This is my life (1) My beginnings

I have been inspired by the sharing and giving of knowledge on this site since joining. Adeon has inspired me to start to tell my story. Thankyou Adeon.

I would like to share my thoughts and feelings with you. Firstly I have always felt that something was missing my whole life. I could not come into the world without getting stuck, my mother wanted me to be born on the 4th July which was my due date but I was not ready and arrived at 5 minutes past midnight on the 5th July by Ceasar birth. I already knew this incarnation was going to be a challenge. I have through regression meditation experienced this birth and could only feel pain, I was obviously holding on as tight as I could and then was denied a natural birth. My whole life I thought I was a twin .... will probably never know about that although my mother who is not longer with me in this life time says not.

My first five years of life I remember very little about although my mother told me that I was obsessed with my imaginary friend Casey. Casey was my best friend despite my brother being born when I was 18 months old. If I had a drink, Casey had a drink, If I went to bed, Casey had to go too, and so on. I now believe this was my spiritual awakening and that Casey was actually a guide although I don't remember him/her at all. I also wonder if Casey was my twin!

My very first memory is when I was around five and I was standing in a Street and although I was born in England my parents were in the RAF and we were living in Malta, my mum was talking to a neighbour it was dark the stars were shining and all I could hear was a nosie echoing through my ears, "What's that noise" I asked, "Crickets" someone said although I don't believe it was my mum or the neighbour that answered. I loved the sound of the crickets and learnt later that they made the noise by rubbing their wings together.

I attended an RAF school and my brother who was much younger cried to go to school with me and although we were not Catholics my mum got my brother a place at school a year early in a Catholic church school with nuns. He loved it and soon began talking Latin. Meanwhile I was being taught Religious Education by a teacher who loved Greek mythology and I was mesmarised by the stories of Pan, Medusa, and also her teachings from the bible.

I started to go to Sunday School and the teacher told us that for ten shillings you could buy a bible, I so wanted one, but I was a shy child and it took me nearly a whole week to ask my Dad if I could buy a bible and even then I said The Sunday School teacher is selling some Bibles. My Dad who always made be earn what I received said "Well If you find out the first three words in the Bible, and come back and tell me I will buy you one." On Sunday, very shyly I asked the teacher if I could look in the Bible, "Of course you can", I think she was surprised that I was so interested. I picked up the Bible Opened the first page and there were the words I was looking for... "The Holy Bible". My father was a bit disappointed I think because I was supposed to have said "In the Beginning". But I got my Bible which I have now had for nearly 45 years. The Bible has no pictures and was not suitable really because I couldn't read the words and certainly didn't understand it but was always drawn to Proverbs which I still find fascinating and only look through it now and then and when I do I usually just open a page at random shut my eyes, put my finger down and read the verse nearest to it. Thinking back I have used this sytem of intuition ever since I had it but didn't realise this until I just wrote it down here and now. Scrying was to become part of my life in later years and my instinct has served me well.

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