Losing Faith

Lately my life has been falling apart. For the last 2 months I have spiraled into a depression. I am unable to manifest anything positive, only problems that make the depression worse. I feel as if all the spiritual work I've been doing in the last year has been worthless. And now worst of all I am losing faith in my spiritual abilities. Nothing seems to work for me anymore, and I've lost all inspiration to pursue my dreams. Even meditation, which I had been so passionate about, has lost its appeal. Every time I try I end up wallowing in my own depressing thoughts. No one I turn to seems to be able to offer any comforting answers. I'm tremendously worried that all this ascension stuff I have been reading into has all been a waste of time.

Any suggestions or ideas? I'm desperate to regain a sense of balance and empowerment. All I can find is terrible emotional distress and negative manifestations.