I need help fighting my demons

Today, my anger almost overcame me again. I knew that I was attracting this emotion through expectation and I couldn't create a different expectation using the Law of Contious creation. The expectation of anger was too strong.

My anger started to develope and then a light appeared at my window and slowly drifted to my feet. It reminded me of how much I love and want to love, to be tolerant and patient. My anger left. However the condition that was causing it didn't. Not long my anger returned even more. I felt as if I wanted let go of the light and destroy the ones doing me wrong.

I do not like feeling this way. I've banished a lot of my inner demons but anger is one of three I'm having trouble with. I want to create a pure light for the world not a tarnished one. It's the demons that are within me that prevent this. If the demons are at bay, I generate a golden light. When they are awake, I will not generate anything because I know it will be dark.

I have left out some detail in my story (sorry). But I beg you my brothers. Help me.