PLEASE HELP ME

CAN ANYONE PLEASE SEND SOME HEALING LIGHT MY WAY? IM AFRAID IN MY OVER JELOUS  QUEST FOR MUFKAT/MANNA I STUMBLED UPON SOME ANICENT WRITINGS ABOUT HOW TO TRUELY OPEN MY 3RD EYE... I WAS TOLD THAT I NEEDED TO DISOLVE THE "DEATH" GENE SO THAT I MIGHT START NEW AND FRESH, IT SCARED ME ALITTLE BUT I SO MUCH WANTED TO BE A PERFECT VESSEL FOR MY SOURCE...

AT ANY RATE I HAVE BEEN IN BED FOR 3 SOLID DAYS AND HAVE SLEPT UN GODLY AMMOUNTS OF TIME, I ADMIT IN LOOKING BACK THIS WAS PROBABLY A STUPIED CHOICE...

ALL THESE CHANGES ARE REALLY REALLY HURTING ME, I HAVE HAD A BACK ACHE FOR 8 DAYS, BUT THE REASON IM WRITING IS 2 DAYS A GO THE PAIN WAS SO BAD THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO BE HERE I JUST WANTED TO DIE...

I AM HAVEING BRAIN PAINS AND CANT DEAL WITH THIS... ALL DAY YESTERDAY I TRIED A DRIFFERENT APPROACH...

I TOLD MYSELF THAT I LOVED MY SELF AND I REPEATED OVER AND OVER THAT MY BRAIN FEELS BETTER THAN ITS EVER FELT AND THAT ITS FUCTIONING BETTER THAN IT EVER HAS MY WHOLE LIFE....

IM GETTING VERY TIRED WRITING THIS AND I STILL HAVE ALOT OF PAINS  IN MY HEAD....

RED DRAGON MOON STAR IM SORRY I DIDNT WRITE BACK... I JUST DIDNT HAVE ANY ENERGY, BUT I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, THANK YOU FOR THE PRAYERS...

THANKYOU ALL AND GOD BLESS.... MERCY