More Growth
This morning I sat down at my computer to check my emails and spirit told me to look up Adult Indigos. I didn't even know there was such a thing! My understanding has been that Indigos are children that are of this upcoming generation. Ok, let me go back some and explain. 10yrs ago I came into truth after a lifetime of searching. I've always been stubborn, but also know that God is with us, many times I have heard his/her voice, many times he/she has called my name! More than likely he/she has had to call it because I've always been such a sleepy one. :o) 10 yrs ago, I finally "Got It" finally understood that I came back here to learn lessons, to work out Karma from past lives and that everything was of a Divine Purpose. I plodded around in this for 10yrs!!!! Did some past life work, did some healing from present day stuff and thought that was basically it. Divine Will would take care of the rest. HA! Then last year I started reading Dissapperance of the Universe (after 2yrs of a dear friend telling me too) Then I started awakening to the truth of illusion and fear. Like I said I've been a sleepy one. :o)
Four months ago I decided that I needed to stop "playing" with Trutth. That I was either going to live my Truth or forget this all together, like such a thing can be done. You can't undo Truth! So I commited my very existance to living in Truth, Love and Light! There really wasn't any choice, I had been living in a sort of hell for the past 4 yrs. my "Dark Night of Soul" But what kept haunting me was that again I'd have to live my life with very few friends. My family what is left of it, has always thought I was weird. There were years during my search for God and Truth that they wouldn't even come to my home. Even to this day if I start talking about spiritual matters my sister gets agitated and changes the subject or suddenly it's time to go. LOL I can laugh at this now because I no longer take it personally, I just tread carefully with Light around her and hold her to the light in my prayers and meditations.
All my life I have been misunderstood, I went through my teens, 20s and 30s trying to get people to understand the gross injustice of racism! I wanted to change the world, I wanted to help to get people to understand that we are all the same, that none is better than the other especially when it comes to ones skin color. I would say to them, how can you feel you're superior to any other race when YOU had nothing to do with it!!! Did you choose to be what you are? My heart would break, I couldn't get people to understand, I couldn't get them to understand that we need to be celebrating our differences, learning of each others differences and how boring this world would be if we were all the same. Sometimes the burden in my heart was so heavy. I couldn't get people to understand and I felt like I had failed in some way!
But this morning as I read about adult Indigos I was released from my failure! We the adult Indigos were the precursor to these dear Indigos that are going to pickup the gauntlet and accomplish what those of us that came here to do many years ago!!! I haven't failed!!! We haven't failed!!! We just had the rough road to lay down, they will pave it with there Love, Light and Joy. As I read more about the Adult Indigos I realized that this is me, this is what I have been going through all of my life, it wasn't for nothing. All the injustice I have witnessed in the world, all the heartache of being so alone all these years, the anger I would deal with daily all of it is who I AM!!! Dang! it takes me so long to figure things out!!!!!
Now the very blessing in all of this this morning is that I am going to share this all with my son, now that I have a clearer picture of what being Indigo is, I'm hoping it will release him from his own misgivings and feeling like no one understands him. I want to ask all of you to hold my son to the Light and Love that his heart will bloom with this truth of who he is! Like me he has been a sleepy one also. It's like we have had to meld into it, But I know he is definitely Indigo. I don't know if any of this makes any sense I feel like I've rambling. Today was just huge for me! Thank you all for your Light that you shine, for the Love that you share that helps us to Awaken. I Love You All.
Namaste'
Phire