ET's, Dimensions, 2012

I am new to being awakened and have so many questions on ET's, other Dimensions and 2012.
I was your typical person. Sleeping! Just watched TV, never liked to read. I was Agoraphobic and had panic attacks for 7 years, up until a few months ago. Things started changing very rapidly for me. I had a Kundalini awakening and since have been guided to Dimensions, 2012 and ET's. At times I wish I could go back to my previous life or lack of because knowing, feeling all these other things is so CRAZY and VERY overwhelming to me. Being a mother of 2 6 year olds makes it even tougher for me. Any help or guidance is so appreciated.