. I like this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4qtj1Ol_VpE
My grandparents gave me the knowledge of unconditional love and I want to pass it down. We are always having our minds filled up with negative images because of advertising but I hope the starseeds will fill up with positive beautiful images and ideas so we could change the script that has never changed since the Garden of Eden. Who says we cannot have a paradise on Earth? Who says we cannot love the Earth and everything on the Earth? Who says we can't love each other and ourselves? Maybe just a non-spiritual person who has been living in the chains of lies. We can choose what kind of future world we will live in and it is only limited by our imaginations.
I think the powerful unconditional love energy is going to win this time......
shining in the love and light
skaterr
keep learning starseed
skaterr
Story
11 Apr 2012 - 11:44pm
I am in a tree and seeing the Fae'rea as little pinkish purple lights, like the glow of Christmas tree lights in little round balls. I know there are fairies within the light but they are interdimensional beings. I know they are there but you can't see their form. I see them as magenta light. I feel their laughter, tiny fairy laughter. I feel how they love us very much.
I am enjoying the night, seeing the stars and knowing I am connected to them always and they are me, my soul self in its collective of souls. Many of those souls are here on earth with me and some are even friends, family and acquaintances. Some haven't been born on earth before or were born and have left. I feel their guidance strongly now. They are very happy. They are in a light mood, like dolphin energy. I feel blessed, like nothing is wrong and all is well in this moment. Ahh. Relax into the moment they say.
My heart pours out in gratitude for the now.
I send a request to them to give me guidance for what this month will be like, that which is left.
They blink and I know they mean to pay attention to the stars and I look up and they say pay attention to the feeling of the stars. You may remember more of who you are, and experience a frequency download sometime soon. They may still be going through emotional cleansing. It may be up and down emotionally but it is starting to stabilize and be at a new level of steadiness which feels more optimistic.
You see people broken into groups: those who are and have been doing inner work and those who have not. The first group will be coping well and finding joy and expansiveness. The other group, those who know they need to work on stuff, will be called do it and the higher energies are forcing the issue. There will be some oblivious ones who don't know what is going on but rest assured they are being influenced by the higher vibration of the planet.We have compassion for all suffering while the energies of earth are calling for the release of what needs to be let go of, and complete well being arises.
It is a good time to cut cords, cut negative cords to people in your life in order to gain your energy back and be whole. If you are giver, you are likely to feel more whole when you do this. Even for those you are attached to, cut the negative cords. The love will be there but the dependence won't. You will be left in your own power. For those who aren't doing the inner work which means taking responsibility for themselves, they may siphon off your energy if you don't cut cords or otherwise separate into your own energy field..As lightworker we shine light for others but we are not the light source or the power source for others.
The Fae'rea twinkle their magenta lights, playing hide and seek. They are showing me how important play is. Find your friends who light you up and play with them. They are showing me that the best way to awaken others is to play and be happy around them. It is a tough job, but somebody has to do it. They giggle and run away. You will feel more like playing when the end of April comes..
May you be blessed.
The Fae'rae send their love.
Enjoy yourself and play your way through ascension.
~The Fae'rea are a new collective of guides that have come through from the archangelic realm. It feels like they are a frequency of compassion, divine feminine creator energy, the light at the center of the galaxy, a fairy energy, and they appear as pink light particles. I call on them for guidance, assistance, and communion. They may be related to the new chakra of the high heart that is formed. Most of all, The Fae'rea are here to help us embody unconditional love.
~Luminance River, with gratitude to all
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4 Apr 2012 - 1:41pm
GUIDANCE FROM THE LION BEINGS - By Jennifer Lovejoy
Spirit speaks to each one of us according to our personal interests, cultural and religious background, and our individual receptivity to or ability to perceive messages from God, Goddess the Universe, or whatever we choose to call the higher unifying power. One aspect of Spirit that I am personally drawn to working with are the Animal Totems, Helpers, or as they may sometimes be called, Devas. An individual totem or deva (Lion, for example) embodies the energy frequency and the specific qualities and talents of a particular animal or plant species, or even of the elemental kingdom. These beings are always available to assist us and offer us their unique wisdom even if they are not specifically one of our totems. It is also possible for an Angel, Faery, or other Light Being to communicate through these animal totems or nature devas.
In my personal experience with animal totems, I have not come across Lion until recently, nor been drawn to working with him (or her, depending upon how you feel the energy. Similar to angels, totems or devas are not sex-specific).
Lately, though, I’ve been experiencing a lot of Lion energies through repetitive images, videos, news stories, and even storybook lions like C.S. Lewis’s Aslan and the cowardly lion from “The Wizard of Oz” stories. The main lions that keep coming to my attention are the extraterrestrial Lion Beings, a race of benevolent lion-headed humanoids who are returning to Earth at this time to assist with the shifting energies and ascension of the planet and the human race. These magnificent beings are said to have been one of the founders of our ancient civilizations of Lemuria and Atlantis. Indeed, evidence of these lion or cat beings can be seen throughout much of ancient history. Many people say the lions come from Sirius and others name different star systems. They may very well reside in several different locations, but what I am mainly concerned with is their purpose here and their message to humanity. I feel that the Lion Beings are connected with the Lion Deva, and by studying the qualities of Lion, we can become better acquainted with our lion-like star family.
Lion inspires a sense of awe by his very presence. He exudes personal power, inner strength, and a strong sense of purpose. He knows who he is, what he is about, and will not allow himself to be bullied. Like most cats, Lion has a loving but unattached energy. Lion is a firm and compassionate parent, dispensing wise guidance while knowing that ultimately each of us must follow our own unique path.
Lions live in social groups called prides. Community service is important here, as well as protection, standing up for higher ideals, and assisting those who have encountered misfortune. A lion will do what is best for the highest good of the group. When we are born, our family is our first experience of community. As we grow, our community extends outward, through our friends, our neighborhood, our workplace, and even out into the ethers through the wonders of the internet and social networking sites. So think about this. How far does your community extend? Do you take pride in your community? What service can you offer to improve the physical, spiritual, or emotional conditions of your community? Perhaps you could wash the dishes for your family without grumbling. Stand up and roar for a friend being bullied. Bring food to a neighbor who is struggling, in the same way that a female lion hunts and brings home food for the whole pride. Even the smallest of actions can make a difference. We are all connected, and the Lion Beings are here to remind us of this.
Lion also carries the great I AM presence, the cosmic AUM, the Word, the underlying, unifying vibration reverberating throughout all creation. Lion is the Sun of Divine Christ Consciousness dawning within you. He is the way-shower and the light-bringer. Calling upon the Lion Deva in meditation can help bring you closer to that experience of oneness with the Divine Presence. The Lion Beings are also here to help with this. A funny message I’ve been getting from them comes from the story of “The Wizard of Oz.” They keep saying to me, “Follow the yellow brick road.” What I understand this to mean is that the yellow brick road represents the golden path to enlightenment or higher consciousness. The characters in this story have to travel through dark and dangerous terrain along the yellow brick road in order to meet the great and all-powerful Wizard of Oz. When we ourselves go within and travel the road to higher consciousness, to our inner “Wizard” or I AM presence, we very often encounter our own dark and dangerous terrain! It takes lion-like courage and strength of will to pursue this golden path to the end where we meet the Inner Wizard, who like the ancient alchemists and cat beings alike, is able to transmute our lower qualities into higher ones; to turn lead into gold, as the saying goes.
The Lion Beings are also connected with the energy of the Sun. We’ve had a lot of sun activity lately, with solar flares and coronal mass ejections. Some of this energy has been directed toward Earth, and I feel the sun has been sending us loving energy blasts to help the Earth in the ascension process. The Lion Beings are here with us to help us assimilate these new energies.
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A Message from the Lion Beings
You have an amazing reservoir of strength deep within your being. You may hold false beliefs in this existence that you are weak, powerless, cowardly, or ineffective. But where there is darkness there is also LIGHT. I tell you, go within and hear the deep roar of the Universe coursing through you. Where I AM, you ARE. Feel yourself in the ocean of Divine Consciousness. You are a wave that can NEVER be separated from this ocean. You are created in the image of Divine Light and Perfect Love. Feel the light of the Sun as you go within and focus at the third eye center in meditation. Offer up your fears, your feelings of unworthiness, and any false or negative belief patterns that you may hold about yourself, and release them into the Light for transmutation. This creates an opening for the Light of the Sun to fill your being and shine out into the world. The world community desperately needs this light. Each one of you must do your part to contribute to the healing and evolution of your planet. Look upon your brothers and sisters with the eyes of unconditional love. Hold them to the light when they are plunged in darkness. The compassion you give to one another you also give to yourself. Peace be upon you.
Article (C) Jennifer LoveJoy 2011. Jennifer LoveJoy is an artist, yogi, and Reiki practitioner, who has been actively seeking Spirit for the past 15 years. She lives in the beautiful Ozark Mountains of Arkansas with her family and beloved animals. Her magical art dolls can be found at www.etsy.com/shop/faeryangelic and you can follow her blog at faeryangelic.blogspot.com
Much love to you all
Ish )O(
Blog entry
31 Mar 2012 - 7:52pm
Project ; Love
The power of positive thinking & raising humanities consciousness
Humanity is changing daily and at rapid rates. More and more the younger generations wonder about everything we have been taught. We are not in the dark for much longer and the more we look inside ourselves for answers and believe and trust our intuition the faster our planet will start to change for the better. We have questions! We see all the un-nessasary wars, hate and negative energy trying to be brain washed into us. But the question is, will you let and listen to other people fill your head with fear to rule your life and hold your spirit captive into believing you can’t do things and won’t achieve your dreams?
We see how the world is being ruled by negative people, propaganda, government, religion and media.
The news telling nothing but sad, disheartening, fearful news to keep us thinking of all the “bad” in the world. The media filling our heads with fake negative news about people that really don’t have an effect on our lives anyways! Religion separating us from one and other,teaching rules and ways to abide and live by. And the government brain washing you into thinking their new ideas and rules will help people and benefit you, when really they are just trying to make us prisoners for them to be able to control the world.
As they tell us the new chips they are implanting into people are a great thing because you can walk into any hospital and all your info will be right in your wrist so doctors will know what your allergic too and any kind of info they need so they can “help” you. Did you ever think that if you don’t follow the rules and do what they want, they plan on just shutting your chip off so you basically no longer exist in the world, So you have no records left of anything that has happened in your life, so you can’t go to any hospital and have no bank records or medical records anymore.
The laws that are all being passed for our own “good” are actually making us slaves. Every president in the past has all been from the same blood lines and if you really listen to Obamas speeches.. they are all manipulated into sounding like great plans to help humanity when really they are destroying us. Did you know in United States now even if you are a completely innocent human being but are under the assumption of suspicion you can be arrested. Who in their right mind thinks that the government is on our side when they can arrest innocent people for a crime they have never even acted on.
Have you ever heard the saying “when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change” … well if we could all see the bigger picture here and wake up to see that we are our own creators and we are free humans and can choose to live in love, happiness, and possibilities the entire structure of the world and the way it is run will change.
Compassion
When you see natural disasters happen in different countries, you see humanity come together to rescue one and other and to help our brothers and sisters. Because that’s what we do, we are here to help each other and live together in happiness. We have been taught WRONG! We have been taught that you are you and I am me.. when really we are all one. All active consciousness contributes to the way our world works and if we think negative and live in fear we create more negative and fear. Eventually leading to disasters everywhere leading us to think that yes the government has to control us. Like attracts like – positive attracts more positive and negative attracts more negative, that is the law of attraction.
Law of attraction - Thoughts Become Things
When you think about something long enough and feel good about it, it eventually is attracted into your life and when you think about something that you really don’t want for long enough, it also eventually comes into your life. Not because you want it to but because the universe doesn’t listen to if you do or don’t want it, it gives you what you think about. That is why WE ARE OUR OWN CREATORS!!! We can have do or be anything we can desire, as long as you believe you can have it, and believe you deserve to have it and can feel the feeling of already having it.. the universe will deliver! We are here to live happy, fulfilling and loving lives but in the past have been manipulated into thinking the opposite, that doing what everyone else does and what is “said” to be the right way is what were supposed to do.. but you no longer have to follow the croud, you can live the life you’ve always wanted if you think you can! Ordinary is boring.. why not live the life you’ve always wanted… whats stopping you?
The power of positive thinking
Did you know a positive thought is 1000x more powerful than a negative one. What if I told you that positive thoughts and love have the power to change anything? Well they do, miracle stories of sick people getting healed just by having people send positive vibes or thoughts to them, or people touching a person to transfer there energy to help in healing that person aren’t just miracles, it is the power of positive vibrations and energy. Nothing in this life is coincidence.. everything happens for a reason! We are all made of energy, everything IS energy and as we perceive in this 3D world we seem to see things as solid but everything is vibrating, everything has a vibration from its energy and everything is living. Every thought affects everyone and every thought contributes to the law of attraction and what eventually manifests in our world. So if we keep thinking our lives suck and the world is a fearful place and we cant do what we want then slowly humanity will start to die out of sadness, disaster, disease, and fear.
So that being said we have ALL THE POWER TO CHANGE THE WAY OUR WORLD WORKS!
We are all ONE
we are all equal and we are all here for a purpose. We all want the same things and strive to survive, to feel love, to be happy, to live in abundance and peace. Every action you take and every thought you think affects another person. We have been lead to believe we are all separate when really everything in this world is made up of the samething.. ENERGY! So that is what I mean by we are all one.
Being Thankful
Being thankful feels good and when you are thankful you create positive vibrations and positive vibrations create opportunities, where opportunities create experience and experience creates growth then that growth creates awareness. The more we can be thankful for our lives and everyday we have on this earth, and every person and experience that comes into our lives the more we can understand and are open to creating and receiving.
TO BE CONTINUED … <3
video
27 Mar 2012 - 5:22pm
Tolec
This is the migration story of the People of planet Dakote from the Taygeta star system in the Pleiades, approximately 100,000 years ago, to Ina Maka / Unci Maka, Mother Earth. It is the story of their arrival on Earth, the story of who they interacted with & why, who they helped, what their contributions were... and what their lives were like. It is also the story of their own journey some 50,000 years later to Grandmother Turtle Island... evolving into the Dakota, Lakota & Nakota People. This is our origin & heritage story.
Blog entry
22 Mar 2012 - 1:18pm
This is your calling Wayseer
You’ve found your tribe
Welcome home...
Welcome home to a family of 7 billion souls - struggling to survive
Welcome home to a planet in desperate need - a tiny dot of life - hurling through the outer reaches of space alone
Welcome home to your generations calling - to heal this world
Society is sick but you have a unique capacity to change things
because your awakened mind can replace the thousand dysfunctional rules of society
with just three simple guidelines
Turn on. Tune in. and Drop Out.
Each of these sacraments builds on the next... First you must...
Turn on - to what you are.
You're wild and intuitive and you take it too far. Your ability to see out of the cage.
Lets you take us all - to the next stage.
Doesn’t matter - what the experts claim -
You got the vision that’ll change the game
Now you know what you came here for.
You got the keys to unlock the door
Turn on to what you are.
Tune in the Sacred Light.
Drop out of all the lies.
Turn on to what’s inside.
you might have felt alone
Cuz you were different in a world that never understood you
Authority figures looked down on you - you wouldn’t conform to their expectations
You wouldn’t give in to their misguided rules and you didn’t respect their unjust systems
you just knew there was a better way
Deep inside you could feel the heavens open up -
starlight beaming down upon your consciousness
trying to remind you of the higher calling you came here to fulfill
trying to incite you to riot against the prison walls erected inside your mind
trying to get you to experience the revelation that awaits you
when you
Tune in - to the Sacred Light.
Giving the authority to the power inside. The Way, the Truth, the intelliegence of Life.
Lay claim to what society denied.
Love - unites us (all). Doesn’t
matter what you call it - just that you call.
tap - the ancient wisdom of creation
Let your mind fill with light and revelation
[Now you’re flyin with divine revelation]
Turn on to what you are.
Tune in the Sacred Light.
Drop out of all the lies.
Turn on to what’s inside.
Now you’re turned on.
you’re tuned in.
You see things differently.
You see the answers that are intertwined and contained inside of the problems.
You see the opportunities to create better systems that shed light into this world.
(But don’t get hooked on your new ideas.)
You see all those helpless souls still stuck in their systems?
You know attachment is what keeps them there...
You know programs are the shackles that bind your consciousness -
But they’re only supported by your choice to stay hooked into images from the past
At any time you can withdraw your support from old structures
that are no longer helpful or necessary
That’s when you exercise the third step...
Drop out of all the lies.
Sure the system had you - till you opened your eyes
Bad habits, Status, Greed and compromise
That’s all just slavery in disguise.
Don’t get hooked on nonsense from the past
You gotta realize nothing man made will last
men can’t offer a permanent solution
That’s why we need this nonstop revolution
Turn on to what you are.
Tune in to the Sacred Light.
Drop out of all the lies.
Turn on to what’s inside.
by Garrett Le Porto
http://soundcloud.com/wayseers/turn-on-tune-in-drop-out
Blog entry
22 Mar 2012 - 9:16am
Hey there dear Lighty friends,
Today is a celebration for all Starseeds and Lightworkers alike. At precisely (I'm not kidding) 11:11am this morning, the world rejoiced with the birth
of another star child. Matisse Mauvenaigh (second name, not sure how you spell it, but it's Irish Gaelic meaning 'morning fairy'), entered this earth at a healthy
3010kgs (6lb 10oz). She's beautiful and just perfect in every way. This wonderful news has given me the much needed upliftment and rejuvenation I have been lacking the last
couple of days.
What makes Matisse extraordinary, is that she wasn't supposed to be here. Vicki, her mum was told she could never have kids. At 43 she found out she
was expecting Matisse. What a delightful surprise to find out she conceived naturally, after endless rounds of fertility treatment. She thought she'd never be a mum
and unfortunately Mattisse's dad is no longer in the picture. Vicki has a strong support network that surrounded her during her pregnancy and labour, with family and close
friends, who will be active and instrumental in Matisse's raring and upbringing. Both mum and bub are going to be absolutely fine.
This afternoon I rushed up to Mater Mothers Hospital to get me a first glimpse and a much anticipated cuddle of Matisse. When I entered Vicki's room, Matisse was kicking up a mighty fuss lol. She'd just been fed and changed and poor Vicki, being a first time mum, was in a bit of a pickle, trying to settle her. I just scooped Matisse out of Vicki's arms (much to Vicki's relief) and started rocking her too and fro. Incredibly, Matisse immediately stopped crying. Whilst I cooed and ahhhed over her, Matisses vibrant blue eyes
were just staring at me, absolutely transfixed on mine, it felt like she was gazing into my very heart and soul. New borns are only supposed to clearly see from their mums breast to mums face. She's just all gorgeous, peaches and cream, strawberry blonde hair with vivid blue eyes and don't you just love the smell of a new born bub?
I put my index finger into the palm of Matisses tiny weeny hand, she immediately clasped it tightly, (I know it's probably just a reflex action) but it felt so supremely more than that. We had an indefinable, instantaneous connection. I felt she was part of my soul family. I even said to Vicki 'This little girl has been here before, many, many times. She's an old soul, just look at those eyes, she's holds the wisdom of the universe in them. She's so very special Vick'. I guess all kids are special and are gifts from God, but I'm not joking, Matisse is an exception. I immediately fell in love with her, just like she's one of my very own.
I almost jumped over the moon when Vicki asked me to be one Matisse's God Mothers, she's going to have 13 God Parents. Well, I'm just ecstatic. Guess what Lighty's??? We all have a new little person to rare and raise. Of course, it's a natural given, you are going to help me, help Matisse to become the very best human she can be. Welcome to the birth of a brand new Star Child.
PS: I would've taken some photo's - but they don't allow it anymore, not until the bub is at least a week old. So stayed tuned.
Much love to you all - Welcome Matisse and congratulatons Vicki.
Ish )O(
Teaching
15 Mar 2012 - 6:08pm
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Time to Get Serious
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ASHTAR
Channeled Through Janisel
My Dearest Friends.... I come to assure you that things are as they should be. There are great amounts of energy bombarding your Earth at this time and everything is being greatly accelerated. NOW is the time for 'focus'. You who are the bridges between Heaven and Earth are the 'hands and feet' of the Command, so to speak. It is through you that much of our work is done. As I said, much has been accelerated and, although we wish you to remain in a state of joy and lightheartedness, it is now time to put your 'work' in its proper perspective and concentrate on the mission at hand. We are working very diligently to gather the Lightworkers together in order to prepare the general population for what is to come.
This means that each and every one of you are needed at this time to make a commitment in your own heart as to what role you will play in this. In other words, it is time to get serious. We are not asking you to give your lives over to the Ashtar Command exclusively, for you each have many missions and sub-missions that you are here to accomplish. What we are asking, however, is that for those of you who feel your connection to us to band together, so to speak, in order to establish and implement certain 'activities' towards the goals which have been set before us. You have shown that you can do this numerous times, such as in the planting of the crystals and the activation of the grid. This was an excellent example of the Unity we wish for you to achieve, and our heartfelt thanks go to all of you who have participated in this project. Rest assured there will be other projects we will ask you to work on. For the time being, we are asking you to continue in this Unity, and stay focused on the tasks at hand.
Do not let yourselves become 'bogged down' in the mundane affairs of your day-to-day activities. We wish for those of you who are aligned with the Command and its work to use this wonderful email forum to interact with each other in manifesting this bond of Unity. You are held within the gentle hand of All That Is and encircled with the energy of Unconditional Love of such depths that your present consciousness can not truly comprehend its magnitude. We of the Command and the Spiritual Hierarchy are working most diligently to help you and all mankind reach their full potential. As a 'return energy exchange', we ask each of you to now search your hearts and decide what it is that you are capable and willing to do in partnership with us. For you see, we are truly in a partnership in which each and every one must play their part. NOW is the time to begin. NOW is the time to decide your focus.
NOW is the time to dedicate yourselves to the work at hand. We need your hands, we need your feet, we need your voice, we ask your commitment. To paraphrase the words of The Most Radiant One, spoken so long ago, "it is time to be about the Father's business". There is no longer the luxury of time to be spent in petty pursuits, bickering, judgment, or anger. Your time, which we have worked towards for eons, is at hand. Know that, even though you may not see us in your skies, we are most definitely close to you, and send you our deepest blessings and love.
Your Friend and Brother,
Ashtar
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SPACECRAFT in Art Throughout History
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Blog entry
13 Mar 2012 - 12:01pm
Mar 11
I’ve noticed for a while now a push within the new age community to not accept help from our star families or to not trust them to be able to assist us…well I have a question for you? If their help is not to be trusted, why do you trust that you are indeed a starseed here to help humanity? Why is it ok to say we need to save ourselves, yet not ok to accept that those who did not incarnate here are doing their best to help us..to help humanity, within the boundries that they can?
I really have to wonder if we are being pushed into not trusting in our own star families on purpose….we out of everyone on the planet should have their backs, and give them our full trust until proven otherwise. If we can’t accept them, how the hell is the rest of humanity going to? If we don’t have their backs, can we really expect them to have ours?
Accepting help is not the same as being saved. How many starseeds believe in Jesus, that he was an enlightened being, now considered by millions if not billions to be the savior? Yet we aren’t willing to accept that other enlightened beings want to help Gaia, and us? Is it just me or does that strike you as hypocritical? Just as Jesus has been mistaken as a savior, people are now assuming and you know what happens when we assume, that any ETs wanting to assist must be trying to ‘save’ us and we should be wary they are trying to manipulate or deceive us or use us.
I can’t help but think that is exactly what those who are clinging onto power want us to do, why do you think such importance is placed on distrust in our society? e.i. If it looks too good to be true, it probably is.
We are in my opinion being brainwashed to believe that help is not to be accepted or trusted because it must have an alterior motive…something dark and sinister…says who? Society? Do you live by society’s belief systems or do you follow your own heart? I personally follow my heart or at least I try to, and I’m not sitting on a pulpit here, I’ve been guilty of the same mistrust, but my eyes I believe are being widened or opened to the intent behind that mistrust…to debiliate our missions to spread word about our star families, to foster hope and trust within humanity…
And if you consider how most Hollywood movies portray Ets I don’t think I’m far off….we have been brainwashed into mistrust, wary of “trojan horses”…yet we ourselves know our connection to the Source, to our star families…it’s time to step for your star families and believe in them, support them as they’ve done for you, not because you are powerless and weak without them, but because that’s what family does!
http://www.starseeds.net/forum/topics/distrusting-our-families
Blog entry
4 Mar 2012 - 4:40am
Hey dearest Lighty friends,
I just read Tom's (T) blog, re the difficulty and how tough it is to be a Starseed on earth. As you are all probably aware, I consider myself a Starseed from the constellation of Lyra. If you wish to know more about my alien heritage, there is plenty of information on my profile relating to my Lyran ancestry. Anyway, after I read Tom's post, I began reflecting on my current life on this planet and how, from the perspective of a Starseed, this experience has ultimately affected me. You must understand, that right from the very 'gitgo' I knew I was different, that I had a specific purpose to be here on this planet.
How can I describe it further? Well, as a very young child, I was extremely timid and shy (believe it or not lol), I was terrified of other people. If anybody spoke to me, I would literally cower behind my mother's skirts, everbody and everything just felt totally strange to me. I remember saying things to my parents as a little girl, weird things that would bewilder them, like "Why do I feel like I've been alive forever but everything here is so horrible?' I was so sensitive to my emotions, any slight against me felt like a punch in the guts, I was prone to fits of extreme emotional outbursts, that would even confound me, they were feelings I had never experienced before.
My parents would argue a lot when I was a child - this was just utterley devastating from my perspective. I would cringe and cry for hours, just praying for peace and harmony to be restored to my home, I would innately be very protective of my two younger siblings during these frequent discordial moments between my mum and dad. Like an old mother hen, I'd gather my brother and sister and put them in bed with me, hushing their sobs and wrapping them both in my arms. I just couldn't grasp what all the fuss and flux was about, it was all so foreign and created much confusion within me.
I can remember, I would often sit outside when these skirmishes erupted in the family home, I'd gaze up at the sky and ask 'Please just come and take me away from all of this? This is way too hard and I don't want to be here'. At the time, I had no idea who I was asking, or why I was looking towards the heavens for help.
My brother and sister would taunt me at times as well, they would tell me that I was adopted, that I was different from them. I suppose it boiled down to the fact, that I was very dark and they were blonde haired and blue eyed. I had a difficult relatiionship with my father, I was curious sometimes if he ever wondered whether I was of his paternity. I know I definately am, because as I have aged, there's no denying, I'm now the spitting image of him lol.
Commencing school was a nightmare, that's when I really found out how different I was to everybody else. I was so trusting, innocent and I guess completely niave, regarding the habits and nature of humanity. I recall (I think I may have been in 1st class), not being included, deliberately excluded from a game that was being played at recess. I remember one of the girls addressing me in a nasty tone, when I asked her why I wasn't allowed to play with them, she viciously responded 'because your weird - you not like the rest of us'. It had such an impact on me, I broke down in tears, I sat on the steps of the quadrangle and sobbed and sobbed. Eventually, one of the teachers came over and asked me what was wrong? I just blurted out 'So and so, has just broken my heart'. The teacher replied 'well - all I can suggest is that you try and fit in'. I will never forget those words, for as long as I live. Fit in!!! How!!! I hated school - I actually ran away from school nearly every second day, at the age of six and would literally walk the 5 kms home. Much to the dismay of my parents - I just didn't feel safe or secure in a school environment.
Around about this time, my psychic abilities really started to run rampant. I could just tell what was going to happen. Nothing really major, in the beginning it just little things like - I was getting ready for the much dreaded school day, my mum was doing my hair, I asked her to put ribbons in my plaits, she asked 'why?' - I just casually replied, 'Because we are having a party at school today'. Mum just said 'Well I don't think so - nothing has come home in the school News Letter about a party'. I don't even know why I said it, but I just knew it to be a fact. I insisted on the ribbons being put in my hair and Mum finally relented lol. Sure enough - when I arrived at school, there was a party, the feast day of Sister Benedicta and the nuns had cooked all sorts of treats for all of us to celebrate. When I got home, my mother was furious with me, she yelled, 'Enough of this nonsense, from now on I don't want to hear anymore of what you know and how you know it - it's pure evil'. That stuptified me, I was evil as well as different. I think it was about that time, I really started to lose my self confidence, despite knowing that my parents loved me.
My grandmothers, were both particuarly protective of me. My Nan on my mother's side, would always give me extra encouragement. She would sit me on her knee, kiss and cuddle me and tell me how beautiful my nature was, I was always a very compassionate child. I remember her saying, 'LouAnne, never lose your lovely compassion, it's a rare gift you don't see these days'. My other grandmother on my Dad's side, would always have time for me. She was a gentle lady, very mildly mannered, she would spend hours teaching me how to cook, crotchet, sew and knit. I loved doing these things, and marveled at how creative I could be. She said to me 'LouAnne, I don't worry about my other grandies, but I worry about you. You are far too sensitive, you have to toughen up hunny, if you want to survive'.
High School saw me completely rebel. I resented authority, I felt restricted and confined because people couldn't or wouldn't accept me for who I really was. Mind you, I had no idea then of who I really was either. I guess that's quite typical of teenage behaviour. I literally felt like a square peg in a round hole. I was always in trouble - even expelled 4 weeks before my High School Certificate. My parents managed to get me back in to sit the exam, which btw, I passed with flying colours, without picking up a book to study, much to the utter astonishment of my teachers and complete surprise of my parents. I was encouraged to further my education, but I just wanted to escape that institution at the first opportunity. Which I did.
Well, suffice to say, that the next few years of my life from being a 17 year old to say approx 23, were absolutely tumultuous, would be a complete understatement. I found myself in a job I loathed, I was dabbling with drugs and indulging in alcohol. So many of my friends and acquaintances, just didn't pull through those years but for some reason I was spared. I found myself pregnant at 18, gave birth to a stillborn baby, which I had agreed to put up for adoption. I was in trouble with the law and actually spent some time behind bars - but on appeal was released on a good behaviour bond. I've seen things that would make the devil himself quiver and shake with fear. I guess this was the major catalyst in my life - where I had to decide to 'change' in order to survive.
So I eventually went back to school, obtained a degree in nursing. I was a pallative carer, looking after the terminally ill and dying patients. I loved this job, I really felt I was making a difference and it all felt so worthwhile. I felt it was a priviledged place to be, caring and assisting those who were about to 'cross over'. It's a very sacred and an amazing spiritual experience, to be there when another moves on. However, due to a back injury from the heavy manual handling of patients, I soon had to forego this job.
During this time, I met my husband. He was everything I wanted, well at the time I thought so. We fell pregnant, only to be completely distressed by another still birth. By this time - I was wondering if I was cursed or jinxed. I was told by the doctors, that it would be near impossible for me to conceive again, as I had lost a lot of blood and there was damage to one of my fallopian tubs which had to be surgically removed. The thought of not being able to become a mother left me bereft and desolute. I guess at the tender age of 25, my spiritual journey began. I wanted an explanation for all that was occurring in my life, I desperately wanted a baby with all my heart. I'd pray every evening, to whom ever, nobody in particular, just to give me this one gift and I would promise to be a better person. Finally we fell pregnant again, and I successfully carried my beautiful daughter to full term. She is a beautiful and divine gift, as I haven't been able to fall pregnant since. I was so grateful, I had something to live for, a real reason for being here. I devoted myself to her raring. Unfortunately, my marriage brokedown two years after my daughters birth. So I bought her up as a single parent. Lovers came and went, I didn't want to get into another complicated relationship situation. Many friends have passed or moved on. It's been a mixture of happiness and sadness. It's definately not been easy.
NOT EASY!!! The eternal lament of a Starseed. None of this has been an easy ride. I realise now, with the 'getting of wisdom', all I have been through, all the heartache, pain, sorrow, happiness, bliss and joy of my experience here on earth, has made me 'tougher' and stronger. I had to 'toughen' up to survive this bloody ordeal. Funny thing, my niece came over the other day and we pulled out some old photo's, as she wanted to see what her mum looked like as a little girl. I found a picture of myself, at the age of about three, it was a formal photo of me, in a pretty frilly dress, white socks and shoes, with a big ribbon in my hair. I was holding onto my beloved BIG teddy bear. My niece was surprised, she commented 'Wow Aunty Loulou, you look so sweet and innocent'. I looked into the little girls eyes in the picture, so wide eyed and completely demure. I wonder where she has gone??? I look in my eyes now and they are completely different - kind of sad, with laugh lines around them, coupled with frown lines in my brow. I then realised that I have laughed just as much as I have cried. So I guess it has all balanced out. I finally understand who I am, where I have come from and why I am here
Yes - as Tom suggested, this experience has been tough, it has made me tougher, definately not harder. As a survivor, I have gained endurance, resilience, wisdom, forgiveness, compassion, empathy, and ultimately, LOVE. Best thing I have acquired during my journey, is faith in myself, confidence that I can do this, no matter what gets thrown in my way - and the ride ain't over yet.
Much love to you all
Ishtar )O(
This song I dedicate to all you STARSEEDS out there - it's truly a beautiful expression of who we really are.
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3 Mar 2012 - 11:32am
They own no horns, they own no wings,
They don't even know of our existence.
Is it wrong for me to believe in a land of gold,
That lies asleep in your minds I screamed.
You can't restrain me any longer, I won't take this.
I'm breaking down the door of this cage and breaking out.
I am a creature you say? Let me treat you this way,
Let me be the one who grabs you by your beliefs and chucks you out
Now can you see beyond there?
Beyond the bounds of your weak imagination
Can you reach the nobel towers of my city, glistenign gold.
Allow me to take you there, to show you our living story.
Let me show you how others like me live in unity.
Why did I ever leave? Why did I chose to come down here?
I'm here to show you all what you need, I'm here to inspire.
I'm setting out with this beast, no horns, no wings.
