Who is SoulFire?

I was going through a rough patch with my nerve pain and decided to cry out to the universe for help. I laid down in a quiet place, closed my eyes and took 3 deep, slow breaths to calm myself. Then I began focusing on my breathing and clearing my mind of thought. "Please" I said to the Great Spirit of Love/Godd/Universe, "Please show me a way out of my pain, help me find the way that eludes me." I cleared my mind of other thoughts and focused again on my breathing. I don't know how long I was doing this for when all of a sudden I felt my consciousness being whisked away.

I found myself, my body standing within the middle of a large bon fire. At first I felt concerned that I would burn but I realized I did not feel the pain of the fire on my skin. Looking out of the fire I saw nine people standing in a row in front of a white tipi all looking at me. "Why do I not burn?" I asked the people and one older native american man stepped forward. He seemed very familiar, like a father from a past life. He said to me "You do not burn because that is what you are." I didn't understand "What do you mean this is what I am?" "You are SoulFire, you speak the with the tongue of Divine Spirit, the SoulFire, that is who you truly are within. Share yourself with the world, this is your path." I felt the fire all around me, as a part of me and felt truly at home with myself." Before I had the opportunity to thank them for this realization or ask them further questions I was whisked back into my body. I felt truly blessed by the experience. And though it did not give me answers to my issues with my pain, it gave me answers to why I had been brought to this place and time and condition. I had fallen off my true path, but now I was back on it... writing spiritual poetry, writing the words of Spirit, going out to the world, my family and friends and sharing with them unconditional love. I was finally doing what my soul wanted me to do, and not what my brain had in mind. I was SoulFire.

It did still take me some time to truly embrace my name. I feared people would look at me as some phony, or a person who wanted to push my beliefs onto them. I did want to share my words, and the words of Spirit with the world. I just didn't want anyone to treat me like a Spiritual Leader of some kind. I really dislike it when people say "This is the Word of God" and you must follow it or else. I didn't want a religion started over my words and works. So many beautiful people shared their unconditional love with this world after experiencing the beauty of Divine love and people created a religion around those people’s words and actions. And then those beautiful people's words and works were corrupted into bigotry, hate and an excuses for wars. It mortifies me to think some person might try to do that with my words. I only wanted to share the Divine’s words of love and light. One night as I prayed regarding how to proceed with all I had been given I was told “Share freely everything, if those that do not need it speak poorly of your words ignore them, the words are not meant for them. The words are for those who have lost hope and faith in the truth of Godd’s love.”

So now I freely share my poetry as it is what I love to do. I also share the words I received from Divine Spirit with people. I personally believe more in action than in words, but the words were given to me to be a beacon of hope to lost souls, including my own.

My Awakening Experience

Still an atheist and at the lowest point in my life I fell into a deep depression. I felt I could do nothing because of my illness I was suffering. To the point where I thought death would be a great relief. I started thinking about the world and all the people who were suffering like me and I decided that since there was no God I would love everyone in the world. All I had to do was love them, it cost me nothing and I could do it right from my bed I was periodically trapped in. I had issues with "evil" people. The ones who committed terrible crimes. I finally figured that we all come into this world innocent. Uncorrupted by religion, politics, social restrictions and the challenges that life creates for people. I decided it was that innocence I could love, that tiny piece that was buried deep beneath the pain of this world. So I went to meditate and I said to this world, to the universe that I love it. “I love you all” I proclaimed with true intent in my mind, body and heart, “I love the innocent spirit that resides in all people. I wish to give my unconditional love to this world and universe.”And then the most unbelievable thing happened to me. I connected with the Spirit, the Creator, the Energy that binds the universe. My spirit left my physical body to become one with the Spirit. I was wrapped in unconditional love, peace, bliss and ecstasy. I felt the knowledge of everything, I felt connected to everything that ever existed, did exist and would exist. I never, ever wanted to leave that feeling of pure bliss. I thought I could never love anything more then my husband, who I loved unconditionally, but I was wrong, this was the spirit of all things and through it all was the Creator’s energy, that energy was unconditional love. I felt as if the whole universe was pouring love into me, it was the be all and end all of the universe. I knew I had to return to my body but I didn’t want to go. I was at complete peace and wrapped in perfect love. When I returned, my body shook and was covered in sweat. I cried tears of joy so profound I could not stop. I believe! We are all one with the Great Spirit; our soul is this Great Spirit of Love. We are only separated from it by this physical world we use to create in. I know now that anyone can reconnect to this Primal loving energy by giving what we truly are in spirit, Unconditional Love. I know there are as many paths to this source as there are people, so I wish you light on your journey to finding the unconditional love of the Divine.