I want to die. I want to die. I can't take it anymore ny poor baby girl needs a healthy mom who she doesn't have to see fall apart because she can't deal with the overwhelming pain from abuse,debt,and the impossible living situation she Is in am useless,hopeless,spent,devastated, and I just ran out of my new job sobbing like a baby I cant do this anymore no where to turn don't want people to see me this way so very alone and don't want to live I am dying with people saying what is wrong with her she is so gifted sge could do sp many things but I aim frozen and I want to kill this feeling want an escape hatch trusted hoped thought only good hopeful thoughts if manifesting what I desire to simply be able to survive on my own with my precious girl and not in the house with her dad who abuses me in the most awful underhand passive agressive way emotional I am ducked up from trying to heal from molestation from step father as a child I had no dad but him since three bcuz mine died and my mom is still married to him.she knows and I have forgiven. I was healing but being trapped in thia hell house with this man who makes me feel like a little victim all the time pressing all my anxiety buttons has brought my healing to a standstill. Why am I not manifesting according to the law if attraction when for so long my only thoughts were focused and I ask God and thank Him in advance to let me get work in my career to pay my bills live on my own and help others I love who struggle