“The Return of the Serpents of Wisdom” Mark Pinkham
Some of the descriptions I’ve arrived to in my own researches have helped me to define my reality. It is odd then when I counter with my own descriptions that I don’t hold any of them as ‘Truths.’
The truth is, I cannot substantiate my definitions – they arrived through specific experiences I have had, which in many cases I have not duplicated.
As an adult, it isn’t clear to me anymore of the things and people I remember seeing as a child. My mother would constantly remind me of things I did or said as a child that I no longer remember doing or saying. It is possible that she is confusing which child – she has three sons… But, at his juncture I can only trust in my mother’s acuity in recalling her past.
In 1997 I reconnected with a highschool friend. I had recently purchased a car and drove to a neighboring city to visit with him – it had been years since I last connected with him and in fact, he didn’t remember me when he answered the door. I had to prod him to remember who I was.
It was fun.
He invited me in, he was expecting some long time friends to visit and encouraged me to stay and hang out.
I did – and my life changed.
I had always maintained that in this world I had no ‘Soul Mate.’ I felt that I had no one with whom I would emotionally, intellectually and spiritually connect with. In all senses, I felt ALONE.
Perhaps more accurately Unique.
Today, on the way to work, a young infant in his carriage was drawn to my presence on the bus – so much so that many of the other riders noticed this child’s pull to me. I felt their collective concern… He looked at me with concern whilst his mother pulled him off the bus - even at the last moment, before he faded from the doors, his eyes were locked on me.
His friends showed up and we made our introductions… Within the first half hour – I was drawn to one of his friends. Both men were Bouncers from a local bar – they all knew each other through working at bars as bouncers. I was the smallest guy in the room – in terms of stature. And let it be noted that at the time I was around 220 lbs… The one I was talking to was their Martial Arts Instructor – and was a renowned Ju Jitsu and Self-Defence Instructor in the city – with a certain level of success and notoriety throughout Canada. He trained all the Bouncers in the city. In these circles, he was ‘the guy to Beat’ if you wanted a name – and invariably, you’d be the one heading to the hospital, and his name and reputation unscathed.
People from Toronto would travel to his bars to fight him – only to lose. He’s been shot at, knives pulled on him and bottles broken over his head… His reputation and record remained untouched… There were other benefits to this reputation – if you understand that direction of this discussion. He had a Reputation. A real Guy's guy.
This is the general picture of this man – and with all of this fame, he was still lonely and empty inside.
We were drawn to each other – an attraction that didn’t go unnoticed by the people around us. The evening grew and more people were invited to join us – and yet, like Siamese twins, we were connected at the hips.
Within the first 30 minutes of knowing each other, we were finishing each other’s sentences – we were talking telepathically and empathically with each other. We moved around the house like two World Champion Ballroom Dancers – the synergy and energy was gravitational.
We would fade away from the group of friends that were collecting at the house, standing in place on the deck out back – and two hours slipped by, neither of us so much as twitching from our places. It was like we generated our own parallel dimension and disappeared… We re-emerged at dusk ready for a night of fun. Pool, drinking, and socializing. It was a great night and one that I needed.
We knew immediately that we had known each other for lifetimes.
This was our first meeting in this life – but every aspect of our lives was familiar and unhidden to both of us. No amount of alcohol that night could match to the electricity that stimulated us – it was as if we were on fire, and inseparable. And no one could understand the attraction – two hetero males who were so attracted to each other that short of being romantic, we were lovelorn lovers.
Talk about Twin Flames… This man was mine. As the years have passed, one of many. Through this connection, I’ve learned to understand and recognize the patterns and symptoms that have connected me to my Family. There are a few more I have yet to meet – but they are being pulled towards me… It’s not a matter of if, but when.
There is a reason for this.
This only served to validate for me the visions and perceptions I have had throughout my life. Or at least cemented many of my notions.
What I’ve connected with since – understanding that we as a shared consciousness – were the first to seed this planet. My intuitive mind says there were over a Million of us that first arrived. Through investigation, I understand that we generated what is called a Stargate, but we didn’t travel through space/time to arrive here – but rather – we manifested an alternate reality and passed through that veil to harmonize with this reality and leave the old one behind.
