as an adult this is so tough now. life is hard. i mean i am so and then sometimes i am sad again. adult life is hard. its responsibility and all this stuff. i mean i am confused and things of this nature. any advice? i mean may be i am an academic and should pursue this to feel my passion for knowledge. may be i dont know i will go to the olympics for horse riding or right my book called reverse knowledge or have children. i dont know. i am scared though.