Wow the energy is rough what is happening...again! Tired of constant emotional withdrawals..or is it more like deposits? coming from some storehouse and being deposited in my immediate reality to be disposed of. The disposal is quite hard, today anyway. Every time, it is hard but today is very rough. Feel like the world is caving in. Reading news stories about our collective downfall, misery and difficulties especially with regards to basic needs and money. Seems most of the civilized world is on a fast track to poverty and hardship, even as the rich get richer and have so much of the good life that the remainder who do not have the wherewithal to enter these leagues of privilege are seeing an escalation of more poverty. As if the bright future we believed in has come round and shown us that on the other side it is merely another illusion. Maybe there is the answer my befuddled mind and shaky emotional body are seeking; that the looming wave of world poverty is only another illusion. We will all together transmute it and become whole and free together. We must...it is horrific to think of the consequences of our present worldwide path. I think the real enemy is the daily grind of survival, the way we subject ourselves and accept, although with serious complaints, the rulings our governments impose even as the rulers make certain they themselves are looked after. We, the people are never first in line, at least not on an equal basis. This really must be a major force in ascension...aren't we globally slated to accomplish the radical change in consciousness we need to reinvent our means of living, soon as in by 2012 or something? In any case, we are on some quest to change the workings of our human drama and Today on this shaky, rattling day of the Spring new Moon I am reaching out for hope in the dark spiral of emotions I find myself in. Usually I confine these to my own existence but today for some reason I feel all of humanity is tied up and is suffering along with me. Hope is for the hopeless...let me remember to not depend on hope but on the love and support of the Higher Self, of the Universe which knows exactly why and how we are moving ahead.