This is kind of embarrassing... But I knew if I could express myself anywhere it is here. I have been smoking marijuana for like almost everyday for the last 5-6. I cant stop. Deep down in my heart I want to stop but its become such a routine that it is so hard. I dont want to cut off the people i love (boyfriend, child hood friends) but they are my biggest temptations. I dont feel I want to go to rehab i feel this is something that I should conquer from the core. Its like my mind doesnt want it but my body does.... but that could also be a phycological excuse. I know a big part of my ascension is letting go of this ego and getting down to business. I just cant do it! no matter how much I know and feel it is important to do so, i just cant bring myself to stick to this. as a matter of fact, i have never really accomplished anything (stuck to a diet, finishing highschool) could this be more than an addiction to weed? or is it a fear of accomplishing something? I have always felt that I didnt need to acommplish anything to prove anything because I always knew if i wanted to I could. For example in highschool people would try soo hard to get an 80% average, me even though i was barely there it was easy for me to get 90's in anything. It was becuase I knew that I could do it, I still managed to pass with 50's when in actuality I had the potential to be honor roll.Could this be related? i know the answrs are within me, but I need some guidance I know deep down this is a big test for me to over come, it is asthough I feel, once I let go of this life that I chose to live and start surrendering to the light ... i know there is no turning back. I guess I am scared of letting go of all my attachments, attachments to my loved ones attachments to my old lifestyle. Has anyone here had to get over an addiction and has done it successfully? I would appreciate any words of wisdom or advice or success stories. Thank you all in advance for your compassion and love