Taking him away from his crazy description of home.
A peak we reached after many a long mile.
I seen the glisten in his eye, I seen the disbelief shrink and shy.
I followed his stare, to where our world lay,
He cried out in disbelief that our tricks aren't of magic, they are reality.
The beast was gone, his voice still heard, he now understands why I am here.
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1 Mar 2012 - 5:01pm
http://www.theworldoftruth.org ,Through our engagement with the higher councils to follow the latest developments that will be in place in this world (2012); we like to keep you posted on some of these developments:
The first contact of Galactic Federation of Light if very close and implementation, and they were given the green light for implementation...etc
Story
16 Feb 2012 - 8:57pm
In this most recent time phase of human experience, we have been very outwardly focused, relying almost entirely on our five senses.
Our higher awareness never left us.
The patterns we've developed over the past ten thousand years are quite rigid yet they must be broken to evolve humanity, starting with ourselves. The higher frequencies now returning into/onto this planet at this time actually help us to re-member; re-member who we Are, why we are here and what we can we be. Our higher (we would say inner) awareness is a vital component to creating and residing in a reality beyond the 3D.
We hone and develop our inner awareness by going within our energy field, practicing, re-membering, experiencing from our higher/inner sensory system. We access rejuvenation, wisdom, insights, peace, love and joy, all from with-In our energy field.
Humanity's methods of learning have also been outwardly focused. Hence, we look outside ourselves for insights on how to go within. Notice the paradox? Accessing your Divine With-In is ideally discovered by making time for it, experimenting and discovering a process that works for you. Disconnecting from the five senses, going into the magical levels of our Core essence, allowing the higher/inner senses to engage and re-connect with our conscious awareness... Releasing our attachment on the five sensory experience, trusting Our ability to use our higher awareness systems, allowing it to be as real as the five sensory 3D experience. Allowing it to be real without facts, figures, or physical "proof". Can we really do this? That is your decision. For me yes, every moment since I re-membered, honing and further developing by using my higher sensory system in all aspects of my human experience. To evolve from our Dark Age experience, this is integral, this is critical. It takes some practice, yet the rewards are rich, and necessary for continuing to truly expand our consciousnesss and shift out of a learning phase into our re-membering phase of experience, tapping into the Mastery we already Are, bringing in to our Earthly planes the New Human, us.
Namaste,
Jill Renee Feeler
Member of the Guardian Council of the Golden Ray
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
Story
16 Feb 2012 - 8:54pm
Divine Feminine? Divine Masculine? The more I allow my own expansion the less attached I become to the concept of gender in my experiencing the higher levels of consciousness. In pondering this topic, I asked Gaia ("Mother Earth") this morning if she identifies with both divine masculine and divine feminine energies. Her response? Of course. In my experience presently, the Sun is not "male", the Earth is not "female" they are both, they are whole-ness in their God frequencies at their highest frequencies which is how I choose to experience their consciousness.
Mind bender...
We love gender identification and our languages across the globe amplify this part of our experience, wanting us to classify almost everything as he or she :-) At our highest levels of consciousness, the closer we allow our energy fields to access Source frequencies in their purest form possible to each of us, we notice we are both, we are whole, we are perfect.
When we allow ourselves to make our stage of energy and experience to be limitless, we also escape beyond the many, many boundaries we often place on ourselves. The beautiful integration of Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine in our consciousness allows us to access even more wisdom, more light, more of our pure God essence.
Am I still in a female form/bodysuit on Earth? Of course, and loving that, too :-) Do I allow my energetic awareness and consciousness to receive and integrate beyond just this physical form? Yes :-) My form is a suit, it is not who I am. In the higher realms we also sometimes choose a more masculine or more feminine looking form and yet we allow ourselves to be so much more than that ♥ Limitless-ness, ahhhhhhh ♥
Namaste,
Jill Renee Feeler
Member of the Guardian Council of the Golden Ray
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
Story
8 Feb 2012 - 4:52pm
As our consciousness expands and we feel more awareness about what has been and continues to be creating separation of humanity from God withIn. This can lead to feeling disillusioned. It can also develop into a new sense of separation from our own humanity. Another experience is also possible from this expanded consciousness, the falling in love with humanity at an even deeper, more rich, more soul-ful level than was possible from a more limited consciousness and sense of Self.
In my own re-membering expansion, I have fallen helplessly and completely in love with humanity. I access my profound affection and reverence for humanity, its unique role for All that Is and those blessed enough to experience it. My re-membered awareness of the purpose and beauty of separation offered by Earth and humanity offers me that sense of compassion and understanding for all the choices and experiences being created by all of us here.
I sense many here feel this way, at their core, feeling our pre-wired sense of this truth.
We Are here, we volunteered to be here *because of* our deep and authentic love for humanity. This is how the Great Shift is fueled...in this power. The Power of Love we know from our homes across the Cosmos, sharing this gift with humanity as it re-members it's true Self, its inherent Sovereignty. It is the time phase for this re-membering. That is why We are here now.
Root yourselves here ♥ From this frequency. Your love is more powerful than any natural disaster, any sinister plan. Access the uniqueness, the perfection in Your ability and Your willingness to Be here, at this frequency, this LOVE for humanity. From here, we change the vibration of the planet and usher in the Platinum Age, by our Be-ing our home frequencies from within the bodysuit. Yes, this feels good ♥♥♥ And so it is. Namaste ♥
Love and blessings,
Jill Renee Feeler
Member of the Guardian Council of the Golden Ray
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
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8 Feb 2012 - 12:24pm
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6 Feb 2012 - 11:40pm
I tried posting this to the video's but it wouldn't actually post the video..just a white window where a video would be. So I am postng this very valuable information..with Evidence..not just theories, here in the blogs section.
Love,
Sheila
Mary Rodwell:The New Humans-Starchildren & Indigos
Mary Rodwell presents testimony from over 1600 cases, that indicates how advanced extraterrestrial intelligences are preparing the human psyche to accept their presence on our planet. Evidence of complex extraterrestrial programs, which will enable us to interact with and communicate with them, as well as understand our place in the cosmos.This involves downloads of data such as our true genetic origins, using our psi skills with advanced technology, manipulation of matter, astrophysics and healing. Coupled with genetic, and spiritual programs for awakening of human consciousness, to assist humanity to evolve into a fully functional multidimensional human, Homo Noetics. The New Humans.Mary Rodwell presented "The New Human - Starchildren & Indigos" on Sunday 8th August, 2010 at the Leeds Exopolitics Expo.
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5 Feb 2012 - 7:48pm
With all the hoopla lately about being taken up on 'ships', and ET's, I thought this adds a grounded view of things. When I had my own First Contact, I also went through a couple of years where the desire to be with my space family was very strong! Since then I have come to feel that WE will merge with 'Them' at some point. I do not feel they will come here, we will go 'there'. Or maybe a better way to say it is we will BECOME as they are, and then we will SEE THEM! It's OUR vibration that is rising to meet theirs. It isn't a matter of them not being here yet, its a matter of we aren't 'there' yet. I will also add during my First Contact I was given the knowing the Light Ships I was visually seeing were the actual BEING, not a ship we could board as so many perceive. In other words I was actually seeing their LIGHT BODY/SHIP.
Blessings,
Sheila
Rick ~ Saturday’s Attempt at Disclosure
by Rick on Sunday, 5 February 2012 at 18:40
This weekend has exemplified the ongoing issue of timing of Disclosure and First Contact. As the information we have received about the Galactics has mostly come through channeling there is always the issue of how are we affecting the transmission. Some assume the transmission is correct and it is the fault of those Lightworkers who believe something should happen but aren’t holding the the Light highly enough. Or that naysayers are the problem. Many hold the Galactics at fault for their reticence to do things the way we think they should. I would like to share a different perspective.
For years after I was first contacted in 1970 I would push for a landing and pickup. In the deserts and mountains. I so strongly wanted to be with my galactic family again. Each time the inner Voice would say (after my ego quieted down.)
“Trust all things to be in Perfect Timing. This is not just about you. It is not just your wants and fears. Learn to surrender to the Higher Part of you. When you do that the ego quiets down and Joy blossoms.”
Many many times I have had to relearn the lesson and still do. Surrendering to my Higher Self, to the Greater Good for All. I believe this is the Essence of how the Galactics live in the Higher Dimensions (Fifth and above.) This is Essence of shifting into Ascension. We have come to believe that Surrender is wrong, that it is surrendering to the Elite (of religions, governments, the military) who have always led us into slavery. But surrendering to the Divine is the recognition that there is a part of us, directly connected to the Source of All That Is that sees our place in the Greater Plan (including our own personal greater plan).
When we let go and allow our Higher Self to lead and guide us, we come into Peace and into the Flow.This current situation exemplifies what happens when we manifest with the idea that we know best and the Galactics (who can see the dynamics of all the people on this planet and have been watching out for us throughout the Ages) need to be pushed into doing it our way. Saturday energized a lot of people which is great and at the perfect moment it will all happen, but probably not as we envision it “should” happen.
Just one opinion.
http://2012indyinfo.com/2012/02/05/rick-saturdays-attempt-at-disclosure/
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11 Jan 2012 - 12:22am
I have been spending a lot of time recently putting the whole of my soul existence on earth into some kind of perspective. My soul chose, as a 'graduate' from other systems to come to Earth to be part of the experiment and assist in the awakening of soul life on this planet. I have had 1442 earth lives to date and have planned on 3 more. I am and have always been an ET soul here; yes we are all souls, and we all come from the same place, but we are all different. The question is: I am now feeling that the time for the 'old' souls has gone and our purpose has been fulfilled. Do any of you feel the same? I am aware of my past lifetimes and know I have worked very hard to carry the light, it just feels right now that that time is over (as my council would say: the game is ended). Guess I'm not really looking for answers, just hoping to connect with other souls who have been here a long time too.
Namaste,
James.
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10 Dec 2011 - 1:40pm
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9 Dec 2011 - 6:29am
what am I suppose to do with all this? Where do I come from and what for is all this energy in such a big ammount? Sometimes it makes me feel uncomfortable however the energy does not make me feel better physically. I wonder why and why I can't change it.
Story
21 Nov 2011 - 5:18am
"Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom and perspectives on the very unique time phase you are experiencing. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at these magical cycles of time on your planet.
Since the 11.11.11 portal activation, many of you have been on a roller coaster of energetic fluctuations, our partner included. When you are ushering new energetic frequencies onto the Earth planes, materializing more of your home frequencies into your Earthly home, this process is unstable for a period of time. This is not unusual. Many of you can recall other surges of higher light around other key gateway activations (Dec. 22, 2010, Mar. 9, 2011. June 21, 2011, Oct, 28, 2011, to name a few). In each of these instances many of you can recall feeling unprecedented levels of light and love in your energy fields followed for many of you by some often surprising dips in vibration.
You are anchoring these higher energies. This is a process of embracing new highs, allowing the subsequent dips if they come about and following the flows when the waves crest up again and then you find yourselves at a higher steady state as a result. This unstable part is natural to the integration of higher light frequencies into your physical realities.
As you have these dips we offer the following approaches, which our partner has come to appreciate as her own protocol 1) trust they are temporary, 2) allow them to be 3) avoid analysis and not entertain how and why type questions which give the dip more momentum than is necessary, 4) allow the universe to show you all the Love and Joy around you, assisting you out of the dip like a loving and capable outstretched hand when the flow is there to support it, 5) experience your Self by interacting as much as possible with others of similar or higher energetic resonance.
Additionally, 6) allow these dips to show you further areas for clearing. Very much like a brighter light in a room ready for re-decorating, you can more clearly see what in your energy fields is no longer resonant with your higher levels of light. These amplified lower frequencies you feel make the remnant programs more clearly visible, asking to be faced, ready to be released from your energy fields, like a caged bird ready to be set free. The lows are an opportunity. Facing and then detaching from these remnant programs is a valuable part of the process, helping you make more energetic space for the love and light that you Are, at your Divine Core.
A whole new You awaits with each phase of this process. 11.11.11 remains a gateway for each of you to further embody more and more of our God frequencies. You asked for this gateway. You helped design it. And this is a Divine time for that integration, as the Design plans have another series of energetic surges of higher light on deck within a partial solar eclipse coupled with the New Moon on Nov. 25, a total lunar eclipse on Dec. 10, the December solstice on Dec. 22 along with the numerous spiritual celebrations in these last weeks of the calendar year among all of your major world religions.
Go with the flows being orchestrated for you by your Higher Self. Embrace the moments in which the Universe is seemingly making love to You. Also, alow the clearing that will continue to be offered.
Dips may not come to pass for you with these surges -- please remember that everyone's process is unique and highly dependent on the amount of alignment already obtained, or not, between your human experience and your Soul's blueprint being offered. Tension and pressure will persist in any areas where further alignment is being offered, and perhaps resisted.
You set this up. It is your Higher Self and your dedicated spiritual support team assisting you in this alignment process, helping you experience the journey you volunteered for. For all of you as volunteers, this includes the clearing of embodied programs and the simultaneous integration of your God frequencies to the best of your ability, restoring the natural Sovereignty to the human race and to the planetary record of Gaia.
Small task? No. This is The Great Shift, consequential enough to have a noticeable ripple effect throughout the Cosmos. That is why You are here. The Masters. The Specialists. Your Starseed families chose You as a representative, as an ambassador for your starseed lineage(s). Others are embodied representatives of Councils, Federations, Oversee-ers and many, many other key roles you know from the Higher Realms.
The Ground Crew is present and You are a key player in the carrying out of these Design Plans. We know this because You are In the bodysuit.
Can you feel it, how this resonates with-In your Soul, like a memory from Home, an activation of recall and recognition for your purpose and value as an infinite Soul who volunteered to assist in this Great Shift, by your participating, by your embodying your home frequencies within your carefully chosen human bodysuit? Remember? Re-member.
Welcome. We are so glad you are present. Now...it's time to be You.
With love and infinite blessings,
The Guardian Council of the Golden Ray shared through Jill Renee Feeler"
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
www.facebook.com/jillreneeonline
http://www.youtube.com/user/beacon4lightworkers?feature=mhsn
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11 Nov 2011 - 12:15am
OK here it is! I promised it! People are waiting. Welcome to the party - Come One Come All - Come As You Are! Disclaimer: Due to experiences at the last two parties, I will not take responsibility for any shenanigans....LOL>..But HAVE FUN with HUMOR, LAUGHTER AND LOVE as your divine inspiration!
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9 Nov 2011 - 2:27pm
I have recently found channellings from Ute Posegga-Rudel, on his blog ' Messages from the realms of spirit'. They are very important to the human race and planet Earth, if only everyone would realise this. I have only been following him now for just over a week and I'm so glad that I found him when I did as 11-11-11 is of powerful significance, to the shift in the Earth's energies. We should all connect to Earth on this day as it is the pre-cursor for the dramatic shift in 2012.
Nostrodamus predicted in his writings that the world would come to an end in 2012. I expect like many of you out there, I always thought this meant in a physical sense, but I now realise that this means a dramatic change in the Earth's energies that will change the Earth forever, so yes the Earth as we know it will end, but it is just a new beginning, which we must be ready for.
I will let you judge for yourselves, I urge you to please read Ute Posegga-Rudel, on his blog at: - Messages from the Realms of Spirit
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7 Nov 2011 - 2:57am
You may enjoy reading and discussing here 4 chapters of my book: I just added a chapter on Reincarnation. I am eager to hear your views and may rewrite some based on what I learn from you.
http://www.maxsteinberg.com/?page_id=2
Love, Max
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19 Oct 2011 - 11:07pm
Freedom of the soul... I remember...finally... I have pierced through this veil that iv'e been trying to push through for the past 10 years.
I DIED...
The 6th car crash ( with 3 minor ones following ) The Fatal one...the one that i died in ...that i refused to see.
I have been a walking corpse ever since, staying , for the love of my son If i die...who will take care of him?
so i struggled and stayed, even though my spirit was leaving breathless, lifeless, alone and afraid.
Not realizing i had died.... but also.... how come no one else knew? why hadnt anyone seen that i had died in this crash?
Why did the darkness stop me from seeing i was dead?
It was in winter of 1986 or 87. The car i was a passenger in, with my son sitting on my lap
The driver had made his stop at the crossroads on the highway back to Montreal
what he didnt know was that there was no stop sign on the other side of the road, i didnt know he was not aware...
As he began to cross the highway, seeing the other car from not too far and coming at high speed
i didnt even get a chance to ask him what is he doing crossing now.... it was sudden... BANG!
The other car crashed into the passenger's side where i sat , my son thank God ... falling to the floor, unharmed
the car spinning around in a wild circle and all windshields crashed out.. the other car pushing the door into my leg.
I was in such a shock, worried about my son who was unharmed.... not seeing that i had died one second; that's all it took....
one second to end a life even though i walked out with whiplash and a badly bruised leg, i had died... and i have struggled ever since...
fighting to stay for the sake of my children yet wanting to go "home" i had not realized.... i already went home!
I became a walking corpse ever since... living in such pain. How come no one could see?
i was dead, could no one see that?
Look at me.... i'm not here...can't you see?
The pain has been so great...trying to pierce through the veils of darkness that descended upon me.
In 1997, after completing and graduating with highest honors in Parapsychology ... i experienced a major change in my life...
Knowing how everything is vibration and numbers play an important role in all of life I decided to legally change my name...
Change your name, you change the vibrations of your life, and my life before my death was not most times a happy one.
In 1999 I legally went from being "Diane Lynne LeBoeuf"... to who i am today... Misty Dicana Fehus
Then the illusions began... the old me, hanging on for dear life, refusing to let go and the new me....saying " HEY! Look at me...I AM HERE "
I believed i walked into this body only in March 2004, but that was the illusion.
That day was the beginning of the awareness of the old me starting to go.
And what an awareness.... I finally saw where I had come from..
Golden Light and Pure Love.... My Celestial home.
Ever since March 2004, iv'e been trying to go back "home"
When i arrived in Egypt on December 1st 2008 December 25th was quite an experience...
sitting with 5 friends, i suddenly tranced out where one of the young men saw and asked what i was getting
And i said what i saw : "Right now...i am in the future...and THIS is my past life, I am in 2 places at once and fully aware of it....so strange "
When the young man asked why i was crying, i told him these arent my tears they are my tears from a past life, not now ...
and it was the vision that i was seeing that brought these tears.
They asked about the vision and i told them .. i was seeing destruction in Egypt with millions of people dead.
They asked many questions like when and how but i was only able to bring so much information back...
all i saw was a big explosion of Light....so we "assumed" maybe a bomb of some kind?
And since that day, i have been in and out of the future.... struggling.... worried....alone and afraid Just like the old me.... "Diane" was.... all her life before she died.
How can you die, yet not know you are dead? How can you die, yet no one even knows you have died?
I was too busy worrying about my children to even know i was already gone.
Did you know my son also died? yet...he is still not aware of this fact... as he also is stuck behind the illusions of the world
He was in a near death experience also several times and is still stuck in the illusions...
But one day, he also will wake up and see... how he had died...and is here again to help.
Since the experience of arriving in Egypt, i have been in and out... not fully here.
Since my name change...i kept trying to ascend.... not aware at all that i already have.
Now all my visions make perfect sense.... and all the messages my Angels brought are becoming clear.
I am not only a walk-in spirit ( as per my awareness) I am actually.... My Future self...my Higher self... returned to finish what i came to do....
help those who are lost to find their way back. I had never fully let go of Diane.... I was holding on for dear life... thinking this world would die also.
But ... It's ok. Now she is fully gone.... knowing that she is no longer needed here.... the illusions are leaving.
And the explosion of Light i saw which killed millions of people in Egypt? this is it...Egypt is already dead....
the Love and the purity it held in the beginning is not here...gone... leaving behind millions of walking corpses also....
walking in the darkness without seeing any light to show them the clear roads ahead.
This is what my visions showed me....the darkness is NOW...the Light is COMING.. it is finally Here...
I have been meeting many of my past-life soul family since this life time.
Now... knowing i had died and returned from the future when i could have stayed in the beauty of the Golden Light and Love i remember so well...
I am fully conscious of..it was never about me "ascending" I had already done that...
It was about truly "descending"... coming back here fully...100% without fear... without holding on...without hardship,
for...i already have died..... so now... It is to" Live"... to live fully... knowing that the beautiful Golden Light i remember so well... is already here...
it never left me I don't need to keep trying to reach it...it never left me... it is here...right inside me.
I am no longer ......"Dead" NOW My work can truly begin... to help return This world to Love.
Today..i grieve the old me....as it is ok to grieve, just not be stay stuck behind this veil of illusions which the darkness brings.
As I grieve, i also begin to truly ......Live. My Shaman had told me several years ago in my naming ceremony at the sweat lodge
" Misty...I see you in many circles... and when you reach the circles, you break away and go into the center and create many more circles,
leading the way with a dove in the palm of your hand.
you keep trying to climb back to Creator....but they are showing me... you are already that Great spirit you are trying to reach stop trying to climb....
you are already that being... there is nothing left for you to do but just be .
And it is with great Honor that the crows share their name with you You are the crow... now ... Just Be "
I have seen An Angel in solid form several years ago...and it had no head which i thought was strange it told me...
" This is your soul" i couldn't understand as i was dead.
I met a Golden messenger at the Heart Sanctuary who told me " you don't need to do anything...
it is your vibrations that is helping people to come out, to live again"
But.... i couldn't understand...i was dead. Now...I Live again... I have come alive and know...
WE ARE HERE IN GREAT NUMBERS TO HELP SHIFT THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE EARTH...
OUR GREAT MOTHER.
WE MAY BE YOUR PARENTS OR YOUR SIBLING YOUR NEIGHBORS
OR THE STRANGERS YOU PASS EACH DAY ON THE STREETS.
IT IS NOT WITH THE EYES THAT YOU WILL KNOW...
IT IS IN THE HEART THAT WHICH IS INSIDE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.
WE ARE YOU!
I Love you ♥ w
ith all the greatest love the Heart can ever hold !
I am Alive and now... you can see me !
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12 Oct 2011 - 8:39pm
Act One: The Lion’s Tale
“Doors” yell the clowns while the crowd rushes in.
Life sized animal puppets dance to African drums and jungle sounds.
Tribal people do handstand flips and jump through fire hoops.
I ROAR and the crowds roar back; humans are so predictable.
The last thing I remember, the Stargate portal, a wormhole of
Inter dimensional time travel discombobulated.
A volatile event must have happened in the cosmos,
maybe time lines became entangled.
It must have been an oscillation effect at a chaotic time node.
A foggy mist appeared and an inner voice whispered,
“Dreams in the rings are the answer, complete within themselves.”
Instead of being an Egyptian God, I’m a simple lion. . . . .behind bars…
performing with the Ascension Circus.
Delegated to entertaining the masses, I’m locked into a third dimension
of crowds, lemon aide and popcorn.
Earthlings are so different compared to our majestic lion beings
from the Lyran Star System.
It’s usually an easy dial to get here, just calibrate a frequency
pulse through a wormhole and arrive in ancient Egypt.
Under the Great Sphinx, I am Aker, the great guardian
lion-being who helps the sun god Ra travel across the desert.
This circus experience is way beneath my dignity, and this stool is damn uncomfortable.
I’m kind of sleepy. I can’t focus. I’m getting nervous.
Okay, here we go, my partner Isaac is being introduced.
He always wears the same outfit, too much furfura, but consistency calms me down.
Wow, look at that seductive lioness, Miss Cleo!
The ringmaster’s voice booms around the tent. The voice of the circus, he commands everyone’s attention.
“Ladies and Gentleman, and children of all ages, I introduce to you,
the World Famous Tamer of the Most Ferocious Beast of the Jungle, Sir Isaac!”
Taking a deep bow, Sir Isaac displays his black leather whip.
Blond shoulder length hair accents a purple shirt with glittery parsley designs.
It opens in front to accent Isaac’s muscular chest.
His white pants are tight and contrasted by tall, black leather boots.
Isaac’s facial expression betrays no fear about entering the den with man-eating lions. In fact, he portrays calmness; he knows cats are unpredictable.
His whip is snapped for dramatic effect; but he always uses the same hand.
Sir Isaac explains to the crowd, “ Lions do not like surprises, they are highly suspicious of anything new. Their eyes are always observing. They are exquisite creatures; intelligent with needle-sharp perception and each has its own idiosyncrasies.”
He cracks his whip again and Aker roars loudly. In partnership, they perform a repertoire of leaps, hugs and cat pyramids.
As a lion trainer, I can hold a lion’s attention for about 30 seconds. The pedestals are too small so the lions constantly fidget to find a comfortable position. They are less prone to attack if they are focus on their stool. Security and consistency are what lions crave most.
My star lion, Aker, is a ponderous beast with the temperament of a male dog.
He may seem ferocious, but mostly he lollygags and is eager to please.
Aker is a mystery; I picked him up cheap from a carnival in Chattanooga.
There was no paper work available, like he dropped in from the sky.
Aker respects me, but lack of attention can mean loss of my head.
Like the one time during the “Head in the Mouth Trick,” he unpredictably came down sharp. I was bleeding and he stopped just in time.
My gallant assistant save the day while the band played the distress song.
I acted like it was nothing because the trainer always takes the blame.
It’s not Aker’s fault that some joker with pepper came around his cage right before his performance.
Now I am much more careful, I leave nothing to chance.
Act One is over; Aker and Isaac take a bow together.
The magnificent lion peers up at the heavens and roars,
“What are those coordinates and where is my rescue team?”
The crowd applause gets even louder and drowns out his SOS call.
Aker hesitates before entering the tunnel; the other cats push up against him.
This startles him and he wonders,” What on earth was I thinking about and. . . .
Why are the female cats snarling at my backside?
A snap of the whip focuses him back to this time line.
Oh yes, this is no time to dilly-dally; I’ll just lead Miss Cleo back to the security of our cage. Besides, I’m sleepy and hungry and feeling a bit jumpy.”
I’ll worry about the time travel tomorrow. Yes, I’ll be a bit less distracted and it will be easier to do tomorrow.
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5 Oct 2011 - 6:01pm
I conveyed this in an email to a friend, but felt a need to share it with you, my inspiring enlightened lightworker friends, and I hope it makes sense out of context of conversation with you. Feel free to ask questions if you resonate and have one.
I had a download after I wrote you, in relation to thinking about our friendship. I had a thought that knowing you would be a trigger for each of us to remember who we are. Instantly I got a sense that "The body is a computer" and "We are way more than the body/computer." In fact when we think we are the physical, it causes suffering. The body-computer is the vehicle. It is what we express who we are through, it runs from the greater nonphysical REAL us. Somehow playing with this lights me up with knowing, and makes me feel freedom. Then I spoke with S. about her idea of us coming back from the future, a recent download that she had and explained to me. It is something like this: we think the movie (or our life) is going forward (and speeding up) but it is going backward to who we really are. It is like the future self is inhabiting this 3d form more and more with what it knows in the future, multidimensionally and all. The form is our vehicle, the body-computer. I don't know if I can explain it but zero point is coming soon. By that I mean the end of the Mayan Calendar, the end of time, meaning a dimension, the third, or an experience of linear process ie time.
Another way to see it as many are in the 3d Operating system at this time, and are mind based. And some are in the future, say 5000 A.D. self Operating system, fully multidimensional and heart based, most of the time, yet it clashes (within us and with one another too) with the remnants of the 3d one that is still there. The old operating system is like a virus that fears deletion. It clings onto being changed. It is from before our future selves came into the instrument, the human body.
So many who are looking at Wall Street Protests, wondering why those people don't shut up and get jobs (as programming would dictate for THEM), etc. are on the 3d system mostly, old operating system,95% utilize, yet many of those we (at Lightworkers) know, us starseeds and lightworkers are on the multidimensional ones in various degrees, more coming online all the time as we awaken further and increase our light quotient.
Time feels like it is speeding up, but it isn't says my friend quoting Elohim (as channeled by Veronica in a video she saw today synchronistically). She says that the feeling of time speeding up and being overwhelming is from using the muscles of the heart based self that is learning how to cope with this new way of being. We lightworker starseeds are here to help the new heart based operating systems install. Make sense? ♥
LR
Story
1 Oct 2011 - 3:59am
"Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom and perspectives on the very unique time phase you are experiencing. We offer our unique perspective on the Cosmic relationship to your Personal Ascension and your unique Role in the Shifting of Ages. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at these magical cycles of time on your planet.
Let us begin with this sharing session.
You have volunteered to be part of the ground crew in ushering in the dawning of what we term the Platinum Age. Given its uniqueness relative to other Golden Ages and the unprecedented nature by which it is occurring, it seems fitting of a unique name. You are utilizing these cycles and shifts to carry out an unprecedented growth phase; an evolution of humanity and of Earth which strongly effects the vibrational rate of not only your solar system but each of your Soul’s “homes” within the Cosmos and All that Is. Many representatives from throughout the Cosmos are among you in embodied form at this time. We see many Specialists and tremendous Mastery when we view you and it is our honor to share our insights with you, assisting in your re-Member-ing.
Simultaneously, you are escorting out this passing Dark Age. The awakening, clearing and transformation necessary in order to sufficiently affect this Grand Shift is profound and, as more and more of you are demonstrating, very “real” and very possible. We applaud your achievements in this important area while recognizing the work continues. You are clearing the records, beginning with your own elected programs and we will share more helpful details on this herein and in other sharing to further your progress.
We feel a sense of urgency to share with all ears that can hear the importance of the overall opportunity you have elected to participate in. We remind you that this Grand Shift is not being done to you or for you but rather by You. That was and is your voluntary role. Your Soul’s Mastery offered you the unique embodied state you now experience. A Golden Ticket, not for your observation but rather for your direct participation; your Co-Creation of this Platinum Age you are in the midst of Creating.
These transitions require much courage, compassion and perseverance. At your Soul level, you have access, in this present moment, to absolutely everything that is necessary for you to Be all that you dream of in this human experience. Anything you view as an obstacle or hindrance, either internal or external is a perception; a program, that you placed there and are fully capable of facing and releasing.
You are facilitating the clearing/healing of not only the collective human record but also the collective planetary record. Notice we used the term Collective. This goes well beyond your Soul’s own kharma. The collective human record and the collective planetary record is filled with much lower frequency programs, pains and wounds that are being experienced, and perhaps defining, your personal journeys. They defined the Dark Age. They remain in your personal reality, affecting your level of joy and well-being and lovability until you elect to face and release them.
This can be done and is being done by Master level Souls. By Specialists. By You. Your ability to step into your Mastery, allowing your Soul’s Divine Core energy to be experienced and amplified within your embodied state greatly expedites this process. By discovering the Master Within, you can more readily notice what doesn’t suit your Gloriousness, your Sovereignty and your birthrights of inner joy, Universal love, and self-created peace. Once you begin to expand your consciousness into these highly effective and empowering energetic vibrations you more easily see the remnant programs that had owned, defined and locked you into the separation and confinement of the passing Dark Age.
This multidimensional approach to overall Ascension is by design, with Your masterful assistance. It is ideally-suited to your embracing this New Age and to your releasing any and all attachments to these programs. Your responsibility, your volunteering is very much related to these two avenues being pursued from within your carefully crafted journey. By You. For You. Which simultaneously affects All that Is.
We wish to share a very brief overview of this highly effective clearing process made available by what we call the New Energies. It is your personal attachment to various forms of the collective record that allows each of you to face them and release them. You release them by no longer identifying Who you are, What you are and what you can Be to this painful or limiting experience or feeling.
By no longer personalizing them nor choosing to identify your Self with these lower frequency feelings and programs, You release them. It can be and Is that simple and it is highly effective. This approach also allows a quite rapid expansion process, particularly when coincided with a simultaneous Discovering, Activating and Allowing larger levels of your Inner Light, and Inner Mastery to be present in your Be-ing, Reflected in as many areas of your human experience as you are capable of.
This approach is being personally demonstrated through some embodied beings on your planet. We feel you will make your process your own as Masters often do (smile). We encourage you to follow your Inner Guidance, not replacing your programs from the Dark Age with any new programs that may also serve to limit or constrain your Inner Light from being fully accessed, quite readily, in any way. When looking for currently embodied examples, we share that a be-ing’s level of inner joy is an indication of their embodied vibration. The higher vibrations we are discussing radiate as joy and love almost through the skin, like a self-illumination. You have examples of this in your recorded history of Ascended Masters. It is a very real and tangible effect of embodying higher light quotients and it happens quite naturally through the process we highlighted briefly herein.
You are capable of choosing love and trust that All is Well All the Time, even in situations that are uncertain, covert, seemingly conspiracy-based, “uncontrollable” and perhaps even “life”-threatening. Any resistance you are feeling at this moment to that state of be-ing is a marker for further healing and releasing (including fear of what you call “death” which we address in detail in other messages).
We encourage you to focus your energies on further discovering your Inner Light, amplifying It and Be-ing it in its purest form that you are capable of in all moments, in all circumstances with as few exceptions as possible. Be your Light by re-examining who and what you are at your Core, which is whole, perfect, fully in tact, knowing, filled with well be-ing, allowing love, peace and harmony to emanate from this Divine Core, your Soul. The New energetic frequencies allow you improved and easier access to these vibrations than ever before.
From our perspective all the programs and resulting pains and wounds are not magically resolved due to or on any one date or even any one year. The shifting of ages is a process, not an event. As we have shared, Ascension is a very personal process. Some Be-ings are going faster than others in clearing their programs and in accessing more and more of their inner God frequencies while others are farther along but going at a slower pace according to your linear time. We recommend patience with your Self as well as the masses, choosing to Trust that each Be-ing is doing the best they can with their present state of consciousness. This will assist greatly in staying out of judgment and from feeling like a hall monitor for the overall progression into the Platinum Age.
By further discovering and amplifying your own Light and further releasing your own programs, pains and wounds you are serving yourself as well as All that Is. All you can release is your own chosen programs. All you can amplify is your own Inner Light. This may seem small but in the contrary; it is powerful and hugely uplifting to the collective vibration of the human race, your planet and the Cosmos.
