Why?

As I sit here and thank God for my life exactly as it is, I can't help but feel slightly lonely and at unrest. Really not sure why. Like waiting for something to happen and getting frustrated over the fact that it has not. My angel guides have told me there will be a lot of endings and God is giving me the strength to accept these endings, but of course, ego comes in and I wonder why the people I care about leave. I know, ego again. I keep visualizing the tieing of silver bows, but it is not much comfort. Does any one else ever feel this way? I wonder. Looking for that elusive unconditional love that never seems to come from anywhere but myself. May God wrap everyone I know and Love in his white light. People I know now and people I have yet to meet.