The Darkness, maybe it is the best friend we ever had.......
Once upon the time there was to lovers that really loved each other. They loved each other more than anything else, they where very alike and came from the same background.
In a way they came from the same family, not to understood that they had a close family-relation, but they had been brought up in the same way, both of them loved to have fun, and to play the same game that all kids like to play, completely without any thoughts of consecvens, in other words, just as kids do, totally without any concern.
And then they took a choice, they both wanted to go true the wall of fire. And they both wanted to give all their help and support to those who had went before them.
Those who had gone up front, to experience all that is. One of them, carried the name of light, the other was darkness. And as you all well know, none of them could exist without the other. They where, like they was created for each other, and they where happy and exited for there achievement in the creation. They where not in any way independent souls, but still they had some kind of identity, a kind of an spiritual creature. They had very clear frames, in their own area. You may also call them, the force of creation, and the force of life. Where one is the creator, and the other the one develop life and consciousness. But after a while, when the humans come to an understanding that it was more in this life, than life it self, they suddenly had to do another job to.
The darkness took the role as the seducer, and as the one that carry all the guilt, for all that the humans are to ashamed to take responsibility for.
But also the one, which are pushing us, the ambitious one,
Who wanted more, who wasn’t satisfied and pleasant with what you got. The one who wanted to expand, to develop and to concur new landscapes.
In a way that human have never even before, darkness are the creative force in every humans life. And in the same time, it is the one that always take the blame, carry all our lies, all of our cheatings, and self-cheathing on its back. And all this without a word. Darkness is also the place you can go if you want to enjoy life, or if you want to do things, that you don't want to be in the light for everyone to se.
I mean darkness is acting as the best friend you can ever find on this earth, and he/she will never tell. One we can always trust, always come to whit whatever we want to share, one we share all our concern (even the darkest ones), our deepest dreams, and our darkest secrets. It will never judge us, never condemns us, instead it will in curries us to realize our dreams, to try new things, to manifest our fantasies, to live true all that we possibly can. In other words, one that will never try to tell us what to do, who always will be there in support to us. And the most beautiful in this, is that. It is only here to support us, even which many of us have believed, including me.....
The darkness can not think for itself. Darkness are a part of the creation, our creation, darkness are what we create it to be......
I believe that is it time, not only to embrace the darkness, our personal darkness. But also really thanks it, thanks it for making it possible for us to have come to this point, to this place that we are today. And that you start to love this darkness, your darkness, your own creation, I mean it is time to move forward, you have to stop judging yourself. That is what you do when you are condemning yourself. When you condemning the darkness, you are condemning your own creation. When you are pushing the responsibility for everything you think is unpleasant, horrible, ugly, disgusting, evil, and dirty on to the darkness, because you do not won’t to live with it. You do not want to be responsible for your own actions; you want to blame it on the devil. I will say you are a coward, instead of being a proud devil, and a proud angel. And this I can say, because I am also a human, but I am god also.....
I can say it because I didn’t want to take the responsibility for my own life and for everything that is around me. Because I was just like mostly all other humans, I did not want to take responsibility for my own divinity, my own creation, why!?!?!??!?
Because it has been, incredibly more pleasant to live in that comfortable reality, where I could put all the responsibility for my own life, on everybody else, a rough childhood, abuse one way or the other, nobody that understood me, I could walk around and blame it on a bad karma, resent life’s, I mean everything that "happened" to me, happened because there was something I was supposed to learn, to become "better", than what I had been in earlier life’s, as again carry the responsibility for everything that have happened to me in this life.
Fucking bullshit...., I have god dam it walked around and blamed everything that is wrong in life, with something I have done in earlier life. I mean, am it legal to be that stupid, and just because I thought that darkness was something dangerous. I mean producing all these excuses not to live here and now, to take responsibility, and
To be in charge of my own life, my own creation......
In other word, stand up for who I am....
I mean it is totally insane, if there should happen to be a haven witch I should go to after my death; I mean they will never allow me to enter. Instead they would have forced me into a kind of a divine mental hospital, after this life on earth. I have lived my life, in total irresponsibility for myself, and not even ones taken into consideration to take responsibility to my own life.
And all this as a consequence misbalanced opinion of the light.
Because what light does, is to take responsibility, for everything else than ourselves.
And the light has really supported me to, by leading me behind the light, and held me there. By pitying me, being overprotecting, instead of protecting, it has thought me to believe in a god out there instead of inside of me. And on top of that the have even told me if I not is following what the say, the good god himself will judge me, and send me on the way to hell.
I shall not believe in myself, I shall believe in him.
As all the time has told me that it wasn’t my failure, the responsibility was on the dark force, the devil, he was the one to blame. And, I said Hallelujah!!!
Who wanted to take me away from my own beautiful darkness, take me away from my own creation, my own reality? And that is.......
I AM
I AM ALSO GOD
I AM ALL THAT IS
I will never again blame the darkness for anything, because than I know, I am condemning myself.
From this moment, I will an authentic being, and authentic in everything I do. His because I know, that in the end, I am only responsible for my own actions and nothing else than that. And not for anyone else.
The only thing I own, is my own, and nobody else’s.
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I AM WHO I AM
JAZIEL
Prince of the North