You will witness an ever widening spectrum of experiences on the Earth plane. Many are continuing to animate the lower frequency programs, unconscious of their Divine Within. Simultaneously, at the other end of the spectrum many are embodying Light quotients difficult for most to perceive as possible in human form. The realities experienced at either ends of spectrum or any shade in between could seem like living on different planets. This is what many have interpreted as the splitting of worlds. From our perspective, it is a widening of choices, an expansion of Free Wills being demonstrated, the spectrum widened by the cycles ensuing and the New Energies being offered to all and embraced by few as of yet.
All have access to their Divine Within. All are being offered support, guidance, and assistance from their Higher Selves and their spiritual support teams and free will offers many ways of experiencing this Grand Shift.
This ever widening spectrum of realities, from a sense of hell on Earth to the other spectrum of creating a personal heaven on Earth is something we envision continuing for what you know as years and possibly decades. Another reason to further activate your inner sense of guidance and your inner sense of well Be-ing.
What Can You or Should You Be “Doing”?
We share many messages for assistance, reminders and insights relative to your own personal ascension process, utilizing the New Energies and also fresh perspectives on the overall view of ascension to help you expand your consciousness, increase your light quotient and further release lower frequency programs and pains from your journey.
We encourage you to seek out these messages as you feel led. For the purposes of a more complete message herein, we share some brief highlights.
* Become personally responsible for your own sense of well-being to the best of your present ability.
* Own and Be your Mastery, your God-frequencies, to the very best of your ability.
* Allow and Amplify your inner Light to levels that will continuously exceed what you feel is possible while in human form on planet Earth, for your own enjoyment and the Collective’s.
* Watch for the flows of the Universe as it Guides you. When you are on purpose and in Divine timing, pursuits seem almost effortless, feeling like a red carpet being unfurled before you, honoring and recognizing who you are Be-ing and how you are Be-ing Your Light.
* Develop your inner Guidance System.
* Utilize the New Energies being offered to you.
* Notice the distractions, obstacles and barriers, stepping fully into your Mastery and respond accordingly.
* Create the reality you desire by expanding your consciousness and training your thoughts and feelings to work in harmony with your heart-centered consciousness.
* Release any personal attachments to the passing Dark Age and experience the Platinum Age, starting with you, which is all that you are responsible for.
* Avoid comparison to others by recognizing the very unique experiences each of you chose to work with and the vary unique Soul experiences you bring “with you”.
* Trust others enough to allow them the experience They are creating. By viewing others as the Co-creator they are, at their Soul level, you offer energetic encouragement and support for their Master vibrations. Your acknowledgment of the perhaps dormant Sovereignty that is within them is filled with potential activations and light codes the other being may choose to accept, or not. It is their choice. Detaching from the outcomes others are Creating for themselves may be a healthy approach, recognizing the energetic boundaries between the reality you are choosing and the one they are choosing.
* Refrain from Judgment (which is feeling or indicating that another being is making the “wrong” choice or a “bad” decision). Discernment is rooted in love, honor for self and honor for other. Discernment is noticing that You are not making that same choice for you. Discernment allows you to notice the varying choices being made without the need to label another’s choice as good/bad, right/wrong. Deciding something is not in your highest good is discernment. Determining something is not in another being’s highest good is judgment and beyond the scope of your authority or responsibility relative to free will and personal Sovereignty be-ing offered in your realms.
Of all of these, stepping into your mastery could be viewed as the primary objective. For it can be the most challenging as you are just transitioning from the Dark Ages. Be-ing your Sovereignty. Not in arrogance but in recognition of the unique aspect of God that only you can Be and that you volunteered to embody during this magical transition of Ages.
In terms of outlook, your individual process determines how long remnant Dark Age programs and energy grids are experienced in your personal energy field. Clearing these remnant programs and lower frequency patterns is a process that could continue well into coming decades, perhaps existing only as debris by that time phase or possibly remaining as looming obstacles and fear-based outcomes. Whether you choose the debris level or the looming level is entirely dependent on your trust, courage and ability to Be your Mastery without distraction and without hesitation, rooted in love for Self and love for All that Is, and remembering that All are Light at their Core, recognized or not.
As humanity evolves into realms previously unchartered, what you thought it would be like or what you were told it would be like might be quite different from what you Co-create. This will require even more flexibility and fluidity in how you view yourself, others and overall what Is. The Soul’s evolution is never “done”. What fun would that be? We witness you resonating with this, stirring an excitement in your Divine Core...activating your Master vibration(s). Your Creator frequency asking itself, “What’s next?” “What can we Be?” “What can we try?” Precisely, and we witness your Creations, your experience, with reverence and gratitude as you explore these ever increasing possibilities, allowing more and more expansion and growth for your Selves and for All that Is.
Namaste,
The Guardian Council of the Golden Ray shared through Jill Renee Feeler
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www.beaconforlightworkers.com
http://www.youtube.com/user/beacon4lightworkers?feature=mhsn
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28 Sep 2011 - 3:23am
Hello fam!
was curious to know all of your thoughts on Depersonalization disorder. I have had it since i can remember.. but my first horrible episode of DP was when i was 7 and looked in the mirror and asked ' who am i?'. I felt like wasnt this person starring back at me in the mirror. My voice was foreign, my skin felt numb to me, and i was HORRIFIED of the VOID i experienced.. I felt like my personality was gone and that i was completely detached from me.. just a walking foreign thing and i tried to run from me.. but obviously no where to run to.. id run to my mom and hold her as tight as possible. My heart would be beating a million times a minute and id keep repeating that i didnt know who i was. In my early teens i wanted to commit suicide as i felt i could not live with it any longer. But slowly i received guidance as to what i was experiencing but it wasnt till my late teens that i was drawn to Buddhism and found a relationship with the NO SELF.. and DP.
Though there is a difference.. i feel that people with DP may experience a similar No-self that Buddhism speaks of.. but in a different way... i think much of the younger generations carry a high vibe and easily move into altered states of consciousness and lose a sense of self.. if not lost they have a very frail/weak sense of self... and so feel easily depersonalized. Also stress, drugs, and the way the system is set up along with junk food doesnt help one bit.
I have been a part of DP communities online for years and now more than ever i am seeing tons of teens and others joining.. they all describe similar feelings.. here is an example someone posted today..
~Hey Guys,
I am an Australian 23 yr old male, and here is my story.
Some three weeks ago (to the day) I had a series of de ja vu's. I had gone to university and thought I might of been mildly psychic. I went home that night, and decided to set up my new speakers for my computer. It took me a while, but once it was all done, I went to go for a wee before bed. Once i got back to my room, I saw my Girlfriend in bed and had another de ja vu. This one really flipped me out--I felt like I was 'rising' or lifting. The world didn't feel real anymore and it happened in an instant. The weeks prior to this, I was having mild bouts of anxiety--usually hypochondria related or something like that. After the last de-ja-vu I started to question the existence of the outside world, it just didn't seen real. The next day I went to university and it got worse. I was in a tutorial for one hour having a severe panic attack--I was looking at all the people and realized that I felt so disconnected. I was a solipsist. And the anxiety lasted for four days until I couldn't even feel that I was real, my identity had disappeared, my personality was missing. It felt like someone had hijacked my brain and fucked it up. My memories felt fake, my childhood felt like it never happened
I also study philosophy, and being well acquainted with Heidegger, Sartre, Kierkegaard, I thought I had been realizing what they were talking about--but the thing is, I had realized it before but it never consumed me to this extent. (if your not familiar, just wikipedia them)
In the coming days I saw nothingness all around me, I couldn't feel for my friends or the things that I used to love. I couldn't feel anything for my Girlfriend, no sex drive, no nothing. Once I read about DP on the Monday after this episode, I cried to my girlfriend. It explained my situation perfectly. Then I thought it would get better, but it didn't. On the Tuesday I had entered the existential void--and it was full blown depression. My thoughts were racing, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't stop analysing anything--language, my identity, the outside world, my memories, there was no meaning. The world seemed so absurd and empty. Everything was absurd. Money, Life, the television, playing pool. Simply put, nothing made sense. And I told my girlfriend I didn't think I would return--because this was an 'existential' epiphany, or enlightenment. I saw the world for what it really was.
After the absurdism, I started deconstructing language. Everytime I talked I was thinking about what it was to talk, and it seemed ridiculous. What the fuck are words? ? ? It was terrifying, because I was trying to be 'normal', and then this voice in my head was screaming at me going 'THIS IS BULLSHIT, what you just said made no sense' etc etc. It was tormenting me, I couldn't turn it off.
I saw a therapist, and have made some recovery. Although I get scared I might slip back into depression, and I do not know what to make of the new world. I really want to get back to my normal, automatic, unreflective self who does things spontaneously. I've never been depressed, but I've had anxiety issues before. My therapist tells me, because the depression is gone, its an episode. But this week, in terms of progress, I'm not doing the best and I sometimes question if I will get better anytime soon. I still don't enjoy the things I used too (other than Pool, I play pool everyday now). But studying, and going out with friends, and playing computer games, and watching youtube just doesn't do it for me anymore.
I don't know man. I really question to what extent depersonalization is an illness and to what extent it is some epiphany which is made possible by the alienated modern world. But really--I just want to be able to function normally.
here is a timeline of my freakouts
de ja vu / anxiety --> questioned the outside world (nothing felt real) --> depersonalization (loss of self identity) --> depression (existential nothingness--a complete departure from the body / loss of appetite and motivation) --> absurdism (everything felt so foreign and ridiculous) --> questioning of language (to express oneself was so peculiar) --> back to nothingness / fear of death and mortality -- > and now (some sex drive has returned, appetite has returned, I can do things and have motivation (not very much), I can talk to people, my voice in my head has gone)
Im certainly better than I was, but god dammit. This week has been a slow one, and I feel like I got spiral back down to depression at any moment.
and here is a vid a woman made about her life with dp..
also i read that some who experience DP are experiencing a Walk-in. I dunno if i believe in walk-in's in the sense that a foreign entity steps in.. but dp can seem like that. Its strange. A mystery at times. I suppose there and many reason one may experience DP.
also many who have this also have ocd, pure-o (pure-obessional ocd) and other forms of anxiety. I rememeber always having pure-o so i suppose dp can result from obsessive thinking. :/
*edit* forgot to mention : that i dont suffer from DP so much anymore. I can experience it without the fear and just wanted some insight into the disorder.. others views. :)
Story
10 Sep 2011 - 2:24am
Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom at this time to assist you in reaching your next expansion of consciousness. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at these magical cycles of time on your planet. These messages are accessed from the higher realms relative to Earth’s vibrational frequency. Let us begin with this sharing session.
Please notice when others on your journey are accommodating your sense of need and/or reliance for inspiration, purpose and sense of fulfillment that is outside of You.
The opportunity for humanity is to step into your own power, your own Sovereignty, your own Mastery, individually, for yourselves and for All that Is. This is not selfish; this is Your mission as volunteers experiencing humanity. Anything that has you feeling separate from Your Inner Divinity is a distraction from your personal ascension process. This can even include messages and teachings of light and enlightenment...
Notice the crutches you have become dependent upon, intentional or not.
The Rescuer/Savior programming is still quite prevalent, even in spiritual/enlightenment communities, a carryover from religion and other dogma yet to be fully cleared. No judgment on this. It simply is and it is part of the overall process of stepping into your own Mastery, while not falling into a remnant lower frequency program of being another's Master.
The intention of others may be fully positive and well-meaning. And there are many of these remaining programs, even within enlightened beings, that perpetuate a sense of looking for Mastery outside of yourself. And those programs are yours to notice, face and release. Likewise there are many programs remaining which lead to feeling Mastery over others, fulfilling a need of others through your light and in the process unconsciously keeping others separate from their own light by feeding others with Your Inner Light. And this program may also be yours to notice, face and release. Reliance, need and dependence outside of your Core Divinity is separation.
We remind you it is your responsibility to be aware of how others work/service is either empowering you or keeping you in admiration and gratitude of Their Light. This pattern can be a program you are holding as much as it can be a program the other is holding. Another option from within the teacher or messenger role is to assist you in feeling that sense of being fed and nurtured by your own activated/amplified Light. After all, do you want the fish or do you desire to learn how to fish. Is another's work helping you further identify and activate your own light? Or is another's work continuing to feed your yearning for Spirit through Their light, like an enabler to continued reliance on energy, love and inspiration that is outside of your Core, your Created experience, your Mastery?
Waking up happens in stages. What you once felt was liberating and expansionary evolves into another phase where you feel the same thing as constricting as you continue to expand into a purer energetic reflection of You as a Soul.
In this regard, we encourage you to be cautious about those moments when you are feeling "done" with your personal ascension for We are never done evolving, as a human nor as a Soul.
What is your "next" stage of waking up? Where are you now feeling any sense of constriction in allowing more and more of your Inner Light to be accessed from within and beamed out for the benefit of All? Where are you feeling a Need to be fed spiritually that is outside of your Core? Is that provider you seek out Enabling you or Empowering you as a fellow Sovereign Be-ing?
Good day fellow Sovereign Beings. May your journey be continuously expansive and ever more glorious by the Light you allow from within.
Namaste,
Guardian Council of the Golden Ray and Jill Renee Feeler
Jill offers a webinar series on Embracing the New Energies ($22/recorded session), intuitive sessions (starting at $30) and many shared messages at no cost including a weekly radio show, written messages, videos, facebook posts to inspire and empower, to mention a few. As recently as three years ago, Jill was living a very mainstream life, using her MBA in corporate America and enjoying her family and friends from her very 3D perspective. Through a series of positive trigger events her activation began in Summer 2008, leading to her rapidly re-membering her psychic abilities, healing talents and abilities to channel messages from the highest realms. While helping others re-member their own multidimensionality, Jill is continuously nurturing her own continuous evolution, knowing we are never done growing as an infinite aspect of Source/God. She lives in Boise, Idaho with her husband of 18 years, her two daughters and their golden retriever. She gave notice to her Corporate career earlier this year, allowing her to spend more time on her sharing, her expansion, and valuable time with loved ones and her family's love for travel and new experiences.
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4 Sep 2011 - 12:16am
Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom at this time to assist you in reaching your next expansion of consciousness. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at these magical cycles of time on your planet. These messages are accessed from the higher realms relative to Earth’s vibrational frequency. Let us begin with this sharing session.
We witness the various roles and blueprints of spiritual messengers in physical form on your planet. This variety is by design, an important aspect of your opportunity to embody a level of Light that has never been accomplished in any other time phase of Earth. This variety of messengers and messages is creating confusion for some and we notice your desires for simplicity, a yearning for The One messenger, THE message. We offer you assistance in opening yourself to the ever increasing higher realm communications being offered to you through Self and others.
Many, many spiritual councils/oversee-ers, ambassadors, etc. from throughout the Cosmos have voluntary representatives in human form at this time. A portion of these volunteers serve as messengers, a specific role blueprinted to assist the planetary and personal ascension processes by sharing truths, wisdom and knowledge from the higher realms while also serving as energetic gateways for these higher frequencies.
Messengers as well as Members These messengers of the form we speak are also light body members of the group or consciousness from which they are channeling or receiving. Many of them are not conscious of this direct affiliation. Not being conscious of this direct membership at their Soul level does not diminish the quality nor relevance of their message. And, stepping into that awareness will serve to dramatically raise their vibration as they elect to identify with that aspect of their Soul’s responsibilities, owning more directly their home vibration as well as the Co-Creation role they have as a Soul in creating the messages they share. By embracing this aspect of their Soul’s identity, they not only deliver the message, they embody the vibration of the message. This is the next phase for many teachers on Earth of this blueprint form we speak. Some are in this phase presently, paving the way for many to follow and helping materialize the highest frequencies within the Earth plane.
Beneficial Filters and Energetic Gateways The messages being shared by these volunteers from their "teams" in light body form are affected by the vibration and energetic signature of the volunteer. Filtering does not always mean deterioration; filtering can also lead to amplification of the message, as these embodied messengers interpret and heart-fully discern the most appropriate manner of expressing the concept, idea, revolution or truth to their fellow humans. After all, being in a bodysuit has its practical benefits, including helping the message become real for others, not just in the words shared but the energy distributed through the message. These energies can and often do include activations, light codes, healing, and many other facilitations of expansion deemed beneficial for those openly receiving through their heart-centered consciousness.
Much Variety, By Design This filter is affected by the human journey these messengers have set up for themselves. These messengers are intentionally of many backgrounds, varying cultural upbringing, interests and passions, ages and also varying years on their spiritual path. This allows the volunteer to receive and deliver a unique interpretation. It provides them an opportunity to better relate to certain audiences and/or to focus on specific aspects of the overall Ascension or personal Ascension process. Each messenger and their work is unique. And it is by design. Each messenger has a direct role in creating their “platform” and this is often honed and tuned throughout their journey as the planetary vibration and each of you change and flux with these Ascension time cycles.
Newly Activated Messengers Many new messengers are coming "on-line", be-ing activated to re-member and share, assisting others in re-membering and helping you usher in the dawning Golden Age to your own personal journeys and experiences. These messengers, newly activated or simply new to you, may have something that is helpful to you in your process.
Opportunities for Personal Expansion The bringing into reality of the Platinum Age*, you may re-member, is very much a personal experience, rather than a mass event. No big switch is turned on for the Planet to awaken. You each have your own switch and you are responsible for turning “it” (you) on to the higher dimensional experiences now being offered to each and every one of you.
With the vast variety of Councils and Contingents participating in your Ascension process, it is recommended that you remain open to various, perhaps many messengers, trusting your heart that you have happened across their work for a reason, a purpose personal to you and your continued expansion.
No one messenger holds all messages from the Cosmos. It is programming that may be directing you to be loyal and focus upon one or very few teachers/messengers. Consider the organized religions on your planet and how limiting they are because of the De-ification of one particular Ascended Master. Do you wish to repeat that process? There is value to be obtained, Planetarily, from having many, many messengers, uniquely representing the Council(s) and/or Contingents, consciousnesses they embody. This approach offers a much broader set of messengers for you to experience and a valuable variety of approaches and perspectives being offered.
As your personal ascension process continues, all of you in the higher dimensional reality being offered become another form of messenger; for yourself. Hence, we encourage you to open yourself to the concept, design and benefit of many messengers, many messages. This approach is meant to assist you in reaching your personal next phase of expanded consciousness and higher vibration more readily.
We are not asking you to attempt to partake of all teachers but rather to notice that a teacher that crosses your path may have a unique perspective to assist you in reaching your next phase of Personal Ascension. Various choices in teachers, channelers and other forms of messengers can increase the rapidness, ease and grace with which you and the overall planetary Ascension process can progress.
Loyalty to Self and, thus, All That Is We see rapid expansion being experienced by Be-ings that are loyal to their Personal Ascension process as opposed to a more third dimensional form of loyalty to A teacher/messenger or to A specific method or teaching. Loyalty to Self, and thus All that Is, is an important process of expanding your consciousness and raising your vibration amidst these New Energies.
Staying Open about a Teacher’s Value In terms of evaluating and comparing the teachers through your mental analyzer, please hold in your heart consciousness that each messenger has a unique blueprint, and various truths and wisdom they are sharing with those who are ready for that phase of their personal evolution. We ask you to consider an approach of “not right for me” when discerning which teacher may be for your highest good...at this time. This is a higher vibrational approach than needing to define as good/bad, right/wrong, real/”fake”, etc. Rather than compare and contrast them you may instead choose to show gratitude and appreciation for the many choices available to you while honoring the unique way they are Be-ing their soul’s blueprint in human form. Your heart will help you discern what suits you best at the current phase of your growth and expansion.
Teacher and Student, Simultaneously Please note that the information shared herein is aimed at all who read this, for all are simultaneously students as well as teachers/messengers. Each are continuing to evolve as souls, including members of this Council. From our perspective, each are also teachers. Some of you hold various degrees of humility and self-doubt that preclude you from embracing your teacher role, preferring the comfortable, safe position of “perpetual student”. By denying your natural ability to assist (teach) others, it is affecting your access to your Soul’s personal mastery and, thus, your vibrational frequency. The overall Ascension process can proceed much more swiftly when each of you are able to notice the wisdom, teachings and insights that you have re-remembered, being open to the opportunities when you are called upon to share with others. Your heart will guide you in this process, helping you notice when another’s situation can be enlightened by truths you hold in your expanding consciousness.
By viewing yourself as a teacher and student, simultaneously, you also avoid the ego-ic trap of arrogance. By embracing each role to the best of your ability, you raise your vibration, allowing the Universe to readily reveal to you more and more opportunities to grow and expand, through each of these roles. It is a wonderful system and you might have Soul recall of this from home, where it is also well in place for all to benefit.
Growth is Infinite, for All This is our truth for Messengers as well. Many who serve in messenger roles are indeed continuously expanding, developing a closer alignment with their God-self, experiencing for themselves that there is no end to expansion, as a human nor as a soul. This is particularly true with the New Energies now accessible, which we have discussed in other messages. Messengers who follow this path of constant evolution and further refinement of the energetic frequency will continue to raise their vibration, offering them even greater ability to share more unique and perhaps higher vibration messages, insights, activation codes, etc. We intend for this to inspire and encourage each of you who have this blueprint. Those who hear your messages will more clearly feel the uniqueness of the energy you are bringing forth, further manifesting your home vibration in the physical plane of Earth for the purpose of assisting others whenever they become accepting of this blessing. And your journey will continue to become more and more comfortable from within the bodysuit, bringing more of home, home, materializing the New Earth many are taking part in creating.
Messenger’s Evaluation of Other Teachers We notice instances of teachers/messengers who wish to point out what is "wrong" with another teacher's methods or approaches and this is interesting to us. As a messenger role described herein, your Soul’s natural vibration offers you a much different response, choosing love, trust and honor, not fear nor competition nor defensiveness when considering another messenger’s unique approach. All teachers can re-member to trust the discernment of those who hear these various messages, thereby releasing your perceived need to counter others' methods or teachings. Another's teachings may be providing tremendous value and evolution, as evidenced by those who are continuing to follow one’s work. Free will remains.
For all, re-member Ascension can be, and is for many who choose it, a joy-filled experience. Ascension into the Platinum Age, what you may know as the dawning Golden Age, is not a burden of humanity; it is the opportunity for humanity. We encourage you to continue to transition your Consciousness to your heart-center. Also, continue to notice the ever widening set of choices available to you in be-ing love, be-ing peace, be-ing harmony, be-ing joy. These choices are present, always. It often takes some practice in noticing those broader choices, stepping out of any lower frequency programs and routines not yet faced and released. You are much more powerful than your habits and programs, Dear Ones. Practice, experiment, trust in experiencing more love, more joy more harmony from within for there will always be more awaiting you. Choose wisely, heart-fully in these shifting times, as you experience this magical cycle of transition for Earth and all who reside upon her.
We extend love and blessings to each of you, filled with gratitude and honor for the voluntary role you are so beautifully experiencing and directing.
Namaste,
Guardian Council of the Golden Ray shared through Jill Renee Feeler
*Given this uniqueness, we refer to the dawning cycle of enlightenment as the Platinum Age, which you may know as the Golden Age or the Aquarian Age. Given the New Energies allowing this transition, the way in which you are Creating this unique transition, as well as it’s significance, for the Earth, collective Evolution and All that Is, a unique name is appropriate. And so it Is.
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
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Jill offers a webinar series on Embracing the New Energies ($22/recorded session), intuitive sessions (starting at $30) and many shared messages at no cost including a weekly radio show, written messages, videos, facebook posts to inspire and empower, to mention a few. As recently as three years ago, Jill was living a very mainstream life, using her MBA in corporate America and enjoying her family and friends from her very 3D perspective. Through a series of positive trigger events her activation began in Summer 2008, leading to her rapidly re-membering her psychic abilities, healing talents and abilities to channel messages from the highest realms. While helping others re-member their own multidimensionality, Jill is continuously nurturing her own continuous evolution, knowing we are never done growing as an infinite aspect of Source/God. She lives in Boise, Idaho with her husband of 18 years, her two daughters and their golden retriever. She gave notice to her Corporate career earlier this year, allowing her to spend more time on her sharing, her expansion, and valuable time with loved ones and her family's love for travel and new experiences.
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29 Aug 2011 - 12:33pm
SANNI CETO is a a hybrid E.T. who incarnated in 1958 and recalls her past life as the commander of the spacecraft that crashed in Roswell, New Mexico in July 1947. Her remarkable story is told in her autobiography, Stranded On Earth, The Story of a Roswell Crash Survivor, published by Earth Star Publications in June 2004. She is an artist, doll maker, teacher and communicates with her Zeta Reticulan Council, and in contact with her father and guide, Khinyeo. She is a nature lover, ufologist, amateur entomologist and meteorologist, whose mission is to spread love and light to Planet Earth, and to correct the ideology behind her people's purpose for visiting Earth. Where most humans distrust the Grays, Sanni says it is the Reptoids that are disguising themselves as her people and abducting people. The Zetis are a race of peace lovers, scientists and space travelers who only wish to assist Earth in its ascension.
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28 Aug 2011 - 6:25am
I am a white rose in a desolate land. One may wonder how something so beautiful can grow in these conditions; no sun, no pure living water, not other plants or vegetation in sight. Let’s not ask the question how but why. Why would something so beautiful even attempt to make a home within these lands? No one knows where or why she is there (here) but she is a beautiful rose. She could live in any of the other beautiful place that will support her growth and give her what she needs. Why here. Why now? Many will marvel over her and say what a miracle, others will try to put claim to her, some may even try to destroy her…she is catching too much attention. The people of the land are not tending to their business, they have taking their attention way from their everyday lives to marvel over this one beautiful rose. The owners and leaders of the land say: “Remove that flower!” Then the orders go out to remove the marvelous wonder that sprout out of no where…But wait something happened… there was a event that the owners of the land did not see coming, a revolt, a barricade, a protective shield around this rose. The owners of the land or the leaders of the land said move or you will be put down. The people would not be moved. The leaders of the land asked: “You would die for this rose.” The people said all together “yes.” The leaders were confused. The leaders said: “Why”, the people said “Why not.” “We live for meaningless things that do not bring us joy, we work our lands and only produce things that are dead, we die for the leader’s will and greed and yet the leaders have not given us the satisfaction that this rose have given us. She symbolizes hope, beauty and strength. She sprouts out of no where, without any care for its own well being. She has no food no water, no sun, but yet she stands strong in a land that does not support her. The question is not why would we die of it, but why would you want to remove it. Does this rose symbolize the hope, beauty and strength you and the leaders of this land has cut away from the people of this land? Tell us does the beauty hurt your eyes or does the possibilities scare you? Now, as a people, we realize our possibilities are endless. We, ourselves are like this rose, living a deserted desolated land, with no sun, no living water and no hope for survival, but this rose lives not because of her conditions or location she lives because she saw that this land had potential, that this land needed to see beauty, this land needed to see possibilities; this land needed to see hope.
So, we the people declare this rose a symbol of hope, beauty and strength. Maybe if we treat her with care and give here what she needs to shine, than maybe her friends would not be afraid to come out and sprout has she has. Maybe the sun would want to join as well, then maybe the rivers and the oceans may rise up and nourish our lands”…The leaders then said: “You all are foolish. This rose can’t do all that.” Then the people said: “Well, may be not…. But what do we have to lose.”
We are that rose…starseeds, indigo, walkins, lightworkers, we are that hope. We didn’t come here because the conditions or location were ideal. We came here because we knew that this land needed beauty, this land needed to see the possibilities. Yes there are those who may reject us because we are causing trouble, we are causing separation, but truly who would want to cut down something so beautiful. We sprout up in this land that didn’t support our bodies, our immune systems. We have ailments, most of us cannot take in the toxic air, the food that’s produce don’t support our vibrations, but we are here. Is that not a wonderful thing? Does that not show our strength and humility? Don’t let the leaders of this land cut us down, there are trying in every way. They are causing confusion amongst us. They are trying to scatter us so we do not work together. They have disguised themselves as us, “the light”… but be not fooled, all will be revealed. Do not scatter, stay strong, there are strength in numbers. Never forget we are magnets that attract what we want to enter into this plain. If we wish goodness, balance, love, understanding and peace to enter this plain we must call on it from the universe. We do not have to say a name or planet system or even an ascended master. All we have to do is call on what we wish to manifest within this plain, this world. The world, mother earth has been a mixing bowl of dark, light, bad good. She is the poster girl for “duality,” but she is tried, she doesn’t want to play anymore, the game is not fun for her anymore. We are here, now, as referees to say: enough is enough; children stop playing, and let’s get serious now. Like any mother, she wants to protect her children, she wants to nurture her children, provide them with all of the nutrients and resources they need, but how can she when we don’t’ respect her…My mother would play with us when we were little, but when she was tired she would say: “alright mommy not playing anymore… I am tired…Well people mommy is tired she doesn’t want to play anymore. I know mother earth doesn’t want her children hurt but she GOT TO DO WHAT SHE GOT TO DO. The earth is going to shake, rattle and roll. I am hoping she doesn’t shake too hard, but who am I to tell her not to. May the earthquakes be the drill that knocks down the walls the block new energy; new light. May the hurricanes be the washing machine that cleans all the negative energy and may the volcanoes be the fire that burns way the toxic atmosphere. We just going to have to hold on tight, she wants us here, so we can teach the new way of living, so listen to her she will tell us what to do.
Much love and peace…always remember we cannot appreciate the light until we understand the dark. The dark is the absence of light, once the light is seen it is a sight to behold.
video
21 Aug 2011 - 1:11pm
i enjoyed it very much,hope you do too!
Story
14 Aug 2011 - 12:06pm
Massive outpourings of blood nearly wiped humanity off the star map. It totally destroyed cultures and minds and dotted the stars with tiny outposts of those survivors who kept themselves as one during their escape and settlement. The lives of the humans who remained on the planets overtaken by the reptilian aggressors might as well have ended in physical death. A drastic and severe program of genetic degradation was implemented as a method of control. Resources were poured into scientific research on cloning, mind control, covert surveillance and brain-food growing, reducing the developmental potential and blossoming of the people. Over several generations, the changes were so noticeable you would think it was a new species. Mutations affected not only fertility but also normal brain development, brain function, demonstrative ability as to affection and compassion, and the development and functionality of biological systems. Your fear of what you call “grey aliens” sources from this knowledge, which is embedded in the collective consciousness of humanity as a race. What happened on other planets is now waking these racial memories in your people of Earth as it becomes increasingly apparent that a similar attempt is being undertaken here. You have the benefit of a new age coming into form on a cosmic scale, which saves you untold IQ takedowns, lovelessness and eventual regret. The greys you see portrayed all around you are messengers of a most candid sort. Let them show you what could happen if things really get out of hand and the dragons maintain control and decide not to leave. You are looking at a possible future you. Now, how to avert that scenario is as follows. You must learn to implement your otherwise dormant energy as a crowbar to dislodge your stuckness from the reality you’re in and sneak a peek at the reality you want to be in. You have the ability to mold your energy into any shape you like. Greet your future self. See a mirror before you. Look into it. Who greets you, and with what name do they call you? Now, let us begin to lay out a scenario for you to try. This is a taste of a possible future for your race, based on your soul’s emergence into the higher dimensions of creation of OM.
The wars are behind you. The days of bloodshed are gone. You are living and breathing on a planet far away from where you had known yourself as a human of sadness and renegade nothingness. A dream of that life dissolves as you awaken to a morning of cool breeze, north-rising sun and sweet people’s voices greeting you in camaraderie and peace. Near you is a most beautiful new creation of your heart’s desire. Beside you, fragments of yesterday’s cares melt away like snow in sunlight. Flowers of great beauty bloom outside your window. You concentrate on what you want to appear on your breakfast table and walk out to your kitchen to find all you need to prepare it. Quarter of calm peace are you, a drastic change from who you were on Earth of many conflicts. Place and time have made you whole, created in you new abilities, brought to your attention new talents and new perfection of being. You, as yourself on your home planet of the stars of the distant Pleiades, are another person in many ways. You are happy about your life situation. Drops of nectar wash over your eyes as you behold the dot of color of a flower, reminding you of Earth’s beauty and repairing your energetic damage from lifetimes of abuse. Love creates, condenses light, and arranges it as you will. Dream becomes real as easily as real becomes dream. Happiness is as attainable as breath. Dreams are not nightmares. Crowning you with coronets of light are your thoughts and dressing you are your dreams. All of your demons from your 3-D existence have been loved into friends and your nightmares calmed into a collection of dross, old beliefs and habits you dropped a long time ago, dross you collected to create a new belief set from and thus transform into light. You are a master of drawing your energy into a density of pure light and rim of OM, and dreaming is one way you use for creating your reality. You also draw, write, visualize, build, paint, sing, dance and denote in everything you do. Now you have created a world of beauty, harmony and peace, one in which mere thought certainly not only needs no work to make it become real, it also needs no time. Your needs are all met as soon as they are recognized, and your desires, wishes and dreams are, too. Creating anything is as easy as concentrating on it. Brought into being are a myriad of delightful things, people, situations and outcomes, all designed by your soul to carry you forward in your soul’s journey to wholeness in aspect and integrity of expression. Could you ever have imagined it? Yes. Could you ever have created it before you dropped out of 3-D Earth and made a decision to be here, really, on this Pleiadian planet? Yes. Could you ever have believed it? Yes. All things are possible anytime on the level of thought manifesting reality. However, when you are in the loop of time, to create things can take some time to come together. That is the only difference and the only practical force preventing you from living the life you imagine.
from Opalescence: A Renegade Pleiadian Guide to Divinity
copyright (c) 2011 Maryann Rada
Blog entry
4 Aug 2011 - 10:52pm
is it possible to be more than one...
for example be an indigo, crystal, starseed, and an incarnated/earth angel at the same time?
i know that crystal and indigo are considered human angels.
