kundalini

So Ive had all this crazy shit happeneing to me and it kind of culminated the other night. I had decided not to eat that day, not even sure why but I did. It was about 11:00. I was going through this little emotional thing were I realized that I felt like I didnt deserve love. Then I realized I did deserve love. Apparantly this was the extra little pressure needed to pop the cork so to speak. The kundalini energy lying dormant in my spine began to rise. I thought this had happened before because of the symptoms I have been experiencing, on this night though, there was no doubt. It crissed crossed and weeved up my spine. I sat in a meditative position to help facilitate as much as I could. When it hit my head it was incredibley intense. My teeth started to vibrate and I couldnt move my neck. It literally felt like my head was plugged into a socket. The energy moved very well at first but then it hit the knot below my heart center. This is one of three knots within the channels. I meditated and fasted for three days straight and just today was able to finally get it to move past it. The whole experience is actually very uncomfortable, until it bursts from the crown chakra ( which made me loose conciousnes for a moment ). One of the fascinating things about this to me is the way it coincides with my earlier troubles of loosing conciousness and collapsing. There is a knot in the middle of your head that, at least from what I read, has to be removed by a guru. It involves surrender and makes you loose conciousness. Within the first minutes of the awakening when the energy went through my head it passed directly through the area where the knot use to be. Apparantly some kind light creature, God, my master or somebody wonderful had deemed it neccessary to remove mine Christmas night. Tahnks God. Good luck with yours when/if it happens to you.