It's voice is still heard

She is like a diamond that emanates and abolishes the sludge of worries within life. Again, I felt the lie trying to demand that I am not worthy of something so vast in my life. The ego strikes again, trying to do what it does best. I know it is not a part of the truth; it is not a part of the truth that I live for and it is not a part of the truth that I am but it still has a voice within me. I want to tell her that I am in love, I want to show her that a happiness that was never felt is on its way of being, I want to bellow it to all, I want to just let her know but then I hear it (ego) telling me it’s not worth it. I hear it and as it talks, its voice muddles out all of what is just which is also located within. Its voice is heard and it can’t be ignored. I feel as if I was put on this earth for a purpose. I feel I have the gift of the Mirror of Truth; I can show people a truth about themselves, a truth that a massive amount doesn’t even know they possess. I can show people that God really does live in them. The universe lives in them, the power and strength that erected this very world which we live on lives within. What I have within me is this great gift. I have been sharing and I have been spreading it to all but as I do so some where along the lines I lost something. I lost that something that I thought I never would in the first place find. She came into my life and I started to see. The same happiness that I share with others can also be in my life. She was my Mirror of Truth and I feel that I need. I thought at a time that it was selfish of me to think of me. I thought at a time that I would rather have everyone else feel that joy that someone like her would bring. It is when I have my communion with the greatness that conceived us all I realize. I felt a strength gathering and I feel that the time is near. The time is very near and it will be as it may. It will be as it always was, the truth will be heard, the Mirror will shine and it will be good. I felt that I have the greatness within; God is my heavenly father and divine mother all at once. I will do what a greatness is felt. I will feel him and his essence will radiate from within to without. I will realize and recognize him and I will do what I must. I am in love, like I never have been. I feel alone within myself, my situation is one that is as if all of the false problematic aspects are mine. I will face the deception I will face the charade. I will destroy the ego and self conscience, which have lied to me long enough. I will reveal myself like I never have before and when I am done, it will be. What I visualize will be and I will have as it would have me have. I will just let go and let God, as it may.