Blog entry
3 Aug 2011 - 8:31pm
My friend's mother was concerned about 2 black helicopters flying over their house. What could it be? Any psychic insight? I've seen a black helicopter fly over our neighbor's house when they were reconstructing their pool. But I've heard that black helicopters are CIA helicopters or their "evil". Does any one know?
Blog entry
3 Aug 2011 - 8:30pm
My friend's mother was concerned about 2 black helicopters flying over their house. What could it be? Any psychic insight? I've seen a black helicopter fly over our neighbor's house when they were reconstructing their pool. But I've heard that black helicopters are CIA helicopters or their "evil". Does any one know?
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31 Jul 2011 - 4:48pm
It's so funny that it is exactly 4:20 when I start writing this post =]. But, this is not what I want to talk about, instead I want to tell you about two souls which I am going to call Wall-e & Allie. Yeah, that Allie from Taken. Why did I choose those names. Ahh, you already know that, don't you? Those two perfectly reflect personalities, behavior and the core souls' essence that I want to tell you about.
Someone out there is very pissed at me for writing this.
It seems that Zeus and Poseidon are really pissed right now...
Oh well, it is their problem. I am going to write this, despite their insane resistance. They know me long enough to know that.
In my opinion they are long overdue for family' counselling session anyway... It would do them mighty good!
Back to Wall-e & Allie =] They've known each other for a very long time. Although they had to live in separate worlds, they always held an enormous amount of love for each other. Their roads had crossed so many times over in so many lifetimes, that I can't even rely on my memories to remember all of them. Wall-e was always cute, so pure and so beautiful in his child-like innocence and pure joy of little treasures that he discovered along the way. Oh God, remembering the absolute wonder on his face when he run to Allie to show her his latest discovery makes me smile, even now. Allie was little weird - little dark,always writing something in her journals, never fully present. Yeah, she was one screwed up soul, but always gentle, loving soul. She loved Wall-e like she never loved anyone in this realm. Those two, as I watched them, were the divine itself put in motion. They were like two autistic kids who didn't need any words to create a perfect state of nirvana when close to each other. I also remember the worlds, other dimensions, watching them in total disbelief, in an absolute awe, cause no one, absolutely no one, could understand or feel that special connection, that academical bond between them. It was beautiful to witness. It was divine. But as they say, bad things sometimes happen to good people. The Universe is such a shit sometimes.
There was a few lifetimes when Allie had to go away. She couldn't tell Wall-e why she's leaving. It wasn't a fun trip she was taking, it was a very dangerous trip and if she would take Wall-e with her, he would probably die. He wouldn't survive the extend of abuse and mistreat she was about to face. Back then, she had to make a choice. The choice wasn't really a choice, unless you are inclined to think that the guillotine is a better choice than a sword. She did what she thought she needed to do to protect Wall-e. She cut him dry. She broke her heart forever by doing it, but, at the time, she thought that by doing so Wall-e will rebuild his life, she was hoping that, by her leaving, Wall-e would have a fair shot at life, real life, a full life. She was hoping that Wall-e's pain would disappear one day and that Wall-e... Oh, you know the rest, you know what I mean. It never happened.
Wall-e' story is slightly different though. When he first met Allie, he was dead, yeah, dead on the inside, but in some miraculous way, she brought him into life, into the world of wonders and endless possibilities. For Wall-e, Allie was his savior in so many ways. Wall-e didn't know that for a very long time, cause Wall-e was stuck in "a world as it always been," but then, Allie showed up and by linking with her he discovered the Universes he couldn't have dreamt of, the compassion he never knew existed. Needless to say - for the first time in ages, Wall-e could feel his heart beating, Wall-e could feel at all. Yet Wall-e's past included, and in may ways manipulated Allie's past, present and future. Before he found his heart, Wall-e was a part of those who meant harm to Allie. Allie didn't know that, cause all her life she had only one rule: treat others as you want to be treated yourself. Wall-e didn't know any better than that. Do you see the disaster coming? I bet you do.
In one lifetime, Allie decided to cross roads with Wall-e again. She was hoping that at this level of consciousness, Wall-e and her can make the divine connection, a connection free of past deeds, free of guilt, shame, ego and lies, she was hoping for the purity of intentions and spirit. She was wrong.
Wall-e wasn't himself anymore. It turns out that he never got over the connection he had shared with Allie. Instead of building it, it had literally destroyed his life. He had never recovered. He always clanged to the idea that Allie, his Allie, would return one day and everything will be as it should be. The paradox is... his Allie returned, but she was already evolved when he kept himself in the place locked in the box of time. Actually, it is worse than that. While waiting for Allie to come back, Wall-e had to sell half of his vehicle to someone else. As it turns out, he sold it to a psychopath and an abuser. So, when Allie finally showed up, she met only half of Wall-e, the other half is what you would want to avoid at all cost. Allie didn't know at the time which one: Wall-e or the Abuser is in the body she loves so much at the time. She only wants her Wall-e back. And it is so to this day.
Allie loves him to this very day.
Wall-e is discovering his multi-dimensional self.
Before this story goes any farther Wall-e must realize that he is not himself sometimes, even if he doesn't keep conscious memories of the events. If Wall-e decides to get rid of this other entity inhibiting his body, Wall-e will get all the help that is needed, but as of now, it is solely Wall-e's decision. As far as I know, Allies arms are always opened for those who are willing to work, for those who are willing to heal.
I guess it happens sometimes in this Universe that when two consciousness meet on this plane, a bond is form, a connection is made. Such connection is always so strong, so pre-destined that it can never be completely severed, it can never be totally broken. It is rare to make such a connection, yet sometimes it happens. Allie & Wall-e share such a connection. It is probably hard to imagine how it feels like, so you can think of it as of one soul; one soul that got split into two separate beings who went their separate ways. The time passes, the distance grows, but the connection is and always be there. Why? Because it is eternal, such connections are not of this world, thus the rules of this world do not apply to them. Identical twins come to mind. Cut one - the other will still remain. They feel each other through times, timeliness and dimensions. You can never cut such bond, cause it was not yours in the first place to f@ck around with.
My deepest feelings to Wall-e and Allie.
May the God cross your paths again.
Namaste.
Bow.
e.
Blog entry
12 Jul 2011 - 2:12am
My earliest memory is at age 6 when I died. The very first thing I remember is Standing in a field drenched in blood, my own blood. Aparently, it was the first time I was allowed to play outside our yard in Yorktown Virginia. I walked over to play with one of our next door neighbors. We were in the deattached garage playing on gocarts that were underconstruction. The one I was on had not had the pedels ground down and were razor sharp. I fell from the steering wheel onto the pedel. I don't remember that at all. I remember crying and my parents sitting on the steps of our modest brick rancher. Then I remember my dad scooping me up in his arms and placing me in the backseat of the car with my mom holding the back of my head together and she kept saying "Please dear GOD, Let her make it!" over and over again. The tag team of switching into a waiting abulance and then rushed onto the hospital operating room I remember clearly. this began my life as a walk in.
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9 Jul 2011 - 12:10am
My hands are tired from running a saw.
I went back down there this morning. When I arrived, there was a woman on the phone in front of "the Mexican's" house. I showed her the saw and said something about getting some firewood. Well, she didn't speak english so she handed me her cell phone. I told the person on the other end what I had in mind. The two pecan trees were in her yard. Well, now the better part of one was in the neighbor's yard too.
There was a girl, maybe twelve, she spoke english well enough. You could tell she was protective of her. The little girl was Brenda, I found out, the mother Marguerite. She asked if I could start there, by their front door. Okay.
Then Brenda said: "She says you're sent by God." Superchills for me all over. That feeling like maybe crying or laughing at the same time. Affirmation. Angel wings all over me.
I put on my serious face and said to Brenda, "Tell her that's true, that's exactly who sent me."
And then I got to work. Lopping branches so I could get close with the saw. I felt strong. Lorri came down around eleven and helped stack branches and load firewood. Bailed out around two to come back here for naps during more storms. Viva la Barrio.
Tomorrow the other tree. Praise God from who all blessings flow.
Shine Bright.
video
30 Jun 2011 - 7:53pm
An explanation of how an ET Ambassador living here on Earth came to our planet ;-)
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30 Jun 2011 - 7:51pm
An introductory message by an ET ambassador living here on Earth who wishes to make a more personal inquiry as to initiating First Contact this year.
Initiation of Countdown to September 2011 - http://listverse.com/2008/06/26/top-10-most-spoken-languages-in-the-world/
Story
27 Jun 2011 - 3:04am
Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom at this time to assist you in reaching the next expansion of consciousness. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at this magical time on your planet. These messages are accessed from the higher realms relative to Earth’s vibrational frequency. Let us begin with this sharing session.
Many are feeling a building of energy, from within. Another expansion is on the horizon for each of you in your journeys and these continue in waves going forward. You can sense this, wondering what’s next and what you can be “doing”.
We wish to remind you that activated God-frequencies lead to experiences well beyond your mind’s ability to understand or even comprehend. Each of you are capable of trusting yourself and this Earthly experience enough to allow, know and be your multidimensionality without reliance on additional evidence and proof. A firm level of Trust and Experience avoids the necessity of explaining it, understanding it and proving it in order for the situation to be real to you.
Trusting and then Experiencing a higher dimensional reality, without Proof or perhaps even Understanding is an updated approach for raising your vibration amidst the New Energies now in your reach. The 3D reality often is based on studying, learning, understanding and then doing. This mentally-oriented approach works well for anything requiring training, for tasks that do not come naturally. As a Divine Soul experiencing humanity your goal is to allow and be the real you, as a Soul. From our perspective that doesn’t require training and it is not easily achieved through the mental body. Experiencing your God-self through your human body suit is truly the most natural way for you to be.
Training, and a well-written resume are not necessary to experience your multidimensionality. There is no placement test to take or to pass. It is also not necessary that you know “who you are” at a soul-level before you can fully experience your multidimensionality. Many are be-ing their higher dimensional expressions without even beginning to access their soul’s resume. It is irrelevant to experiencing it. You don’t need the resume or the training. You already have the job. You are already a recognized member of God’s family. You are given permission to experience your God-self without classes, certifications or years of studying and testing your understanding. None of that is necessary for your be-ing who you really are as a Soul who volunteered to experience humanity at one of the most wondrous moments in Earth’s timeline. Your volunteering is already a sign of your courage, your love and your hope and it emanates from your core. It is who you are, not who you are trying to be-come. When you can trust this, you can free yourself from all the programs, beliefs and “truths” that are in conflict with the Greatness that is within each of you.
Trusting and then experiencing is how the beings you know as the Ascended Masters and many others in body suits at this time are able to embrace and be the highest energetic frequencies now within the Earthly dimensions. My friends, the frequencies planned for Earth are even farther beyond what the Masters experienced. That is the plan being carried out, by you, right now. This is why we are offering new perspectives in experiencing and integrating the highest frequencies.
We offer a path of expansion that begins by holding a loose vision of what is possible. Second, ask for assistance from your spiritual support teams, your Higher Self and the Universe in experiencing this vision as your expanded reality. Third, Trust. Fourth, Allow. Fifth, Experience. Finally, the new experiences provide sufficient firsthand “proof” for your consciousness to expand, broadening your range of multidimensional realities.
Vision. Create and hold a Loose and dynamic vision of what is possible. Please friends, dream big here. Allow yourself to consider the most beautiful dream for you, for humanity, for Earth, for all who reside on the Earthly plane. Dream big because the developing blueprints are quite remarkable on all these fronts. And it is you who brings these blueprints into reality. Starting with you. You discovering your inner light, experientially. You playing with and experiencing your inner light and all the love, joy, peace and abundance that naturally resides therein. You can then expand your sense of Self by broadening your light-filled experiences, in all places, in all your roles, in all that you are. You will become a glowing, beaming ball of light that changes everything about who you are. Sharing your light, yourself in any way that comes from your God-self, will expand your light quotient. Please be cautious of your ego-ic voice’s instructions to wait until you are “ready” to share your higher vibrational abilities. You were born ready -- they are a natural part of who you are as a Soul. Please don’t wait a moment longer to be the You that you came here to be. Each of you are a complex mosaic of beautiful, pieces of Divine material. You brought with you many, many facets to play with and experience. Start somewhere with this beautiful Soul-ful part of you. Start anywhere, it does not matter where. Play with your multidimensional abilities. Practice them with yourself and others. Play with them. Allow them to be a natural part of you, expanding into all the roles you play in your journey. This approach allows you to experience your inner light in all facets of your life, thereby raising your vibration. By raising your vibration you are expanding your multidimensionality. From this wider set of vibrational realities, you access the true freedom of the Divine being you are, experiencing humanity, as a volunteer on Earth during this present evolutionary Ascension phase.
Ask. Ask your spiritual support team for assistance. We are here for you. We always have been. We honor you for your role and it is our pleasure to assist you in re-membering your Divinity, your Power, your Mission. Anything that separates you from your own Divine within is a distraction, many intentionally provided to distract you. Ask for our assistance as you discern who you really are, as the loving, joy-filled, playful light being we know you to be. That is your Center. That is at your Core. It is not outside of you, waiting to be discovered along a windy, obstacle-filled path. It always was you and always will be you. Ask.
Allow. Allow the experiences into your reality, into your truths, into your belief systems, into your consciousness. Allow yourself to be the purest expression of your God-self you have been in this entire journey or in any journey. The Energies on Earth at this time are continuing to be materialized, providing tremendously rapid and profound experiences, allowing you to Be your light. Allow.
Experience. Experience the higher dimensional aspects of you that are simply waiting for you. These other layers of you hold the limitless love, joy and inner peace. Your multidimensional self knows that all inner peace, self-love and limitless joy are not held in the third dimensional reality. These are attributes of the higher frequencies and your higher dimensional realities are an ever thinning membrane away from where some of you are right now. Through experiencing your inner Light, you re-connect with your heart-center, expanding into your multidimensional layers of Self.
This approach may not make sense to many. We witness many initiating their expansion through study, seminars, mental learning, hoping that the more their mind is filled with spiritual and multidimensional knowledge the more they will experience their God-self. Thinking about things first is a common approach to learning. The path we are sharing is very different, helping you re-member who you really are and why you chose to experience humanity on Earth at this magical time.
Let’s share an example of how this process works.
Imagine you are asked by a dear loved one to close your eyes and taste something. Would you proceed with the blind tasting? Do you choose to experience it, evaluating whether you liked it before learning (thinking) what it is? If you insist to see what your dear friend is asking you to taste, to know what it is before you taste it, you are putting mental evaluation before experience. You are deciding to not trust yourself or the other being enough to simply experience it followed by knowing what it is. Lack of trust stems from fear. Fear is the opposite of love. It is love that is at your Core. It is fear that you wear like a suit of clothes, part of the Earthly experience. But that experience is changing. The time is right for a new set of clothes, when you are willing to trust...yourself, the Core of you, not this fear-based set of programs you’ve been pretending to be.
Envisioning what is possible, trusting, asking, allowing, experiencing and then expanding your consciousness is an approach for raising your vibration that is available with the New Energies now present on Earth. The Universe is inviting you to experience your higher dimensional states of being in every moment, without an instruction manual. Demanding the instruction manual, allowing your mental body to persist in the hows and whys is akin to slamming on the brakes of your Ascension. Until the consciousness is sufficiently expanded to truly grasp what is possible in your higher dimensional state of being, the mental analyzer cannot decipher, interpret nor understand higher vibrational experiences. Inability of your mental body to understand does not make these experiences any less real.
Similar to being able to taste the mystery item, you are capable of experiencing the higher dimensions without fully understanding them or even knowing what you may experience. It is the Universe, coordinated by your Higher Self, offering you this blind tasting. You actually can enjoy the new taste of food without fully analyzing it’s origin, the chef, the collection of ingredients, how they were assembled and in what order, etc. Sometimes we need to prove to our mental body what is possible by actually experiencing the magic firsthand. All of the analytical rigor stems from the ego-ic mind. This is not good or bad. It just is. Understanding isn’t part of this recommended approach to raising your vibration and expanding your multidimensionality. Understanding is not necessary for experiencing who You really are. How it works is much, much less relevant than that it is working, that you are experiencing and be-ing your multidimensionality. This is true in spite of your ego-ic mind’s tantrums demanding to understand and slow things down so that it can think them over.
Get in the Game You aren’t experiencing humanity with front row seats to witness Ascension. You are not in the stadium seats, my friends. We know this because you are the Soul wearing the body suit. Everyone of you in physical form is a member of the on-field team. And you are not rookies. You are the Pros. We do not look down on you in any regard. You are equal partners in the current jump in evolution of the human race, choosing to play your part from within a human form. The sooner you identify yourself as the Specialist you Are, actively participating in your own God-self expression, the sooner the magic you’ve been waiting for can be personally experienced. Consider this a formal invitation to join your fellow humans who are already on the field.
You may feel lost. This is a new way to Be. That is Ok. They didn’t know what they were doing at first either. Trust. You don’t need the playbook. It is encoded within you. Trust. You are not a reject of “heaven”. You are capable of holding more light in this journey than in any Earthly journey before. That is the plan and many are already bringing this plan into reality, starting with themselves. When you are ready, this amazing level of light will also be beaming out from within you.
Do you see the misalignment you can feel by viewing yourself as a perpetual student, as a bystander to your own Divinity?
Already feel like you’ve accessed your multidimensionality? Wonderful! We’d like to share that there is more waiting, for everyone. No one is ever “done” with their expansion. We notice your current vibrational frequency by your level of joy. Some of you feel joy in almost all things, all experiences, all of your roles and it is both a cause and an effect of your higher vibrational level. Feeling like you can still handle more joy? Great, we invite you to re-read this message, personally attributing it to you this time, as opposed to the friend or loved one you felt needed to hear this. You are reading this for you, dear friend. It all starts with you. This Earth-bound experience is all about you and all about All That Is, simultaneously.
The higher frequencies now with you are a very different dynamic than even what you experienced as recently as two years ago. All have equal access to the highest frequencies; young and old, experienced lightworkers and “newbies”, all starseed lineages, all astrological signs, all body types, all cultures, all belief systems, all genders... all in physical form on Earth in this timeline have equal access to their multidimensionality. Everyone is a VIP in this Ascension timeline as soon as you choose to identify yourself as such.
We share our love, gratitude and great appreciation for the unique frequency each of you bring to the Earthly plane by your be-ing. We hope this message assists you to access more and more of your God-frequencies, increasing your light quotient higher than you ever dreamed was possible. Dream large, friends. We feel you may surpass even that.
Namaste,
The Guardian Council of the Golden Ray shared through Jill Renee Feeler
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
jill@beaconforlightworkers.com
Jill is a spiritual teacher, channeler, healer, published writer, speaker and inspirational figure for many seeking to access their God-self in their current journey. Her awakening process in 2009 amidst the higher frequencies and her soul blueprint offered her ready access to many of her spiritual abilities, sharing them professionally since 2010. Although she awakened recently, her energy was well connected with the higher realms throughout her journey. Her spiritual support team is still in the process of sharing with her who she is as a Soul. At this time, Jill is aware of several aspects of her Mastery, her Guardian role as well as Spirit Guide roles. She is a gateway for bringing in the highest frequencies to Earth. Her service includes assisting others in re-membering how to "be" in the higher frequencies, how to bring the New Earth into their personal reality; right here, right now. Jill sees the highest potential in others, utilizing her access to their Soul's blueprint and insights from their Higher Selves. She is passionate about helping others perceive themselves from this multidimensional perspective, helping them see solutions to challenges, expand how they view themselves in their journey and the limitless possibilities available to them at this time. Jill is a motivator like no other. Her access to the higher realms is continuously expanding and her passion is sharing each new aspect of wisdom with others. Her spiritual support team is displayed to her like a sports stadium filled with Ascended Masters, Angelic Ambassadors, Master Teachers and Guides as well as many Ambassadors from various Star systems. To Jill, they feel like family. In addition, individuated souls also participate in her work including the Souls we know as Mother Mary, Jesus, Thoth, Buddha and Quan Yin.
Blog entry
21 Jun 2011 - 9:06pm
One of the first, ancient stars that formed in this universe is called Zantauris. There was a single planet in orbit around Zantauris. Many life forms arose on the planet, it was such a beautiful and fertile place. The star and its planet went through many stages of evolution. Eventually the star reached an age and stage that it started expanding, affecting life on the planet. The pressure for evolution increased, and a few of the life forms began shifting from organic beings to energetic beings. Eventually the pressure between the outer layers of the star and its internal gravity were no longer sustainable, and the star collapsed in a great explosion. The shock wave spread out and rapidly annihilated the planet. Only a small part of the population of one life form was advanced enough to survive the crisis - the frequencies of the passing shock wave were synchronized with the life form's energy, and their energy bodies separated and rose up as their remaining organic shells dissolved in the firestorm. The first shock wave was followed by a second more intense wave that radiated from the final collapse of the star's matter. But this wave passed through the transparancy of the energy bodies. After the crisis, they found themselves adrift around a newly born neutron star.
They had to learn how to live in this new form. They learned that they could tap into the energy of the neutron star to recharge their own energy. They learned that they could transform the energy around them. They learned that they could clearly and easily communicate with universal mind. Later they found they could easily communicate with mind from other universes in other dimensions. They learned how to transport through dimensions and beyond time. They learned the secrets of existence.
Although the Zantaurins lived for billions of years, they were not eternal. Their energy slowly dissipated and dispersed. They did not die, but they simply faded into cosmic foam that inhabits all atoms of the universe. The population slowly dwindled until there were only a few left. Then the knowledge was revealed to them, that they had reached a stage from where they might be able to make another evolutionary leap. Their collective intelligence could become a creator god of their own universe. But it was a difficult path. Failure was more likely than success. It required some of them to travel to younger parts of the universe and transform back into organic form. These volunteers would have to anchor Zantaurin energy across the universe, from the neutron star to the new planet. They would have to add in other energies that could only be accessed from the new planet. And at the precise time, they would have to transform into stargates for the collective Zantaurin energy consciousness to travel through and become transformed.
I am one of the Zantaurin volunteers.
I have experienced the stargate once, as a test.
I do not know when the real event will occur.
~Zia
Story
19 Jun 2011 - 11:08pm
Greetings and blessings. We are a collective consciousness of Guardians of the Golden Ray sharing wisdom at this time to assist you in reaching the next expansion of consciousness. Our energetic translator is one of us, choosing to serve her role from within the bodysuit at this magical time on your planet. These messages are accessed from the higher realms relative to Earth’s vibrational frequency. Let us begin with this sharing session.
Earth and humanity are in unprecedented times of change and shifts. We witness the crumbling financial, economic, and political systems across the globe. We see the levels of dishonesty, intentional disruption, greed and selfishness. Many are ready for real change, real progress. As humanity considers the varying approaches to Earth’s progression, we have noticed a growing divide between the quest for goodness compared to the discovery of God-ness.
As we describe it, goodness would perceive the various ills on Earth and pursue cooperation, sharing, caring and an increased sense of community as a reasonable solution. The phrase, “we are our brother’s keeper” is likely to resonate. This consciousness is likely to view the world’s resources as fixed as well as scarce. By banding together in a sense of community those seeking goodness may be encouraged that a cooperative effort could make a difference by leveling things out.
We know of a completely different grid system for realizing the New Earth.
The key component of this upgraded grid system for humanity and Earth is your Divinity; self-actualization of your God-self, from within. This is far beyond goodness. Each of you have access to authentic glory. At that vibration your God-ness melts away all of the fear, wounds and lack that are crippling humanity in the third dimensional version of reality.
The plan that we describe is more than shifting around the game pieces. It calls for an entirely new game board, with limitless resources, abundant joy, heart-centered love, inner peace and reverence for All that Is. Accessing unity consciousness from within the upgraded human blueprint is on the agenda and being test piloted by some.
Any approach to change and progress that leaves out your inner God frequencies is a limited opportunity that is just redistributing the weakness, limitations and "controlling over" of the current 3D game.
A scientific approach that relies upon evidence is not a recommended reference at the high frequencies we are describing. The Ascension plans are much more expansive in vibration and in effect than your present scientific or journalistic investigation methods can begin to examine and verify. Until the consciousness has been sufficiently expanded, it is also much bigger than the human mind can fathom.
The recommended avenue to your God-self is through your hearts and trusting your own personal experiences from the most magical to the simply unexplainable. For many, that will hinder their expansion into multidimensionality. The requirements of proof typical in journalism, in science, by intellectuals, by skeptics is a brick wall keeping many trapped, confined and limited within the 3rd dimensional construct.
Each of you are on Earth to bring about this new experience, to expand human consciousness beyond what has ever been experienced on your majestic planet, starting with yourself. The current cycles and various blueprints for Earth’s Ascension allows humanity from your collective God consciousness to access and integrate these extremely high energetic frequencies.
We, along with others with leadership blueprints are continuing to move forward with these objectives. The plans are upgraded routinely as you continue to complete various milestones in this Ascension process. We have elected to increase the pace of these influxes, noticing how powerfully effective they have been at shining light on all darkness. Light and Love prevail!
An influx of higher frequency energies was made manifest in your physical realities on March 9th and they continue through 2011 in regular waves. These new frequencies allow for ever expanding consciousness into increasing levels of light and love. A portion of the planet are choosing and allowing this New Earth experience into their lives. It is available to all without delay. As more choose this degree of expansion in consciousness, humanity will increasingly notice the vast difference between darkness, goodness and God-ness.
For a portion, this just sounds too happy, too joyous, which reveals they aren’t ready, still clearly affected by the heavy programming in the denser vibrations of Earth. This programming makes it quite challenging to even consider the possibility of a life with the love and light we portray. The programming keeps them in the mindset of limited resources and continued darkness.
Nevertheless, the third dimension is collapsing, right on schedule. This collapsing process is creating tremendous pressure and chaos for those using their energies to try and maintain a third dimensional perspective without a third dimensional structure. And this chaos will continue, in increasing amounts, to prompt each to become aligned with their Soul’s blueprint for this journey.
Love, joy and inner peace is a tangible experience for those choosing to operate at these higher dimensional realities now available within the physical experience on Earth. That is why you are on Earth in this timeline. The mission is well under way. The accolades from the Cosmos is continuous and amplifying. Together we are creating a whole new game board. And, unlike Atlantis, no one will be left behind.
You are clearing the density, the wounds, the fear from Earth’s planes and from the collective records of humanity. This clearing is offered through your emotions and feelings. You take on the density, the wounds, the fear and wear it as if it is your own, believing they are from your own challenging, often painful journeys. But they are not your own. You created the painful, challenging situations in your journey so that you could identify with it, so that you would take on these collective wounds, experience them, heal them and then release them, thereby clearing them from the collective record of Earth and of humanity. These wounds are not yours but believing they were is part of the process the collective human consciousness created as a process for clearing. We share this insight to assist you. You may now choose to allow the emotions and feelings to move through your being, cleared by your inner God frequency and then allowing them to release. At this phase of your expanded consciousness, personalizing them is a delay to the clearing and releasing.
All darkness shall be lit with Divine Light. This Divine Light resides within each of you. No One. With those numbers, together we will achieve our shared desired outcome of the New Earth. Heaven on Earth. Home brought home.
By activating your inner light, your God frequency, you choose love, not fear. You choose compassion, not disdain. You choose forgiveness, not resentment. You choose well-being, not brokenness. You choose knowing, not faith. You choose the real you, not the programming.
The moment has come to shed the pretend clothes of wounded warriors and to step into your Sovereignty. No darkness shall remain in the level of light we’re describing.
Have fun everyone! The game is getting really, really interesting.
Namaste to all,
Guardian Council of the Golden Ray shared through Jill Renee Feeler
www.beaconforlightworkers.com
Jill is a spiritual teacher, channeler, healer, speaker, published writer and inspirational figure for many seeking to access their God-self in their current journey. Her awakening process in 2009 amidst the higher frequencies and her soul blueprint offered her ready access to many of her spiritual abilities, sharing them professionally since 2010. Although she awakened recently, her energy was well connected with the higher realms throughout her journey. Her spiritual support team is still in the process of sharing with her who she is as a Soul. At this time, Jill is aware of several aspects of her Mastery, her Guardian role as well as Spirit Guide roles. She is a gateway for bringing in the highest frequencies to Earth. Her service includes assisting others in re-membering how to "be" in the higher frequencies, how to bring the New Earth into their personal reality; right here, right now. Jill sees the highest potential in others, utilizing her access to their Soul's blueprint and insights from their Higher Selves. She is passionate about helping others perceive themselves from this multidimensional perspective, helping them see solutions to challenges, expand how they view themselves in their journey and the limitless possibilities available to them at this time. Jill is a motivator like no other. Her access to the higher realms is continuously expanding and her passion is sharing each new aspect of wisdom with others. Her spiritual support team is displayed to her like a sports stadium filled with Ascended Masters, Angelic Ambassadors, Master Teachers and Guides as well as many Ambassadors from various Star systems. To Jill, they feel like family. The wisdom she accesses most often feels like a highest realm of unity consciousness. In addition, individuated souls also participate in her work including the Souls we know as Mother Mary, Jesus, Thoth, Buddha and Quan Yin.
Blog entry
10 Jun 2011 - 9:45pm
A look inside here: SGS-SGEsneakpeek%3A.pdf
Purchase Here: http://www.cosmicascension.com/Sacred_Galactic_Scripture.html
Sacred Galactic Scripture : Starseeds’ Guide to Earth, Elizabeth Trutwin’s first book, which contemplates Supreme Love, The Highest Consciousness and human existence from the standpoint of Ascension. From her blog on GalacticRoundTable.com to her radio program on BBSRadio.com she repeatedly asks us to give up the tired old fear-based provocations and invites us to review aeons of cosmic and terrestrial history. She reminds us there is an entire Multiverse of UFO Civilizations on Sister Stars happening simultaneously to our existence here.
The book’s most provocative views into our Galactic Heritage envision the Origin of the Universe and the fall from Grace and then, more concisely and less literally, the end of time, when all the fallen Angels are removed from our Universe and we are finally free to expand to the Highest Consciousness.
In her view, exposing ourselves to Scripture from Islam, Judaism, Hinduism, Christianity, Taoism, Buddhism and Gnosticism help to see the universal fall from Grace is not a singular event in history but rather an axiom of human experience, repeated in every generation and in the consciousness of every individual. The miraculous paradox is that this universal pattern repeats itself in circumstances that are always unique. And so this Galactic coming-of-age story, quietly astute in its assessment of the Unity in all Faiths helps us answer the quintessential questions:
Who Am I? Where Do I Come From? Why Am I Here?
Within the Scripture lies the creation of the universe, which arrives (no matter how many times you have read about it) as something of a surprise. How did we get here? Trutwin explains that we fell as a result of nuclear holocaust in the Aurora 23 Solar System leading to the destruction of Niburu the Twelfth Planet, and the resultant literal fall into lower dimensions of Our Sun, Sol, Mercury, Venus, Earth, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto and Niburu. But that explanation will only make sense when StarShips land, once again on Earth. In a lovely, surrealist touch, she shows us this story passed down in all the major cultures of the world. Not only that, she shows quotes from world religious teachers through the ages which all say the same thing: We fell from an Anti Matter Universe to the Matter Universe, known as Nebadon.
There are very few books that convey the changing culture of Earth with such fidelity and sensitivity. Nor are there many that penetrate so deeply into the currents of feeling that bind all members of our Galactic family. So much is conveyed about the tension and tenderness within those working on Ascension and the frustrations that invade our happiness, like global war and mass starvation.
Sacred Galactic Scripture : Starseeds’ Guide to Earth outlines a well-traveled territory while excavating primal, eternal meanings which show us our inherent Path to Enlightenment.
Blog entry
10 Jun 2011 - 2:33pm
First of all, I would like to thank everyone who commented on my forum posts and sent me messages. It's great to feel accepted for who I truly am. I feel truly welcome here.
The real issue is the future. I feel as if I will not be able to function in 3D society for much longer. The whole thing is too linear for me. Time and space are too constricting. Now that I am aware of higher being, and higher dimensions, I worry that I won't be able to hold a job or go to college like the Earthbound. Why would I want to squander my gifts and abilities in a typical 9 to 5 setting?
Even High School is difficult. The only class I truly enjoyed my junior year was Psychology, that was only because my teacher approached it in a more philosophical manner. I also believe she is a member of the first wave of Indigos.
I feel so ready to leave this type of existence behind, I can feel my energy vibrating faster as I write this. I'm typing faster than I ever have before and I'm about to burst into tears.
Dear God, I want to go HOME!! Even just for a little bit in dreamtime. Please just let me visit for a tiny while, I need to see everyone again and tell them I'll be okay. But, I think I need to convince myself I'll be okay first.
To all the starchildren out there: Don't give up! It may be hard, but that's okay, it's what you wanted. Just focus on helping others to be happy, and being happy yourself. You are on Earth at a critical time, to help both your cosmic brethren and your Earth brothers and sisters to make the transition. You are the glue that holds Earth and the cosmos together. You can travel between these realms and transfer information critical at this time. Your consciousness has the ability to be both an ET and an Earthbound Human, this will serve you well in your mission. This may lead you to believe that you don't belong in either setting, but that is wrong. You have a home and a life in both. Keep your courage, you were chosen for this job because you have the ability to do it. Your ties to both means of existence will give you the ability to bring Earth and ET's together, and be a messenger and a translator for LOVE. This is an elite and extremely important duty. Don't be scared, all of your families love you. YOU CAN DO IT!!
Okay, I just felt the overpowering need to say that, and now I feel so much better. But now I'm scared. How could I possibly have known that stuff? I figured it all out in a matter of seconds, and my fingers were flying trying to get it out before I forgot it. That was possibly the wierdest thing that has ever happened to me.
Now I can't even remember the act of typing that stuff, I know I did, but the memory is fuzzy and sort of white when I visualize it. Not to mention the rainbow stripes coming out of the image of me in my head, kind of like a spectrum from a prism.
