Random Blogging

I know I need help...but i dont know how.....whats the matter....I dont think there's anything wrong...but wait....Isent that what they all say...

Ok random blogging since i felt there was some reason to write a blog.

I feel so weird..I feel fantastic but theres somthing wrong i keep getting.
I think im fine...but maybe my guides are trying to tell me im more worthy of what the universe has to offer. I dont know.
My dog is not in his best health. So please send your thoughts prayers and energy to for a healing. Yet i just now rememberd...arent animals mirrors of yourselfs? I have been neglectiong him a bit....have I been neglecting my self?
Anyway Im told I need to talk to someone...but i dont know about what..im fine...yet somthings telling me i have to talk to someone. I dont know who...I think i am fine...I do feel i have been slowed and blocked in many areas due to
numerous happings...

Can somone send some love to my dog? He has bad skin due to over chewing and no worries we have flea medication for him now...but its realy bad...dont ask how we let it get this way..i feel guilty enough...
I think i been swallowing emotions....to look like a perfect house wife(robotic)... i cant find whats wrong...
maybe thats it..
Also
People are also ruthless and care only for self gratification....
So much to where...they'd suck a person dry of there light just to get somthing.
Why are we selfish?
Is it because we gave up and are tired to try anymore? so we just take?
I tottally understand that.
But as I have broken that train of thought and gave unconditionally as I tried to merge with the past.
I feel fine...maybe....does not know were to go? now...
A person here on lwk asked
Do you feel lonley...I get lonely.
then
And i answerd in complete honesty No
I was going to explain more but i got off topic.
but i dont...
but maybe i dont no how it is to be not lonley for i have bet solitare for quite a while..
but i have felt that way...alot..it was like a craving for love and care....Laurance said in his blog that parents pushed away there child problems and pretend like the were no big deal because they could not handle them....man what a genius...he hit the nail on the head with that one...

But I have come to accept it...that maybe i should just give love like i have before...but guides are saying....no....theres somthing wrong with this....you dont deserve it...
but im fine i mean its not the worst thing in the world......well people have there opinions....

I feel so weird like i have major chakra blockages because of the transpirings of a few days. but i feel fanstastic i mean im fine....but i cant feel...thats the word....feel deeply as i used too...
somthings just realy get me down because i have gave up on the 16 year old battle. this is just not me being a teen ager....its me being a human being....everyone goes threw things like these so please dont bring up the fact that im a teenager and so everything sucks because that is sooo not true....

What do I do????
hmmm....