I had a rough one over Christmas and the “void between the years”. Time always has a special meaning and a strange dimension for me when a year leaves. But that is nothing exceptional I suppose… This year however, I crawled into a “rabbit hole” that left me quite depressed for some days and I asked myself over and over again: did I do enough in 2007 – why do I feel so meaningless, so useless…? I kept doing the things we “usually” do at Christmas: see relatives and friends, have more rest than usual, talk to people… and read a lot… I am currently reading Daniel Pinchbeck’s “2012 – The Return of Quetzalcoatl” … an amazing and very inspiring read. It was this book that created the rabbit hole, dimensions that strapped away the ground underneath my feet and in the end restored it to me. You should always be “earthed” everybody including me says… and I wasn’t. Reality became fuzzy and everything seemed strange, multilayered and intangible. I really lost ground and slowly day by day now, get it back… What happend as I realize now is that I got trapped in the collective subconscious “time-nightmare” of our generation.
This is how Pinchbeck’s book got me back to an acceptable way of looking at TIME - that strange “phenomenon” I decided to let die as a fake and illusionary concept some 15 years ago. Pinchbeck puts together an interesting aspect of “time” that I had not thought about so far, connecting it to the current situation on our planet that we drove ourselves in. Adopting and elaborating thoughts of Jean Gebser, Pinchbeck claims that through the centuries when awareness of the human being started to emerge and evolve, we more and more tried to manage and overcome time by mechanizing it, by creating machines and processes that shrink and excellerate time. Instead of investing into time, we tried to subdue it by rationalizing it. And this of course did not work! Why not? What we did not realize by chopping up time and rationalizing it was that silently, time slaved us instead and addicted us to an ever faster way of living. We see this through all the desperate efforts in measuring time more and more accurately, in our sports, where we strive to be faster and faster, breaking our own records every year. We see this in the microprocessors of our computers which double their velocity in ever reduced spans of “time”. Our society forces so many of us to run against time every day by increasing efficiency of our work with the help of our mechanistic environment. Where does this lead to?
And here is the aspect of “time” that I never thought of: After centuries of “right wing party – right brain thinking” the new “left-wing movement” of the late 1960ies promised a change that very quickly turned out illusionary and inconcrete. Although this movement tried to take up psychadelic and esotheric aspects of freedom into their political programs, it failed. The necessary “threshold” of a new mindset of real freedom had not been reached yet and so, the basically progressive thoughts of that generation could not be included in our collective subconsciousness or as I say, into the Akasha Chronicles. It wasn’t coincidence therefore, that many “hippies” of the ’68 movement became bankers and brokers getting trapped by the uncontrolled motorization of the late 70ies and 80ies, the decades that more than any before lost themselves in a consumistic attitude of a “fast-food and waste producing generation” striving for ever excellerated communication means that culminated in our cell phone and e-mail age of today. We still haven’t gained back our “left-brain half” in our collective minds. We are progressing on it though and this we see in our own light workers community which is growing by itself every day. What the world will have to learn in the upcoming years – as part of our ascension process, is very much linked to our understanding of time…
Time as understood in a holistic way consists of many dimensions (not only the forth ;-) Mr Einstein!). It comprises a spectrum of intensities and qualities the Greek called “Chronos” (measurable time) and “Kyros” (quality time) – the Maya used in parallel 2 different calendars for that very reason! Time is composed of all this: cosmic, biological, historical and creative time, the non-time of the photon as well as the uncertainity time of quantum physics – and possibly even more. Minutes & hours – the time on our watches, nature time, cosmic time or the star-time; time is biological duration, rhythm, metrics; it is mutation, discontinuity, relativity; it is vital dynamcs and psychic energy, it is mental subdivision: it expresses itself as a one-ness of past, present and future, as creative energy, as mental imagination, as work, as movement… As long as people believe we can subdue forces such as time by pressing them into systems, these forces will simply break those systems! The development of our new consciousness, our upcoming transformation will need a much more profound knowledge of “time”, a more conscious integration of the numerous forms that time unfolds. We will need to accept a simultaneous existence of all that IS instead of being trapped in a linear and space-bound time concept as a result of our mental-rational thinking behaviour. As we know we are at the end of the Kali Yuga time (Buddhist & Hindu count) or the “long calendar count, TUN” of the Mayas – ending by December 2012.
What will save mankind from the mechanistic world is our awakening, is our overcoming of time and our re-union with the source, the origin of a non-causal, non dualistic reality. Through our ascended consciousness where we will have gained “independence-of-time”, we will not be vulnerable any longer to the obligation of our Gregorian calendar which “occupies” and slaves illusionary years with activities, appointments and “free-time” forcing us into a scheme of obligations that leaves us like it left me at the end of 2007 – with the guilt feeling of “not-having-done-enough”. To close the circle, a timeless mind expressed in another but inclusive concept, will replace fear with LOVE.
Supreme honesty creates resonance (taoistic saying).
Happy New Year :-)
if time were an ocean I would dive into it
and write into the waves
the story of a life
with my moving body
and it could be read only for a wave-long moment
And my story would not leave traces
but be carried away in transparency
secretly hoping for the ocean
to keep my memory
(Excerpt of my poem-book somewhen back in 1995)