The name Rinel kept popping into my head. I don't know if that means anything. Stuff like that happens a lot. I get wierd sounding names in my head. Some sound pretty cool, like something I might name my future child, but others are just bizzare.
Ugh, I'm tired. I'm gonna stop writing, I think I freaked you guys out enough. I'll be on my way to the psych ward now. Angstfest over.
Story
3 Jun 2011 - 8:46am
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Greetings. I am a Pleiadian Walk In living on Earth, who works with the Ashtar Command, Interplanetary Council and the Angelic kingdom. In my previous article {Channelling, Ascension and Earth Changes} published in the E-Zine magazine, I mentioned the situation regarding the many channelled messages circulating around Earth regarding a project engendered by the Ashtar Command which involved the possibility of physically uplifting people off Earth during times of great upheaval and then returning them to Earth after ‘adjusting’ their energy so that they were spiritually ascended and able to help with the re-design of planetary structures and society.
I would like to expand on that further, and include some information on what the Ashtar Command has been involved with for the last couple of decades with regard to Earth and humanity.
As I work on Earth as a communicator for the Ashtar Command and Interplanetary Council, I have found that at times I have been called upon to correct this information (as many of the channels were also requested to do). As I covered in my last article, “Project Uplift” was abandoned at the time by the Ashtar Command (in the late 1980’s). The decision was based on rigorous discussion and holographic test scenarios which proved that such an intervention would potentially be harmful to many of those the Command was attempting to help. It would involve separating people from friends and family (who were not ready and had not chosen such a destiny) and taking people away from their lessons on Earth – which could only be accomplished while there. The Ashtar Command must obey (as do all civilizations belonging to the Association of Worlds) a strict code of non-interference when observing or interacting with another civilization. Therefore there is a fine line between what would constitute interfering with the natural evolutionary path of a particular civilization – and working in harmony with their free will and spiritual growth. When the Interplanetary Council makes a decision such as this, it affects ALL personnel involved with that planet or civilization. The final decision must be by consensus, but, as the majority decided to abandon Project Uplift, the motion was carried – as they say on Earth.
Since the Uplift information was channelled all over the planet, and then re-circulated over the years (AGAINST the instruction of the Ashtar Command itself), it has been observed that there was a disturbing tendency for some souls on Earth to hope for upliftment by the Ashtar Command so much, that they were losing focus on their immediate lives and the accomplishments they had chosen on Earth. This was not healthy, and led to the unfortunate incidence of some channels giving information about dates and times that Uplift would happen. And then, when it didn’t come to pass (as it wouldn’t, for the reasons I have stated), these people got upset and very angry – not to mention disillusioned!. Although I myself understand completely why some people would feel that way, I was asked to correct the misinformation and communicate accurately on behalf of the Ashtar Command and especially the Pleiadian people.
What I wish to make very clear is that NO-ONE from the Ashtar Command has issued those messages about Uplift and times / dates for picking people up since 1989. That information is coming either from other beings who wish to interfere and pretend to be from the Ashtar Command – or from the channel themselves. As I have constantly said – there are many beings out there who oppose what the Ashtar Command stands for, and they are more than willing to step in and mess things up by telling lies and spreading untruth. Obviously this then creates distrust and even hatred toward the Ashtar Command, and that is the purpose of such misinformation. This is why discernment is such a necessary part of anyone’s process.
What the Ashtar Command now focuses on (rather than Uplift) has been dubbed “Project Awaken Earth” in colloquial English – but that is really only one phase of the project. This project is exactly as it states – an opportunity to help souls on Earth awaken to their Divine heritage and spiritual capabilities. This is because it is understood that this part must be accomplished before any physical interaction can occur (via density shift). But Project Awaken is not being undertaken so that people on Earth can meet all within the Ashtar Command face-to-face (although it is accepted that will eventually happen). To many of these cultures, physicality is secondary to the energy and spirit. Such a project is undertaken because it is a way to help humanity move beyond limitation and fear – just as another enlightened group once helped some of us, and just as Earth humanity will one day be called upon to do also.
Project Uplift raised a myriad of environmental, behavioural, societal and spiritual issues that came up. But this aspect has been very useful and valuable, because there is much that has been learned from it (but never at the expense of Earth inhabitants). Regardless of what some on Earth choose to believe, life on board the ships within the Ashtar Command and similar groups is NOT like living on Earth!. It is different on almost every level. You would literally be suddenly catapulted into a truly alien environment. Even if you are a Starseed, you will have become acclimatized to Earth and the density and structures there. It is now familiar to you and is part of your life that you have chosen (although awakened Starseeds would definitely find it easier, and would adjust faster). On the ships there is a strict order and harmony that must be maintained at all times amongst the personnel and their families. Such a vast organization and community cannot function efficiently without that harmony and order. For instance; you can’t hide anything from anyone – emotionally or otherwise, and you can’t have an emotional breakdown of any kind. There are healers on the ships and there is healing technology which can help when someone goes out of phase (as we call it), but the ‘patient’ must be at a stage in their growth where they can assimilate the energy and quickly balance themselves. If that doesn’t happen, then they are required to leave the ship for a time until they regain balance.
And when encountering the many other cultures that live and work on the ships, there would be extensive cultural differences that could be a problem for those who were unaware or not accustomed. Unfortunately, among many people on Earth there is the idea that all ET beings are dangerous, or want to eat them or something. This is because of what the media has projected. There is also their inherent fear of the unknown. This is a major barrier to interaction with other planetary civilizations at this time. Unfortunately, Earth humans are not raised with the understanding that they have universal family, or that intelligent life exists in different densities – some of whom have been around longer and have evolved differently. I am just outlining here some of the obstacles to deeper and more physical interaction with universal family.
There are a lot of radically different and new things and concepts that a person would have to be adjusted to. Therefore it would have to be a GRADUAL process, and not one that people where simply just thrown into at the deep end, so to speak. To some degree, that is where people like me come in. There are some people that have chosen to act as ‘bridges’ between our interplanetary family, and our Earth human family. It’s a little like having emissaries and interpreters when you go to a strange country or encounter a strange culture. These are people that help educate so that there are fewer misunderstandings, and greater balance and harmony between all parties. The souls that have chosen to do this are few. Some incarnated as Starseeds, and some came as Walk Ins, as I did. A part of my role is to educate those who are open to it, regarding life on the ships, on other planets, and the cultures that would be encountered. I am able to do this more efficiently because I do not suffer from the spiritual amnesia that is encountered when incarnating on Earth, and because I am still in conscious contact and fully interacting with the Ashtar Command. Another aspect to this type of work is to help change (uplift) the overall vibrations of the planet and assist people to raise their own vibration, so that better communication and relations can occur. Although I have already encountered many wonderful awakening, and awakened, souls so far - we are always looking for new recruits for any of this work!.
The Ashtar Command’s overall feeling is that we all need to now concentrate on getting the vibrations lifted on the planet, and, where possible, helping others to become aware and teaching them to raise their vibrations. A lot of this is to do with showing others what is possible – but we must always be mindful that we cannot shove our truth down anyone’s throat. I know this happens because some people have attempted to do this to me (and some of them should have known better). We have to be the example, and share what we know with them only if they ask. And once they see, sense and feel what we are representing they DO ask. Even if it is just to understand more about what makes us tick. Sometimes people will bring up a subject which can reflect your area of expertise, but you still must be careful about what – and how – you tell them. That is where your wisdom and life experience comes in. Usually these will be people who have started to ask some pretty serious questions about their existence and the meaning of life. On some level their soul will already be awakening. However such a process cannot be forced. We can, however, accelerate their growth somewhat. In many cases, just having contact with us will have that effect.
Starseeds and fully awakened souls have an advantage with Project Awaken, since they are often ‘older’ souls whom have incarnated many times. They carry more information in their soul memories which is linked to their previous experiences of more spiritually advanced civilizations. Of course some Starseeds are still sleeping - and some may choose to sleep permanently. That is something that we all just have to accept as their right. I have been told there are 56,000 Starseed souls incarnate on Earth at this time (and more are coming). It’s not a lot when you consider the population of Earth, but it creates radical changes when you consider that the conscious effort of only 10% of the population is required to shift realities and densities to a higher vibration. As well as Starseeds, there are Earth-based enlightened souls, “Indigos” and many other types of beings who contribute their knowledge and vibration. Because we are all physically present on Earth right now, we have the greatest impact on anything in this reality because we are directly keyed into it. This is an opportunity that those on the Ashtar Command ships do not get. No matter how long they work around Earth, they will never be part of this place in the way that we have agreed to be. They cannot understand exactly what it feels like, and the challenges we encounter – although they can empathize and give support. That is important. It means that the buck stops with US. We are the means to creating the future as we want it to be on Earth.
I have a personal website where I am sharing: http://pleiadianwisdom.webs.com I have some more services, general communications and teachings on: http://anakya.ariana.tripod.com
Read more: http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/forum/topics/project-awaken-earth#ixzz1OCVeRO7B
Blog entry
22 May 2011 - 4:21pm
The evolution continues. I feel that I have assimilated the greater part of the energies / experiences / lives that I came to earth for. Only the last phase awaits. All my life here, I've absorbed so many different modes of existence. All the experiences that had not yet been touched were delivered (downloaded?) during an intense and accelerated period of dreaming a couple of months ago. This sequence started with earth pre-mammal, and toward the end of the sequence I even went through an atomic blast. So I absorbed basically the entire history of earth and humans.
I am now moving full circle, closing in on what I was when I first came here. Moving closer to nature, becoming one with nature. I can tell how much my energy has changed. Wild animals now approach me. I have always lived in cities, when I looked out on the world my eyes always registered the man-made things. Now my vision is inverted. I see only nature, the man-made things seem like transient scars overlaid over what is real, the trees, the plants, the animals.
And even that isn't real. I now see all the physical manifestations as simply a fabric, the fabric of existence. Sometimes it ripples open for a brief time, but then closes tight again.
I can no longer bear any kind of man-made noise. My home is filled with silence, the only thing I can listen to are the LightBody meditations. At work, I permanently wear isolation headphones. I can no longer bear any artificial scents or flavors, or any kind of perfume whatsoever.
My interior dimension is undergoing de-pressurization. I don't know why or how. My ears constantly feel like when you are in an airplane, and you have to keep yawning or swallowing to make your ears pop and return equilibrium pressure.
In a recent meditation, I became the neutron star.
~Zia
Story
17 May 2011 - 7:53pm
Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for Life Tapestry Creations.com
5/16/11 "Creation Energies" 15-minute channeled radio show overview: In the past, care taking created victims of both participants. It's time to listen to our hearts and allow others the strength and wisdom to create their own lives. "Creation Energies" is available at both www.lifetapestrycreations.com and blogtalkradio.com.
According to the number of readers of last week's blog, "Care Taking Remains Deeply Embedded in Your Belief System," many people are struggling with their care taking beliefs. This week's radio show augments that blog.
Dear Ones,
It is time to discuss another difficult issue. Not everyone now on earth will create the new earth even though most of you reading these materials will be part of the group that does.
What does that mean for those you love who do not wish to move into joy? Will you be isolated?
The future is less gruesome than some of you envision. Perhaps you have read materials about life between lives on earth and other planets; or materials that direct your attention to how you decided to be on earth at this time. Most materials probably highlighted how you travel in groups - on earth or another planet.
The rumor that you may have a "twin" somewhere on earth is not necessarily a myth. You can exist in two or more places at once. Not in your current physical being, but rather your spiritual being. It is not unusual to explore two or more lives in two or more locations at the same time while your soul, your true being, is observing the results.
What does this mean in practical terms? Not much unless you wish to experience travel. Ah. We are finally returning to a topic we discussed months ago. Time travel means moving through time - either forwards or backwards (Both of which are a misnomer as time is not linear. But that is a topic for another day). Experience travel includes time travel with the added element of exploring all of "you" living in the spiritual and physical realms.
In experience travel, you would find many of the same people you now consider your friends and relatives. They may play different roles. Perhaps your father in this world and place is your brother in another or your boss, whom you dislike intensely, is your mother in another experience. You have a repertoire of players with whom you experience life after life. Sometimes other souls join if they wish to explore something your group has highlighted as their learning or teaching needs. Sometimes those from your group attach themselves to another group if they feel they can learn something new. But of course, they always return to your group with that new information.
You are a member of a loving group of actors who take turns being the lead actor, as well as the villain, saint or any other required role. Have you watched a movie knowing that the actors have worked together in different roles? Perhaps the lead in one movie is a bit player in another. So it is for you and your group.
Those of you reading these materials are most likely the lead actor in this particular lifetime and place. If you were a bit play, you would not be intrigued with New Age, new earth materials at this stage of the transition. You are the lead in this play.
And just as is true for historical sagas, as you move into other dimensions through whatever you wish to call the transition that is your exit from earth, another of your group will assume the lead role. They are your understudy.
But this does not address your concern about being alone. A lead actor in any production knows more than the bit players. At the end of the play, does not the lead actor solve the mystery, address the group or somehow relay what information they have learned? Even your love stories are learning grounds of how to fall in love. Lead actors are the teachers and the supporting cast are the students. So it is for you.
You are the one feeling the emotions and shifts within your being of the New Age/new earth. And as you do, you relay this information to the bit players in your personal drama. Some will wish to listen, others will ignore you and still others will continue on their "Merry Old Age" way. But if they remain in your heart, they are actors in your group and will complete the actions necessary for you to move deeper into the New Age. Their roles are not passive, nor are they negative. They merely support you as you move into the joy of the New Age.
Please understand how important their roles are and how much they love you to allow you to be the star in this exciting shift. Your role may not seem easy. But then, does the lead actor visible in every scene ever consider a role easy? So it is for you.
You are the star of your play. Those who love you the most are your supporting players in whatever fashion the two of you decided before birth in this dimension, at this time. Perhaps you required someone to push you into the New Age through pain. Maybe you requested that they appear at the right time with the appropriate book. It does not matter. They are part of your group.
Is it possible for you to be the lead in this drama and at the same time a bit player in someone's else's drama in another part of earth or the Universes? Many of you are. Think of yourself as part of a traveling acting group in which you are the lead in London and bit player in Spain. All o f those in your group are fully capable of being the lead actor. In time, you will allow yourself to move through your fears and beliefs to travel with that group of loving players at the same time you are the lead actor in your drama.
Your new tool kit is phenomenal. You can travel to and experience other parts of your being, as well as time travel to your past and future lives. But for this blog it is enough for you to know that even those who anger you are part of your drama group and are playing their roles in love so that you can be the featured star.
Will the number of people you love be reduced? Never. They just play different roles. And if there is a time during this transition in which you feel lonely because your supporting actors are encouraging or forcing you to accept your New Age skills, know that you merely need to allow yourself to experience travel and you will feel love radiating from all of them.
You are not alone on earth or in the heavens. You are supported, challenged and yes, prodded by your group to be the best you can be. Your supporting actors love you dearly and wish only the best for you during this transition. And if you allow yourself to experience travel, you will most likely find yourself in a supporting role doing something similar for the lead actor in your group. And so it is. Amen.
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Blog entry
5 May 2011 - 1:10pm
by Gregg Prescott, M.S.
www.in5d.com
www.maya12-21-2012.com
What is a Soul Group?
Did you ever meet someone and felt as though you knew that person for a long time, even thought this was the first time you ever met? Did you ever have a connection with someone where you could finish their sentences or seemingly read their mind at will? Chances are, you’ve known these people many, many lifetimes and they are part of your soul group.
So what is a soul group? A soul group is a group of infinite beings of consciousness who help us learn life lessons. Many have been with us in previous incarnations and have spent the majority of time with us in the ethereal realms. While we’re on the “other side”, we make agreements with our soul groups to meet at some juncture in our Earth-bound lives (or any other place of incarnation, it doesn’t have to be Earth).
Before we are born
Before we are born, we choose the experiences that we desire to have in this incarnation and then make soul contracts with people who will help us along the way. We also choose which parents we will have and the type of lifestyle we will lead. You might be asking yourself, “Why did I choose THIS lifestyle?” Because you knew it would give you the best chance to learn so many life lessons and to grow spiritually. At birth, your personality, character, abilities, talents, strengths and weaknesses are already formed. Now, it’s just a matter of learning from your weaknesses and using your abilities to the utmost capacity.
In the near future, you will meet people at the most opportune times in your life, and not by coincidence. These people are part of your soul group who will help you with your life lessons.
As above, so below
Who you are has a lot to do with the day, date and time you incarnated here on Earth, due to the specific planetary alignments at the time of your birth. The alignment of specific planetary positions in the houses will tell you what specific type of destiny you have chosen for this incarnation. It can also tell you the origin of your lineage. For example, if a person has numerous planetary birth alignments within the 25 to 27 degree range, then it is likely that this person has a Pleiadian lineage. To find out your specific alignments, you can check out this free birth chart reading here.
You can have many soul groups that include literally millions of people! I had a star chart reading performed by Lavendar who revealed many interesting things about me. Here is a brief preview of what I learned about my birthday:
You’ve had many different experiences available to walk-in energies.
Sun Sign: 26 degrees Libra, 12th house
When you were born, you were born a very fragile butterfly with hummingbird energy. You have great capacity for compassion and the 26 degrees shows the mark of starseed. You came in on the frequency of 26 Libra.
2nd House Cusp:
On the 2nd house cusp, 26 Scorpio, 41, that is the mark of the Pleiades. You are sooo Pleiadian, you are so in tune with the 7 sisters, with the Pleiadian experiments on the planet.
Venus 27, Scorpio in the 2nd house:
You are really attuned to 2012. When you were born, you said, “I’m not coming unless I can find my soul group and the people that I need to connect with because my assignment is 2012.” It’s not that 2012 is gonna be the end of the world, nothing like that. This is about you bridging the gap of understanding with people. You’ve had seven different walk-ins attached themselves to you who’ve propelled you upward and onward. You made an agreement before you left the ship and yes, your ship is “Star of Bethlehem”. It is Pleiadian in origin and you have been on ship, many, many times. When you were a child, you were taken and they tagged you. You kept saying to them, “Don’t forget me, don’t forget me” and they didn’t. You kept your promise, they kept theirs.
3rd House, Saturn at 12 Capricorn
This gives you great crystal wisdom. You have the responsibility of knowing about the crystal powerpoints on the planet. It’s where your feet come down on the earth, it’s where you stand mightily with your energy and you say, “Never again Atlantis, never again Atlantis”. It’s a battle cry that’s in your soul. You have gone lifetimes to protect this and you’re not about to give up on it now. This is a deep seeded thing about Atlantis and you know it.
9th house cusp, 26 Gemini, 14
You are the galactic starseed battle crier of information. Thank goodness the internet came along when it did because now you can absolutely do something worthwhile and that is: have a website, a blog, a forum , connect with people like yourself .
You have 5 different soul groups that you have connected with at different times. You were in England, France, Italy, Atlantis and you were in the Native American culture. You have 5 different groups of these beings who are waiting for you to bring them the information they need. Why? They need to jump forward to their next place. A lot of them are asleep. A lot of them are awake. A lot of them are in the process of having their blood elevated and their DNA strands “upped”.
August 20th found you in a particular timing mechanism because they came, took you aboard ship and completely rewired you. They had to set up your boundaries for you because you just want to love and help everybody. You need boundaries, which will keep you safer, cleaner in spirit and will keep you on track to find your 5 different groups.
Lavendar’s website is: http://www.starseedhotline.com/
As you can see, your birthday and the planetary alignments at the time of your birth are much more than a coincidence. The date and time of your birth can reveal the destiny that you chose as well as the soul groups that will reunite with you.
Your Higher Self
Our higher selves also play an interactive role in the arrangement and meeting between two or more souls. Consider the fact that your higher self is multidimensional and can communicate with other higher selves at any given time.
Don’t I Know You?
Did you ever look at someone and even though you never officially met them, you felt as if you’ve known this person? Chances are, this person is part of your soul group as well. The feeling that you’re experiencing is the remembrance of this relationship which is locked into your cellular memory. This is the point where both higher selves are in bliss and that feeling is relayed between these two people as familiarity or in simpler terms, “Do I know you from somewhere?”
The Wheel of Karma
Have you found yourself being attracted to a specific type of personality? While most of the time, this is a wonderful relationship, but some of the lessons we need to learn in this incarnation involve karma.
For example, if you are in an abusive relationship, then it’s quite possible that YOU were the abuser in a previous lifetime and you made a soul contract with your spouse to come back as the opposite sex, not only to experience what the other person was feeling, but to resolve the karmic debt. The easiest way to resolve this debt is to FORGIVE, but be sure to understand the lesson that was presented before you.
Multidimensional Relationships
As a multidimensional being on the other side, you made thousands upon thousands of contracts to meet specific people at specific times in your life. In the third dimensional reality, it’s difficult to comprehend the numerous amounts of contracts that we’ve made but when you’re multidimensional, it’s quite easy to do.
Some of these relationships will never manifest in this incarnation due to free will.
Twin Flames
Other relationships may involve seeking your twine flame, who may or may not be here in this incarnation. A twin flame is literally the other half of your soul that makes you whole, yet at the same time, each twin flame is a complete soul. They form a complete balance of the male and female energies. Your previous relationships were also soul contracts to help you prepare to be with your twin flame. When you meet your twin flame, you’ll know it immediately.
Some twin flames aren’t here in this incarnation. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t get married or have children because your twin flame (in the ethereal realms) wants you to experience everything that can bring you joy and happiness in this incarnation, as well as to learn as many life lessons to help your spiritual growth. He or she is still part of your soul group but decided not to join you in this incarnation. Don’t take it personally! They’re still with you in heart and in spirit.
It’s also important to remember that some twin flames remain on the other side to provide you with help and spiritual guidance. Some souls decided to come here without them because they “heard the call” and they knew they were needed here in this incarnation. Please keep in mind that not everyone from your soul group will incarnate at the same time!
Thanks for being YOU!
Many of us decided to come here at this specific point in time to help with the great shift in consciousness and to be an active participant in the global spiritual awakening. Our star families are gathering here as well, as evidence by the numerous UFO sighting in recent years. Past life regression hypnotherapist, Dolores cannon, states that the ET’s think this is the greatest show on earth! You CHOSE to be here right now. This is your destiny!
addendum from Trey Abernethy:
The group could be you, and one other person, or several people, who are all on your frequency. You sense each other's presence. They may be other aspects of your soul wanting to come together.
The Internet has been instrumental in bringing soul groups together, obvious case in point this site, but this feeling goes beyond the Internet.
It is a feeling in your soul, you sense these people, often living in areas not near your home. The people who share our journeys vary as we learn and move on.
If you feel that is time to meet them, and they too are in readiness, synchronicities will reunite you. You must feel this tugging in your soul.
If you sense these souls, just relax your mind and body... clear your thoughts, see yourself as a beacon of light, send out a message and they will hear you. They may come in to help with healing and clearing, or for something beyond. You will recognize each other and move forward, and you never know who may show up.
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video
27 Apr 2011 - 3:26am
Permission granted to upload this video to YouTube user in5d and http://www.in5d.com/ by 21Davicinho. Watch in full screen, you don't want to miss this!
Matías De Stefano is an Argentinian 22 year old, who could be described as an Indigo child. He has been allowed to activate the area of the brain where all the cosmic memory is registered. His purpose in life is to share his memories with the people, helping these to organize their own information. Also one of his essential missions is to help create a new education that can adapt to the new paradigms of the children of our time.
Matis talks about the mass influx of indigo children who have chosen to incarnate here at this particular time, as well as what to expect with 2012 and how he was able to recall his past lives, which included working with the Akashic Records.
Matías De Stefano website: www.ghan.com.ar
Prohibited Education website: www.educacionprohibida.com
video
21 Apr 2011 - 7:56pm
For more on starseeds, please visit http://www.in5d.com/ What is a star seed? Better yet, who is a star seed? If you trace the origins of human lineage, you end up with a plethora of questions. For example, if we were to believe the bible's origins of mankind and assume that we came from Adam and Eve, then that assumption wouldn't explain the genetic differences in our population. Continuing with the bible story, we are led to believe that Noah and his family were the only survivors of the Great Flood, which means we are allegedly all descendants of Noah and his family. Are we to assume that Noah brought aboard two of every ethnicity as well? That's highly unlikely.
Blog entry
19 Apr 2011 - 11:28am
At the beginning of each year there is the opportunity for change. We need to face our fears and embrace it with the love and joy that is within us. Nothing holds us back but the ego. Once we begin to notice this we allow the pain to pass and go for our dreams. Dream big whatever it is you want to experience in your life. The biggest gateway is your heart. Send love to your thoughts and to your energy. Be greatful for all that you are and for the elements that change the seasons and make you believe in magic and miracles.
I keep fairies in my mind and by my bedside to remind me of the light working with me. It has no memory of pain, only consciousness and so we become one with all. How fascinating to know that we are always looked after and that all can be achieved. We can reach that power through affirmation and constant connection with the source. We are all one and we should be aware of that constantly.
When we awaken into a connected world, we see that all emotion falls away and we are able to move mountains with our minds and strength can suddenly arise in times of need. You can feel all the love of the angels pulsating through you and accompany all your wants and needs though a mirror of compassion. Open your eyes to it and you will learn to love again and see peace again. You are so vital on this earth and all higher purposes are revealed when we hold the sun within.
Blog entry
14 Apr 2011 - 9:09pm
If you go to the address at the bottom of the page.....it is a radio show from last night, April 13th, 2011.
You can listen for yourself, decide for yourself.
I have known since birth I was 'NOT OF THIS WORLD' so to speak.
That was the extent of my understanding..until I began to Awaken in 2007.
Now, I KNOW I am a StarSeed Here, Now.
What do you think STAR SEED means??? Seeded from the Stars perhaps? Exactly!
ET = Extra Terrestrial
I AM!!!
YOU ARE TOO!!!
WELCOME TO PLANET EARTH!!!
WE HAVE BEEN HERE AWHILE EH? LOL.... Now we can Start looking UP to Welcome the rest of our FAMILY!!!
ALL OF THEM!!!
I LOVE YOU...ENJOY THE SHOW!!!!
SUMMER PHOENIX
http://soundofheart.org/galacticfreepress/content/galactic-free-press-our-first-radio-interview-ets-have-landed-thank-you-sharing
Blog entry
12 Apr 2011 - 3:59am
Today I was directed to a website that I am sure many of you are well aware of. It was here that I found a wealth of information and possibly my own starseed origin. I was overjoyed and excited as I continued to read every last bit of information this site had to offer. I hope it serves you all as it did me! There are many discussions, but the one that really stuck out to me was the Polarity Intergration discussion. I will provide links, be well everyone and continue to learn!
http://www.nibiruancouncil.com/
http://www.nibiruancouncil.com/html/flagshipnibiru.html#
http://www.nibiruancouncil.com/html/polarityintegration.html
Blog entry
30 Mar 2011 - 4:16pm
I turned on the radio in the car the other day, something I rarely do, & they were just announcing this song. Coincidence? I don't think so!
“Written on the Stars”
(Eric Turner)
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I’m On My Way
(Tinie Tempah – Verse 1)
Lets Go…
Yeah
You’re Listening Now
They Say They Aint Heard Nothing Like This In A While
Thats Why They Play My Song On So Many Different Dials
Cause I Got More F**king Hits Than A Disciplined Child
When They See Me Everybody Brrrrrap’s, Brrrrrraps
Man I’m Like A Young Gun Fully Black Barrack
I Cried Tear Drops Over The Massive Attack
I Only Make Hits Like I Work With A Racket And Bat
Look At My Jacket And Hat
So Damn Berserk
So Down To Earth
I’m Bringing Gravity Back
Adopted By The Major I Want My Family Back
People Work Hard Just To Get All Their Salary Taxed
Look Im Just A Writer From The Ghetto Like Malorie Blackman
Where The Hells All The Sanity At, Damn
I Used To Be The Kid That No One Cared About
Thats Why You Have To Keep Screaming Til They Hear You Out
(Chorus)
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I’m On My Way
(Tinie Tempah – Verse 2)
Yeah, I Needed A Change
When We Ate We Never Took Because We Needed A Change
I Needed A Break
For A Sec I Even Gave Up Believing And Praying
I Even Done Illegal Stuff And Was Leaded Astray
They Say Money Is The Root To The Evilist Ways
But Have You Ever Been So Hungry It Keeps You Awake
Mate, Now My Hunger Would Leave Them Amazed
Great, It Feels Like A Long Time Coming, Fam
Since The Day I Thought Of That Cunning Plan
One Day I Had A Dream I Tried To Chase It
But I Wasn’t Going Nowhere, Running Man!
I Knew That Maybe Someday I Would Understand
Tryin Change A Tenner To A Hundred Grand
Everyones A Kid That No-One Cares About
You Just Gotta Keep Screaming Until They Hear You Out
(Chorus)
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I’m On My Way (x2)
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27 Mar 2011 - 1:24am
Check out this free diver! She truly looks like a mermaid with her flowing red hair & her flipper. I totally want one of those flippers!! Notice how at ease the whales are even with her swimming quite close. She swims so beautifully & looks like she totally belongs in the ocean.
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25 Mar 2011 - 5:37pm
When I first awakened to being a Starseed I discovered this kids' TV show called Ocean Girl. I found it very randomly while scrolling through a list of celebrities that shared my exact birthdate on a Numerology website. The main character, Neri, is played an actress who was born on the same day I was. And it's interesting that she plays a Starseed-like character living on earth, who has the ability to communicate with a whale & has superhuman abilities in the water. I am a Blue Ray Starseed & have had a special connection with whales for the past 6 years. I love the water & have always been a strong swimmer.
Anyways, here is a brief description of the show:
Ocean Girl (titled Ocean Odyssey in the UK) is an Australian science fiction TV series aimed for family audiences and starring Marzena Godecki as the lead character. The show is set in the near future, and focuses on an unusual girl named Neri who lives alone on an island, and the friendships she develops with the inhabitants of an underwater research facility called ORCA (Oceanic Research Centre of Australia). The show is an example of deep ecology science fiction.
Neri — the title character — is a young girl with an affinity for water, super-human strength, the ability to swim long distances, and super-human lung capacity. She lives alone on an otherwise deserted island.
As the series progresses, it is explained that Neri came to Earth on a spaceship with her father when she was young, though his death soon after leaves Neri to fend for herself. Prior to meeting Jason and Brett, Neri's only friend was a humpback whale (called jali in Neri's native tongue), whom she names "Charley", and with whom she can communicate.
Taken from: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ocean_Girl
You can watch the entire 4 seasons online at: http://www.veoh.com/watch/v6314149GS4aYzb3
Anyone have any thoughts?
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24 Mar 2011 - 7:09pm
Starseeds and Our Human Origins
by Gregg Prescott, M.S.
What is a star seed? Better yet, who is a star seed? If you trace the origins of human lineage, you end up with a plethora of questions. For example, if we were to believe the bible’s origins of mankind and assume that we came from Adam and Eve, then that assumption wouldn’t explain the genetic differences in our population. Continuing with the bible story, we are led to believe that Noah and his family were the only survivors of the Great Flood, which means we are allegedly all descendents of Noah and his family. Are we to assume that Noah brought aboard two of every ethnicity as well? That’s highly unlikely.
Let’s examine the other possibilities.
Zecharia Sitchin believes our DNA was genetically manipulated, which remains a possibility, but why would the Annunaki create various ethnicities instead of one slave race?
That leads us to another, more feasible, possibility. We were seeded here from various star nations. In this premise, genetic and ethnic diversity is explained. It also covers the differences in our blood types, such as Rh negative, Rh positive, A, B, AB and O blood types. Perhaps some star nations have people with predominantly red hair and freckles while others have dark skinned inhabitants? Maybe some, such as the Pleiadians, have blonde hair and blue eyes?
It’s also possible that Sitchin’s premise is correct, while other star nations ALSO seeded the planet with their genetic offspring.
Perhaps we would look at ourselves differently if we saw a planet inhabited by various star nations versus segregating ourselves from one another through patriotism, nationality and prejudice?
Is it possible that our planet is one gigantic galactic experiment to see how various star nations would get along with one another?
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15 Mar 2011 - 8:18am
"As with all things that make a mess, nuclear energetics contains a golden kernel of truth hard learned."
How does plutonium make the kind of energies that can tear apart worlds? What is its relationship to love as the body of matter, time, and space? The following excerpt from my book in progress is offered in response to the need for a deeper understanding of the light side of dark and how plutonium, and radioactivity in general, affects the energies of a matrix we fondly call "reality".
Radiation as consciousness rambling is a concept we not only enjoy but are driven to discuss with the certain planet upon which you reside, brother. Radioactivity fascinates your people. Nature controls radioactivity. When all is in balance, there’s absolutely no danger to the physical form you are encased within. Only the removal of very heavy material from the Earth brings danger close. The manipulation of agents of radioactive nature invites a certain lack of a certain element in the balance of the planet. Radioactive elements, where they occur naturally, serve a very important service by sorting out particles of a certain character and broadcasting them to the area in which they are placed. You might actually be surprised to know that in places of high natural radioactivity, natives who follow traditional ways of living are apt to live to be quite old and robust. Natural radiation is a source of vitality when left alone. The same can be said for Nemesis.
Soul renegades, it seems, are really not bad. Again, when undisturbed, this is true. Anyone who knows the nasty side of someone knows to cordon off all routes to awakening it. Woe to the one who does! Knowledge of charity these ones do not possess. No afterglow of kindness warms their countenance. Such is the nature of Nemesis. Crazy as it seems, certain parts of love at first do not seem very loving, or lovable. Charity one does receive, however, in this little lesson about radiation.
From the beginning of your universe, all of creation balances itself. All things are of a nature which seeks balance, harmony and simplicity. All things are of a fractal nature, too. The anchor to the boat of seeming balance is a page of nonsensical mathematical formulas cascading over the edge of reason and sanity. Rising from the depths of the ocean it powers across is a leviathan against which no vessel can maintain balance: Chaos, satisfied only with distance, power and ramming itself as deeply as it can into a love-doubting area of consciousness. Humans do not understand the outside influence Chaos remains long after your attention has become fixed on marauding distractions. If you did, you would remain a staunch, cozy ally to raggedy old Chaos and have a nothing-but-random attitude yourself. It is the only way to maintain sanity in the multi-dimensional universe you are about to discover.
