Lately I feel like I've been kinda folding in on myself. It's a bit hard to explain, but it's kinda like there's
been a whole buncha my energy, or my substance, or something like that, that's been free to just come and go
as it pleased and now that energy is coming 'home to roost' or something. I've been aware that aspects of
self have become embodied, but it's kinda like they mighta left some of their energy behind. Maybe cause
I simply wasn't ready to hold it all. Now though, it feels like all the bits and parts of me are folding
inward. Kinda weird huh? I mean we are supposed to be UNfolding, NOT folding inward. What's up with this?
Until now everything has felt like expansion. Everything was reaching outward. Even though we were fully
focused on doing our inner work, our imaginations/minds/spirits still roamed the cosmos at will. Like
little info gatherers maybe. Now it seems that particular stage of the game has finished and everyone is
bringing what they've gathered home for final review or something. I get this mental picture of throwing
out my 'net' and now I'm reeling my net in to see what I've 'caught'. Probably just another level of
introspection, but I gotta say, it's taken me by surprise. I kinda liked the idea that I was ever present
everywhere. Well, I spose I still am...still haven't worked out what this is all about.
It's kinda like I went around most of my life being, or at least feeling, small and separate. Then, as
the years went on and I expanded my consciousness I got bigger...heck, I got universal. Now it seems
that things are working the other way around. Instead of being out there seeking, everything is being
put on the 'inner table' for me to work through. Frankly I quite enjoy dimension dancing. I'm not sure
how I feel about experiencing smallness again.
Probably this isn't about smallness in the first place. Hard for me to imagine Universe would have us
reach such expanded consciousness just to 'take it away' again, just doesn't work that way. The word
singularity just hopped into my head. Is that what this is about? Are we meant to, at some point in
this ascension adventure, wake up to the fact that WE are a singularity? Dunno, gonna have to let that
idea brew for awhile.
Hey, I just had another thought, maybe this isn't about folding IN at all. Maybe it's about ENfolding.
I gotta say, that idea feels a whole lot better. And, unusually for me, it makes perfect sense doesn't
it? I mean if all these aspects of self have become embodied, and brought all their energy in with
them, well ENfolding would be called for wouldn't it?
Not folding in...enfolding. No wonder I keep on writing these blogs. I get so much outta talking to myself
over a keyboard.
afterword: Hey I just had a thought, I wonder if this change in my 'folding direction' has anything
to do with that great big green heart space light thing that happened yesterday.