I'm new to this place and what a wonderfull place it is! I was wondering what brought you to your current spiritual state? I'd love to hear some stories if anyone feels they want to share them?!
Here is mine.....as brief as possible!
Hello fellow lightworkers! My name is Ben, I'm 28 and a proud dad of two boys. I'm a 9 to 5 zombie who has aspirations as a musician. My musician's name is 777 and also my online name. I didn't chose this name it chose me. About 3 years ago I started to notice the number 7 cropping up everywhere around me to a rediculous quantity. I thought I was being silly at first but then I had the overwhelming sense that someone or something was trying to communicate with me. Hence I nervously adopted the name.
Since then the "coincidences" have snowballed to the point where this number practically haunts me, but now I'm comfortable with it. I had no idea until a few weeks ago that 7 is a supposedly holy number. It makes much more sense to me now!
I've always searched for faith. I've studied as many religions, philosophies and theories as I've had hot dinners in this quest and until this year....infact July (7/07 ;-) ) it has been in vain.
I was raised by atheist parents and attended a Christian school. As an angry young man the more I studied other religions and cultures the more I began to dislike what my adopted Christianity symbolised to many people. I became thoroughly ashamed of the actions of many Christians throughout history. I lost my faith and searched for it in as many other places as I could. I became involved in meditation as a teenager and found some solstice in Buddhism...yet its doctrine still didn't satisfy me fully. At around 18 I became heavily involved in the occult. I studied astrology, tarot, the runes and later Paganism, especially Wicca. Yet STILL despite feeling closer I wasn't satisfied. Then while I was in waterstones (uk bookstore chain) a book was left pointing diagonally out of place which came to my attention. It was called Liber 777 by Aleister Crowley the so-called Satanist. I was astounded how the book "found me" and then obviously by the title. I found it completely incomprehensible! Endledd lists of correspondances and correlations that I had no idea how to use.
It led me to study and practice the ritual of The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. This was close now, I could "feel" it. But I was usually left feeling uneasy and in a strange way sort of "watched" after I'd performed a work. I knew I was close now but was no longer sure if I wanted to be close.
Then I found it. The Kybalion. This is an ancient Egyptian philosophy that has been esoteric for thousands of years. I'm not going to preach the benefits of readin this book because I'm not a fan of being preached at myself by people who think they know more than you! (come on we've all met them.....).
Everything feels right to me now. I understand my place in THE UNIVERSE! I recognise the exponential benefits of positive vibration, and I'm not going to look back. I feel I've finally found God when I was at my furthest away from Him. I believe God to be INTENT transmuted into a tangible, useable force. With this force I feel I can work finally to help others through my (now not scary at all!) meditation. The quest is no longer my egocentric, self-indulgent God-Hunting! It's other people's turn now.
So thats my story! I have many questions to ask many of you on here. If you have any for me I'd be delighted to offer a view. In the meantime thank you all for vibrating on a similar frequency to me and thus being here. Thank you for being God and being me inseperably by accumulated intent. And thank you for being Lightworkers......the universe (especially our human species) really needs us!!
NAMASTE, AMEN, BLESSED BE!