I have no recollection of past lives, and to this day I have not managed to properly meditate. However, does anyone know what the symbols mean, when the third eye is opened(or semi-opened, mine surely isn't functioning at 100%, nor are the rest of my chakras, although I've come to realize that the heart is the most important one)? I'm sort of in a state of... awake/sleeping, I mean the symbols are kind of placed within the environment's commercialized matter, which I could definitely live without. Then again, they also seem to make sense of the natural order of things, and oftentimes the symbols that I see on various lightworker-oriented websites, such as the logo for this one. I am not quite sure of my soul's identity or anything. Various words come to mind at times, which seem to be ascension-oriented, or they reflect the way I have been going about things (or meaningless and/or counterproductive ego ramblings). I try not to take certain things too seriously, while I often do get lost in silliness. I've also kind of noticed various messages and symbolism in video games, which I more or less don't bother with anymore, as I've come to notice what role they might play on one's mind, and the ego manipulation that occurs, depending on the person I suppose. Mainly Assassin's Creed 2, in terms of symbols. I've come to a point where all of the bloodshed in movies and video games are something I avoid, as it all seems to be working to reinforce old dualistic patterns. A year ago, I didn't even know what an ego was.

Overall I want to put my old patterns behind and be around some higher vibrations, or around people who know what I'm talking about. I would like to continue in a way where I am going to be able to benefit those around me, I really don't care a whole lot about money, and when it comes to thoughts of earning it, I can't help but wonder how much longer it's going to be worth anything.

Also, cars. Has anyone noticed how they all generally look like faces, with the logo being placed right where the third eye is located? I mean I tend to be good at making happy faces out of groups of inanimate objects, but these cars... it's so subtle. For all I know there have been plenty of discussions regarding the blatant faces on cars, but I'm just going to leave it. I never cared too much for cars.

Well, if anyone has some helpful advice, it'd be appreciated. I'm not begging or anything, just inquiring. I often have dreams where I'm back at school. One of the more recent ones... the class was located in the local Costco building. Reflecting on it, it reminds me of the movie Idiocracy. As though the entire life of going to school was preparing me to be a mindless consumer. I am very interested in past lives, I just get very discouraged by the surrounding environment. I know it's up to me to see it through, the wheels are just a bit stuck in the ditch. I apologize if I haven't been very specific, but if anyone has any friendly input then it would be much appreciated. Thank you for your time. :)