Lack of information on the nature of multidimensionality, quite rampant in your world, is about to spin you around. Dark and light are about to get a whole lot more interesting. And you are about to be seeing things in a whole new way. Multidimensionality goes further into the void of darkness than you might want to — dreams take on new characteristics, and magic abounds. You will be safe on our little tour, however, so have no fear. Let a reality assemble in which all things are possible. Truly, that is reality’s nature. You are limited only by your belief and your fear. We are ready to gently take you by the hand and lead you to greater understanding of how darkness serves light, how all things are oSource of Love / OM / God, etc. and how salvation from your fear is as easy as surrendering to love and accepting what comes as an answer from paths leading from where you are back home to love. As Asterath, an angel of the dark light, says, “No one can resist the pull of home — it is inescapable. Our job as angels of dark light is to push while angels of light pull.” We quote Asterath because his words bear much weight as a being whose service to OM could easily be doubted, and we like to let things speak for themselves. If we told you that, raising a deeply buried fear at the name “Asterath” might not have occurred, and our job of explaining the nature of radioactivity would have been all the more difficult. Now, however, you are prepared to delve into the density of darkness. So we continue unabated.
Powerful is the source from whence comes the sacredness of love. Sacred is love, and by “sacred” we mean that which has only loving creation as its expression. That which is sacred is all about love as its activity. Sacredness is so empty in density that it is pure possibility, which only begins to describe the dark. As empty of dark matter as is sacredness, as full of dark matter is darkness. So densely packed is the slowed-down energetic mass of particles that no light exists — at least, no light you can see. For encased within every molecule of dark matter gaps a body of love. Your own body is constructed so. It is in this intramolecular web of absence of dark matter that the soul resides. Matrices provide the dimensional framework Nature keeps spinning her portion of the weave upon. And within the void of heaven keeps spinning OM. From the pathways of vibrations emanating from within OM are spun frequency overtones which mingle and vortexes of turbulence in the void of consciousness. Framing the structure of dark matter: Heaven. Reflecting the purity of Heaven: surprise, it’s… plutonium! You might not have been expecting that answer, but we assure you it is true. Another story may help clarify why.
Say you had a lot of material you want to pack in a box. Crush and squish branches of stuff into a manageable pile, then along comes a handy hydraulic press to smash it more. Good enough? No, it still doesn’t fit, so you get a mountain to sit on it for a few patches of time and then check. Small enough now? Not yet, so you call on the forces of electromagnetics to rearrange things at a subatomic level and very tightly pack the particles so that all the space between them is essentially eliminated from the dimensional matrix you’re in. All that’s left is plutonium, the most densely arranged mass of atomic material in the planetary band of reality you know. Crazy as it sounds, the light of the intramolecular gap in the plutonium isn’t really in the plutonium, but leaks into another band of reality alongside yours. This parallel reality is a creation of OM, too, and it too has light in intramolecular gaps and material so dense the light has leaked into your band of reality. It is interesting to see what happens when plutonium is cracked open. The veil between the two realities is ripped apart and a massive amount of energy drafts across and into the other, bringing along with it all the particles and light, and creating a crack which cannot be repaired without some astral intervention by star-making beings.
Every time rapacious astral meddling goes on in the form of nuclear bombs going off, another crack appears. Every time, a sort of crack appears that allows life energy to leak over from your world into another. Your life energy and the life energy of the other side, however, are polar opposites, and the damage done to one world affects both. Both worlds suffer and both worlds die a little with each blast to the integrity of the veil.
Brace yourselves for the appearance of astral beings who arrive to repair the veil and restore order to the worlds on both sides. Left unrepaired, the veil would eventually disintegrate and your world and the other would be no more. What good would that do? None to OM, so repaired it shall be. You are given warning to leave plutonium alone in the fact that it makes you sick to be around it much. However, as only humans know too well, curiosity killed the cat and curiosity is a tricky thing to deny. So along come the star-makers to clean up the mess.
As with all things that make a mess, nuclear energetics contains a golden kernel of truth hard learned. Those people who are burned by radiation are part of the truth. As they died in human form, their soul matrix exploded, and the particles of soul-anchoring light was rearranged on a matrix of dark. Granting such a switch of polarity is OM, which responds to each soul’s darkest yearnings as well as to that which is of the lightest light. For remember, the light within the dark is only a slight dimensional shift away. The souls who are now on the dark-matrix side are doing much to repair the loss of life-force there and are brought there by a soul agreement with OM. None who died in any nuclear blast, who died as a result of disintegration of their bodily integrity, died without the arrangement in place for this transition and soul experience from the deepest source of love. Plutonium in all its forms arranges reality in such a way.
Copyright 2011 Maryann Rada; excerpted from the chapter "Creation of Soul" from Opalescence: A Renegade Guide to Divinity
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7 Mar 2011 - 3:43pm
OK, I guess this is just a little table I'm creating here.
You are more than welcome to join me at the table.
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4 Mar 2011 - 11:47pm
My whole life I've felt different. I've been drawn to water & the ocean. I'm dreamy, distant, spacey, & mystical. And I've felt like no one in my life truly understood me. Turns out, these are common themes for Blue Ray Starseeds.
A good place to start with this story is with my first visit to Hawaii in Dec. 2004. I was there for 2 weeks. During the second week I had an emotional breakdown. I remember leaving my husband & 3 year old daughter stranded while I drove to the ocean & watched the whales spouting for an hour by myself. From then on, I've had recurring dreams of trying to find the whales in Hawaii. These dreams continued on regularly & I still have them. I've been to Hawaii 2 other times & each time I would have an emotional breakdown. More on this later.
I started to blog in 2005. There are quite a few similarities between what I would blog about & Starseed traits. The blog is even called "Blue Like Alis: Blue thoughts about a certain girl."
Last year I was introduced to Crystal Ally Cards & Book by Naisha Ahsian. I started pulling cards regularly & accessing what I believe is my intuition through them. The more I use them, the better I get at asking good questions about what is going on in my life. Then, about 3 months ago, I started to get the same card over & over, nearly every time I pulled cards. That card was the Nurture Card of the Larimar Ally. Then I got the opportunity to go back to Hawaii in January. I asked the Allies what would be most beneficial for me for my trip, so that I would have the most fun, connection, & spiritual growth during my time there. I again got the Larimar card. This card suggested that I do a water ritual such as swimming in the ocean. I did this the first few days I was there, going on snorkel & whale watching tours. Then at the end of my second to last day I was at the beach but decided against my better judgement to go back to my hotel room. When I got there, things went downhill fast. I became severely depressed, even somewhat suicidal. I felt like my will to live & experience pleasure had been entirely sucked out of me. I felt like a shell of a human, with nothing inside. The physical pressure on my body was intense. I felt half dead. This depression continued on for several days after I got home.
When I got home I was so depressed that I could not even draw Crystal Cards about this issue. The friend who introduced them to me finally asked if she could pull some cards for me. She drew the Will card twice, followed by the Initiation card twice. So I knew I was onto something. Hearing that there was a reason for the madness gave me the motivation to start researching about what had happened. I looked back at the Larimar card & discovered that it was linked to dolphins & Lemuria. I had read on Diana Cooper's website that Hawaii is considered the mountaintops of Lemuria. Hawaii is also considered to be the Solar Plexus Chakra of the earth. And the Solar Plexus Chakra is the one associated with a person's will, so hence the Will card.
And during the time that I was depressed in Hawaii they were also having major thunderstorms, & unusually heavy rains that resulted in flooding. In the Crystal Ally cards, the Initiation card is a Storm element card. So I believe I was going through an initiation that had to do with my solar plexus chakra. Perhaps I would have experienced the same initiation in a gentler way if I had heeded the advice of the Larimar card & stayed near the ocean & water.
So after I started to feel better I began to research more about Hawaii, Lemuria, dolphins & whales. I have felt a keen desire to go to Hawaii ever since my first visit there, even though I had the emotional breakdowns. I remember telling people that Hawaii had "gotten in my blood." And I felt that the whales were calling me to return as well. As I researched all of this, I discovered something called Blue Ray Starseeds. This was my moment of awakening or at least the moment that I recognized who I am. I identify heavily with Blue Ray traits, except for the age-range. I'm 32 & most Blue Rays are in their late 30's to 50's. I remember spending hours on the computer doing research & then feeling so incredibly drained afterwards! This was because I hadn't yet figured out that I have to ground myself regularly to balance out all that higher thinking. Regardless however, I was still very excited to discover all of this. I felt like finally someone understood me, truly. I felt like there was a higher purpose to my life beyond just the day-to-day stuff. Little did I know that I would soon discover that that higher purpose was to bring light to the day-to-day stuff. ;)
I spent about a week heavily researching everything I could find about this topic. I read Shakina, Diana Cooper, Blue Ray Healing, Joan Ocean, & various other websites about Hawaii, Lemuria, Blue Rays, Starseeds, healing, numberology, 2012, etc. After this I nearly collapsed & finally figured out that I was having "assension symptoms." Wow, it was right on! So now I take breaks, do grounding exercises, light incense or smudge, take salt baths, do physical chores, etc., to make sure I stay grounded & balanced.
So that has been my experience so far. I still struggle with energy & being balanced but at least I know why & how to fix it. And I know I have to go back to Hawaii & the whales. I read somewhere that Blue Rays are drawn to certain sacred places both to get messages & energy from them as well as to give them energy & healing. When I read that I knew that Hawaii needed my energy & that there is something in me that it can only get from me & it is important that I visit there as often as I can. Next time I will be prepared & will listen completely to my intuition & spirit guides. It is going to be epic!
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4 Mar 2011 - 10:59pm
http://lightworkers.org/blog/108598/horoscopes-astrology-birth-charts-do-not-apply-some
After reading the blog post above, I believe that I am a walk-in. When my mother was 3 months pregnant with me she started bleeding heavily & doctors told her she had lost the pregnancy. But when they checked her again later, there was still a heartbeat. I've always felt like I had a twin that was lost when that happened. Now I'm starting to think that I was just a different soul.
I wonder if this affected my numerology birth date readings. The numbers I get don't seem to fit with who I am very well.
I know I am a Blue Ray Starseed with alternative lives in Lemuria.
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25 Feb 2011 - 7:38pm
This is a message I wrote to someone, but it applies to anyone interested in learning more about how light working works, and it answers some other questions as well.
Well, to grow wings, you'd have to be a creature with wings embodied into a human body. That means that if your soul is an angel, fairy, etc. (Or for the dark side, a demon) then you'll be able to "grow" wings. The wings are ethereal and made of light coming out of your back. I'd imagine that anyone can change their aura to have wings in it since in 4D you can shape shift, but if your otherkin soul has wings, you'll have them, but not activated until you feel aware of them.
In order to find out if you have a soul that isn't human, you need to see if you identify with any other creature. You may be a starseed. (An alien race (Pleidians (like me) - Angelic race (Angels are many types of alien races), Lyrans (The race humans came from and Pleidians as well), and Syrians, Elohim (Not sure if they embodied, though), are some of the more common starseeds now a day since those races are here to help with the upshift in frequency from 3D to 4D that will conclude sometime next year. At that point everyone will be in 4D or will move to a different place to continue in 3D because they aren't polarized enough for 4D. The power elite have their helpers too. (Mainly the greys and reptilians from what I've seen. They also have demons on their side as well.) The other races embodied here will help people just like another human embodied person will, but they have a mission designed by their oversoul that must be carried out. The person may never know their mission, but will follow the path to achieve it even unknowingly. The alien races that come in from their home worlds will be here helping people who correspond to their polarity (positive or negative) and the way they may help out may be part of the war zone some seers are seeing this world turning into come October of this year. It may include using weaponry to defend their polarity, taking humans on their ships to go safely away, or help out in a myriad of different ways. If you're meant to die in the war, you'll die. If you are meant to live through it, you'll live. If you're meant to leave Earth, you'll leave. It's all up to your oversoul's chosen path for you.
Also, you might be a fairy. Do you resonate with fairies? Do fairies have a special vibe that resonates with you and makes you feel like they are from your ancient past? (You'll feel a deep sense of longing if you do.) Use this method to find out what you are. If you feel that deep sense of longing when you think about fairies or when you think about angels, or when you think about starseeds, etc. then most likely that which you're longing for is part of you. Most likely if your are polarized enough (maybe even if you aren't) then by the end of next year you will have what your soul longs for again. Fairies are 4D creatures and are in the area of 4D where you're between polarities. (Also known by Christians as purgatory.) You simply think of something in 4D and wish it so, and becomes so.
Look into otherkin. See if any of the otherkin (people with souls that aren't human) resonate with you.
Things I resonate with (Some seem conflicting, but I can't overlook how I feel about them.)
1.) Pleidians (Angelic race)
2.) Fairies (I've been told that my energy is very fairy like as well.)
3.) The Avatar movie (There are planets like that out there and it makes me feel like I'm home when I watch that movie. Also know that most movies are based around an element of fact, but the facts in it are often hidden because people see them as entertainment and nothing more. They don't know how to read them to find out what could be fact and pursue it.)
4.) I meditated a few years ago on a place full of fairies and earthy hut like homes where I felt like I was coming home from a long time away. Here's a picture of the type of home that resonates with me. http://fineartamerica.com/images-medium/dianas-tree-house-debbie-dan.jpg
OK, now for your next question. How can you be a healer. Does healing resonate with you deeply? From what I read on your profile website and from the fact that you asked me how you can be a healer as opposed to the question, "Am I a healer, a seer, or something else," I'll go on the assumption that you do resonate with healing. (Be sure that you do resonate with it, though and you aren't just going on my assumption. Your higher self knows what you are and if you feel a sense of expanding, peace, or excitement about being a healer, then you're a healer. If you don't feel anything when thinking about it, you may not be awake enough to know yet and therefore you may not be able to heal until you've "passed the test." (The "test" as I call it is where most lightworkers will go through a rather painful amount of years and when they overcome it and they learn the life lesson they must learn in this life, they get their ability. For me that included accepting myself as intersexed and loving who I am. Now I'm excited about that part of my life and it's a deep part of who I am. I wouldn't trade it for anything. Before I felt that way in a genuine fashion, I felt pain every day and at one point I felt like I wanted to commit suicide. I recommend you play the PS2 game Persona 4. It shows you a LOT about how a light worker's life works and it has a VERY healthy vibe throughout the game, but changed when you get to a darker time in the game, the vibe switches to a darker vibe, but still easy enough o handle. It feels like your happiness went away. Personas in the game are made manifest by the person accepting who they are. That persona then is used to aid them in life. The shadows they face to obtain their personas are the equivalent of them having to struggle to face what they suppressed within them. The TV world is what's going on inside of them, and their friendships strengthen the bonds they have and shows you that love for each other will help you conquer your problems and be happier in life. There are so many threads in the game that it's safe to say that the hidden premise of the game is about being a light worker.)
OK, so after you pass this test, you will have your abilities instantly and will be able to use them to some degree. As you use your new ability, you will advance at it and you can do more with it. (Oh, and in Persona 4, you level up your persona by using it.) The light coming into your body feels the same as when you talk with your higher self. You'll only feel peace, though usually. When you've mastered healing yourself enough, then you can touch someone else and heal them. After you touch them and heal them, you can then go on to remote healing. (This is where I am now.) After that, I'd imagine you can start healing physical wounds (Or at least faster if not immediately) on yourself and then after that, on others by touching the person, and after that, remote healing their wounds. I can only say what I've experienced in this as well as speculate on what may come after that.
As for your last question of how you can start your awakening, you most likely already have. If you've been made aware of light working, you've taken the first step. The next step is studying anything and everything there is on light working and related materials. (Like about Alien races, otherkin, and other dimensions. (Actually called densities and not dimensions because you're less dense in higher densities and you don't ever gain more than height, width, and depth, to my knowledge. The reason you become more sensitive to vibrations is because you're more in touch with your soul.) Also, study anything that pops us that you find important. Understand that 1D is awareness of only that you exist. (Anything not alive in the sense that more people think of it, even though they are alive, but not on the same density as us in 3D.) 2D is awareness that you exist and also what you need to do to continue to exist. (Ex. trees, moss, fungus, etc.) Know that animals are considered innocent. Know that the earth is alive and is a child that needs to be taken care of. Know that she is alive and that she will also ascend to 4D by the end of next year. Her surface will be barren and uninhabitable for many many years due to her pole shift. This is why people will be evacuated very soon. I also have been feeling since the time that I read your message, that you are one of the people I'm supposed to help evacuate. Everyone will be evacuated or will go underground. (The power elite will go underground. They may go to inner Earth as well. The Earth IS hollow and there are holes at each pole of the Earth to enter middle Earth. Some caves go there as well. Google Earth and others used to show the holes, but the government made them change them to hide the holes. If you look at Google Earth at the bottom of the globe, you will see a white circle with a line coming off of it. That's indicative of them covering up the hole. What's in there? It's the land of advanced races. Mammoths, giants, a lot of surface extinct creatures are in there. There have been people who few there, took submarines there, and much more.) The animals of the Earth will either be transplanted to other planets or they will go onto Terra (4D Earth) where their nature will change. That's where the lion lays down with the lamb comes in.
Also, since this is a time for you to finally get answers to things you've always wanted to know, let me tell you about the Bermuda Triangle. The Bermuda triangle is a spiritual gateway. It will allow you to traverse time by simply living in another dimension for a while or just traveling through time since time is only part of the 3D illusion. That's why there's a whale in the desert.
This is just the beginning of it all. Spiritual advancement is so expansive that if I wanted to write down everything there is to know about it, it would probably be one of the world's largest books.
Helpful websites:
See if you feel excited or a sense of overwhelming peace when you read from these websites. If you do, you're feeling your higher self talking with you and saying, "This is a part of you".
http://maps.google.com/?ie=UTF8&ll=-85,-174.143121&spn=28.048129,12.304688&t=f&z=2&ecpose=-87.27697718,-174.14312122,6794529.37,81.991,0,0
^^ That shows the white spot where they covered up the hole to inner Earth.
http://pleiadianmessage.blogspot.com - Messages from the Pleidian race.
http://operationterra.com - I connect with the messages, but be careful. Adonna, the person who channeled the messages, isn't a nice person. Don't buy a forum subscription or speak with her. Just read the messages. She seems quite vengeful and uncomfortable with people trying to let her know how they feel about her. If she thinks you'll cross her or did cross her, she'll try to make you out to be mentally ill by posting about you on the forums, or make snide remarks to you in private. Also, the water is only as sanitary as the conduit, so if the conduit is broken, the water may not be fresh. That being said, I did click with the messages, but not with her. She runs the forums like a cult.
http://childrenofthelight.com - That's where I started learning and I bought the book "A Step Into The Light - The Awakening Guide For The Children Of The Light" from there as well.
http://www.bluegembooks.com - Buy the book by Peter L. Martinez who runs the Children of the Light.com website above.
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16 Feb 2011 - 10:32am
www.walk-ins.org/apps/blog/
A blocked toilet?
Swimming pool cleaner machine, HugBug in South Africa, not working?
Laptop freaking out?
Questions with no answers?
Car won't start?
Feeling depressed, or scared?
Call on our helpers!
AA Raphael helps with healing, AA Michael is the all-over Mr. Fixit specialist, warrior protector and nothing is too big or too small for him to help with. There are many more to our beck and call!
We are in transition where that which is without may appear to be too much to handle or too strong to change - so let us call on our helpers, let us do it as the One We Are.
No thing is too big.
Nothing is too hard.
Nothing is too strong.
Nothing, yes nothing can come in our way to anchor Paradise Here and Now.
Let's claim our inheritance, our birthright, our destiny as Children of the Most High!
Let's say with Eminem:
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
Our "I AM" is indeed not afraid to take a stand!
Every Body accepts and aligns with their "I AM" Self - take one another's hands - and we brave the weather As One!
We are not alone - We Are All-One!
The trumpet has sound - let's use what we've got!
Lovelight
Dehon
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3 Feb 2011 - 9:32pm
Join the EM HS Crew - Recruiting for our Caravan (Star Light Ship)
All is about a resonance principle.
A collective gathers, in order to cocreate a morphic field that will support them enhance their own shift transition
As well for caring for each other and engaging on cosmic adventures.
Earthian Projects are labeled as Elements Management and Holistic Sustainability Network.
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3 Feb 2011 - 3:19pm
Hi dear friends! It is indead a time of great revealations! Veil of amnesia is dissolving. Suddenly, the memories of past and parallel lives rushed into my consciousness. I would say - they already lingered in my mind, I already had glimpses through all my life, since childhood, and now the time has come to recognize them and deal with them. They are like pieces of puzzle, in fact. All the pieces consisted of memories of different times, planest and civilzations. In my memories I usually switched flocations from some alien planet to our contempoprary megapolis, like all those lives were lived parallelly. It is quite possible, that all the lives we live are parallel lives, not past and future.
The cornerstone of all those memories were relationships between brother and sister. I know, incest sometimes is difficult to accept, but I kindly ask you not to judge me.That all happenned in different lives and civilizations, so it doesn't make sense to judge me now. But If you can help me to recognize the worlds and civilizations that I saw in my memories - I would be very grateful. My aim now also is achieve full soul healing and inner piece. Now I am trying the trace the karma that was created in all these parallel lives, and understand the reasons why did I end up in a great purgatory called Earth, and what is the main goal of present incarnation.
First and most distant memory is about creating human beings. In that vague memory the twin-sister was created ( probably, like clone), and brother standed and watched in awe, thinking that she is beautiful. Probably, they both were part of me, I don't know... By the way could this be the reference to Adam and Eve's legend? Creating the woman from man's rib?
Another memory is more dramatic. Brother and sister flying on spaceship, it is probably a scientific expedition. Suddenly the crew finds out that the spaceship with everything abroad wil be annihilated at the next day. As far as they have nothing to lose, brother enter sister's room and confesses that he loves her, and they couls spend the last night in their lives together. And they did. The next morining spaceship and crew vanished. Probably in this lifetime, that ended so tragically, their attraction and karma was created.
Another lifetime, another advanced civilization. They both belong to royal family, like prince and princess. Suddenly war or riot starts in their world, and enemies already rushed in court and killed their parents - queen and king. Brother finds out about that, finds sister and persuades her to run, because enemies now are searching them both in order to kill. Brother knows about secret passage that leads out from court, so they hastily run through it, reach closest cosmoport, break into small spaceship and escape from their planet. It's interesting, which civilazation was that, and which intergalactic conflict were they involved in?
At first they had to make hyperspace jump in order to be sure that they won't be noticed by enemy's spaceships. Probably they performed few such hyper-jumps, because they could'nt land safely in their galaxy. After that for few weeks they wandered in open space, being concealed in small spaceship. As far as nobody will see them now, they confess about their feelings towards each other.
A bit later they discover a beautiful planet looking like paradise, and landed there, probably ending up happily together. This episode also reminds me of Adam and Eve. By the way, sexual relationships were prohibited between them, and nobody know the reason. What if they were brother and sister, and that' why sex was a taboo? At least, the hint that Eve was created from Adam's rib, can indicate that they were twins or clones.
Of course, I am not sure , just trying to interpret my vision and analyse the archetypes that I have found in them.
The next episode refers to some other highly evolved civilation. I see beautiful, spectacular cities, yet very croweded. People wear long gowns and ring on their foreheads. In this memory brother and sister ( and here I remember that I was a brother) meet people from other tribe. While brother and sister had dark hair and dark eyes ( pretty much like me now), members of that tribe were taller and blonder that we. One of them exposes sympathy towards my sister, and I sense that it could be reciprocal. That really causes me pain. At the same time, that tribe looks a bit hostile towards our nation. That's why relatinships between them is hardly possible. Once we all met occasionally in some big crowded building, and while my sister and that tall guy look into each other's eye, trying to contact, they sense my discontent about that. Strange enough, that they both submit to my will, without even fighting and resisting to it- they humbly step back and we all continue our ways. So probably there was a reason for that. I really wonder, what could be that?
After that we found ourselves in Earth's purgatory, for Earth is real healing place for cosmic souls. The last lifetime in United States was vey dramatic. The tall blond guy appeared again. Probably, my sister and him were about to marry, but everything was complicated. Looked like my sister wasn't completely happy, but at the same time I as her brother didn't help her, instead acting out of anger and jealousy.
After that tragic incarnation, which ended with preamture death for both of us, I found myself nowadays in female incarnation, having very challenging life. My aim now is to achieve happiness in this lifetime, but in a meanwhile that part of me, that was male "brother" still yearns and suffers, probably feeling that he wasn't able to give enough love to his "sister", and now they are separated. Probably, I had mission to love and protect her, and after that I felt that my mission failed. That's why this difficult female incarnation took place.
I really enjoy being a woman now! But I really wonder, how should I achieve happiness and inner piece in female consciousness, and how my difficult karma was created. Looks like this present incarnation is very crucial for all this story, since the most distant memories...
Another interesting detail I remember, that ET connection was present even in recent American incarnation. Long ago I had very vivid lucid dream, where brother and sister were sitting in their room, and hear soft and calm voice: Don't be afraid of us, we just need your egg-cell... I woke up stunned, because at that time I never knew about Et connection, genetic experiments etc. Could that be connected to my earlier meories of creating twin-sister? Although still seems strange...
While I remember their love towards each other, the depths and intensety of their feeling has really amazed me... I never experienced anything like this in any other life. I know that my sister had a fiancee, but taht was mainly because of she dreamt about normal life, having family and child. I also had inner conflict about my feelings being against social rules. But as far as I remember I was ready to even die for her.
Anyway their energies intermingled in tantric union, and probably nowadays I cary many of sister's very gentle and loving qualities in me.
But still my puzzle misses the final piece, although I am pretyy close to remembering my live's mission. It is a great time indeed! This picture of Salvador Dali is called "Ascension".
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Story
30 Jan 2011 - 9:49pm
January 25-February 1, 2011
Most Dearly Beloved Lightworkers,
And so we begin our series of discourses through our Beloved Scribe. I wish to address the current situation upon your Planet Earth and Humanity’s reaction to the increased Cosmic energies that have been intensified and unremittingly pouring down upon the atmosphere. You it is who are the way showers, the risk takers, the devoted Ones, who have persisted in your beliefs and your love and faith in the Divine, it is you who are feeling the greatest effects of these energies at this time, simply because you have, by your disciplines each day, opened yourselves to the energy flows and most of you have the ability to discern this flow through your physical bodies.
We ask you to ensure that your energy flows unobstructed through you by practicing clearing your energy field each day. There are many ways to do this; breathing techniques to establish a vital flow of prana through your meridians, invocations and decrees that open up the flow, meditation and visualization techniques. There is a method on the ‘Decrees’ page of this Scribe’s website called the “Total Energy Clearing Decree” which is very effective but requires a lot of your time. We advise that you devote one day a week to this practice as it can be enormously helpful on all levels of your multi-dimensional system to help keep your personal energy field vital and alive with life enhancing flow.
Now then, we say to you Beloved Ones, the next step for you all is to begin a conscious choice of the cleansing of your physical bodies, your mental bodies, your emotional bodies, by working with the decrees you will find here each day. Find the ones that resonate with you at this time and begin to use them each day. You are now in training to fully become the Divine Beings you really are – in your Higher aspects, you are perfected Beings, however, here on Earth, the process has to be rediscovered and through intention and daily persistence, brought back into remembrance once again. The energies that are inundating the Earth at this time are helping you in this process but you must also do your work. Mastery has never been something that has been handed to you out of hand, it must be earned, you must live the truth of it.
For this is why you have come to the Earth! For the experience of pitting yourselves against the elements, against the forces of nature, against the forces of gravity, against the forces of duality, against all that besets you upon your Earthly path. And as you do this, you gain in Mastery, of the knowledge of your physical body as a sacred Temple of the Most High, of the waters of the ebb and flow of your emotional body, of the awareness of the power of your thinking processes and of the utmost importance of feeding your spiritual body with the qualities of love and compassion, harmony and peace, and forgiveness when needed. It is these awareness’s combined together that help you move along your spiritual path into wholeness and perfection. It is not an overnight affair, it is a process that can take many lifetimes and the joy of it is in the journey, as you travel upon your individually chosen Path.
As you, the way showers, move forward upon this Ascension path, you simultaneously create a path, a greater opening, if you will, in the consciousness of all of Humanity. For truly it takes just one soul following the Path back to oneness with the Creator, to implant that mass consciousness field with the potentiality of it and this is reflected back to others who have access to this field whether they are aware of it or not. This is how great Awakenings have occurred in the annals of history and this is what is happening now. You are each blazing a Path back to the Source for others to follow in the coming days.
So we ask you to continue in your Great Work and to become aware of the great unseen forces that surround you, sending to you all the energies and guidance that you need, the answers that you are seeking, the idea that you have been searching for, the new invention waiting to be tapped into. There is a great unlimited field of potential, of new and wonderful discoveries just waiting to be tapped into and we are here to encourage you to believe in the goodness of life, its wonders and possibilities, its great potentials, to believe that you deserve to live the life of your highest goals and dreams, and that you can achieve them. We cheer you on, we point you in the right directions, we exhort you, we carry you when necessary, but always, -- always – we love you. Never forget this in your daily experiences, that you are loved beyond measure and that we are ever at your side. Take a few moments each night before sleep to think of us, speak to us and ask to be taken to the Temples of Learning while your body slumbers. We await you there, Beloveds.
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Blog entry
27 Dec 2010 - 12:42am
In June 2008, I embarked on a 6-week tour to the Eastern US to meet with fellow lightworkers and "manifest my destiny", as my spiritual guides phrased it. Little did I know what I was in for. Just as I left California, I became sick, sick, sick with one of those very sticky flu bugs that refuse to be shaken off. I ended up being grounded at my mother's house in Maryland for 5 of the 6 weeks of my "tour". And when I returned to California, my husband had news for me.
As soon as I had left California for my tour, he had come to the realization that his difficulties in life boiled down to being a girl who had been born into a boy's body. The craziness in his life finally made sense. And while I was away for my "tour", he had found a support group which had helped him become, on the outside, at least, the woman he knew inside that he was meant to be. He met me at the airport to tell me this, to prepare me for the woman's belongings I would find in his closet and the vanity table well-supplied with make-up. He told me I was welcome to stay or go. He was fine with either.
I chose to stay, since I had made a vow to support and love my husband through thick and thin. For the next two years, I supported and loved as the man I had married made his transition into a self she could finally love totally. I saw her through her innocent 6-yr-old self, her self-absorbed 13-yr-old self, her sassy 16-yr-old self, and eventually her sexy professional 40-ish self. As needed, I supported her through the two operations which further transformed her body into looking like her "twin" sister. And when she was complete, she told me she wanted to fly on her own without me. I watched as destiny retrieved the beloved soul which had wanted to be married to me from her body, leaving behind a personality I couldn't recognize.
I know every parent feels some sense of apprehension at letting go of a child. But my "parenthood" was complicated by having been madly in love with my adult life partner who was no longer madly in love with me, but with her "real" self. Surviving the divorce which had to occur WITHIN MYSELF was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I needed to divorce myself from the conviction that I had married my soulmate, with whom I would spend the rest of my life, and I needed to rediscover my own "real" self.
From here in the light where I currently stand, I have a better idea what "manifesting my destiny" means. It means loving and valuing myself as much as I love and value others. It means continuing to live from my core connection to Spirit in every Now. I am grateful for the support and many blessings you have shared with me, and for the blessings I have to share with you who are my spiritual companions on this earthly path. I live in expectant wonder for the destiny I will yet manifest in this life!
Blog entry
19 Nov 2010 - 7:24pm
Who am I? This is a question those of us on journeys to self awareness often ask ourselves. It is an important Beginning, to "know thyself" as the philosophers said.
Does it matter? I've decided it does not. I feel I have spent sufficient time in trying to recall past lives or missions, and I feel I now know enough about myself to simply and completely focus on my mission work. My "know thyself" work now will take on other dimensions. Yet I still ache to "remember". I still feel as though I'm in a fog, and that part of me is elsewhere. I have trouble focusing, and feel like I'm near panic as a deadline approaches... for me to "do something". Every day, I struggle to do my best, to be supportive of others and to help, and to inspire progress. But I still fear I am not doing exactly what it is I'm supposed to. Failure is no option for me, but... why am I here? Perhaps the answer lies first in discovering more about who I am, details? I can start with what I do know.
I know... that those I'm in contact with are Arcturians.
I know... that there mission is my mission, and my mission is theres. It is to enable those of this planet in third dimension to ascend.
I know... it is an honor to be of service to others.
I know... that we all evolve together.
I know... that thought has form.
I know... that there is a language of light (but can not remember it).
I know... that my symbol is a triangle with in a circle, and that triangles have great symbolism for Who I Am.
I know that my (real, true) name is Astara, which with Vedic reference means, according to wikipedi...
"The oldest theory for the name of Astara comes from Vedic songs and writings which explains Astara as a place where the rays of lights shine from behind to lit the pathways ahead. another theory is that the city's name is derived from the Talysh word اوستهرو (Osta-ro or hosta-ro), meaning "the place where the travel gets slower" (given the marshlands that surrounded the region before)this theory geologically is impossible due to sandy soil condition of the area which is 15 meters deep."
I did not give it to myself, but discovered it and affirmed it. I at first did not believe such a lovely name could be mine. I would never have assumed for myself such a high name. I seek every day to grow into it, to be more and more, a being of light.
I remember a poem tele-spoken to me titled "The Joy of Astara". It was beautiful and moving. So moving that I was automatically transported to that state of awe that makes it so I have difficulty recalling everything. I remember the emotions, the sentiment expressed, but not the actual verses which rhymed perfectly. I do not know who spoke it to me. It was very uplifting.
