Under a Scorpio Moon. TIME FOR CHANGE!

Well what can I say. It has been some time since I posted a Blog on Lightworkers, but this new energy and motivation coursing through my veins is a coming like a breath of fresh air.

On Monday 21st, Scorpio Full moon. I sat, hands on keyboard at the ready to do my work. And nothing happened. What was going on. No motivation, no interest, nothing. I just felt energetically terrible. A range of thoughts racing through my mind, I felt confused and scared, I felt depressed. Its been a long time since I can recall these feelings. And totally out of the blue, it hit me. I jump on the email. I get an message form a prospective analysis about a promotional program for lightworkers. I am informed we are not even cached in google. I check. Lightworkers.org used to be #1 on the search term for Lightworkers. Now were gone. Off the lists completely. I spend the day trying to work out what happened. I find a number of things going wrong with he site. Perfect timing, since we have a server upgrade in progress. But still this blow only adds to my feelings of feeling as low as a snails trail.

Maybe it was because in the week previous, my grandfather had past, could I be suffering a delayed mourning. Maybe combined with the fact that my Wifes Grandmother passed away that same week. Was it a combination of sorrowful energies? Strange though. Funerals never make me sad in that way. I miss the person as a physical being, but I know they are always accessible.

So WHATS GOING ON? I couldn't handle it and more. I paced around the house. I was alone. I had time to think. I tried to calm my self and meditate. I couldn't. I began to get frustrated and angry. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME? I demanded. What am I trying to tell myself?

I felt an distant inner prompt to go for a walk. It was a nice day outside, so why not. I step outside the door, look up in the bright blue sky and I see it is split in two by a great big line of cloud across the sky directly over my house. The chemtrail had spread out so it would have to have been at least 30 minutes old. "Ok" I thought. This is starting to make sense.

As the day wore on, the energies still felt like a heavy weight upon my shoulders. I went into the yard and gave my Chem buster a kick. "Common you, get back to work. You haven't let this happen before." Maybe it needs a tune up, clean out. Ill put that on the todo list for later, I still wasn't motivated to do anything. So I just moped around for the day. Reflecting.

Meal time came around, and I couldn't bear the thought of eating a heavy meal. Definitely no meat. I couldn't bear the thought of being any heavier than I did now. I sat outside in the evening and watched the the full moon rise in the constellation of scorpion. "Oh great." I thought, how did I not expect that too!!

Something strange was afoot at the "circle K". I spent the day in contemplation. ANd the next day. I did the minimal work I had to, but still entertained some usual ideas and kept my toe in the world of maya as I consciously rode the cosmic winds, fishing for a clue.

Something has changed. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes, I restated my intent, re-evaluated my purpose and mission for being here, in this time. "Show me the way!" I demanded. Did I get an answer?

21 Days to change they say. 21 days for the transformation form one state of being to the next. 21 days to break a habit and 21 days to create a new habit. I went to bed, feeling not so chuffed! I drifted off to sleep invoking my guides and all the help I could get.

5am. Tues. No alarm goes off, I dont sleep with an alarm. I usualy am a late riser and late going to bed kind of person. Can't sleep. Will this end? I get out of bed. and start my day Early. Still not motivated. So I spend the day reading some light books and focuss on the kids. Starting to feel better. Still cant eat meat. I make a Vegan dinner. Sleep comes easily. I dift off. Strange dreams, strange visions. Too much to explain now.

5am. Wed. Again wake up early. This is very unusual. I have been a late sleeper ALL this life! ;) UP I get. I decide to do some sleep reasearch on the web. I spend the day looking at all manner of information on sleep patterns. This is unusual. But I feel quite good! No meat. Cant stand the thought of eating it. I have light meals throughout the day.

5am Thursday. I Plan to outside and watch the sunrise. May as well start putting this early riser thing to some use. But It looks like the lightworkers.org web server transfer isn't going as smooth as our hosts promised us. I jump into it. With between myself, Shine and the support staff we get it sorted. (I hope) I miss the sunrise. Its 11am before we are waiting for the DNS servers around the world to update with the IP of our new server. With baited breath.. we wait and watch and test. Things don't look good. Its 11PM before we finally resolve the issues. But lightworkers.org is back online. I go to sleep. But before I do I set the alarm for 5:30am. And put out the intention. I want to wake up before the alarm. Because in truth I don't think this alarm even works on this clock!!

I wake up. It's still dark outside. I can hear some birds. I fight the urge, sleep, no sleep, sleep wake up. What happens when you knock back your intentions? When you intend and they manifest? Ask and you shall receive right" "MAKE UP YOUR MIND THEN!" I open my eyes, turn on my light.

4am Friday! ARGH! I get up. I'm feeling good. I put on a pot of CHAI. Since Tuesday I've stopped drinking coffe. Which you would think would have the opposite effect. But I'm feeling better. Things are changing. Great I love change. I remember I do. Change means growth. Its time to have some fun. Its time to work with this. More changes are coming. Big changes. You know this, I know this.

5am. This Blgo entry is finished. Time for Chai.

Stay tuned!

Love always

Adeon