These last two weeks have been the strangest in terms of energy for me. A long term relationship I have been trying to move away from was abruptly brought to light, and things hidden or repressed have been openly exposed. All my worst struggles and shortcomings were on full display with intent to shame me and keep me in a miserable pattern of repeating mistakes and self loathing, but I saw through it and simply let things flow~(https://sphotos.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn1/538077_4256087606950_1605273910_n.jpg)So much craziness in relationships and chaos in my surroundings! Complete overhaul and upheaval! The "old" me would have lost it by now. While it has been very painful, I remain optimistic, and excited even, that wonderful things are about to happen. I can't say that I wanted the changes to take place the way that they have,( me leaving my phone at boyfriend's exposing a most private and humiliating stream of messages between myself and someone else, that he read!) but sometimes the Universe will take drastic measures to move you along when you are drowning in quicksand. I am at once heartsick yet hopeful like never before. And in the midst of it all, I let a good friend drag me out on a Saturday night when I was set to go to bed with my book, and I had the time of my life! I never laughed so hard, and neither had she! It was such a joyful, happy, night of mayhem and laughter. It helped me to swallow my bitter little pill of exiting a love/soul connected relationship I have been in ,one way or another, since high school. Still, the oddest energy swirling about.