I am attempting to define myself here... and all I can do is to tell what I remember, even though I've just stated that I would rather concern myself with my mission work. I guess I hope in doing so, to find a kindred soul among the many light beings here... yes, all are one... but I seek to find someone from my origin.
I will add more later. Is there anyone of Arcturus here? Anyone else in contact with Arcturians?
Blog entry
11 Nov 2010 - 6:14am
I've recently been studying and researching the possibility of my Star Family. I still am not sure who they are but I've found some limited yet insightful sources on Alpha Centauri. Most people claim to be Pleiadians, Sirians and Arcturians and there is a lot of info on these E.T. races but little is of the Centaurians. From the info that I did uncover as far as how a typical Centaurian would be I seem to make a connection. I can closely relate to how a Centaurian is described. So if anyone has any information about these particular E.T.s or if you are one, I would be humbled to learn from you or any helping info that the people in the community would have to offer for an inquisitive soul. Love and Light to All. Namaste....
Teaching
22 Oct 2010 - 8:22pm
I have had these dreams all my life... and I want to share them with you. If you have these dreams, perhaps you too are a starseed.
Whenever I have a lucid dream, its usually about a pink planet. This place is beyond beautiful. There are floating cities which look flat because the buildings are all the same height and people travel on the rooftops instead of in between the buildings. The small spaces between the buildings have streams running through them because there is a glorious waterfall from the heavens that feeds a great lake on this floating city... There are multiple moons and suns. Everyone living on the planet acts the same, sort of like a hive mentality. They dress the same, they don't wonder where I am from or why I look different than them. They just smile. They are different than we are.
In these dreams, I usually talk with people who are in my everyday life, but they are not the same soul. They only look the same. They can give me advise or wisdom.
At the end of these dreams, usually everything gets sucked up into a black vortex, and I'm the only one left alive. As I eventually lose my grip on the world, I too get sucked up into the vortex.
Talking with my new spirit guide, I've discovered something incredible about these dreams. What I've been seeing is a past life of mine living on this pink planet. I was one of the last to get sucked up, because I thought I could stay behind and try to rebuild the planet. This is why I have always felt responsible for others, ans why I always carry the weight of others. This dream is me remembering my "life flashing before my eyes" before I died. This is why this happens to us, so we can tap into this past life if we need to and see what was really important.
My guide told me that these people who lived on this planet were only able to use their last 3 chakras, the crown, the third eye, and the throat chakra. From this race came a polar opposite race of humans who could only use their root, sexual, and solar plexus chakra. This is why we are so important to all alien races. We are the buzz talk of the galaxy. When these races of humans were combined and recreated on Earth, something amazing happened. Not only were we able to access all of these chakras, but we also received access to the heart chakra. This is a major accomplishment of our galaxy. Because of the heart, we more closely reflect the will of our creators. We can bridge the gap between all dualities with the heart. Light and dark. Female and male. Order and chaos. Fantasy and reality.
The more we learn from out heart, the more we learn about the oneness of the universe and the individuality that can exist within oneness. From the heart we can learn how to love our good side, our bad side, our feminine, our masculine, our order, our chaos, our individuality, and our oneness with the universe. By doing so, we are learning how our particular universe operates. The goal of everything is polarity integration. During the creation of the universe, things became "seperate" from oneness, but never really left at all. We will eventually return to the oneness. The goal is to have dualities to exist within the framework of oneness... this is why we are here. Humanity is stepping closer and closer everyday to creating oneness within ourselves. The high counsels are rejoicing everyday because they know we will become a great success, and that we will fulfill their greatest wish.
Story
9 Oct 2010 - 6:51pm
Sacred Star Maps by Eirios Laverickhttp://www.sacredstarmaps.com/Site/Home.html
Archangel Michael's Blue Ray Angel Number & Power Protection Grid for Empaths & Ultra Sensitives
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Who are the Blue Ray? The Blue Ray Beings are an ultra-sensitive, empathic soul group like the Indigos that came from many different ascended planets and light realms to enlighten the genetic code of humanity and raise the God consciousness on Gaia.
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Who is Shekinah? “Shekinah”, a Hebrew word in the "Language of Light", is a mentor of the Blue Ray. Shekinah is the lost aspect of the sacred Divine Feminine of Creation that is the embodiment of God, the ascension process. Blue Ray is the soul group consciousness of the highest aspect of all Blue Rays. Together we give you these transmissions.
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I, Archangel Michael, in unison with the Blue Ray give to you the Double Blue Ray Sword Power Protection Grid of Archangel Michael. This comes straight from the highest order of the warrior force protection archangels' legions of Archangel Michael Blue Ray Codes of God and Creation. This is a reply to you as we in heaven and earth have heard your prayers and call of protection so you may be sovereign in your divine power of shining Glory.10:10 12:12
The Double Blue Ray Sword Power Protection Grid of Archangel Michael will assist you in coming back into your bodies to give you the greatest protection of the universe, thus being your “I am embodiment” of Higher Self - Soul Power, that is merged in harmonic concordance to the cosmic pulse of Gaia's Christ Grid. This is a realignment frequency shift to the galactic core – what you call ascension and coming of the new age of Light. The Archangel Michael Grid will assist to prepare you for this next level of complete Divine Alignment and ascension in your bodies for the 13-33-333 Christ Grid emergence anchoring of the Mother's heart of Creation, the Shekinah.
Protection and assistance for the empathic ultra sensitive Blue Ray, Light Bearer, and Star Beings to anchor the Shekinah on the Gaia
You, the Blue Ray, Light Bearer, and Star Beings who are of empathic ultra sensitive nature can sense and feel the bombardment of increased energetic and solar radiation activity from the ascension process, higher and lower dimension vibrations from group consciousness and shifting frequencies of Gaia, that may have put you out of your bodies and out of divine alignment.
This can be typical of an ultra sensitive empath being and especially for the blue ray. Due to this increased energetic overload, your auric field may have leaks and bleeds from stress, causing you overwhelm, fatigue, periods of exhaustion, anxiety, heart palpitations, heart ache, pain, difficult breathing, needing greater nutrition and minerals. Please seek the counsels of your health and holistic providers, as even though these can be ascension symptoms, you may still be in need of assistance for your body. We wish to point out that your evolutionary new earth bodies 33 are now requiring greater care of love, energetics, nutrition, minerals, and emotional support, and with increased time and alignment to Nature, they require an upgrade of what you have normally been doing.
Archangel Michael's Blue Ray Angel Number 55
I give to you now my code number vibration of 55 and spirit animal the eagle with my colors being blue and gold with red. When you see this number vibration and/or my spirit animal the eagle appearing in your life, know it is Creation's almighty power of God's hands through Archangel Michael and the Blue Ray clearing all obstacles and lower density, creating a higher pathway for you. I speak to you in many ways and this is one you can come to recognize as a sacred communication of Creation; the universe is speaking to you and it is in constant movement to serve your highest soul intentions.
The meaning of 55 and new frequency of 10:10 Stargate
You are God in form; your hands - each one with five fingers, represent the almighty hands of God, that equal 55 - twice the power protection of God, that equals 10 which means a full cycle is complete and whole. Once you reach this level you may experience a higher frequency and choose your next course of activation. The 55s are the action and power of God's movement of the universe to bring wholeness and balance in whatever you are praying for to bring you forward into life.
Archangel Michael's Double Blue Sword of Protection
The double blue swords of protection are literally an energetic matrix X, that come down in front of your sacred heart and solar plexus creating a Power Protection Grid from all that does not serve your highest nature to your Christ I Am in form. The double blue swords of protection ground and neutralize overwhelming frequencies so you may feel in your bodies your true power and essence until you feel/sense that you do not require this assistance anymore.
This is a Holy dispensation of Archangel Michael and the Blue Ray to nurture and honor the sacred divine feminine within you. So you may experience greater trust to commit fully to being in your bodies and being home here on Gaia. This creates huge amounts of accessible life force empowering your path of Light and Divine Original Blueprint power source.
The protection grid creates an energetic stability so you may participate more in your world, giving your immune system a chance to build greater strength and resistance. This will create a spiritual awareness cognizance to your earth bodies through the electromagnetic pulse of Gaia so you may balance yourselves at will to the Cosmic Pulse. This leads to the ultimate protection and power, the emergence of oneness and unity – wholeness. You, the sensitive empathic Star Being, are already designed and programmed for this unity telepathic communication of the universe - it is the true way of your Divine Blueprint.
Archangel Michael's Double Sword Protection Grid & Electromagnetic Balancing
Prepare your body and spirit by
Touching your 3rd eye and higher heart the sacred heart, making an 8 sacred alignment then take arms crossing them as in a X fashion over your heart chakra and still crossed flip down over your solar plexus, hands straight reaching to the heart of Gaia, then back to your heart to seal grid.
Then say: In my Beloved I Am presence of the universe,
I am ready to release what no longer serves my highest good and greatest joy,
I call Archangel Michael, the Blue Ray Codes of Light, Legions of Michael's Warrior Force Angels, and invoke your Double Blue Ray Sword Protection Grid now,
so I may be in my divine power and sovereign self now!
In Grace, Elohim, balance my Electromagnetic energies to Mother Gaia's perfect Harmonic Christ grid; Empower and harmonize my energy fields and body to radiance and perfect vibrant health;
Release all interference, disturbance, lower density, any energetic in any form not of my true core essence and well being to Source Creation,
never to return to my space again,
as I instantly seal, align and balance all my energy bodies and fields in my higher self alignment of peace, now!
Please, Archangel Michael and my Holy Christed self, do what you know needs to be done so I am whole and in complete divine alignment.
Thank you and it is done!
We know of your highly evolved and advanced gifts of light, this is who you already are. We sense that you wish to go beyond and we say that is your great true Mastery of being, to bring yourself and divine essence to your bodies, to Gaia. As you do, what you have sensed and felt will come true - that you are so much more. We are giving you the ancient sacred technologies for you to build upon and create the new age of Light; this is what is required for you to reach the next level and frequency shift.
Come back home to your bodies and into the sacred heart which will activate your divine blueprint, what you came here to do, restoring the ancient codes of Light back to the cells of your God DNA. This is your place of longing for home that was encoded by your soul before birth and was done not so you would wish to leave or feel alienated here on Gaia, on the contrary, so you would remember, awaken and fulfill your destiny - to know the holy power of the sacred heart in your body, the true connection to power and source right where you are. It is time to bring all that you are to Gaia, as all of Creation is your home in the heart of God, your I Am consciousness of being truly alive. 13
Continue to receive and be open, be at home where we can find you so we may give to you the keys of the kingdom of Heaven. 333 We are one with thee in divine alliance in the cosmic heartbeat of Creation.
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Blue Ray through Shekina Rose
For all Light Bearers ready to receive The Ancient Sacred Technologies and activate your Divine Original Blueprint."
"Number sequences that appear embedded in this channel are given to Shekina Rose by spirit to activate this transmission."
Blog entry
24 Sep 2010 - 2:52am
On implants:::
From what I have sensed in the healing I am in awe and honored to do through Source, there are often implants BEHIND us, where we do not readily sense them, in the back of the astral body. It seems to be fairly easy to see the ones on our front, we subconsciously remove them and heal as we look in the mirror or look at our bodies as we care for ourselves. But the back of us is just as powerful and needs high care too, consciously. Implants can be found on our shoulders, like an oxen yoke stitched into our field, preventing us from standing tall and aligning the disc vortex column of light within, in the small of the back, to push Kundalini and Palantius down, and the back of the head (very common) to prevent the triangle of power opening between the crown, third eye, and back of head, other areas too, key points as our body's ley line meridians. You can find these points of power if you ask your body to know.
Here is how to clear and heal implants with love and Source power. YOU are worthy of healing, and it is your birthright to do so.
Enter a state of meditation, become highly grounded, BEFORE attempting this, unless you are multi dimensionally integrated and using different brain wave channels all the time! What we can do to help clear these implants, in all realms, realities and dimensions, and keep our energy system and chakras integrated and aligned, is to (once in meditation or visualization state, do not do if ungrounded) visualize massaging (with spirals, waves, pulses, oms, whatever resonates to your frequency state) the back of your astral field with ultra-blue light, the Pleiadean field energy color, almost like remote viewing yourself with a mobile unit, that shines brightly over your entire back area, slowly, one shoulder at a time, the neck, head, neck again, down the spine, and the back, down the hips, and legs. Even myself, I have just recently removed implants that were at the back of my knees, that I did not sense were there until one day in the bath-tub! If you feel any stopping or lack of sight while scanning yourself, dark matter or grey feeling, it is most probably an implant there meant to disrupt your field and frequency, and hack your codes! The best way to picture it being removed, without damaging the area, is to return it to Source, as all (even implants) is a form of energy, and it needs to be moved out of your be-ing by being turned to light. Be sure to pay attention to the COLOR of the stoppage. No removing what you need to have there, some of certain implants are specially designed and placed to protect you while you awaken further from over frequency or overcharge. These are removed as necessary, dictated by the code in your DNA, as strands are added and your activation integrates expansively.
See the dark or grey area, and siege it with the blue light with a high dimmer switch, imagining a multidimensional pointed blue star appear, hovering, spinning and turning all the darkness to blue light, by rapidly beaming from all points as it turns. The blue light astrally cauterizes your field from the the removal of the implant. The star can slow down it's spinning (which by the way should be clockwise) and change it's light to gold, then surround and penetrate the affected area with gold light, sealing in the ultra-blue, and blending with it, to protect it from further implanting and heal the area. Expect some emotional blocks to unplug and odd old feelings to arise in the next 72 hours as the energy flow is returned to highest and best good. You can scan your whole body this way. When you are done, thank the star for it's work, bless your body with your (Source) love, and see the star return to its ship (can be your ship!), or inter-dimensionally hide it, even in a dimension that only you know about. No one can hack you there.
Keep in mind that you are consciously creating and upholding your energy field and clearing and grounding yourself, hopefully all the time, so as to consciously fend off interference that you do not wish to have. It is your birthright to know how to protect yourself and heal. To protect yourself constantly, you need to access a higher brainwave state through meditation, and ask Source, in your highest and best good, to surround you with the highest frequency light that you can currently handle. Ground, ground, ground before you attempt this. Keep in mind there are light pillars extending down all over the Earth from Source Universal Centre, through Galactic Centre, down to plasmic Earth Mother core, that you can ground into when ever you wish, or constantly, to help you create this field. It is your birthright to use this defense system and it was created for you in this Ascension process. It is encoded with Infinite Love, which is the higher Frequency of Unconditional Love. Your field and energy bodies will be strengthened and protected infinitely and permanently, and you will be granted access to the conscious "checking-in" of your own field and energy on higher levels.
Remember, all we ever need do when we wish for help is ASK. We are supported by the highest BE-ings and races in the Galaxy, and they are CONNECTED very well in our interests. It is our birthright through the continuous upholding of FREE WILL and UNIVERSAL LAW to have this help when requested. NEVER bow to the attack of Reptilian, Drac (not all of those guys are "bad"), or Grey, or any hybrid drone frequencies of them bastards. ASK, ASK, ASK and ASK every time, in every attempt to maintain frequency, and you will be helped. Always release judgement and attachment as you go, because asking for help does not mean you are "weak" it means you are WORTHY!!!
BLESSINGS
Astraea
Teaching
7 Sep 2010 - 2:36pm
There are many ways to define the same thing and depending on where you are coming from, the light that reflects upon the situation will make the same thing look drastically different. Understanding this is one of the most important principles the learning experience called life can give to you. If we cannot respect the fact that each person goes through their journey individually then we must at least agree to keep our judgments to ourselves and allow future generations to see the world through their own eyes.
New Age Spirituality tells us that judgments do not serve man; it only prevents the unity needed to achieve amazing things. By focusing on differences instead of similarities we prove the ignorance of the self and intern separate each one of us from the foundation of civilization, grouping ourselves to accomplish greater tasks and thus encourage a higher rate of human survival.
Now that we are no longer are in need of protecting ourselves from the beast of this planet and we do not needed to hunt for our own food anymore, it seems that there is no need for unity. When in fact there is a great need for unity of all people. When we come together and open our hearts and minds (not to accept others values as our own) but to hold a new respect; that a person holds their values close to their hearts in the same way that you do. Then we can break bread together and unity shall begin, and intern humanity will see a great reduction in conflict and a serious jump in technological, philosophical and social advancement.
Blog entry
4 Sep 2010 - 10:22am
I'm so happy, I finally released all procrastination and rationalization, and two weeks ago purchased the entire Awakening Your Light Body course. I was drawn to this course last fall, and wanted to begin study this year. I'm working through Part 1.
It has already revealed many special treasures for me, several profound insights, and helped me look at my past in a new way. I realize now, and believe and accept, that part of the reason why my life's journey has always been so difficult, is because it was chosen to be so before my arrival to this dimension, to this place. The obstacles would either break me completely, or serve to make me stronger and wiser, so that I might finally emerge in this dimension as the expression of all that is possible for this vibration, for this soul, for this entity.
I've been within a single heartbeat of completely breaking 3 times, but pulled through (with the help of my special guides and angels, I see now). I feel that I am finally on a true path. The difficulties are even more unsurmountable than ever, but I believe now that everything is as it must be. If anyone would be moved to send me a little extra light to illuminate the path during these next difficult weeks, I would be so happy and grateful.
Two days ago, during one of the guided journeys, I was given a special gift - the crescent moon with Venus in conjuction. A very special gift.
Blog entry
17 Aug 2010 - 1:59am
Okay so this is a continuation of my ‘introduction ramblings and recent awakenings/happenings part1’ so I would go read that first :)
So I left off with saying that I had manifested the want to see a UFO. :D for the next few days I was also asking to in my sleep go wherever I needed to be to continue my spiritual path and healing. Whether it be Pleiades, Telos, Mt Shasta, arcturus (?). I also really wanted to know my destiny as a starseed. I had somewhat recently become aware that I am one but I don’t know where my origins are. I really wanted to know!! So I would ask my star family, light family, spirit guides, guardian angels, higher self, the whole lot :P to assist me on this goal. So every night I would ask that question and hope it would be revealed to me in my dreams. now normally I dream multiple dreams a night that normally don’t make sense and most don’t even involve me or have anything spiritual involved. However on those nights I had no dreams. I know that I went somewhere but didn’t bring any information back. I was upset with the fact that I couldn’t remember but was still content that I had at least been somewhere.
Then I don’t know what happened…. I just lost touch again. With the manifestation and being able to go places in my sleep. There was just nothing. I felt like I had the door shut on me once again. Or so I had thought. Soon after I connected with my higher self partially for the first time. I’m actually not quite positive if that is what it was. I was meditating and I kept asking to connect to my higher self. I was saying it many different ways; searching for the one that felt right. So then I felt this buzzing type of energy filling my head and my crown was tingling and it felt like bugs were crawling through my hair. I didn’t actually feel this big moment of divine understanding that there was a higher power or anything so I don’t know if it was my higher self at all. Then I figured I would test out some things….
I asked about my possible origins. I just asked yes or no questions; “am I from pleaides? Am I from arcturus? Sirius? Lyra?” and each time I paused waiting, hoping for an answer. The answer was very interesting. It was more of a feeling. When I got a stronger buzzing feeling I felt like that was a yes. I got a very strong yes for Pleiades, no for arcturus( sorry I know im not spelling that right), a tentative kind of tiny yes for Sirius, and a yes for lyra. It was all so interesting. I knew Pleiades was right. But I didn’t know you could be from different places…. Maybe you cant. haha maybe the information wasn’t even reliable. I plan on looking into it more though…
Then the next few days I was really sore. My body just didn’t feel right. I had to take ibuprofen a few times because my joints hurt. It was really strange. And all week I kept standing next to my mom who I was previously half an inch shorter than and saying, “ I think im getting taller” and everyday I felt more tall. I sortof shrugged it off then today she finally agreed with me. she said, “Whoa! Lauren youre taller than me!” I went from being 5’ 5” and a half to 5’ 6” in a week. I know that sounds ridiculous but I can promise with 100 percent honesty that it is true. Is this part of the ascension process? Am I becoming aligned with my star roots and becoming tall like they are? I don’t even know its just all so interesting. This is the first time my spiritual process has had physical proof.
Oh okay on a very random side note has anybody noticed that there have been a lot of snake sightings? In the past 2-3 weeks I have heard more about snakes than I have in a long time:
1.) My dog killed one in the backyard :’( he was trying to protect us I assume even thought it wasn’t a rattle snake. He didn’t know :P
2.) My brother saw a huge rattle snake near the lagoon and got a picture of it. it just looked at him and kept going.
3.) My mom was at the store getting groceries and the two men that were bagging and ringing up the stuff were talking about how one of the guys 7 foot long snake got out of his cage and came out through the oven of the next door neighbors apartment. Ahh!! :O even though im not too scared of snakes if one came out of my oven I might’ve just died.
4.) My best friend was visiting relatives and went hiking and a rattle snake just looked at them and let them pass without even rattling its tail.
I know the lagoon and hiking are normal places to see a snake but there have been so many sightings recently and all these years of living here we haven’t seen anything before…..
What do you think?
Blog entry
12 Aug 2010 - 2:43am
Wow...I'm almost speechless.
This entire summer, especially the past 2 weeks, has been just (as Rachel from "Friends" would say) "kickmeinthecrotch, spitonmyneck fantastic." In other words, it's been healing, but oh-so-hard.
Anyone else feel like they're dying, soon to be reborn anew? I am. Slowly. Dying. Not sure when I'll be reborn, where, or how.
Now, for random thoughts that I HAVE to get off of my chest/heart, and that I know only folks in this world will understand:
1. My dreams have been off the wall crazy and intense. Quite vivid. I keep dreaming about a guy who broke my heart at the beginning of the summer. A quite accurate psychic told me that we're not done yet, and it's too early to tell which way things will go, but thoughts of him are driving me crazy. He's in my midwestern ometown, and I'm in L.A. I want hime to move to California to be with me, but he's too scared to change his life (and too young). So, though we reconnected while I was back home and fell in *something* (love? infatuation? lust?) he decided not to wait for me to return and figure out how we would make the long distance thing work and started dating some young girl he met in a bar during the World Cup. But, I know he really wants me, but I'm not around. I miss him SO much. Mainly because...
2. I am completely alone! I work from home, so my contact with others is quite limited. The energy of my colleagues is sooo low it hurts, so I'm glad to only have to deal with it through the phone or on email, though that's pretty hard to (VERY empathic). I may be on my way out of there, but I'm not pushing it. The money and the benefits are good, as is my schedule, but those folks are fast asleep. What's my lesson? I'm trying to stay in gratitude, but something needs to change. Argh.
3. Family of birth is now officially out of my life in all major capacitites. It feels freeing, but quite lonely. I'm (admittedly) alread worried about the upcoming holidays, and how I'm going to handle thenm. I cannot take one more solitary holiday season; last year was too hard for words.
4. I'm completing Bringers of the Dawn. Two chapters left; the first time I've ever read it. Yea, I know. I asked for an acceleration, and I guess I'm getting what I asked for. I'm such a lonely little alien. Why can't I just go home, or at least make this "being human" thing do-able. I don't know if it's healthy to spend as much time alone as I do, but I flat out do not have anyone left in my life who's trustworthy or emotionally safe. How can that possibly be the case, and why would spirit allow this? Hmm...
5. Had a dream a few nights ago about the crystal skulls. I started laughing and smiling in my sleep; so much so that I almost woke myself up. In my dream I saw 4 or 5 them in a row, on an altar, and I was telling someone that I could've held my hand over one of them during a display in Peru, but didn't. I told them that I regretted that I didn't. Now, this has never happened in this lifetime (?), but I awoke from the dream wondering if I had really had that opportunity in "real life" or not. For the life of me, I can't recall. So, the VERY NEXT NIGHT I was watching Ancient Aliens on the History Channel (my new favorite series...taping every episode) and I knew, just knew, that they would cover the topic of the crystal skulls, and guess what? They did. I now want to go to Peru. Coincidence? I think not... :-)
6. Keep having dreams about giant grey whales. I'm always in a pool, like an infinity pool, and one giant whale (I mean, huge) starts deep diving and jumping through the air, and I always wish to see his/her tail, and I do, and then the whale dives so hard she/he starts a tidal wave. Last night, the tidal wave rocked a concrete dock I was standing on, and I was scared, but held on and didn't get hurt. Other buildings were demolished though...lots of random people in the background running for their lives. It was just me...standing on tne rocking concrete dock. Like the end of the world. Weird.
7. I hate Facebook. Everyone of my "friends" are people from my past who have hurt me emotionally or physically at one time in my life, or lost loves, unrequited loves, or childhood aquaintances I'd rather never see again. I should close my account...again...but I want to stay open for the guy back home that I'm waiting to grow up and realize we belong together, and to stop being so afraid of maybe leaving stale Indiana and being with his sould mate (me). Argh.
8. It's taking every inch of self control to not hop on a plane and return to my hometown this weekend to hit the clubs, drink, dance, maybe smoke something I shouldn't, and be naughty, naughty, naughty. Wouldn't look up the guy who put me on ice, but I want to return to my past. My PAST. But I don't really want to, and hopefully, I won't. There's nothing there for me. But I can't see what's ahead. Even the world-renowned psychic I went to, though she gave me great information about my creative life and how I'm "creating something right now that will change the world" (maybe part of my creative process is not bathing for days at a time, eating snack-food as whole meals, and holing myself up in my apartment for most of the month. On the couch), she couldn't tell me if me and hometown boy would be together, as "he's confused, and things haven't played out yet." and could offer no details on my immediate future. When has a psychic, a damn good one at that(she told me the name of my dog-child that passed over, but I wasn't ready to hear the reading...still too raw) can't see your immediate future, you know you're an alien! I have been giving myself really powerful Animal Card readings though. :-)
Has any of this made sense? I feel like I'm losing it, and gaining it all at the same time. The 8/9 New Moon...maybe it was more powerful than I thought (they always hit me one or two days later). Anyone else feelng loopy? Feeling like you're crossing over to a new personal world, and you can't take much of anything or anyone with you? Have no clue what's on the other side, in the new that you're being drawn toward?
If I spoke to anyone else about this stuff, they'd lock me up, but you guys...I know you get it.
Can't wait to see who I'm supposed to hear from in response.
Giant blue galaxies of eternal hugs and kisses,
Lovely
Story
15 Jul 2010 - 10:04pm
This is not a new channeling, but I read it last night and it touched me very deeply. I feel it contributed to some deep healing within...some ggod tears were shed. So I thought I would post it here for my light-family.It is long, but worth taking the time to read properly.
Love Christy
Letting go of your birth family
Jeshua channeled by Pamela Kribbe
Dear friends, it gives me great pleasure to be with you again. You are all brave warriors. Your very presence in a physical body on earth today speaks of your great courage and readiness to face up to darkness, within and without and to throw your light on it, the light of your consciousness. You are warriors in the spiritual sense and your weaponry consists of both compassion and discernment. One does not overcome the fears and illusions of your reality by love and compassion alone. These essential, predominantly feminine qualities need to be complemented by the masculine qualities of clarity and discernment. Compassion enables you to perceive the core of light in any expression of duality, for instance to recognize the light of someone’s soul even if their personality is full of negativity. Discernment makes you aware of the presence of fear and power-related energies in any such expression and it enables you to distance yourself from it, to let it go from your energy field.
To know who you are you have to let go of what you are not. Discernment helps you let go of that which you are not. Discernment is the “energy of the sword,” the energy that helps you set boundaries for yourself and find your own way. I call it the masculine energy and it is a necessary complement to the feminine qualities of understanding and forgiveness. I am stressing the importance of “the sword of discernment” in this channeling, for it is very relevant to the issue we will discuss today.
Today I would like to speak of your relationship with your parents and with your birth family in general. When you enter a path of spiritual growth, this issue will at some point be in the forefront of your attention.
One might look upon your birth in a physical body as a fall into darkness, if you dissociate it from any notions of sin or guilt. The birthing process is really a plunge into the deep that you have consciously decided upon from some part of your soul. At the core of your soul, you have decided to take upon you this present incarnation, and you felt the trust and perseverance needed to “accomplish the mission.” However at the moment you plunge in, so to speak, you are soaked in a state of not-knowing, a state of temporary unawareness. As soon as you enter the material reality of earth, your consciousness becomes veiled or hypnotized by certain illusions which are nothing but the deeply ingrained habits of the majority of people on earth. This is the net that is cast around you.
When you enter the earth life, the memory of “the other side” is still fresh and alive. But you have no words to express it, no way of communicating the truth of it, the simple things like the unconditional love and safety that surround you everywhere you go. The energy of Home is still self-evident to you, like the feel of water to a fish. But then you enter the physical world and the psychological reality of your parents. You reach out to them, you want to keep that sense of Home alive but it seems that you are cut off, like a net cast around the “fishy part” of you. This is the birth trauma that has physical as well as deeply spiritual aspects to it.
The net that catches you as you fall is predominantly spun by your parents’ way of being, their basic outlook on life, their ways of relating to themselves, their hopes and desires for you. When you were born, the collective consciousness on earth was still in the grip of ego based consciousness, as it is even now. Times are changing, but there is a kind of beginning stage in which things need time to gain momentum before real, fundamental change is actually brought about. At present you are still in these beginning stages, and the inner work you do is vital in this respect. So when you entered earth, you entered a reality dominated by ego based consciousness and you got acquainted with it through the energy of your parents.
When you enter the reality of ego based consciousness as represented by your parents, you get to deal with a number of pervasive illusions, of which I wish to name three important ones.
1. The loss of mastery
The first illusion is the illusion of the loss of mastery. This illusion makes you forget, while you grow up and become an adult, that you are the creator of everything that happens in your life. Most people do not recognize what happens in their life as their own creation. They often feel they are a victim of “greater powers” that make and shape their life. This is the loss of mastery.
2. The loss of unity
With the plunge into collective human consciousness as portrayed by your parents, you also lose your sense of unity with all that lives. The basic realization of the “oneness of all things” is slowly filtered out of your consciousness. You are encouraged to build your own ego. According to ego based consciousness, we are all essentially separate beings, struggling for our own existence, struggling for survival, nourishment and acknowledgement. We seem to be confined to our own body and locked into our own psychological reality with no true and open connection to “the other.” This is the illusion of separation and the tragic sense of loneliness that accompanies it.
3. The loss of love
And then there is the loss of love, meaning the sense of unconditional joy and safety that belongs to the very heart of you like a natural birthright. As you enter the earth plane on which the energy of love is not self-evident at all, you gradually start to confuse love with all kinds of energies that are not love, such as admiration, wealth or emotional dependency. These confused notions of love affect your relationships and basically make you continually search for something outside of you to regain that sense of unconditional love that is actually deep inside you.
How these illusions or losses affect you depends on the specific energy of your parental house and your family environment. Generally the parental consciousness is a mixture of ego and heart, of fear and light. There are certain areas in which your parents are likely to be very attached to or hooked up with the illusions mentioned above. But at other points they may be quite enlightened, for instance by having experienced suffering and inner growth in some area which opened up their hearts. The specific way in which they are stuck in the illusions of ego based consciousness is different for each parent or family.
When you enter this specific configuration of energies that makes up your birth family, your consciousness is wide open with hardly a sense of personal boundaries yet. As a baby, you take in your parents’ energies very thoroughly, like a basic imprint that has a deep effect on how you experience things later. There is no filter yet. It is only much later when you become aware of yourself as yourself, roughly during puberty, that you grow the consciousness needed to sift though these energies and find out what feels good and natural to you and what does not.
First you attach yourself very strongly to the paradigm of your parents, and then as you grow older and gain more self-awareness, you start to question your parents’ outlook on things as you are looking for your own sense of identity. This psychological growth process is very much akin to the transition from ego based consciousness to heart based consciousness. The natural stages of earth life, the biological and psychological cycles and seasons, correlate with natural growth stages in the spiritual sense. The transition from ego to heart based consciousness often runs parallel with overcoming the limiting, fearful energies that controlled your birth family.
The cosmic birth trauma that you experience when you are born as an individual soul (see chapter Cosmic birthing pain, p.121) is to some extent repeated every time you begin a new earth life. At the time of your birth, your parents belong to the energy of the earth. They have already adapted to this dimension, to the laws that apply here. Often these are limiting laws which are not at all self-evident to the child. The parents thus represent the ego based consciousness for the child, the energy of the three illusions. The child meets these through the parental home, and the way in which they have taken shape in the parents will influence the child strongly for the rest of its life.
Especially in the first three months, the child takes in its surroundings very deeply. The energies of the parents sink into the child’s consciousness unhampered by rational thought or defense. On the other hand there is still a “piece of heaven” in its memory, a part of the child’s consciousness that is untainted by the illusions, that knows love, mastery and oneness as the natural state of being. This awareness collides with the ego based energies around it, and this is a deeply painful conflict. It can make the child want to turn around and go back “home;” it can cause grave resistance to life at the very start. It is actually the cosmic birth trauma repeated over again.
How does the child handle this collision or conflict of energies? Most often, it shuts down some parts of himself or herself. Some parts of the child’s consciousness will go into hiding. The child will tend to comply with the energies of the parents, adapt itself to them, for it is wholly dependent upon them from the start. The child is in a very vulnerable physical state and it has a great desire to be nurtured and loved by the parents. Its memory of the natural state of oneness, love and mastery is actually the child’s gift to the parents, but they are often unable to receive this gift, once they have been veiled by the energy of the illusions. They are thus unable to truly receive the child.
Parents have at some point been children as well, of course, and have gone through the same process. Parents do not consciously force their fears and illusions onto their children. However as adults they have unwittingly absorbed many energies of ego based consciousness.
