Ok. Let's see if I can keep from deleting this again.

So, in the last year, I switched jobs from being a "collector" to going into sales. I love collecting, Love talking to people, helping them out with their financial problems, and other problems. The 4 years prior to my last job change were extremely difficult, moved back home after being gone for 15 years, took a new job managing people. Keep in mind, none of them wanted me there and I had never managed before... I just knew how to collect. My marriage of 15 years ended during that time too, with my ex, who was in the same business as I am, moving in with his co-worker. It's all good now, kids are good, relationship with the ex is good, love my house, friends, animals, and crafts/art projects. But I am looking around me and wondering what in the heck I am doing, and does it really matter? Do I add anything to anyone's life that I come across in the business sense? Do I even care? Do they care? I don't know. So I am waking up day after day and wondering where things are headed, what I really should be doing or should I just be thankful for the fact that things are so calm, and I really don't have to exert much effort in my work life? Should I not be bored by that? Or should I be greatful that someone isn't sucking the life out of me and that I don't have to be any where in particular at any given time? Problem is I don't feel like I am doing enough and in the same breath don't have the energy to do more at this point. I look around at all of you wonderful people who so clearly have figured out their paths and wonder if I am ever going to find that in the true sense. Surely there is more that I should be doing... Thoughts??? Love Karen