Reflecting Mirrors and Peeling Onions

I feel like I stand in a circle of people, all changing at the same time, yet each person is holding a small mirror in their hands, and what I see are the reflections of myself changing, and it is so confusing. They didn't used to be that way, why are they behaving like that? Because it is all illusion and it is not them, it is me.
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My onion is peeling away, layer by layer, and the bigger layers are now being exposed. They come off easily enough, but I am afraid. I feel naked, afraid, and angry. Afraid that, like an onion, if I keep peeling, there will be nothing left of me. I feel so many emotions coming to the surface, rippling through my life, being mirrored back to me by my mate and my friends. The victim, the bear with a sore paw, the unloved child, the insensitive clown, the wounded warrior, the insecure egotist, the escapist, they are all being shown to me, to be peeled away by me.
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But I am afraid. I don't need to change right now, I am very comfortable in my discomfort. I have been this way so long, I cannot remember how to be other. Can't I just stop here? It is too hard. I can't. Won't somebody do the rest for me? No, I know that I must keep peeling away. Peeling away, exposing the layers, because the onion is the illusion, not the truth, but a construct of my "reality". The onion keeps me from seeing the truth of myself, which will be visible once the final layer has been peeled away. But I am afraid. So afraid, that I cannot take my eyes off the onion that is rapidly disappearing before me. What if? What if when I step back, there is nothing left??? So afraid. What if, just for a moment, I stood back and took a look to see what else is here that I have not noticed before?
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I see someone, who has much courage, inner strength, and power. I see someone who cares deeply for others with love and compassion. I see someone who has the power to be anything they choose. I see the joyful inner child that loves to come out and play. I see the loving parent, who has learned to care for and nuture the children in their care. I see the team player that works so well with others. I see the person who is not afraid to give their heart and express their affection every day, in every way. I see the healer that helps to heal the self and others, so well. I see the creative artist, writer, dancer, musician, and inventor. These too, are all reflected back to me in the mirrors, and give me the courage to continue on my path, peeling off the layers of my onion. For in truth, when all the layers are exposed, all that I see will be these and so much more. Each layer exposes a new way of looking at the part that is being exposed. It is not peeling away, just being shown in truth and love for what it is, and the most beneficial and powerful way to use what I have within, that I have hidden away in my onion.
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When I think of all this, I feel blessed. It has been such a long walk, but I can make it. I have everything I need inside, and even a cherry on top, I have you, my friends, my mirrors. I love you all. :)
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Love and Peace,
Erin