Please forgive my blog hogging. What can I say? I've got blog backlog in there that's been hanging out
to get typed up. This particular blog is about a recent experience that kinda has me puzzled. Well,
erase the kinda, I'm VERY puzzled by how this all happened, and why.
Now I've mentioned the observer a few times. Now and then I get kinda confused about who the observer
actually is. Always sorta thought the observer was a higher D aspect of me. The 'handler' sorta. The
connection between my material self and my non-material selves. Always had the impression that the
observer was 'standing outside' watching. Guess that's who I thought I was 'talking to' when I addressed
my higher self(s). Then awhile ago, I can't keep track of time these days, but kinda recently, I sensed
that I could 'shift' the observer's perspective into the INside of me. Get the observer to participate
in whatever was going on in my head/heart. If I consciously PUT the observer on the inside I could 'see
through' the observer's eyes. I played around with that idea for awhile, then I sorta forgot about it.
Long attention spans have never been my particular forte.
So, outta the blue, in meditation the other night, the observer switched itself. Surprised the heck outta
me. All of a sudden the observer was IN me, participating. Strange feeling to have that happen all by
itself when it was such a tricky procedure when I was trying to do it. Anyway, I got this overwhelming
feeling of joy and wonder, it just came up like a tidal wave and swept over me. It was amazement actually.
And it didn't come from 3D mind/brain. It came from somewhere else...like from the outside in. I am fully
present in the physical body was what kept ringing through my mind. That has happened before. That feeling
of pure wonder and astonishment to find myself in a physical body...but this time it was WAAAY bigger and
So I just got with those feelings and went where they led me. I dunno what it was exactly. It felt like
a brand new aspect of self had 'arrived' in the material form and was totally gobsmacked finding itself
there. I have absolutely no idea what aspects of self might have become embodied. I mean I dunno what D
those selfs 'represented'. Kinda have the idea though that I mighta reached into 'new territory'. It
feels like what's been 'added' is a self that has never experienced materiality or something. It's having
a grand time in there. All of a sudden beautiful is even more beautiful, magic is more magical, it's like
somebody came in while I was sleeping and turned the Earthlight up a coupla notches or something. There's
just MORE to everything. This is something I've experienced briefly a time or two, but this time it's just
stayed that way. A large dose of magic seems to be 'accessible' right now or something. I'm not sure the
whole idea of 'getting a new self' is exactly right, but that's kinda what it feels like. Like a fresh,
clean, blank slate sorta self has arrived, and it only sees the magic and wonder.
Dunno if it's gonna stay this way, or if I will 'revert back' to my regular limited human self. One way
or the other, I'm gonna play it for all it's worth while I can. I just love magic and wonder so I'm gonna
spend my day immersing myself in it.