I'm petrified of sleeping, I've spent such a long time not sleeping, that I seem to be able to function fairly normally without it/ I know I need it though.
The reason I can't and wont sleep?
Ever since I can remember, I've had the same dream every night...
I fall from the sky, burning, I turn to ash and float through the air. I can feel pieces of myself getting sucked up into peoples lungs, I can feel myself falling into water and drowning. I fall into cracks in the pavement and am trodden in so I can't get out. I float around for what seems like an eternity, not being able to move, to speak, to do anything other than blow away.
This goes on for ever, this dream feels as though it takes a lifetime to finish, I wake up exhausted and empty, confused. When I wake from this dream I feel like my mind has been taken away, I loose it. I'm upset, disheveled, lost. I don't understand what it is in this dream that makes me so freaked out, I can't figure it out.. But I know it's stalked me for as long as I can remember, since I was a child. Nothing I've tried has answered me, nor helped.