Yesterday I blogged about this stillness inside me, sorta like a barrier or a seal or something. Whatever
it is, it's become my elephant in the room. I am not at all sure what to do with or about this stillness,
but I have been cautiously tiptoeing around the edges of it a bit. My mind has started to build a 'symbol
picture' of the 'elephant'. I have absolutely NO IDEA where my brain comes up with its symbols and pictures,
I just get what I get.
This stillness has a sorta path in it, it's like a tunnel, or hallway or something. It isn't dark, what it
looks like to my brain is a whole series of those Chinese folding paper lanterns or something similar forming
this tunnel or hallway. It's not dark inside cause the 'walls' of the thing are translucent and light comes
in. It's big...well, it actually doesn't look big, but it's big enough to walk into or through when you
get right up to it.
It's a funny kinda space. It feels like I oughtta just take a stroll down the path and see what's at
the end. At first I didn't go into it because it was new and strange and I had no idea what it was all about.
I still have no idea what it's about, but I decided to explore it a bit anyway. For some reason I haven't
been able to do that. At first I thought it was just me, being cautious, but when I TRIED to go into that
space I found it way more difficult than I expected. I can 'see' myself standing at the 'entrance' looking
into it, but can't actually move forward into it. Nor could I see anything inside there.
One thing DID change though. The choice business I was experiencing yesterday seems to have been resolved.
I dunno if it was deciding to go into the tunnel that made that choice or what happened, but that whole
choice business is finished, and I've made my choice. Have no idea whatsoever WHAT I've chosen, but there
ya go. Seems this stillness tunnel has taken up permanent residence with the rest of me, and I guess it's
up to me to figure it out.
Maybe this stillness tunnel doesn't actually require exploration at this time. Maybe all I needed to do
was acknowledge its arrival and presence. Maybe it's not for now, but something I will require down
the track a bit. Hey! You don't spose Universe is 'installing' the exit tunnels in folks now do ya?
I mean those portals outta here that some folks have said would open up for us. Whole lotta folks have been
talking about a New Earth and such, maybe what we are receiving now is our portals to the higher D
expression of our planet. Under construction perhaps. That's why I can't go in there, it's simply not
the right time yet.
OH PLUEEZE don't leave something in there I'm not sposed to participate in yet. I'm way too nosy too
just leave something sitting there without checking it out. Probably why I couldn't walk into it...
Universe understands my natural nosiness and 'blocked' the entrance until the time is right. I dunno.
There is SO MUCH I don't know.
So now what? Who could know? I've got this paper lantern tunnel as my most recently obtained asset.
I gotta assume it's an asset, it certainly doesn't feel threatening or frightening in any way. Mostly
I'm just curious about it. Maybe it's something new added to our holograph...the holograph of this
3D game we've been playing so long. Universe is getting ready for the 'next big thing' and is busily
installing these portals in all of us...or at least those of us who have made the decision to remain
with the planet, come what may.
I really, really, really, want this 3D game to be over. At the same time, I wanna be here to see how
it all plays out. I guess that means I'm not ready to portal on outta here just yet. Long ago I made
my pact with Mother Earth...to go the distance with her...see where we end up.
Of course, there's always the possibility that my 3D brain is thinking one way and my authentic self
has totally different ideas about where we are going and what we are gonna experience. Spose time will
tell. Usually works that way doesn't it? I mean we get 'gifted' with these weird thoughts and ideas
and for awhile all we can do is muddle around in them. Then, one day, usually when you're least expecting
it ya, get an AH HA! and everything be comes easily understandable.
Ya know, sometimes I feel so connected to everything I know without a shadow of doubt that I AM limitless.
Other times, like now, all I can do is stand back and watch myself struggling to make sense of this world.
GEEZE I'm tired of duality.