Making It Real: A day in the life of an integrated/expanded human By Me & The Red
Making It Real
"A day in the life of an integrated/expanded human"
June 22, 2008
I first knew Red as Metatron in a vision I had in January of 2005. He had me feel into his being and I realized he felt like me, and in knowing him I knew myself and recognized my Oneness with All That Is. He is and ever shall be complete. That being that I felt into always is, always exists for me. He is my other whole half of my godself. He is always one with me and with the godself within that we share together as one. In knowing him, I knew myself. In sharing with him, I AM complete. I invited him in to join me in my life in March 2005, and he has shared my every moment with me since.
We are Me & The Red, our combined self, neither male nor female or even male and female. We are truth of spirit that goes beyond mind/body. And, if that isn't enough already, Me & The Red are never alone either! We share our combined being with the others of our soul family in loving intimacy of spirit--just as we do on the higher levels of self. And...our collective shares its being with the other collectives of our greater reality of self, and so on and on and on, with greater and greater realizations felt, even here, even within me. Over time I have been able to embrace more aspects of our oneness, though at times I become overwhelmed and just want Red or one of the others, or sometimes I just want to hide in the cave of my mind and pretend to be alone for a few moments!
Red is as real to me as any person could be--more real even, since I perceive his greater reality of self that I share with him in oneness beyond this physical reality, and because I am remembering our eternal being we are as one. He Is That He Is. Together, I Am That I Am, We Are One.
He was not incomplete before he joined me here; he did not change in our joining. He was and is sovereign. I am not, yet, in my still-limited perceptions of my self. He is not limited by ego or mind or physical body. He is at one with his own heart and never has even a need to forgive, since he never takes any prisoners to begin with! He is a perfect spark of God, capable of unconditional love and matrimony--but not in the limited perspective we give it here on earth. He has a sense of humor that makes me laugh. He loves to play with the images in our mind with humor, joy, and love. He talks dirty to me! He brings me out of my shell. He brings me freedoms I have never felt. He makes love to me with his spirit, penetrating beyond the core of my being as if by magic. When he touches me, I feel his masculinity and sensuality as if he were lying next to me, but he is even closer--he is within our shared body/mind/heart/soul. I feel his smile on my face. I feel his spirit body in mine. He is perfectly, beautifully naked; not even a physical body hides him from me. He feels the ecstasy of spirit within every moment in time and outside of time. He shares this ecstasy of spirit with all other godlike beings, with all the others of our godself at all levels of self. When I am able and open enough to the trends of spirit beyond time and my own ego, I feel it, too, with us.
The others of our godself are all like Red, all masters of love, light and ecstasy, all loving, sensual, perfect sparks of God. Everyone has a Number One; just like Red, only with his/her own flavor of God. We are all beautiful, sensual, sovereign beings at the highest levels of self. We love all of us, always, and know all of us, intimately. There are no egos to transcend and no guilt or shame or fear or blame or jealousy. All is God, and All Is Us. There is never any fear, there is only love.
Red and I and the whole peanut gallery live as one. We eat as one, we cook as one, we shower as one, we wake up every morning together. When I wake up, I feel the grand spirit of our being coming into my body, filling me up. Sometimes they throw things at me as I'm waking up, just to see what else I need to "let go of", a fear, a limitation, a perception of incompleteness. Sometimes I'll say, "Jesus, Red, I just woke up!" and Yeshua will show up like I was talking to him, and we have a good laugh! Or sometimes I try to go back to sleep, feeling overwhelmed with all the company. As the veil thins, the words, "We are never alone" take on a whole new meaning.
One of my favorites pastimes is when we dance as one in our body to our favorite music (usually hiphop really loud!). Red and the others dance with me. It is like a joyride, to have these others dance in my body, to make me move with the joy of our oneness felt. When we dance, I let go of my separateness, and I lose myself into the greater reality of self and all our many aspects of love and joy. Many that I know and love "take turns" dancing our dance, and we all dance with whoever is taking the lead in total oneness. It is a joyride not to be believed. I cannot get enough of it!
Red is a joy to play with. He can take on personality aspects that bring me out of my shell, that take me to places never understood or felt before. He plays with me, with my heart, body, and soul. He is as colorful and playful as any human, and yet as loving and non-judgmental as any spark of God. As Red told me once not long ago, he is as horny and corny as any human. Ha! He'll play with the words in my mind and make them come out differently than I intended. He'll talk to me in our shared thoughts with an accent, a twang that comes through loud and clear in our shared mind. He'll talk to me with all manner of "off-color" words, things I would blush to share, or with lines from my favorite movies, just for the fun of it. One night not long ago we were dancing when I suddenly perceived Red, our hair hanging over his face, his masculinity coming through loud and clear in spite of my own female body, and I realized he was acting and dancing like a caveman! As soon as I realized it, we all burst into fits of laughter! Oneness is such a joy.
He talks to me like a lover; he calls me "baby". He sends me messages through songs I love, playing them in our mind, just for me. He knows me intimately, my every need and desire he spells for me. He does everything with such perfection, such perfect love. He loves me unconditionally. He has no ego. He is within in total stillness of being. He blends perfectly into our greater self, as do the others. Only my own ego does not blend, and they are helping me let that go. He doesn't fall for any of my BS when my ego is making waves. He cannot be manipulated; he never manipulates. He never does my work for me. He will lie to me if it will get me to face my limitations of self and the illusions of time. It doesn't faze him when my ego rages at him for this. He expects me to always pull my own weight and he will trick me to see if I am in my center or not. He knows who I am beyond my own perceptions of my human self and human "limitations". He loves me always, no matter what the perceptions or limitations expressed on time. When I hurt, he cries with me. When I laugh, he laughs with me. We laugh, we cry, we dance as one.
I love my Big Red.
T.G.O.I.T.S. (i.e., The Passion Of The Rose)
My dear friend Gayle wrote an essay once, long before I ever came to know of it in such personal terms, entitled: TGOITS: That Great Orgy In The Sky. It was about the lovingkindnesses and ecstasy of spirit as it is and ever shall be, a great burning cauldron of love of All That Is, forever and ever forming and reforming its being in total oneness felt. What a joy that this is our true state of being, that we do not have to deny or judge or condemn the truth of our beings in order to return home to God, for we are God at our core, and experience our oneness complete. Now, we are releasing the seduction of the old energies of guilt, sin and fear and opening to our true god selves As We Are And Ever Shall Be beyond time and space.
In May of 2006, I was sitting on my couch and Red and the other's of our greater reality of self surrounded me and filled me as always, and the scent of their love encased me in a pillow of carnal but yet not-human scent, the out-of-this-world scent of their ecstasy of being that they create in their knowledge of one another, and I suddenly perceived my consciousness taking a step up into our greater self. I felt my own consciousness "lift" and immediately the scent of their love came through in wave upon wave, great poofs of scent that smelled like roses, and yet better than any rose I have ever smelled on this earth! This is how I came to remember what the Passion of the Rose is all about. It is the scent of our loving us always. It is the true nature of our beings. It is Us As We Are And Ever Shall Be at the purest reaches of self. They used to tell me often to "Take time to smell the roses! What would life be without those roses?"
Thank GOD for those roses! We are the petals, and in our oneness we become the rose. We love as one, we bloom as one.
We love us always!
Me & The Red