There Will Be No Peace Without Healing - A Reflection

I have moved toward the essence of my music which is to lift life to a place above the mire of wounds and pain that mortality brings; and there bring soothing and healing. I am gathering from the library of my music to create "Healing," "Consoling," and "Soothing" cds; and distribute them to hospitals, hospices, treatment centers, etc.
I believe my music "was born" when, as a youth, I personally needed the lifting up it provides. This week I found that I, once again, turned to the keyboard to help lift me as a inner wound welled within me. From this, a new piece of music has emerged, "Help Me Through the Night." The inner wound that welled up is probably my deepest inner wound – one that came as new born infant.
I have been healing that wound for over two decades. I am discovering that some deep inner wounds require decades of healing. Each decade of growth in maturity, wisdom, and strength of self Love, is needed. What I have most learned in these past weeks is that other deep wounds I thought healed may re-emerge – not because I did a poor job, but that the "healing dosage" requires two to three decades. A deep peace has come with the emerging deep healing. And, in this peace comes the "insight" that allows me to see that in this world there will be no peace without healing the tremendous number of wounds that exist. The following reflection is what has come so far:
"There can be no peace without healing. There can be no healing without openness. There can be no openness without faith. And, even with faith, there is no avoiding the "dark night of the self and soul" – those times when NOTHING consoles, all seems lost, and if tears can come, they come in sobs. Here is a little more about each of the parts of this reflection:

PEACE: When all the senses can be open without fear. When there is nothing that has to be hid. When self and SELF are in simple union.

And HEALING is not recovering what was lost as much as being able to go on with new being. It is the new being, in whatever form, that gives peace. In my lifetime, I have healed so many inner and outer wounds. But with this deepest pain I all too often unconsciously tried to look to others to comfort the pain rather than take on the work of healing. I have buried myself to try to avoid the pain. I have lived so carefully so that the threshold of fatigue might not IGNITE the pain. I have tried to change the look of the pain to myself and others. I have tried to drown myself in relationships that I thought would assuage the pain. I thought that just about anyone could take it away. I have healed a little bit each time. I have lost ground many times. Obviously this has been a wound needing a lifetime. Healing of certain wounds can be a life long process, in which the sooner we take it on, the less time it takes for the healing.

OPENNESS is so tough. The body naturally curls up if left un-stretched by opposing muscles. Pain can buckle us into "fetal positions." How many people can relate to the image of someone saying: "Don’t touch me, it hurts too much." But healers often have to touch that pain to know what it is that needs tending.

FAITH is crucial to really open. A faith that is a will, as Love is Will. What is so crucial to remember is that Faith cannot spare us, only help us endure the worst of the suffering. I believe the greatest artistic flourishes have come at those times when in that great agony that is endured with Love; exquisite expressions of that Love have been poured out. We all have to endure the dark night of the self, from which faith provides the endurance to get through to insight. Openness gives acceptance to the insight. And healing comes in following the insight. And that path leads to peace.