I need help, i've been meditating for a long time now, even trained myself to meditate with eyes open to a certain degree, I've been trying to recieve messages from my spirtual guides. There is only one occasion where i think i may have met one however i don't know if it was a true divine experience or if it was me creating that experience. Several years ago, I went into meditation, i soon found myself sitting by a stream in a meadow. A hawk flew into a nearby tree and spoke to me, saying only that his name was zarrif(typo?idk). I don't know what this means but ever since i have not been able to reach that same point, people talk about meditation and how it brings them to a whole other place, but i've meditated quite a bit and that is the only experience i had, and i don't know if it was me wanting so badly to have an experience that i dreamt one up without knowing it or if this was really something special that happened. I need some advice.