[Request & Insight] Blessings on my scholarship, please, and many thanks.

Lots of hugs, dearest brothers and sisters.

Having been shy and feeling persecuted growing up as an Indigo, making requests and receiving gifts is hard for me, teehee.

However, as my prayers have led to insights about loving myself and valuing myself, I am here now taking things a step further in my healing and unblocking/clearing.

Here I lovingly release my fears about being laughed at and humbly request that you bless me and my heart's desire, to receive a scholarship in herbal medicine/herbology to a school of Oriental medicine in Toronto, Canada.

This scholarship means many things to me. For one, it would allow me to formalize the call to heal myself by actually studying healing. I've already become a Kundalini Reiki master, but I want to go on further into traditional medicine and also Munay-Ki in time. I drew the Hierophant card earlier this year which encouraged me to validate my interests in the mind-body-soul connection by actually studying one of its forms and living it.

Interestingly, but perhaps not surprisingly, my decision to study traditional medicine is also exactly what I need to embody the full range of Wiccan elemental balance in my life. As far as I know, I have all the elements covered except earth. The element of earth is represented by lore, traditional systems of wisdom, and the like. I believe traditional medicine is the perfect fit in this respect.

Also, according to Chinese Feng Shui, as a Fire dragon, I have to balance the Generating Cycle in my life by introducing the earth element as represented by traditional medicine (in my case, herbal medicine) in order to keep me from consuming myself (a dragon is of the wood element, and fire burns wood, of course, but earth evens out this cycle by nourishing the wood and dampening the fire, yay!)

Finally, my own ancestry in this life requires generational healing. My paternal grandmother was born to Chinese parents who rejected her because she was a female and their firstborn. She was raised by Filipinos instead. I am also a firstborn female, and I want to heal this rift by becoming a healer in traditional medicine, which is by rights reserved for the males along with scholarship and teaching positions, and raise the position of the firstborn female to that of an honourable daughter/child.

But of course, I am working on manifesting this in my co-creatorship as well, and releasing myself from all unconscious commitments that are staying this manifestation (many thanks, AA Uriel and our beloved brother Dinesh/EarthAngel for the reminder!). The Great Spirit has also confirmed that I should reach for this scholarship in my own Tarot and I Ching readings as well as an angel reading by godessmoe (hugs and many thanks, Moe!)

But I realize I have perhaps incarnated in this lifetime in the "third world" and in a poor family at that precisely because my life purpose is to affirm my divinity and worth no matter what my external circumstances are, and especially after being singled out as a strange little girl. I am being called to decide what kind of life I want despite what conditions exist around me. A soul purpose reading by angelicgirl/Jennifer has confirmed this, too (thank you again, dear Jennifer!).

And so, I ask you joyfully, gratefully, for your blessing on my scholarship application, dearest brothers and sisters. What I ask for myself, I also want for everyone else: that we heal and remember who we are, no matter where we are, always, and we become open to goodness in life because we are worth it.

Namaste.