Well I've tried to meditate but no matter what I do the result is always the same nothing happens.

The way I understand it the ONLY way out of this cheap lie we call " life" is to go "within" fine whatever it
Will take to get back into the real world.

I just don't know how much more I can take knowing that my "family" really doesn't mean anything at all just one more lie.

Once I am free I will erase both my memory and theirs the very first chance I get so neither them or I will be affected by the illusion when. We meet our true families.

I want to do the right thing and end the lie right away no point in playing "make believe" any more.