The only reason I'm not walking out on this mission right now is because I want to make sure that I don't hurt others. I swear this if this mission becomes any more painful to me, I might have to leave it behind. Someone sent me healing energy to balance me out just now and I needed that, but I still need much more healing than this as its becoming a chore just to exist in 3D anymore.
Right now I feel like a lead weight and its physically difficult for me to move around in 3D. You have no idea how hard it is to have to physically move and not be able to control the external stimuli your body receives if you're not used to 3D anymore. Constant day in and day out tickling and itching because this fan keeps blowing my hair against my body. When I get up from my desk, I feel like I need to force every muscle in my body to move and I feel like I'm 300 lbs.
Its a chore just to sustain myself in 3D and I'm vibrationally exhausted every day. When I leave my house, I feel overstimulated. So, I live as a hermit and barely ever move. I'm able to perform my duties from my desk, but I want adventure in my life, but without having to feel like its a chore just to move or go some place. 3D is really starting to get on my last nerve. Its like working out at a gym all day every day and never taking a break. You always feel worn out, broken, and exhausted. Its starting to make me feel claustrophobic (for lack of a better word as I don't live in fear) and its quite suffocating. I'm starting to be unable to function properly in 3D anymore and its draining me.