Hello~
Welcome to my profile! 


This is a description of the way that I see the world:

Healers present a calm and serene face to the world, and can seem shy, even distant around others. But inside they're anything but serene, having a capacity for personal caring rarely found in the other types. Healers care deeply about the inner life of a few special persons, or about a favorite cause in the world at large. And their great passion is to heal the conflicts that trouble individuals, or that divide groups, and thus to bring wholeness, or health, to themselves, their loved ones, and their community.

Healers have a profound sense of idealism that comes from a strong personal sense of right and wrong. They conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place, full of wondrous possibilities and potential goods. In fact, to understand Healers, we must understand that their deep commitment to the positive and the good is almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. Set off from the rest of humanity by their privacy and scarcity (around one percent of the population), Healers can feel even more isolated in the purity of their idealism.

Also, Healers might well feel a sense of separation because of their often misunderstood childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled childhood-they are the prince or princess of fairy tales-an attitude which, sadly, is frowned upon, or even punished, by many parents. With parents who want them to get their head out of the clouds, Healers begin to believe they are bad to be so fanciful, so dreamy, and can come to see themselves as ugly ducklings. In truth, they are quite OK just as they are, only different from most others-swans reared in a family of ducks.

At work, Healers are adaptable, welcome new ideas and new information, are patient with complicated situations, but impatient with routine details. Healers are keenly aware of people and their feelings, and relate well with most others. Because of their deep-seated reserve, however, they can work quite happily alone. When making decisions, Healers follow their heart not their head, which means they can make errors of fact, but seldom of feeling. They have a natural interest in scholarly activities and demonstrate, like the other Idealists, a remarkable facility with language. They have a gift for interpreting stories, as well as for creating them, and thus often write in lyric, poetic fashion. Frequently they hear a call to go forth into the world and help others, a call they seem ready to answer, even if they must sacrifice their own comfort. 

Most of my life I have spent dreaming of a better world.
What I want most is to see these dreams become integrated into the collective reality..
They would be positive changes focusing on the betterment of humankind and all other creatures of the Earth.

I started by exploring my own thought processes and the processes of others.. I paid attention to what I was paying attention to. I listened when the spirits spoke. I followed the white rabbit that popped up in my life so often and kept going.. If I stopped, it was only so I could heal and then I continued forward faster the next time I moved. Sometimes my ego became afraid on this spiritual journey.. It wanted to die or go to sleep when it realized it was falling behind.. that it was losing control.. The ego is only holding me back, I feel, but if it can be aligned, it would be for the best. I felt sad that it was unable to experience what it wished to, but I could not free it if I allowed those things for no work. Now she/I walk together. We allow things to come into our lives, to flow freely into the now.

This has been a strange process.. one of many different emotions.. I spent much of my time healing from the experiences I was going through. My depression seemed to become worse and worse until I found I could no longer avoid it.. Something had to be done. Something in my life had to change or I would end up destroying myself.. So I embraced spirit.. It was the only peace I had ever known, and when it offered to help me, I happily accepted.. And then the world became full of light. I was happy again. I experienced the inner calm I had been missing most of my life..

So when I spoke to her again, she showed me how devoted I have been to my cause.. where I felt like I was failing in everything I tried to do, I was always letting my spirit shine through, holding strongly to my ideal vision of the world because I deeply meant it on every level of my being.. I saw that I was innocent and naive and fanciful but that was what made me special.. I am at heart a deeply loving being with good intentions.. That is what makes me good.. If people could only see me like that, they may appreciate me, I thought! And then it no longer mattered what people thought. People will understand what they are ready to understand. 

I saw that other people only started to avoid me when I became selfish.. I saw that my own inner pain made me suffer, not the pain outside of myself. Every time my ego tried to take control again and I felt myself shifting back and forth through different realities, I finally heard my spirit speak again, more clearly than even before and she explained things to me that I needed to know..

I have been wanting to heal others for a long time.. I don't know how to heal physical wounds, but I have a talent for helping heal spiritual wounds with love, energy, and understanding.. I wish to be of use to others.. I think of how happy I will be once I find myself progressing and helping others along. I am glad to have the energy to help others now.. I don't feel so clogged now.   

I can't wait to see where I end up next. ^^

Everything interests me..
I am always happy to learn of new ideas..
Right now my main focus is on learning to work with energy for healing and protection. 

Return of the Bird Tribes, Ask and it is Given, The Path of the Dreamhealer, The Energy Healing Experiments,
How Psychic Are You: 76 Techniques to Boost Your Innate Power, The Celestine Prophecy