I dreamed I traveled across green fields for a looooong time. I came to a wall of rocks and ivy and climbed over it. On the other side there was a table with all my family seated there. They welcomed me. The ones who have died were there alive and well. The old ones were young and energetic. The divorced couples were back together. My cousin with cancer was well. I have one cousin that is so mentally handicapped she cannot speak or feed herself and she was there too talking and laughing like a normal child. Everyone was happy and young and well and it was perfect. (Usually when I dream of dead relatives I am not comfortable around them because I realize they are dead and getting too close would mean losing them all over again but in this dream I never made that realization)Then I went to a place I used to go as a child where everyone was shitty to me. It my dream though it was a wonderful place and everyone wanted me there. Then I caught myself in a mirror. I was perfect. Tall, thin, my hair was beautiful, my skin was flawless, I was about 10 years older than I am now. Then my friends came to get me and said we had to keep traveling. Everything melted away and I appeared in a house. It was round inside and very modern looking. Upon inspection I realized it was one of those dome houses that's built into the side of a hill to be green and save energy and heat. It was small but its round design made it welcoming and spacious feeling. The house was decorated with black, white and red which is what I've always wanted my house to look like. I looked and saw pictures of me and my boyfriend and I knew we were married and this was our house. Then a child walked in with his mother. He was a very troubled child and they clearly had an appointment with me. I talked to him like a councelor or psychologist would. As he was leaving and a little girl started coming in, I felt an arm around me pulling. I woke up to my boyfriend holding me because I was shaking and crying. I had this moment of horror that none of it was real. When I was able to tell him what my dream was he seemed startled. Then he told me that he always wanted to someday build a dome house inside a hill but had never told me that before. I got scared for a minute because I thought I should kill myself so I could go be with my family. After taking a few minutes and waking up all the way I realized that was ridiculous. What was this all about?