This isn’t to say there weren’t others here – to include the Neanderthals and Cro Magnon man and others species… We brought with us a new paradigm of Knowledge that has served to create the mysteries and mysticisms of today.
Our shared memories have recalled to us Three Ice Ages – this would go back 2.5 million years. I have been a Prince and Ruler, High Priest, Shaman, Conqueror, Destroyer, Heathen. I have personally butchered, raped, tortured and burned people… I have been adamant in my beliefs that I’ve forced others to bow their heads to my faith or suffer death – because of my ignorance. I’ve been a Monk who was special council to Rulers and Governors and shaped a new Spiritual Philosophy in an emerging society.
My transformation began to coalesce when I was adopted and loved by a renown spiritual teacher who referred to me as ‘His Twin.’ My name and deeds have become renown the world over – and for lifetimes, I’ve lived with the pain of that betrayal… And the unceasing Love and Tutelage of that Spiritual Master. In more resent lives I’ve written books that have made my name synonymous with the Devil, but were treatise on how to create sustainable and successful Governments and how to recognize and overthrow Tyrants. More recently I was responsible for the destruction of an entire culture by helping the conversion of my people to a foreign Faith, because I recognized in those teaching truths that I myself valued and held in reverence – but I did not understand that the people I was trusting would betray us for our Land and Resources.
In this life, all of my experiences are teaching me how to recognize and overcome Pride and Rigidity of Faith and Belief. I’ve learned these through being shown new models of Pride and Faith and Belief.
These ideas mean nothing to me – because they do not shape the man I need to be to live the life I need to live. They create great stories that help me understand my Karma and the work I need to do to over come that Karma. At the core, Understanding remains.
In this life, I have learned that on all sides, I’ve descended from European Royalty. Though I grew up poor – my heritage is one of nobility.
What is interesting is that I am one of my own Ancestors – having created, many lifetimes ago a lineage of European Kings that were descended from the Royal Bloodline that evolved from King David.
Which is interesting to think – to connect with who I was then and who I am now – a descendent of my own bloodline. What is equally interesting is to find out that my current partner is equally from that same Bloodline… Perhaps, she and I began the bloodline from its origins and reconnected in this life to close it – a complete story.
In this life I am changing – I am moving away from the Karmic Path I have grooved for myself. The image that comes to my mind is a Gramophone Record where its grooves circle around the circumference – but unlike the Record, I feel like the persona I am today will fall off the Edge to become something other, something new…
Just as the sound that emanates from that record is invariably a part of that record, it is an invisible aspect, encoded within the succession of grooves carved into the surface of the record. These are the secrets that without the proper tools to decode them, remain hidden engraved within the surface of the record. My life is pulling me away from the record and into an invisible expression…
My future is my child… And I’m beginning to redefine my Reality and my role within it. What is difficult is trying to explain this to others – even more difficult is explaining it to the people I love – the ones I call ‘my family.’
Because this time around, I’m saying Goodbye – in the next life, I will be absent from their lives – and I hope that in this life, they will learn to let me go – I still have a lifetime ahead of me – so there is time to close those chapters.
I’m just trying to figure out how to be okay with this – but then I remember my disembodied teachers – and how they themselves removed their selves from my present – as physical beings. They remain with me Spiritually – with Love and Light. When I think of it, I know how truly blessed I really am, because I have the guiding hands of true illumined masters… Those with the ears of our Heavenly Creator…
It’s like Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon, but for me, it’s Two.
My next entry will be about my ideas of what I call Ghosts, Spirit/Soul, Aliens and so forth. What I’ve recently connect with are these Grid Lines that are covered extensively on this site. I’m not a Grid Worker – but I see a succession of Grids some are symmetrical and others are like spider webs. I hope that I will generate some discussion from some of you – as I would like to hear your ideas and experiences on some of these subjects… Know that I’m not here to preach – or correct – I’m here to learn. My initial desire for joining this site was to find a Teacher. I can only attract when I’m visible… When my natural propensity is to remain invisible, I’m unknowable. It makes for a difficult situation of creating opportunities.