Hey dearest Lighty friends,
Woke up at 3:33am AGAIN - surprise surprise!!! I'm having trouble returning to bed, so I thought I would share some of my pre dawn ponderings, just to fill in some time between now and day break. This is a strange part of the day, don't you think??? It's soooo quiet and still and very dark (always darkest before the dawn) - well it's true. Right now - it's like I'm literally existing between here and nowhere, not exactly tomorrow and not exactly yesterday. That inbetween time. It's actually a very peaceful place to be. The world is fast asleep and you feel you are entirely alone, with just yourself to keep you company. O - and of course my kitty katz, who are extremely active and playing a game of 'chasy' up and down my stairs - no wonder cats are most active during this time of the day. Being primarily nocturnal creatures, they can get up to all sorts of mischief and achieve so much, without any interuption from the daylight inhabitants.
So here I am - alone with my thoughts. During these sacred hours, I've had the opportunity to reflect on so many things. Like - we are just over the half way mark to the 21st December 2012. Over the speed bump. It's all down hill from here. I wonder what this particular date will eventually reveal? Maybe it will be a non event, it will pass like any other day, I really don't anticipate a 'dooms day' scenario by any means. I like to think it more like an apex, a turning point regarding the mass spiritual awakening of human consciousness. A certain time, that will usher in a new dawn, where humanity will find it's voice and fortitude to reclaim our self sovereignty and become fully interdependent and empowered.
Also, this has been a blessed time, an opportunity to reassess all my earthly bounties lol. Yes - lots of things I can be grateful for. Sometimes, this place (earth) can be such a difficult and hostile environment to survive in but nevertheless, I still love it with all my heart, I really can't think of any other place I would rather be at this point and time, than right here, right now. This planet is such a rare, beautiful and precious jewel, like the deepest sapphire, set within a crown of a gazillion diamonds. It really has become my home away from home.
I'm so fortunate that I have my family, whom I love and I know who love me in return. Despite all our little idiosynchracies and melodramatic dysfunctional episodes. We are always there for each other, through thick n thin and sick n sin lol. I'm thankful that I have quite a few good and very dear close friends, that I feel safe in sharing and divulging my deepest thoughts and emotions and vice/versa. We unconditonally accept each other and take each other as we come - warts n all lol. I'm so lucky to live in a prosperous and amazing multicultural country, it's not exactly perfect but by comparison to other countries and continents on this earth, it is by far one of the best places to reside. I'm also grateful for the small things, considering I have food in my belly, clothes on my back, shoes on my feet, a warm bed to sleep in every night and a roof over my head and just enough money to get by on. There are so many in this world who do not have these basic essentials. I really consider all this as just an accident of birth, that I was born into such a priviledged community. I could have also been, just as easily incarnated in a third world country, with little of the basic necessities of life, like electricity and hot running water. An over abundance of food, how many of us don't think twice when we run down to the supermarket or convenience store for a bottle of milk, or a loaf of bread when we have run out. These simple things, many of us just take for granted.
Money has never been a primary concern of mine, I either have it, or I don't. Actually, I have found that the times that I haven't been financially abundant, have been the happiest and the most rewarding times of my life. I have learnt how resilient and innovative I can be, if I have to. To just merely survive, is a major achievement in itself. Regardless of the lack of monetary funds at pivotal periods in my life, I'm still here. I just take it as it comes and goes heehee. I have always been provided for by Universe, Universe has always taken care of me and I have faith that it will continue to do so.
Overall, I guess I'm beginning to feel like I have accomplished something, I have a beautiful and remarkable daughter, who has an outstanding compassionate and caring nature. She is happy, healthy and contributing to society, in an attempt to make this world a better place. What more can I possibly ask for? I'm feeling a certain serenity wash over me, a contentment. I believe I'm finally finding some peace in all this chaos and flux. The Simple Things In Life Are Often The BEST. So a big K.I.S.S (Keep It Simple Stupid) to you all,
In the famous words of that iconic Aussie larrikin - Darryl Kerrigan from the movie 'The Castle' - 'We're all going to Bonnie Doon' and 'How's the serenity' lol.
Much love and happiness to you all