Beautiful Depression (A collage of words)

I see the transformation I had undergone
thought it hasn’t been long till im back on that bong

Beautiful Depression

Its breathing me in.
I can feel it.
Hey, there your parents are gone
ooo lets go in there room, smoke, inhale your inner peace
dont worry noting is going to happen

make sure you have that visine and mouth mints
It’s a emotional under currant that leads this naked rebel to inner peace and outer destruction

hmm what do I want…
hmm….
hmmmmm…………………..
im still here
I think I miss my old life
of concerts and hanging out with the guys and my brother
I miss …jeez what happen to me
why
……….have
……………..I
………………..let
……………………myself
…………………………….go

I want to jump and push and dance to my old music
I want to play this beautiful instrument again called a bass

where’s my old grunge clothes
where’s my emotion when I listen to gods voice threw a 18 year old boy
where did jon go
what ever happen to trevors hugs

oh god
I fall to you now
where did my writing go
I look
but
what happen
and you tell me
its okay…it can be kept a secret

im coming into mission okay
gotcha
so why not let me go to even one tiny concert?
I mean
god
come on
because its not ur time for your soul to be experincing a concert u say? ok I gotcha
well lets start here god…goddamnit me on you on top of the world ur soul whats to experience Amanda
lets do it hand in hand my thoughts are your thoughts my hands are your hands

Music is even more filled with bliss

Since I hear god. a whole aspect of s/he in a band
there words
are gods

: )
as the vampire bites
I looked blessed in the mirror
at the beautiful depression I was once in
juicy details
……………..addictive
sweet
fun
the most amazing thing that ever transpired for this soul called Amanda
the physical

this is just amazing

life