Stepping through the gate, into divine love.

Please let me share with the community how today I have come to understand the purest love I have ever felt.

My dear soulmate who I shall refer to as M is one that I love. She has shown me what pure divine love is. I have felt a deep connection with her since our very first meeting and yet I was not able to share with her my love for many months. It is because she loved another. I decided that I didn't have to not love her simply because I felt she couldn't return it to me. At first it left me feeling frustrated and heartbroken but I decided to love her without condition or expectation. As time moved forward I loved her more and more deeply until one day I risked everything I told her how much love i had for her. She told me she loved me too and yet I had expectations, but wanted her to be happy in the love that she found.

M went through a powerful healing process in which she was left with only one condition from one of her soulmates, L. Love me entirely without condition even knowing I can never love you. And she did. She still loved her soulmate. She left herself completely exposed and fragile and vulnerable to have her heart broken to dust. When she came out she knew what it was to love and knew that her heart could never be broken again, because at that moment she loved herself. She loved herself.

I too went through this with M. I bared my soul and heart to her in one last attempt to make her understand to what degree I loved her. To show her with all my passion and love and light and I knew I would face losing her because nobody wants that much focus but I would not compromise not one feeling of love for her. She told me to never compromise myself and to always be completely honest to myself.

Then I was told by her dearest teacher and healer that my love was full of suffering and grasping and it didn't mean anything. So I once more bared everything and told her what her teacher said about my feelings and at that point I knew I would be destroyed entirely by her rejection. I felt I had been crushed by a huge cold tidal wave of fear and destruction.

This is what M said to me:

Baby I am not the "one" and there is no such thing anyway.

I am even more special. I am the last "one" you have to "lose" because you can only
ride the wave alone.

We both feel how much we love each other when we hold hands, kiss and make love.

We will be together after the wave and we will meet the "one" too, and the other "ones"

I don't love you the same way I love L. but I love you just as much.

I would go to the end of infinity for you

and I am with you always

and after the wave, love.

And before she wrote that too me I was channeled something that gave me hope. If I was too be destroyed by my great wave of pain, then the best course of
action would to become a little seahorse. They can survive under water and are so lovely and beautiful. So today I am a little seahorse and if you want even more meaning
to all of this just listen to this song.Seahorse by Devendra Banhart. She dedicated it to us 5 days before my rebirth into divine love. May you know how deep and pure love can be.

Namaste