My own reality seems like a big mystery at first. I wanted more and more of what many "assumed" they have. I was a "sheep" and I desired to be petted and loved. I needed everyone to around me and loving me and my light. In the end I was even more controlling to make sure that I was noticed and pleased. I wished and hoped others would love me as I am and keep me"safe" from the dangers of the huamn mind. I was a needy friend and they didnt know how much I was lost in the world. I wanted other to love me.
This was the "curse" I put upon myself before I came here. I challeged my Self to discover my true TRUE power without others to carry me...even the angel I decline to be helped. I wished to be like the Others and I want to BE powerful. The problem was still that I followed and I hated my Self even more from doing it. My Self wanted me to follow MY SELF. I discovered my true Higher Self and Godself when i was at home in my room crying from this realization that I am GOD and I have the potentail to change my SELF. I discovered my truest self in that moment but it was only for a moment. I have to BRING this GOD part of me to this world...within my world I AM GOD. I wanted to change my LIFE and others to be inspired. In this world it cannot be enough but at least I AM doing my part. My soul gave the light to the world. Light is endless and that is my truth. My light is endless and I wanted to change the inner world. My life right now is empty and NOW i have a beautiful chance to create the best.
The deal is that I follow my GODself and my Higherself. I desire to understand and love this part of me. I knew that in time I am going to understand that when my life DOES cnage it is because I want that to happen and I changed my SElf I change my WORLD.
I dont seek from new age books and meditations books. Though they are helpful and beautiful, I know that ALL the wonderful power of my Higerself is within me and I change the world. This world is my world too and I can be happy and joyful forever.
I say I am a healer and I sing so there is healing in that...
I wan to be a singer because that is my path. I want to create japanimation movies becasue I have talent in mixing human emotion and fantasy. I want to teach and help children in India and Japan. My higher Self wants mt to focus more on them and I will follow. I becoming what I love. Slowly I becoming...
I love to sing and I love to read alot. These thing arent spiritual but it happens that I LOVE to do them. I say decrees...