Emotional, turbulent dreams, anyone?
Hi friends,
For the last 3 nights I have had vivid dreams that have been emotionally charged. They have to do with the 3 people that have probably caused me the most pain, and maybe the most growth.
First night I dreamt about my husband who passed away last year. I was angry with him, and I could really feel it in the dream. I'm not sure why I was angry, but I was. Maybe it was the situation, and not him I was angry at. He was sick just like he was the last few weeks before passing from cancer. I was sickened and disgusted (angry, maybe?) at the way he had to live (in my dream). I think I was at a hospital or room where he was staying, and I couldn't stand being there. I decided I had to leave (maybe done with it for good?). I don't remember anything after that.
Next night, I dreamt about my brother who passed last year. He had drug and alcohol problems, and was basically dying a little every day until he finally did. He was an angry person who could be very violent -- a walking time bomb. In my dream he was getting high with a bunch of people, and in their midst was a boy about 5-6 years old that they were giving drugs to. I got so angry at my brother -- I slapped him, knowing that I could be putting myself in danger. He held has hand up to my jaw and gave me a look that said, "I could kill you", but he didn't. The dream ended there.
Next night, it's about my father. Lately I have been standing up to my father who has always dominated all of us kids, and my mother. I have to speak my truth now, I don't care what happens. He is also a violent, walking time-bomb -- and we have always appeased him just to keep safe. In this dream I came to the realization that I don't have to do what he says, and act the way he expects me to. I stood up for myself, and it was ok. I was being controlled because I believed that was the way it had to be to survive -- but I finally realized this didn't have to be so. Then the anger came, the anger at being manipulated into thinking things were ok the way they were. They were not! It's done, and now I can see it was lies, manipulation, bullshit, but it was the way it was. The past is done, the future -- well I can say what's on my mind and I don't have to cower any longer.
Anyway, 3 strange dreams, 3 nights in a row. I think in each of them I am working out some issues, trying to resolve what's left of these relationships that still needs attention.
Is anyone else having highly charged, emotional dreams? Just wondering why all of sudden this is happening.
Thanks! Libra88