At the moment of the birth of a child, parents often experience a temporary awakening. Watching this innocent little creature coming out of the womb, entrusting itself to the world, so open and vulnerable, stirs a deep sense of awe in almost anyone. This sacred moment opens the gates to Home wide open in the parents’ consciousness and they – unknowingly – reach out to the divine core inside of them that knows unconditional love and oneness. They enter a sacred space for a while, and they feel who they are beyond the illusions. But often this is a temporary state of bliss, because afterwards things will settle down and “get back to normal.” Their ways of thinking and feeling will tend to fall back into the patterns they were used to. And thus the opening to heart based consciousness closes down again.
And what happens to the child that grows up? Most children choose to adapt so strongly to the parental frame of reference that they lose touch with their original soul energy that they were still very much aware of in the beginning of their incarnation. In this first phase of life (until puberty) they are so involved in focusing themselves into this world and getting love and attention from their parents, that they themselves forget who they are.
How does this affect the child? The child has an unbridled longing for love and safety and when it stumbles upon fearful, blocked parts in the parents’ energies, it will be confused by them. It will experience pain and a sense of abandonment. But it will hide these emotions from itself, because they are too painful to fully realise when you are in such a state of vulnerability and openness. What the child will do is put on blindfolds and create illusionary images of love. To survive emotionally, it will allow itself to be confused by the false images of the parents because if unconditional love is not available, conditional love seems better than none. The child will generally bend over backwards to get the love and safety it needs and remembers from Home. And therefore it will mistake the wrong energies for love. For example it will confuse love with a parent’s pride in certain achievements or a parent’s emotional need for the child.
Whenever the child achieves something that makes the parents proud and the child is complimented for it, they may feel their heart open up from gladness that they are liked and appreciated. But if the parental pride is not from a source of genuine understanding of the child, if it is not based upon what the child itself aspires to but more on what society expects from the child, then the pride is really a kind of poison. The child is rewarded for living up to external standards, whereas love means that one gets in touch with the child’s inner standards – what they want to achieve in this lifetime for themselves. When attention is systematically focused on outer achievements, the child will be fooled into believing that achievement equals love and they will tend to grow a guilty conscience when they are not doing “what is right,” what they are supposed to do according to external standards. As an adult, they may become someone who does not recognize when their boundaries are crossed or when they are working too hard. They will simply find that they feel the urge to achieve all the time, not understanding why working hard has become an addiction.
Another distortion of the true energy of love is when the child starts to confuse love with emotional dependency. Many children feel loved when they feel needed by their parents. They are actually filling a hole in their parents’ heart, a hole that the parents have not taken care of themselves, and when the child steps into it, it offers itself as a substitute parent. It seeks to provide the love and support the parents are missing inside. In this way, it wants to please the parents and get the love it so sorely needs. But this kind of service is not love, of course. It is a dangerous entanglement of energies that will create a lot of difficulties later on in both the relationship between the parents and the child and in the intimate relationships that the child will enter as an adult.
Many parents have experienced a lack of unconditional love in their own childhood. They were not truly received by their parents either. This has left a deep seated pain and a sense of abandonment in their being. When they have a child themselves, they embrace it with mixed signals. On the one hand, there is genuine love in them but on the other hand, there is the subconscious need “to make up for the loss.” Parents often try to heal their own emotional wounds through the relationship with their child. When they do so unconsciously, they use the child as a substitute parent – the child needs to give them the love they so sorely missed in their own childhood.
When that happens, the messages “I love you” and “I need you” get completely mixed up for the child. The child’s energy will not be her own anymore, because it will feel sucked up by the parent’s need, and this being sucked up will actually feel good to the child! It will provide a false sense of safety which by the time the child is an adult will make her feel like she is being loved deeply by someone when her energy is depleted and owned by that person. She will feel loved and appreciated when she is stretching her limits to give the most she can. She will interpret emotional dependency, even jealousy and possessiveness, as a form of love whereas these energies are diametrically opposed to it. This tragic loss of self is born from the association of love with need.
So far I have stressed that when you come to earth as a child, you are submerged into an “ocean of forgetfulness,” a net of illusions that at first seems to tie you down very thoroughly. However from the soul level, you consciously allow yourself to be led astray. Deep down inside when you incarnate on earth, you trust that you will find the solution and the way out. It is your mission to find the way out of the illusions and to bring the “energy of the solution,” the energy of love and clarity, out into the world, available to others.
At certain times in your life, there will be opportunities and possibilities that will help you fulfill this mission. As you grow up, you will meet certain people or situations that will invite or challenge you to find out who you are. You will be gently pushed or, if you are stubborn, violently provoked by life to “detangle the knot.” You need to let go of the false images of love that were part of your upbringing, part of your parents’ energy. This may trigger an identity crisis, similar to what has been described in the first part of this book as the first stage in the transition from ego to heart. It may seem that nothing is certain anymore and that everything you believed in is under scrutiny. Indeed, your soul will leave no stone unturned to bring you Home. Your soul will knock on your door incessantly until you open up and set yourself free.
Major events in your life are always geared to offer you opportunities to grow and return to who you are. But it takes courage and determination to get to the bottom of this quest and to regain the energies of the newborn child, untainted by the illusions of the loss of mastery, love and oneness. You will likely find yourself opposed to your own soul energy for a while, for it may lead you astray from what you regarded as normal and befitting for you. Your soul may seem a wayward guest to you, as you have been getting used to the ways of the world, the ways of your birth family.
It takes both the male energy of self-consciousness and discernment and the female energy of love and understanding to release yourself from ego based consciousness. Regarding your parents, discernment means that you distance yourself from the fear ridden and limiting energies they have fed you. Remember the importance of “the energy of the sword” that I mentioned in the beginning. To let go of your birth family in the spiritual sense, you need to be able to distinguish between their energy and your own and you need to be able to “cut the cords” that limit and suffocate you.
This is not primarily about expressing anger and frustration to your parents or telling them where they were wrong about you. It may be a good thing sometimes to try to make clear to them your position on things or your feelings about them. But in many cases, they may not understand what you are trying to tell them. They may not resonate with the part of you that is “different” and at odds with their outlook on life. Releasing the ties to the parental energy means first and foremost to release the energy from your own mind and emotions. It is about looking within and finding out to what extent you implicitly live by your parents’ set of illusions, by their do’s and don’ts which were based on fear and judgment.
Once you are clear about this and you allow yourself to let that go, you will be free to forgive them and really “leave the parental house.” It is only after you sever the cords on the inner level and take responsibility for your own life that you can really let your parents be. You will have clearly said “no” to their fears and illusions (sword of discernment), but at the same time you will see that your parents are not identical with their fears and illusions. They also are children of God simply trying to fulfill their soul mission. Once you feel this, you can feel their innocence and you can forgive.
In a sense you have been the victim of your parents – your parents as they represented ego based consciousness in your childhood. You have temporarily and partly lived according to their illusions. In a way you had no choice, as their child. However to transcend your sense of being the victim here is one of the most powerful breakthroughs you can have in your life. It makes you a free person when you can recognize the deep energetic imprints from your childhood and consciously decide which ones benefit you and which ones you’d rather let go. This is mastery.
You then no longer subconsciously adapt to the wishes and longings of your parents when they are not your own. At the same time, you no longer rebel against them either. You can see the false images they offered you as simply not belonging to you, period. You do not need to judge your parents for burdening you with these aspects. You can be loving and discerning at the same time.
One might say that you are introduced to ego based consciousness through your parents and you transcend it through them as well, by letting them go in love and forgiveness and by recognizing yourself as the independent master that you are.
Lightworkers and their parents
At this point I would like to speak specifically about the lightworker soul in relation to his or her birth family. Lightworkers often carry within them an extra assignment in regard to their parents or birth family. When they come to earth, Lightworkers have the specific intention to awaken, to set themselves free from ego based consciousness and to plant the seeds of Christ consciousness on earth. More strongly than others, lightworkers want to teach and heal others, helping them grow towards a heart based consciousness.
For that reason, many lightworker souls are born with parents or in families which are heavily stuck in the reality of ego based consciousness. Because it is their intention to break open stuck and rigid energy patterns, lightworkers are drawn like a magnet to “problem situations” in which the energy is stagnant, like in a dead-end alley. The lightworker comes in with a certain awareness, a certain spiritual sense which makes him or her “different,” not fitting into the family’s expectations or ambitions. The lightworker child will somehow, by what she radiates or expresses as her truth, challenge the family’s basic assumptions about life. She almost instinctively will do everything to get the energy moving and flowing again.
While the lightworker soul thus wants nothing more than to be of service to the parents and the family, they might look upon her as the odd one out, even as the black sheep. When the inner beauty and purity of the lightworker child is not recognized as such, she will often temporarily get lost in emotions of loneliness and even depression.
When they start their incarnation, lightworkers have the confidence deep down that they will find their way out, that they will overcome the limiting energy of their birth family. However when they are actually born on earth and grow up, they are exposed to the same dilemmas and confusions as any other child. In a certain sense they experience this confusion more deeply and more intensely. Because they are spiritually aware souls who are often older and wiser than their parents, they are very much aware that “something is not right” about the energy of their environment. On the inner level they clash head-on with the parents’ energies, not understanding or resonating with their mind set or behavior. This clash causes great distress inside them, gentle and sensitive as they are. They have to find a way to survive emotionally, coping with the fact that they both love the parents dearly and are very different from them. This causes a lot of psychological problems in lightworkers ranging from loneliness, insecurity and fear to addiction, depression and self destruction.
Thus your journey to earth and to places of darkness where the energy is stuck and hostile is not without risk. It is a dangerous mission. Don’t forget why I call you brave warriors! It is for this reason; you are like pioneers who venture out into strange and unknown territory. There are no signposts or markers. The environment in which you start your journey is inhospitable and does not feel like home. You will have to create the energy of home for yourself, with only your own feelings and intuition as your compass. As a lightworker, you are a pioneer who wants to break the barriers of old and stifling thought patterns and release the energy stuck within. You are almost always the first one in your environment to do so. You do not meet your soul mates until later. It is the struggle by yourself that marks you as the true warrior that you are. You will have to find the way out by yourself and once you have done so you will attract likeminded spirits into your life, people who reflect your awakened state of being.
The solitary struggle you all have to go through to discover your light is the heaviest burden for you. On the soul level you have chosen this path consciously, but to live through it as a child of flesh and blood is a painful thing that wounds you deeply. I urge you to feel and recognize this pain in yourself, because only by connecting to it can you transform and release it. Once you know that wounded child inside that took the cross of alienation upon its fragile shoulders, you will get to the core of your burden. When you get to the core, the solution is nearby. You only need to embrace the pain of that child with a pure and deep awareness. From this awareness an energy of compassion and deep respect will reach out to the child. You will lift the cross just by being with yourself and truly loving and cherishing that part of you that is “different.” This is how you bring the child home and fulfill your mission as the pioneer that you are.
Resolving family karma
The lightworker’s assignment in regard to their birth family is to become who they are. In doing so, they accomplish their mission. It is not their task to change their family; it is not your job to change anything outside of you. You are not here to make the world a better place. You are here to awaken yourself. And yes, when you do so the world will become a better place, because your light will shine upon it and bring joy and enlightenment to others as well. But do not focus on the world, whether it is your family or any other relationship you enter.
The real work is to let go of all those bits of ego based fear and illusion that you yourself absorbed so deeply as a child. Getting to know these energetic imprints which partly created your personality, and releasing the parts of it that do not belong to you is a challenging and intense process. It is about peeling away all the layers of the onion; it is about being born a second time.
By stressing the profundity of this inner process, this second birth, I do not mean to discourage you. On the other hand I would like you to have deep respect for yourselves. You are the bravest warriors I know. You are pioneers who, by kindling your own light in places of darkness and hostility, pave the way for a new consciousness on earth.
It is not your job to kindle the light in someone else’s heart. It is up to them if they do so. You may offer a spark, you may set an example, but in no way are you responsible for anyone else’s awakening. This is important to stress especially with regard to your birth family. You often feel instinctively as a child and more consciously as a grown-up that you have to save your parents from their fears and illusions. Moreover you often think that you have failed in this assignment. You feel that you have not truly been able to help your parents in the way you had envisioned.
This line of thought rests on a mistaken perception of what helping really means and what your assignment is with regard to your parents. In reality, the situation is this. From your birth onward, you begin to absorb your parents’ energies very strongly as if they were your own. You cannot easily distinguish any more where you begin and they end. Because you absorb their fears and illusions as well, you get intimately in touch with their emotional burdens. These burdens may have been passed over to them through several generations on either side of the family. There may be a karmic aspect to it, meaning that the same issue gets repeated over and over again until the “spell is broken.” This you may call family karma. There may be issues relating to an unbalanced male or female energy, energies resulting from old slavery traditions, issues pertaining to certain illnesses, etc. This kind of karmic burden is solved when the energy stuck inside of it gets released and thus is not passed along to the next generation. Family karma is resolved when at least one member of the family breaks the link by setting herself free from the emotional burden that she absorbed from childhood and that may even be in her genes.
The family member who “breaks the spell” does so first and foremost by helping herself. It is about being focused on your own inner growth and expansion. This growth and expansion has an effect on the “energy of the family.” It opens up the possibility for members of that family to find the way out as well. The lightworker who has freed himself of the emotional dead-end ally provides an energetic trail for others of his family. This he accomplishes by his inner work and what he radiates because of that, not by actually trying or even pushing others to change and move forward. What she offers her birth family energetically is the possibility of change. Her energy mirrors the possibility of change to them and that is all she needs to do.
Whether the family members pick up on the trail is entirely up to them. Never are you responsible for nor is your spiritual mission dependent upon someone else’s decision to change or not. You may have freed yourself of the karmic burden that your family saddled you with and be ridiculed or rejected for it by your family, and yet your mission will have been entirely successful. You will have crushed the hypnotic hold that karmic patterns can have over a family line and if you have children, the emotional burden will not be passed along to them. This is what your soul mission is about.
Imagine you are living in a valley which is quite barren and dry. All of your community tells you that you cannot get out of this valley – it is all there is. You seem to be the only one to remember that there are much more lush and fertile lands than this. So after a lot of consideration, you decide to try your luck and climb out of that valley. The climb up takes a tremendous amount of strength and energy. Not only is the road very steep, there are no road signs or marks to hold onto either. While you are climbing up you leave a track behind you. At some point, you come up out of that valley and the landscape that lies before you overwhelms you with joy and a sense of recognition. You knew there was something out there that felt much more like home than your birth ground. Enthusiastically you peer down and look for your family. You would like them to join you and marvel at this great vista. You would like to share your victory. But you can see no one down there and when you notice some folks far off, they do not seem interested in your journey at all.
This is what happens frequently to lightworker souls. I ask you not to mourn the loss of your family in this respect. You will have offered them a great service by walking out of the valley, by clearing the way and leaving a track. This track will stay there and it will be used one day by anyone who wants to climb out of that particular valley. The track is an energy space that you have made available to them.
It is the building of this track that was your purpose when you were born with these parents and in this family. It is not your purpose to make your family go up as well or to carry them out of the valley on your shoulders! That is not your task. Whenever you try to figuratively drag your parents or family up that steep hill, you are hindering your own growth and you will be disillusioned and disappointed. It is not the way of spiritual growth and alchemy. Those others that you love and want to share your light with may choose to live in the valley for another century or more. It is up to them. But one day in their own time, they will uncover a little track that goes up and they will think: “Hey, this is interesting, let’s go up and try this; I am not having a good time down here anymore.” And off they go. They will start their own journey of inner growth, their own climb into the light. And isn’t it wonderful, isn’t it absolutely precious, that they will find marks along the way, a track for them to hold onto? They will have to go through their own struggles, but they will have a beacon set out for them which lightens their journey. As a pioneer you will have cleared the way though a wild and unknown territory and the road paved by you will be used with gratitude and honor.
To be really free and to regain your mastership as an independent spiritual being, you have to let go of your birth family. You have to let go of them, not only as their child but also as their parent. Let me explain this double bind. The child in you needs to let go of the hope that your parents will offer you unconditional love and safety. It has to turn to you for this and you have to help it let go of the angry, sad and disappointed part of the child that feels betrayed by your parents. This is the child part. However you also need to let go of the part of you that wants to be your parents’ parent. It is typical of lightworker souls that at some point when they grow up, they start to feel like they are the parents of their parents. Because of their inborn desire to teach and heal and their developed spiritual awareness, they often see their parents’ fears and illusions clearly and they want to heal them. This may get you into a lot of struggle with your parents because your desire to help them is often intertwined with an unconscious need to be recognized for who you really are. In other words, the wounded child speaks through you when you try to help your parents, and it is a recipe for disaster when you try to help others through the wounded parts of you. You will end up more wounded and your parents will likely end up upset or confused.
To let go of your parents means to let go of any desire to change them. You have to understand that it is not your task to lead them anywhere. Your mission is to deal with your own path – that is all. After you have truly parted with your parents, letting go of the double bind, you will find that a new space opens up between you and them, much more free and open. If they are still alive, the relationship with your parents may become less strained, as the energies of reproach and guilt will have left the scene. On the other hand, you may feel you do not want to visit them so often anymore. There may simply be a lack of common interests. In any case you will feel more free in this relationship, setting your own course through life without the need for approval by them or the tendency to get angry and upset if they do not agree with you.
In your life, you may now get in touch with people who belong to your “spiritual family.” Your spiritual family has nothing to do with biology, genes or heredity. It is a family of kindred souls. Often you know them from past lives in which you bonded through friendship, love or a shared mission. It is very easy to get along with them, for you share an inner likeness; you belong to the same family. It is a kind of homecoming you experience. What made you feel different and lonely among other people first now becomes the foundation of your connection and mutual recognition. Bonding with your spiritual family is a true source of joy in earth life. The key to allowing it into your life is to find your own way “out of the valley” and to recognize the light within. When you are able to recognize your own light in an environment that does not mirror it back to you, you become independent and free. Unburdened by the karmic aspects of your history, the fears and illusions that held you down, you will attract relationships into your life which are based on love and respect and which reflect your awakened divinity.
© Pamela Kribbe 2005
www.jeshua.net
Blog entry
12 Jul 2010 - 9:22pm
We are all 'star seeds', or 'star people' as we all have lived in many realities in many planetary systems and in higher realms as other life forms. So here we are, star seeds, souls sparks on a mission, trapped for NOW in a physical experience.
Starseeds allegedly seed planets with information and spiritual frequency when one cycle of time is about to end and another begin. As planetary frequency increases, so too does their levels of awareness, and need to help others, and return to their natural state of being, a soul spark of light.
There is little connection to the mainstream systems of society, religious, political or economic. Creativity is the key to spiritual fulfillment and mission.
Many prefer to work only in the esoteric fields - healing, searching for their own truths and their soul mission through studying systems of higher wisdom, writing their biographies as a means of clearing issues and understanding their work here and now.
They await a great awakening the evolution of consciousness through the alchemy of time. They know that no one has the date for us to move into levels of higher frequency but their souls tell them that it is on the horizon. They are programmed to find others like themselves, as based on similar frequencies and predestined agendas.
Sometimes these souls are labeled 'walk-ins' or 'wanderers'. It is all the same as it really one soul having multidimensional experiences.
Some starseeds can overcome feelings of longing because they remember how to manifest realities that help them function in physical bodies while doing their work, holding their frequency here, at the same time. Others feel lost and alone, become depressive and withdraw from society feeling that no one understands them.
Some die young from illnesses, accidents, suicides as the pain of remaining here becomes too great. Most are hampered by the limitations of the third dimension. Most do not want children.
Some trigger soul memory gradually as their conscious awareness evolves. Others chose to attract an event, such as a near death experience, in which they detach from the physical grid returning in higher frequency. By creating a physical event of this kind, they are often left with a the finances so they no longer have to work in the physical and can spend their time searching for the truth about their purpose here. A functional soul will never take this route of sabotage.
PHYSICAL:
65% are female: 35% are male
Compelling eyes
Great magnetism and personal charisma
Sensitive to electricity and electromagnetic fields
Lower body temperature than the norm
Chronic sinustis
Extra or transitional vertebra
Hypersensitivity to sound, light, odors
Swollen or painful joints
Pain in the back of the neck
Adversely affected by high humidity
Survived a life-threatening illness
Involved in a severe accident or trauma
EMOTIONAL
Feel a tremendous sense of urgency to fulfill their missions
Experienced a sense of oneness with the universe
Many have difficulty dealing with / or expressing emotions or have a chemical imbalance
EXTRATERRESTRIAL EXPERIENCES
All believe in life on other planets
Most believe that have lived on another planet and can tell you about it
At an early age they had some kind of extraterrestrial, religious or mystical experience
Believe they have encountered alien entities of an extraterrestrial or multidimensional level or a being of light
Telepathic communication with an alien entity - physical or non-physical
They receive some form of communication from a higher source
OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCES
Near Death Experiences
Out of Body Experiences
METAPHYSICAL
Believe in their spirit guides or angel
Believe they have been blessed after the appearance of a holy figure
An intense religious experience
Believe in a God or creational source of energy
Believe in miracles
Had an invisible playmate as a child
Saw an elf - "wee person" - or "fairy"
Saw a ghost
Aware of parallel existence at this time in other worlds
Contact with deceased loved one
Believe in reincarnation
Have past life memories or / memories from parallel experiences
SKILLS
Perform healings on themselves and others
Experienced a white light during meditation
Experience clairvoyance and clairaudience
Have made prophetic statements, had prophetic dreams or visions that have come to pass
See auras
Practice automatic writing
We are all starborn, starseeds, created from the same source.
Your soul is a tiny spark of light.
It spirals out from the creational source of light
It innocently searches for new realms of adventure.
It spirals through a matrix of grid patterns
in many frequency dimensions of its universe stopping
then branching off at different levels of experience.
When it spirals into third dimension
it divides in half to balance the polarity of the physical world.
The two equal parts are now the male and female aspects of itself.
In the cycles of time and linear perception, all souls have begun
their return journey through the spiral stargate of creation.
As they spiral higher they remember who they are,
how they came to be in this experience,
and how they are all part of a Master Plan.
As Starseeds reach higher levels of awareness frequency
in the spirals of consciousness,
they long to go HOME to that which is their creation.
Star Seeds miss the higher connection and feel incomplete with the third
dimension. Often they feel alone and separate from their surroundings.
Eventually the Earth plane becomes a foreign place to them, making little sense.
They begin to distance as they WAIT for that which they know is about to happen!
They link with other aspects of their soul experiencing
in other realities thought of as other planets or realms.
The concepts of star ships, intergalactic travel, varied psychic phenomena
and sentient life forms in other galaxies, are natural and logical to them.
They help other souls who are seek to spiral their
consciousness to return to total awareness.
They have a feeling of mission
The Return to Source
Unity - Infinity!
Much Love & Many Blessings
Namaste
Pamala
Blog entry
9 Jul 2010 - 9:41pm
...first of all I want to THANK YOU for your great job you are doing here in this part of the galaxy.
I know one day the mission is over and you are going back.
I just wanna say you are always welcome and enjoy your being with us.
namaste!
wuerfel
inspired by
http://lightworkers.org/node/109501
Blog entry
9 Jul 2010 - 5:45pm
"He came out of the cave on the night of a new moon.
The sky was clear and he could see millions of stars.
Then something happened inside of him that
transformed his life forever.
He looked at this hands,
he felt his body
and he heard his own voice say,
'I AM MADE OF LIGHT.
I AM MADE OF STARS...
Everything is made of light...
and the space in-between isn't empty.'
And he KNEW that everything that exists is
ONE LIVING BEING, and that
LIGHT is THE MESSENGER OF LIFE, because
IT IS ALIVE...and
CONTAINS ALL INFORMATION."
~Don Miguel Ruiz
[my caps]
Blog entry
9 Jul 2010 - 4:10am
Thank you for your service to the light. Your commitment to remaining positive, heart centered and compassionate even during the most challenging of situations. Thank you for being awake, for opening your heart and following your inner guidance, thank you for accomplishing your life's purpose.
Thank you for loving yourself and loving Mother Earth and the entire Universe.
You are love, and I love you.
Peace in Light.
Melanie
http://www.Ask-Angels.com
Teaching
5 Jul 2010 - 12:40pm
By Jelaila Starr
We have journeyed from far distant places to a world in need. We are the starseeds and walk-ins. Ours is a galactic heritage, our memories of home and family though dim still stir within our hearts filling us with aching longing for home. After many years of training and preparation, we awaken to who we are…and why we are here…and the work begins.
As starseeds, walk-ins and lightworkers[1], we all have one thing in common: our missions. It’s the primary reason for which we are here on Earth at this time. Some of you have already discovered your mission while others are still searching. This article, though written for those already fulfilling a mission, can serve as a reminder for those who will soon begin.
For those who have found your mission, it can be a heady experience. I recall the exhilaration and excitement that I felt when I first discovered my mission. It was even more powerful than the first flush of being in love. Discovering my galactic origins and location of my home world and my real family gave me a sense of identity and belonging that filled the emptiness I had known all my life. Learning that I was sent here to “help Earth through her changes” gave my life new meaning, I had new meaning. I literally floated through my days barely able to contain my enthusiasm and excitement.
Mission Burn Out
But here we are entering the final stages of Earth’s ascension and our respective missions. It is not as easy as it was before. Ascension is much like giving birth and we have entered the later stages where the labor pains get harder, coming closer together. Many of us have hit a wall, we are struggling, desperate to regain that passion and excitement that we once felt, and we know must be there in order to endure. Feeling lost, hopeless, and frustrated, we no longer have the desire to step back and ask, “Where’s the door?” Even if we did, we don’t have the funds necessary to keep the work going. Tired and disillusioned, we just want to check out and go home, or in the case of walk-ins, to walk out and let someone else step in and take over.
As a fellow starseed, walk-in and lightworker, I know how frustrating, confusing and utterly hopeless an earth mission can feel at times. I understand the anger and judgment that we can feel towards a world that appears to have gone crazy, filled with corruption and greed. I understand the resentment that builds from seeing the “Dark” triumph repeatedly, especially after we just went out on a limb to do something for our mission that cost us dearly. And like many of you, when I project into the future, I shake my head, wondering how this planet will ever ascend.
It’s a frightening state to be in because again, like you, I know that if we give up now, we undermine the overall mission and all that we have personally done, all our hard work, our personal sacrifices and suffering would be for naught. As a galactic messenger and one who keeps her eye on the state of the overall Earth mission, I’m alarmed by this trend. Moreover, as do many of you, I realize that if we do not change this trend, we will not successfully complete our collective mission and going home will not be such a positive and heartwarming experience.
So it’s time to get real about our missions. It’s time to take a good hard look at our situation and ask ourselves why we are near burnout and how we got this way. In the 12 years that I’ve been on Earth assignment, I’ve experienced mission burn out. When I examined each episode in hindsight, I’ve discovered that there was an underlying dysfunctional belief that drove me to it. Over the years, as I’ve counseled with others in this state, I discovered that the two beliefs that undermined my efforts were the same culprits at the core of their burned out state too. As my contribution to changing the trend, I share these discoveries with you. In addition, though not a cause for burn out, I share with you the galactic perspective on our Earth missions, a multidimensional cornucopia of knowledge that has enabled me to avoid quitting even in the worst of times.
Our Mission is to Serve Others, not Ourselves
Because I believed that I was only “of the Light,” I quickly adopted the New Age belief regarding the two types of missions and lightworkers. There are those who are primarily “service to self” (STS) oriented and those that are “service to others” (STO). To be accepted and approved of you had to be STO.
I considered myself to be STO for the first few years and for a while the glory of having a mission and the feelings of satisfaction that I got from doing it sustained me. I was truly content just to serve. Then in the 4th year of my mission, things began to change. Joy and satisfaction could no longer compensate for the years of painful rejection, ridicule, abandonment, and personal sacrifice I had endured. Burned out and disillusioned, I was ready to quit; the idea of going back to the 3D world and immersing myself in the pursuit of money and material things became quite appealing. From that point on, I struggled every day to find a reason to carry on. I knew that I couldn’t continue just to help others, yet, at the same time, I recoiled in horror at the thought of selfishly serving myself. As I understood it, getting something out of the mission for me was not what the mission was about. It was about serving Earth and her people period.
Though my guides were aware of my distress, they were not alarmed. In fact, they were thrilled that I had hit this wall. They seemed to understand that I had to burn myself out with being a light-working STO before I’d be able to accept that doing all it for others would not work and was not the way to fulfill a mission. They reminded me of one of the first lessons they had taught me: the need to honor the universal law of Giving and Receiving and Equal Energy Exchange.
As a lightworker, I embraced the New Age belief that feelings of joy and satisfaction for a job well done was equal to the pain and sacrifice required to fulfill my mission. But as I learned that was not so. Though those feelings are wonderful, as I learned through experience, it takes more than good feelings to keep life balanced.
Our Services Should be Free
My first experience with burn out came as a result of financial difficulties. I had recently come out of the 3D business world and embraced the spiritual path, starting a new counseling practice. One of the first things I learned from my new spiritual friends was that spiritual services should be free. They explained to me that charging for my counseling work is what a selfish and self-serving STS person would do. I felt that I should try to do it their way since they obviously knew best and I wanted to keep their acceptance and approval. To avoid being one of those people, I asked for love offerings and suggested donations for my counseling services. I also did trade outs for products and services. Within a short time I didn’t have the money to buy food or pay my monthly bills but I had a lot of candles, incense and essential oils! Unfortunately, my landlord would not trade rent for them. I don’t know about you, but when I’m already living with the pain of ascension symptoms as well as the loss of former business colleagues, friends and loves ones, the added pressure of financial problems becomes too much to bear.
Something had to change. Love offerings, suggested donations and trade outs weren’t cutting it. All that was left was to try charging a set fee for my services. This was hard for me because I feared being labeled STS, selfish and “of the Dark.” Sure enough, I was. Almost every day I’d receive an email or letter from someone telling me that I was bad, negative, selfish, of the Dark, or a con. But at the same time, clients started calling and I found my schedule filling up nearly every week. It wasn’t long before I was making more than I needed. Not only was I making more money, the quality of client I was getting was higher. These people respected my time and the information that I gave them. In addition, they appreciated my being up front about how much I wanted as an exchange for my service. This eliminated all possibility of their guilt from not having offered enough. Having a set fee and being up front about it has contributed to my overall success and ensured that my income has grown every year; a good way to prevent burn out.
The Galactic Perspective
When I first began my mission, like many others, I believed that I came from a world where everyone got along and if there was any conflict, it was minor and easily resolved. I believed that my people were only “of the Light” and since Light was good and what we all wanted to achieve, I agreed to come here to share my infinite knowledge of that Light with others.
Shortly after my first burn out experience from trying to be all Love and Light, my guides felt I was ready to see things as they really are! They began reopening my memory at the multidimensional level. What I saw nearly brought me to my knees. My “only Light” belief was totally and irrevocably shattered. I saw pain and suffering of unimaginable proportions. Worlds were being overrun by aggressive invaders, nations in conflict with other nations, fighting over land rights, or water rights, or religious beliefs. Others were in a race against time, desperate to find a way to prevent extinction as a result of a too much cloning, or hybridization resulting in a depleted and weakened gene pool.
Just as on Earth there were people helping others. I saw council after council at many dimensional levels who were working together through alliances to resolve the problems but they were outnumbered by the opposition. As I peered into those timelines, I understood at a much deeper level the saying, “As above so below.” I quickly came to realize that we live in a galaxy that is mostly at war, and one whose very survival is tenuous at best.
It’s my understanding that as starseeds and walk-ins, we come from these worlds. We still exist there in another timeline. Our galactic families may be embroiled in one or more of these ancient conflicts. Or perhaps we come from a different timeline far back in the history of our home world. A time when we made a choice that led to the current and irresolvable state of affairs. In order to change the future, to save our families and ourselves, we chose to journey back along the timelines into Earth’s present timeline where we could recreate the conflicts, play them out and this time, make different choices. By doing so, we change our respective futures and one of those changes would have manifested as a war that did not occur. And collectively, by doing this timeline work, we changed all the futures necessary to stop all the wars and bring into reality a galaxy in peace.
That is one of the reasons that Earth was created; to provide a place within a free will zone where we as starseeds and walk-ins could be sent to work out solutions with our ancient enemies. Cloaked in a different physical body, and shielded from the horror and pain of our memories, we could meet our ancient enemy in the guise of a mother, father, brother sister, co-worker, boss, or friend. If successful, the actions and thoughts that went into creating that solution would be stored as a template in the 3D electromagnetic grid, the grid where our every action and every thought is stored. Members from our home world, perhaps our starseed parents, would then access those templates and use them to end the conflicts at home.
As I mentioned earlier, my exposure to the galactic perspective came at a time when I was ready to give up. Discovering this information has made the difference in my being able to carry on. Knowing that even if I decided to go back into the 3D world and forget my mission, I’d only get temporary relief because no matter how much money I made or material things I acquired, I wouldn’t be able to drown out the guilt and shame that I’d surely feel. And in the end, I’d still be faced with the pain of failure were I to attempt to return home. The disaster would still be there and I would have to face the fact that I had failed to change it.
Learning about my actions in another timeline and understanding that I had come here to change the outcome of events—the total annihilation of my home world—was exactly what I needed. Knowing that I could change it by being here is what was in it for me. Knowing the galactic perspective has done more than give me a reason to carry on, it’s helped me to realize that no matter how bad it got down here, no matter how weary I became, no matter how much I wanted to quit, there is nothing else more important to do. At the end of the day, the problems “out there” still remained.
In closing, I acknowledge that it may be very hard for you to embrace the notion that it’s okay to get something for yourself out of this mission, that it’s okay to charge for your services, or that you may have come from a world in chaos. But as we have seen, what we are doing is not working and the degree of burn out we are experiencing makes it hard to deny. Yes, we will still suffer frustration and disillusionment from time to time, and want to quit; that’s all part of the process. It’s whether we allow those feelings to stop us that matters. It’s time to get real, get honest, and make the changes we need to make. Only by enduring to the end working through our lessons and in our thinking, making those different choices, will we see our journey’s end and the peace we want to create become a reality.
In service,
Jelaila Starr
The Nibiruan Council
