I will try to make this short, I am 33 years old and have had many loses in my young life, I have also experienced non stop abuse of all kinds as a young child. I was able to put it all behind me or so I thought until my daghter who was 7 at the time was sexually abused by my son who was 15 at the time. I was the one who made the call and had my son arrested, today we sit at 18 months later and still my kids have had very little help infact my son has had none.

He is still in custody but not been through the court system completely yet as we are about to go to trial for the 3rd time in December. My daughter is very strong as both of my children are they are incredible spirits and I dont hold anger towards my son for the actions he chose.

However I am having a problem with a woman who is a psychologist and youth and family therapist that seen my daughter 8 times and then felt she was done, prior to the last session I began talking with her as I was told its also for the family. I told her about my past abuse which I had never told anyone.

I told her many things thinking that maybe I can offer her some insight into the mind of a victim as most of her clients are children, I these things all with good intentions. I also was going through a dark period at this point as I walked away from my boyfriend of 9 years, my home, my business, everything as I knew it was time to move on. So of course I was feely some stress at times.

I shared with this woman some of my deepest darkest thoughts and she listened but never really showed that she heard me, and a few times I would ask her direct questions but got no response so I felt anger towards her, enough that I wanted to break her window where she works in her office.

I seem to flip flop on how I feel about her, cause I thought we were on the same path, she seemed very interested in picking my brain on things about ego, tarot, hands on healing and some other things yet then it felt like she completely ignored me when I reached out the most.

So I went to see her as she asked if I wanted to come in the day after I left my old life behind and she could not even look me in the eye, she spent the entire conversation picking imaginary lint from her clothing and moving around in her chair avoiding eye contact. I felt like a complete fool. Since then I go back to this in my mind every day maybe every other day and feel like I cant let it go.

Part of me wants to befriend her and part of me what to show her as the fool.

What is this? And how can I get past it? If I can identify what is going on I can get past it.

Thanks
Angela